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Hubby Helps Me Again and Again

Sunday, October 20, 2013

This blog isnít about anything new. Itís a theme that we see in other peopleís blogs. You have definitely seen this in my writing, because for me this is a pattern I repeat. I think Iíve made progress toward getting my thought patterns to improve. I just want to share with you how this episode played out.

Yesterday Iíd begun anew to be on track. Good day. I was on track. This morning before getting out of bed I was excited, thinking about all the great options I have for exercise. Lots of DVDs to choose from, upstairs I have a bike and a new elliptical. Weights, too. Outdoors I can walk or take a ride on my new bike. Sometimes I get overwhelmed with all the choices, and never settle on anything. But today was different. I was sure I was going to do something.

When I got up I put on my workout clothes, still feeling great. Then I caught sight of my mirror. You know how your eyes zero in on your problem area. All I saw was a big belly. I groaned internally and felt defeated.

Instead of reaching for my mental affirmations, I reached out to my wise, understanding and patient hubby. What would I do without him? He so often has to help me through all the mental torture I put myself through. He is awesome at it.

Here are some elements of our discussion. My self-critical mindset has been with me for 40 years, and Iím definitely having a hard time changing it. I can psych myself up, talk the talk and walk the walk for a time and then regress. We discussed how Iím not having the right motivation to exercise. The choice to exercise in order to look good to other people isnít working for me. I easily get off track. Sometimes I donít care what others think, and then I donít feel the urge to better myself. So I donít exercise or eat well.

He mentioned reasons to exercise that are more productive. Do it because it feels good. Do it for my mental health . . . Iím happier if I work out. Do it because it makes me feel strong . . . especially how it helps me not have back pain. He reminded me also that I should feel good about taking care of my heart, and overall health.

He ended by reminding me that exercise should be a regular part of my daily routine like brushing my teeth. Be committed to it and not let other activities crowd it out. If Iím too busy to workout, I am too busy.

As I said, none of this discussion I had with him was new to me. I have to hear it again and again. I just wish it would click. I get my mindset steered in the right direction and within days forget all these good thoughts. They dissolve and Iím back at square one. For now Iím on the upswing.

I went and did my new Jillian Killer Abs DVD. Got it a month ago and finally tried it. I did this because I wanted to. Not for other people but for me. It was a good workout! Iíve had a good food day, right on target. Iím going to fit better in my swimsuit in no time.


  
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KLMEIRING 10/21/2013 5:23PM

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KNYAGENYA 10/21/2013 10:31AM

    What a good hubby!

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KANOE10 10/21/2013 7:31AM

    You have a wonderful husband. Great job on doing your dvd and working to stay motivated.



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CHRISTASP 10/21/2013 7:29AM

    Your husband is very wise and he said all the right things!

I wonder if it could be that when you do exercise, you do too much at once? So you ask too much of your body / motivation? Which would make it harder to start next time. Could you do half of what you usually feel you should do? A quarter? Do other things that you find easier? Settle on doing ONE thing (the same thing) every day for say 1 month or 3 months, like a ten minute walk? And do that 'no matter what'?
So you can have more of a feeling of consistency and contentment.
If you do the same thing every day for a few weeks it becomes a habit, you miss it when you don't do it, AND you develop an image of yourself as someone who exercises daily.

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LARISSA238 10/20/2013 8:51PM

    I'm glad you have such a supportive hubby. I don't know what his mindset is, but he just grunts when I say I'm going for a walk. I think it's because i remind him of what he needs to do. He needs to lose weight to get gastric bypass surgery but he weighs too much for the table. At least I think that's the problem.

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TRAVELGRRL 10/20/2013 8:12PM

    You did it! Maybe one day you will trust YOUR inner voice and not need to rely on your husband's voice!

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CHERYL_ANNE 10/20/2013 8:07PM

    You will get there. I have faith in you. You know you will get there, too. And so what if you have to hear it again and again. It's all good especially if you're doing it. Self-criticism, like emotional eating is something so familiar to us that it is completely foreign to us to consider another way even if that other way is directly in front of us. One day it will click. Until then, your anchor and rock will help you out. That's one of the beautiful parts of marriage!

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FENWAYGIRL18 10/20/2013 7:46PM

    You should always do it for yourself or it doesn't work, don't care how you look to others care how you see yourself in that mirror when your eyes hit that problem area and keep that thought in your head to motivate you.
It's great to have a supportive hubby, I also have one and not sure what I'd do without him, he keeps saying to me I just want you to be happy I love you just the way you are and is always telling me to stop putting myself down it makes him feel bad.
We're lucky to have found great guys, KEEP PUSHING!

