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We All Eat

Friday, October 18, 2013

“We all eat, and it would be a waste of opportunity to eat badly.” –Anna Thomas

I had a bump yesterday. I didn’t eat wisely. I missed the opportunity to nourish myself. The food I ate was not nourishing. I may have been feeding the emotional appetite, but not the appetite of my body.

Start fresh today. Resetting my mind. It’s a clear day out there and I plan on a nice walk. (A gentle walk, just around the block to strengthen my ankle. It feels really good. It was a mild sprain and the chiropractor really helped it heal quickly.)

I have grandchildren coming for an overnighter tonight. I was with them all day yesterday without feeling like it was stressful. But I hadn’t had enough calories and nourishment by the afternoon and chose a convenient snack of my favorite candy bar. Not just the regular size, but the king size. This led to more snacking and a binge.

New day.

I am not saying that we need any forgiveness from God for our poor eating, but we canhave new beginnings and we can forgive ourselves and move on. I am reminded in my mind about a song I used to sing at church that hints at this. Don’t remember the name, but it’s from the book of Lamentations in the Bible.


“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will hope in him.””

  
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KNYAGENYA 10/19/2013 9:15AM

    Today is a new day. Today will be better.

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KANOE10 10/19/2013 7:49AM

    It is a new day and perfect to get back on track. Everyone takes detours on our journey, but the important thing is to keep going down that healthy road. Good for you staying positive!
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TRAVELGRRL 10/18/2013 9:29PM

    New day indeed! I love your attitude!

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CHERYL_ANNE 10/18/2013 7:23PM

    New day... exactly!

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PRESBESS 10/18/2013 2:34PM

    I love the song lyrics. Anything praising the Lord I love. As for you my dear... yesterday is gone, candy bar and all. You are on the right track today.

Press On
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CHRISTASP 10/18/2013 1:17PM

    It could be that God is the only 'person' (power) that does not care about our weight or what we eat but loves us uncondionally, hmm. I guess He (She/ It) would want us to be happy. I think He/She/It would be worried more about our emotions, the type that tend to lead to overeating.


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KELLIEBEAN 10/18/2013 11:50AM

    That is beautiful! Today is a new day, 24 hours to make a change!

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_JODI404 10/18/2013 11:16AM

    I hope you have a great day,and great weekend!

Pushing the RESET button is often a necessary part of this lifestyle change journey!!

As long as you reset, and start again fresh the next day, you are learning more each day and moving forward.

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PENNYSAVER2 10/18/2013 10:57AM

    Thanks for sharing. You have a positive attitude and that is necessary for success.
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C'est La Vie, My Ankle is Sprained

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Not cool.

A year ago I sprained my ankle. It's been not perfectly healed up yet. Today I had a major setback.

You know how it is when you are walking along the sidewalk and you come to a driveway where the car is parked so it's sticking out over the path, right in the way? And there is an area right where the sidewalk connects to the driveway having a triangular area of grass? Don't step in the grass. I learned my lesson. Usually I step over it and stay on the concrete, but this car was too close, so I had to step onto the grass. I found myself having a sudden rolling of my ankle because though the grass was pretty and nicely cut, there was an invisible hole under it.

I had walked 4 miles already and was a mile from home. I had no choice but to hobble home. That was the longest mile ever. So I walked 5 miles today. Big deal.

Now it's RICE for me. I'm okay with the ice and elevation part of the equation. I'm doing that right now. Rest is easy for the moment, but I have a hard time not being on my feet. I have been having a hard time being motivated to exercise, and today I finally felt motivated to get moving and get back on track. I'll need to convert that energy to chair workouts from SP videos. And if you have any suggestions on exercises that don't add stress to an ankle, please add them on the comments below.

I've got the windows open, it's 70 out. The birds are chirping. I've got my friends on SparkPeople, and a nice large bottle of ice water. I'm charging my phone so I don't have to be lonely.

C'est la vie!

  
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LARISSA238 10/18/2013 6:45PM

    *hugs* Feel better soon! i've fallen into those grass traps myself. it's not fun. Spark People has a section for chair exercises, so you can do those while you heal.

