Sunday, October 20, 2013
This blog isnít about anything new. Itís a theme that we see in other peopleís blogs. You have definitely seen this in my writing, because for me this is a pattern I repeat. I think Iíve made progress toward getting my thought patterns to improve. I just want to share with you how this episode played out.
Yesterday Iíd begun anew to be on track. Good day. I was on track. This morning before getting out of bed I was excited, thinking about all the great options I have for exercise. Lots of DVDs to choose from, upstairs I have a bike and a new elliptical. Weights, too. Outdoors I can walk or take a ride on my new bike. Sometimes I get overwhelmed with all the choices, and never settle on anything. But today was different. I was sure I was going to do something.
When I got up I put on my workout clothes, still feeling great. Then I caught sight of my mirror. You know how your eyes zero in on your problem area. All I saw was a big belly. I groaned internally and felt defeated.
Instead of reaching for my mental affirmations, I reached out to my wise, understanding and patient hubby. What would I do without him? He so often has to help me through all the mental torture I put myself through. He is awesome at it.
Here are some elements of our discussion. My self-critical mindset has been with me for 40 years, and Iím definitely having a hard time changing it. I can psych myself up, talk the talk and walk the walk for a time and then regress. We discussed how Iím not having the right motivation to exercise. The choice to exercise in order to look good to other people isnít working for me. I easily get off track. Sometimes I donít care what others think, and then I donít feel the urge to better myself. So I donít exercise or eat well.
He mentioned reasons to exercise that are more productive. Do it because it feels good. Do it for my mental health . . . Iím happier if I work out. Do it because it makes me feel strong . . . especially how it helps me not have back pain. He reminded me also that I should feel good about taking care of my heart, and overall health.
He ended by reminding me that exercise should be a regular part of my daily routine like brushing my teeth. Be committed to it and not let other activities crowd it out. If Iím too busy to workout, I am too busy.
As I said, none of this discussion I had with him was new to me. I have to hear it again and again. I just wish it would click. I get my mindset steered in the right direction and within days forget all these good thoughts. They dissolve and Iím back at square one. For now Iím on the upswing.
I went and did my new Jillian Killer Abs DVD. Got it a month ago and finally tried it. I did this because I wanted to. Not for other people but for me. It was a good workout! Iíve had a good food day, right on target. Iím going to fit better in my swimsuit in no time.
Saturday, October 19, 2013
(Couldn't turn the photo, sorry!)
These are the two sweeties that stayed with us overnight last night and the next photo is of the two sweet grand kids we get to visit in Hawaii in November.
Our trip starts in 17 days and yesterday I tried on my swimsuit and it fits a little snug around the middle. I now have a motivation to buckle down and lose a few pounds and tighten up my abs within the next couple of weeks.
I CAN DO IT! WooHoo!
Hope you all have an excellent weekend!
Friday, October 18, 2013
ďWe all eat, and it would be a waste of opportunity to eat badly.Ē ĖAnna Thomas
I had a bump yesterday. I didnít eat wisely. I missed the opportunity to nourish myself. The food I ate was not nourishing. I may have been feeding the emotional appetite, but not the appetite of my body.
Start fresh today. Resetting my mind. Itís a clear day out there and I plan on a nice walk. (A gentle walk, just around the block to strengthen my ankle. It feels really good. It was a mild sprain and the chiropractor really helped it heal quickly.)
I have grandchildren coming for an overnighter tonight. I was with them all day yesterday without feeling like it was stressful. But I hadnít had enough calories and nourishment by the afternoon and chose a convenient snack of my favorite candy bar. Not just the regular size, but the king size. This led to more snacking and a binge.
I am not saying that we need any forgiveness from God for our poor eating, but we canhave new beginnings and we can forgive ourselves and move on. I am reminded in my mind about a song I used to sing at church that hints at this. Donít remember the name, but itís from the book of Lamentations in the Bible.
ďBecause of the Lordís great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, ďThe Lord is my portion; therefore I will hope in him.ĒĒ
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
A year ago I sprained my ankle. It's been not perfectly healed up yet. Today I had a major setback.
You know how it is when you are walking along the sidewalk and you come to a driveway where the car is parked so it's sticking out over the path, right in the way? And there is an area right where the sidewalk connects to the driveway having a triangular area of grass? Don't step in the grass. I learned my lesson. Usually I step over it and stay on the concrete, but this car was too close, so I had to step onto the grass. I found myself having a sudden rolling of my ankle because though the grass was pretty and nicely cut, there was an invisible hole under it.
I had walked 4 miles already and was a mile from home. I had no choice but to hobble home. That was the longest mile ever. So I walked 5 miles today. Big deal.
Now it's RICE for me. I'm okay with the ice and elevation part of the equation. I'm doing that right now. Rest is easy for the moment, but I have a hard time not being on my feet. I have been having a hard time being motivated to exercise, and today I finally felt motivated to get moving and get back on track. I'll need to convert that energy to chair workouts from SP videos. And if you have any suggestions on exercises that don't add stress to an ankle, please add them on the comments below.
I've got the windows open, it's 70 out. The birds are chirping. I've got my friends on SparkPeople, and a nice large bottle of ice water. I'm charging my phone so I don't have to be lonely.
C'est la vie!
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