Saturday, December 03, 2011
Fighting to keep a tight reign on my schedule for exercise this challenging month of December.
Yesterday I had to work both jobs. I made a decision to walk in the morning, which was a good move since I was short on time between jobs.
When I got home at 10 pm we had company. My husband had watched Emily's babies while I worked. Ajax, 2 1/2 and Daisy, 10 months old. He had them in bed sleeping and Em and her hubby were back. They all slept over and in the morning they left for a brunch with artists. (they are artists, too.) So we were babysitting again.
I had planned on getting my walk in sometime today. But I started fretting about how was I going to do it with our responsibilities. I wanted to spend time with the little ones. They live in our city, but I see them about once a week. Not enough. They grow up so fast. My hubby wanted to go to the mall to let them play in the children's area. I thought, oh, no, I want to stay home and walk, but I should go, too. Then it occurred to me that I could leave them with Duane to play, while I took a few laps around the mall. At least I was being flexible. I quickly took a 20 minute walk and then joined them back at the play area. We wandered through the mall for another hour. That didn't really count, but the 20 minute walk was brisk. It was early in the morning so there weren't other shoppers to dodge, making for an easier chance to keep up a good pace.
We ate at the food court and I did like they do on the Biggest Loser...I had Subway. We went home and I waited for a chance to get a longer walk. I was behind on my minutes to reach my goal for the week, since I only exercised 5 days; I was determined to make up for it today.
When I got my opportunity, I hesitated. I felt bad leaving him with the kids again, but he knew how important it was for me and encouraged me to go. He knew I'd be happier if I did it. I'd felt like crying. I get an anxiety when we are babysitting any of our grandkids. I have no idea what I'm anxious about, but it makes me want to feed my face. I kept drinking water and diet soda so I could be putting something in my mouth that didn't have calories. I finally just put on my hoodie and shoes and set my timer and took off walking. The air was brisk, and so was my walk. Walked an hour, and I got over that urge to cry and urge to eat. I now have a pleasant fatigue that comes from exercising in fresh air (which I also feel after taking a swim in cool water) Em's little family has now gone home and I have time to Spark for a while.
My goals for the month are:
1. to increase my daily activity by 10 minutes. I read on the calendar called 31 Days to Healthier Holidays, posted on SP, that 10 minutes of extra intense exercise added to each session of exercise you usually do, can ward off the weight gain associated with the holidays.
2. to treat this like a regular month. I allow one sweet a day usually, and that will continue to help me in navigating through the days I'm exposed to the cookies and candies that are around. Which leads into number
3. I will drastically cut back on the usual baking I do for Christmas. I figure that the reason I bake is out of a sense that I don't want to lose the tradition my grandmother and mother taught me; Christmas isn't Christmas without certain cookies and candies. But I've noticed that the things I find to be meaningful end up in my mouth and around my waist. My kids aren't partial to any of my Christmas favorites that are tradition for me. None of them really eat a whole lot of sugar. (I'm proud of them for that!) So why should I have all these around?! Only I am tempted by them. One tradition I may continue is the cutout sugar cookies, which my daughters and grandchildren like to make in my kitchen on Christmas eve and they all sit around the table and decorate them with sprinkles and frosting. I learned this from my mother. We would make a triple batch and bring out a tray of them for dessert after supper every night before and after Christmas. We made them a couple of weeks before Christmas. Sadly, I have a real weakness for these cookies. My cookie cutters are the big ones, so one cookie has who knows how many calories! Maybe I'll invest in some smaller cutters. My kids would be content if I reduce and make only 1/2 batch. Not too many cookies. Then I can send them home with their families. I'll have to keep a couple though. Christmas wouldn't be Christmas without them!
I don't have a weight loss number in mind. I don't want to stress about that but just focus on getting my exercise and eating my new usual healthier way. The weight loss will come, that's become my attitude now. My work will pay off.
Thursday, December 01, 2011
My problem started with the fact that I didn't exercise last Sunday. I'd decided to go to church, which ate up my morning, and I didn't get up early enough to walk beforehand. Then I had to work all afternoon. When I got home at 7 it was too late to exercise. I won't do it that late, it will keep me awake too late. I know, excuses excuses! It is fine that I took the day off, since I usually work out 7 days a week and a day off once in a while is a good thing. It would've been fine but the next day it was raining, so I didn't go for a walk in the morning. I figured I'd do my DVD in the afternoon after work at 2:30. Well, I got home and found my hubby on the sofa, sick and watching tv in the room I usually do my DVD. I got thrown off and didn't end up doing anything. It was still raining. Didn't go walk in the mall, didn't even think of it. . .felt my hubby needed my company. I also could've done the video in my bedroom, playing it on my computer, but I didn't think about that either. I've never done it there before. I have to learn to think outside the box.
So I had two days without a workout and it made it very hard to get in gear to work out the next day! I made myself do it. Thinking the good feelings would come while I exercised. This time I didn't even get a sense of accomplishment from doing it.
The next day, Wednesday, was a beautiful crisp cold day outside and I put on my winter jacket and happily took off and walked almost an hour. 30 degrees out there and I really enjoyed my walk. I had considered waiting until the afternoon when it warmed up out there, but I'm glad I did it early, because after my morning job, I wouldn't have had enough time to get a good walk in before I had to go to my afternoon job.