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AMANDAJCD 10/17/2013 8:11AM

    Ouch on the ankle! I hope you're feeling some improvement in it by now? Granted, it's only two days later...

I'm one of those who views injury as divine intervention to sit upon my duff (I know, I KNOW!), so I applaud your desire to do the chair workouts! That's awesome :D

Feel better soon!

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THOMASINA57 10/16/2013 3:08PM

    so sorry to hear this! I hope you heal quickly!! emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 10/16/2013 10:45AM

    Yikes! I hope you are ok and it heals quickly.

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KNYAGENYA 10/16/2013 10:45AM

    Yikes! I hope you are ok and it heals quickly.

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KANOE10 10/16/2013 8:36AM

    Sorry about your injury. Good for you staying positive and figuring out exercise.

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POOKASLUAGH 10/16/2013 8:11AM

    Ouch! :( I hope it heals quickly for you!

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TIGER_LILY_613 10/15/2013 11:32PM

    Ouch ! Speedy Recovery ! emoticon

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_JODI404 10/15/2013 10:25PM

    emoticon emoticon Oh no!! So sorry to hear this!!!

This is a bummer! You have an admirable positive attitude though, and that is going to make a great difference in your happiness level.

I'm all too familiar with RICE from double knee injuries! No fun.

I think chair exercises are good. You may be able to do some core where you are lying on the mat such as crunches that don't bear your weight. Push ups from your knees.

I hope you feel better soon and heal quickly.

Sending you healing thoughts & prayers!
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ANNEMAC5 10/15/2013 4:05PM

    Sorry to read about your ankle but you are doing all the right things try not to get too frustrated with yourself and take care

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JULIAINLA 10/15/2013 3:43PM

    I'm very sorry to hear about your re-injury. I keep doing something similar to my lower back. Maybe not worry about exercise too much for the next couple of days. -so it can heal. I do like the idea of some light chair type exercises mentioned, thinking for upper body, arms. In the meantime...hang in there....hope it heals soon... emoticon

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WHYNOTJ1 10/15/2013 3:40PM

    I'm sorry to hear it. I have "loose" ankles that roll very easily, so I know how painful and frustrating it can be. Have you considered deep-water exercise in a pool? There is zero impact, so the most painful part might be getting there.

After many ankle fractures and injuries, I finally gave water exercise a try. I think it saved my life because I could finally exercise without hurting myself. I began in deep water and gradually built enough strength for shallow water. There's more impact there, but definitely not as much as exercising on land.

Lots of athletes are now doing cross-training in the pool--water exercise has changed quite a bit in the last few years. Men and women of all ages participate for a workout that can be adapted to suit most people. There's everything from gentle stretching to aqua boot camp!

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TRAVELGRRL 10/15/2013 3:29PM

    I HATE a fitness injury! It's such a derailment! Well, nothing for it but rest and recup. emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 10/15/2013 3:02PM

    Been where you are - air cast and all.

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Chair videos on SP - and I bet you can adapt other "seated" workouts or, if you can work from the floor, maybe "floor" ones?

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CHRISTASP 10/15/2013 2:14PM

    I'm so sorry!
I think doing the chair exercises is a very good idea.
Wish I had other advice but I hope others can give you good ideas.
Hang in there. Maybe the forced rest will do you good in some way. Time to recover from all the events and maybe connect back with your source / Source.

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BERTAS_JOURNEY 10/15/2013 2:14PM

    Oh no!! So sorry to hear that you have re-injured yourself. I can tell you that the times that I have fallen on my face, have been those nice little hidden holes in the ground. Yep, been there & done that!!!

Happy to report that I've never really injured myself other than I bruise VERY easily, so it usually looks like someone has beat the tar out my leg / thigh / arm.

I hope you get to feeling better soon & make sure that you get plenty of rest.


P.S. Thanks for the goodie.

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LINDA! 10/15/2013 2:12PM

    I sprained my ankle about this time last year too. Sometimes I still feel the pain. However, re-injuring your ankle must hurt like crazy. I am so sorry. emoticon

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Analogy of The Beached Starfish/Struggle For Life

Tuesday, October 15, 2013



A couple of weekends ago hubby took me to the beach. There was this awesome starfish, but it was crawling away from the water. Too often I find myself crawling in the wrong direction. Away from the things I know are helpful for me to have good health. It takes awareness that I'm headed in the wrong direction, then a determination to change and head back toward the foods and exercise that support my health. This starfish needs the ocean to survive. If it recognized what it was doing, would it go the other way? Or die by giving up? My tendency is to give up, though in the long run I make many renewed efforts to stay in the ocean and have a great life. The tide of motivation in my mind goes out, leaving me behind. I struggle to find my way back. Perseverance is the key. I have to remember where true life and health belong in my life.

I am in the struggle mode. Just as the tide has left me behind, it will come back to me. It will sweep over me and refresh me with it's life-giving water. I need to make the effort to head back to greet the tide. The tide if motivation will return.

  
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LARISSA238 10/18/2013 6:43PM

    You can do it! It's hard to get back on the wagon, but it's worth it. Remember all the reasons why you started this journey and use that as motivation.

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KELLIEBEAN 10/15/2013 10:31PM

    That's a great analogy! I'm glad you keep turning back to the ocean and taking care of yourself.

I'm sorry about the ankle! The SP seated workouts are great!

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_JODI404 10/15/2013 10:17PM

    lovely writing Lori! I'm really sorry you are in struggle mode, but life is all about surfing the waves that come our way.

Motivation will come and go, but as you say - perseverance is key!

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JULIAINLA 10/15/2013 4:09PM

    What a great blog about your struggles-comparing your own struggle to the starfish you saw. Very introspective!

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BERTAS_JOURNEY 10/15/2013 12:40PM

    Never thought of it that way. Thanks for sharing.

Just so you know... you aren't alone in heading in the wrong direction. You see that crowd standing beside you?? I'm in that crowd too. Stay strong, maybe if we all shift in one direction, we can turn the crowd around.

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CHRISTASP 10/15/2013 11:44AM

    Interesting comparison... good questions.

I tend to think though that you are not the only one who has a tendency to 'crawl the wrong way'. Most people in this society (the western world I mean) are very tempted to do it. The ocean of health may be behind us but IN FRONT OF us a LOT of temptations are placed.
So it's no ordinary thing to turn around and get back in the water. It is an accomplishment when we do it. And, you've done it before - you know the way! :)

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Whose Voice Do I Listen To?

Monday, October 14, 2013



This is something I found on Facebook today and it applies directly to how I was feeling harassed and confused in my head this morning.

And the fun thing is, I just found out I can select and add photos super easily from my photos on my iPhone without having to first upload them to my laptop.

  
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KNYAGENYA 10/15/2013 8:15AM

    Sometimes it can be really hard to listen to the right voice when the wrong one is so loud.

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CHRISTASP 10/15/2013 4:44AM

    I would call that 'the ego's voice' but I understand perfectly! Good points!

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Reverting to my BPD

Sunday, October 13, 2013

I was lazy and grumpy this morning...too much food yesterday (effects mood) and I'm getting a sore tongue, I'm getting another awful canker sore. I think that's why I overate last night...fear of not getting to eat the things I enjoy while my tongue feels painful for the next week. Wow...pity party...poor me...what a baby that I have to suffer through a week of no crunchy, spicy, and acidic foods. This is what my diet usually consists of. I'm pitying myself that I'll have to live on yogurt, oatmeal, low acid fruits, and soft veggies (cooked, which I'm too lazy to do). I need to get over it and go with the flow.

Because of my laziness, I was still in my nightgown when my hubby peeked his head in from being outside and said," I'm going for a walk" He didn't add "do you want to join me?" I internalized that and after he went out the door, I called him names out loud and felt like hitting something to punish him (the reasoning of a woman with borderline personality disorder, which rarely surfaces in me these days.) I soon calmed down and decided to ask him when he came back if he'd meant that to be an invitation to walk, and I would have liked an invitation. (that decision to voice my thoughts and feelings is a technique I learned from DBT which was a class I took for a whole year to learn coping mechanisms and techniques to deal effectively with the Borderline Personality Disorder, known as BPD.) I had become efficient at using this technique automatically, but this reaction pops up at times when I am having low self-esteem. I see now that this is where I was at since I woke up this morning and yesterday which is when I ate to stuff emotions, which can be part of my BPD.