I'm getting my momentum back. This morning I woke up to the thought, "yay, I get to go swimming today!" not I "have to" go swimming. I feel victorious. I always worried what would happen if I couldn't exercise for two days in a row. in fact, I rarely take a day off since I'm worried I'll not start again if I take a break.
My eating has stayed on target. The days I didn't exercise I kept to the low end of my calorie range.
Today I had a fun day planned. I met with an old friend for lunch, and after that with another friend for coffee. The lunch went well. I got there early and sat with my iPhone and googled the nutrition info for Panera Bread and figured out what I could eat. I had the Half Caesar for 200 cals, and the broccoli cheddar soup 1 cup, for 200 cals. The French Baguette that came with it was another 150 cals. Turned out to be my "big" meal for the day, but I really enjoyed it. It just meant that I ate 300 cals for dinner.
Tonight I am going to make a plan for the next 31 days, or a few more to get me through the New Year holiday. I need to set some small goals to keep me focused and not be swayed by every sweet or savory treat that passes in front of me. One of my hurdles will be the annual baking day I share with my next door neighbor, in which we each bake 5 or more types of Christmas cookies, and package them up for neighbors. I told him (yes it's a him. He's harmless and a great friend of ours, no threat to my husband and my relationship.) that I'm not eating sweets very much, but he said that's ok, we'd be giving them away anyway. But I told him the problem is that I would have to taste mine to be sure they're good enough to give away, especially if I'm trying any new recipes. I don't know how this is going to go. I'll be sure to solicit support from you all when this date approaches. So, as I said, I need to come up with a plan.
Monday, November 28, 2011
Just having a good day. Got my Christmas cards all written out and ready to mail. I'll hang on to them for a little while. I used to send them the day after Thanksgiving. But that's a little early!
I didn't get to exercise yesterday and today my husband is sick, so he was using the living room where I usually do my DVD. It was rainy today so I didn't get out for a walk. SO I'm having a second day in a row without a workout. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I guess I'll just make up for it over the rest of the week. No reason to get bent out of shape over this. My eating was great today. I woke up this morning and did my weigh-in for the week. Down .5 of a pound. Good news after the holiday weekend. I'm thankful God helped me to eat well and keep exercising all of last week.
Friday, November 25, 2011
There was a special on tv the night before Thanksgiving that was by The Biggest Loser. One of the hints they shared was to get your exercise in the morning before you did anything for the big day. I must have slept on it, cuz when morning came, all I could think about was doing my Jillian Circuit dvd. I had previously decided that my exercise for the day would be to take a walk with whoever would join me after our meal. So I ended up doing both! My daughter, who has commented on my losing weight, and who also doesn't need to lose weight (she said she's been losing lately without trying, she wants to exercise so she doesn't lose muscle. She is a busy mommy of a 2.5 year and 8 month old. Plus she is still nursing her baby.)wanted to walk in the afternoon. We got our husbands to come along, they both like to get exercise. So there's a lot of support for me here.
After my workout in the morning, and just after my first wave of company arrived, I felt like opening the fridge and forage for something to chew on. I get a trigger response to having company that includes munching, probably to distract myself from the stress I used to feel whenever there's extra people in the house. I've gotten better and it doesn't always surface when people are around. I'm not sure why it happens, it's not like these were strangers. I think it happens most when little kids are around, because they are not within my control. I have to leave most of the intervention to their mothers, and I don't always think they handle things the way I would, or did when I was parenting them. I like to be in control, and I think eating is my defense mechanism when I can't be.
But, I caught myself before I grabbed food. I had a diet soda and got involved with my company. Victory!
I have never done what I did on Thanksgiving this year. . .I actually planned the meal and did almost all the cooking and food prep! I've been in bad shape this time of year through the years due to bipolar. So we've always either ended up at my mother-in-law's or we'd go out to eat or the last three years my daughters and daughter-in-law put together the meal together. I wasn't involved at all. Oh maybe I set the table. . . SO this year was a first. I've been well the past 6 years and have observed preparations, and have hosted a few snacky type gatherings, on Christmas eve and New Year's eve. But not a whole big meal. My daughter did the sweet potatoes, my son mashed the potatoes and my son-in-law peeled Emily's sweet potatoes. That's all they did. (My other children were out of town this year) I didn't want other help. I think I wanted to prove to myself and to everyone else that I'm doing well and that I CAN DO IT!
SparkPeople has empowered me to take on challenges such as this. PLus I wanted to know what all the ingredients were in everything I ate so I could make wise choices. If you're the one cooking, you won't make anyone feel bad if you don't taste everything or take seconds! No pressure!
I ate just under 600 calories.This is my usual intake for the biggest meal of my day, so that was perfect. It helped that I loaded my plate with veggies, raw ones, not the famous green bean salad, which I didn't even produce. And I was satisfied and so proud of myself. I think the two pounds I'd lost on Monday fueled my fire to stay on track. I'm ready to tackle the Holiday season after this.
I'm not eating leftovers, I've never been into that. Well, maybe stuffing and mashed potatoes and cranberries used to attract me, but I don't want to do it this year. I will clean up the cranberries this time because I made sugar free ones that are yummy and only 25 calories for a serving.
I didn't stress through the rest of the day. I felt calm and relaxed and enjoyed my family, especially the little ones. It was miraculous! That's what I'm most thankful for this thanksgiving. I felt a deep down satisfaction for a job well done. A satisfaction I never remembered having before!
I hope you all had a successful holiday and I wish for you continued success the rest of the holiday season.
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