I can get on top of this and resolve my current issues. A coping mechanism is to write about my feelings. Which I am doing. And to share them, which helps with blogging in place of making a paper journal entry. I will probably also write in my journal today.

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My mood did change for the better while typing, during which hubby came back. I pleasantly asked him how long he walked and if his statement of going on a walk was meant as an invitation. I stopped short of telling him how it made me feel, because I had decided that I didn't really think walking with him in my present mood would have made for a very encouraging walk for him. Sometimes when I'm sad or depressed a walk with him helps lighten my mood, but I can tell that this time I would be lashing out and being critical, which would have brought a lecture from him. Maybe. Never can tell. He usually is so insightful and helpful. He knows me so well and knows how to handle my BPD acting out.

His comments about his half hour walk were that it was very humid and misting out. (I'm doubly glad I didn't go... this weather makes me irritable and cranky if I'm out in it.)

I need to make a plan for my day. Be more decisive. I think I'm on the right track, so I need to get off the computer. Deciding to spend a little time Sparking was the perfect move. Thank you all for being my sounding board!

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LIFEISPURRFECT 10/13/2013 7:41PM

    Great step in recognizing your feelings. I, too, find just writing my emotions down on paper helps my depression so much. emoticon emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 10/13/2013 5:52PM

    BPD can be a pain to deal with but you are making wonderful progress. The fact that you have more good days than bad is proof of this. Keep up the good work.

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KELLIEBEAN 10/13/2013 2:36PM

    You've made a lot of progress recognizing your emotions and giving them a voice, talking to your husband, writing, blogging. You know stuffing emotions gets us in trouble so today is a win!

I'm with Christa... punch something! It's GREAT therapy. emoticon

I took a kickboxing class during a dark time in my life and it felt SO incredible to hit things.

I love seeing how you keep bouncing back!

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LARISSA238 10/13/2013 2:11PM

    I have BPD too, but I'm growing out of it. I have some days when it is bad (like last night.. must be something in the air) but most of the time I don't even notice it. I hope you feel better soon! I hate going BPD on people. *hugs*

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JULIAINLA 10/13/2013 1:31PM

    I relate to how you must felt when he didn't invite/ think of inviting you. I feel women like us need all the sweet , thoughtful gestures we can get to help us through our days. And when we don't get whatever it is we are longing for we feel abandoned , unacknowledged. It probably stems from our childhood of being unfairly treated in our families / maybe abused. So..It's tough navigating through each day of strong ups and downs of emotions. But the key phrase you used is I CAN DO IT. I think you can because you seem to take very good care of yourself...self POSITIVE mothering. We have to make the right choices for ourselves to straighten out the years of emotional neglect. From what I read from you, you doing a GREAT job. You should be very proud of yourself. If you haven't complimented yourself lately , please do. You deserve much praise! Also, you are not a baby for being upset you cant have certain foods..it's natural to want/enjoy certain tastes and flavors.-We're only human. :) emoticon

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CHRISTASP 10/13/2013 12:48PM

    What I want to know is what you did do for exercise today?! Hitting a pillow or a punchbag is a good workout! emoticon emoticon

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GIMPSTER 10/13/2013 11:00AM

    I too have been dealing with a lot of feelings I find unpleasant and annoying. For me, the first step is usually notice what is happening and accepting it, rather than pushing it away and pretending it doesn't exist. After accepting that while I don't want to feel a certain way, I in fact DO. Acceptance is sometimes a battle. Then I find I must deal with whatever is going on. As you have said sometimes the best thing for me is to just put it out there. Say it, give it a voice and then let it go.

I would say you are definitely on the right track. We all have feelings and events and things that sometimes become a maze we have to move through BUT we can deal with all these and NOT let them stop us from moving forward.

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