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SUEPERWOMAN 10/20/2013 7:19PM

 

Good for you. It's always so wise to seek others out when you know there are areas where your thinking may be faulty. That way you can get pointed in the right direction again. It's great that your husband is your compass, and I hope that us Sparkfriends help, too.

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Motivated

Saturday, October 19, 2013


(Couldn't turn the photo, sorry!)

These are the two sweeties that stayed with us overnight last night and the next photo is of the two sweet grand kids we get to visit in Hawaii in November.



Our trip starts in 17 days and yesterday I tried on my swimsuit and it fits a little snug around the middle. I now have a motivation to buckle down and lose a few pounds and tighten up my abs within the next couple of weeks.

I CAN DO IT! WooHoo!

Hope you all have an excellent weekend!

  
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_JODI404 11/6/2013 9:43PM

    Such cuties!! Hope you are having a fabulous time!!!

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LARISSA238 10/20/2013 8:52PM

    You can do it! Just stick to your plan :)

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KANOE10 10/20/2013 10:28AM

    Great motivation for your trip. Two little cuties. I know you can do it. I am also trying to lose a few pounds around my stomach. We can do it.

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KNYAGENYA 10/20/2013 9:06AM

    How adorable! You can lose that weight in no time.

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LINDA! 10/19/2013 11:24PM

    What cute kiddies. Yes, you have the motivation to get into the suit with gusto. Have a fabulous vacay. emoticon

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ANGGEL40 10/19/2013 9:26PM

    They are so adorable.. emoticon

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TRAVELGRRL 10/19/2013 8:07PM

    What wonderful motivation! AND, you need to be in great shape for chasing those babies around!

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SUEPERWOMAN 10/19/2013 6:48PM

 
You can TOTALLY DO THIS!

Oh my gosh, the babies are so cute. Loved seeing them!~

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KELLIEBEAN 10/19/2013 3:55PM

    I have trouble many times posting pictures too not sure what the issue is.

Adorable! The baby is getting big! If they could just stay little till their Carter's wear out.

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Every morning I do 100 ab contractions while I brush my teeth. Planks are great for tightening things up. You can do it!

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PRESBESS 10/19/2013 3:31PM

    Your grand kids are cuties! I know you will be able to lose the weight. Stay focused and make it happen.
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PEZMOM1 10/19/2013 2:47PM

    Very cute kids. emoticon emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 10/19/2013 2:24PM

    So, so cute!

And yeah for the motivational force of your bathing suit! :D

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CHRISTASP 10/19/2013 2:08PM

    Those two are TOO CUTE!!! Adorable.

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MARPARMC1990 10/19/2013 1:44PM

    you can do it. hang in there.

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We All Eat

Friday, October 18, 2013

ďWe all eat, and it would be a waste of opportunity to eat badly.Ē ĖAnna Thomas

I had a bump yesterday. I didnít eat wisely. I missed the opportunity to nourish myself. The food I ate was not nourishing. I may have been feeding the emotional appetite, but not the appetite of my body.

Start fresh today. Resetting my mind. Itís a clear day out there and I plan on a nice walk. (A gentle walk, just around the block to strengthen my ankle. It feels really good. It was a mild sprain and the chiropractor really helped it heal quickly.)

I have grandchildren coming for an overnighter tonight. I was with them all day yesterday without feeling like it was stressful. But I hadnít had enough calories and nourishment by the afternoon and chose a convenient snack of my favorite candy bar. Not just the regular size, but the king size. This led to more snacking and a binge.

New day.

I am not saying that we need any forgiveness from God for our poor eating, but we canhave new beginnings and we can forgive ourselves and move on. I am reminded in my mind about a song I used to sing at church that hints at this. Donít remember the name, but itís from the book of Lamentations in the Bible.


ďBecause of the Lordís great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, ďThe Lord is my portion; therefore I will hope in him.ĒĒ

  
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KNYAGENYA 10/19/2013 9:15AM

    Today is a new day. Today will be better.

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KANOE10 10/19/2013 7:49AM

    It is a new day and perfect to get back on track. Everyone takes detours on our journey, but the important thing is to keep going down that healthy road. Good for you staying positive!
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TRAVELGRRL 10/18/2013 9:29PM

    New day indeed! I love your attitude!

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CHERYL_ANNE 10/18/2013 7:23PM

    New day... exactly!

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PRESBESS 10/18/2013 2:34PM

    I love the song lyrics. Anything praising the Lord I love. As for you my dear... yesterday is gone, candy bar and all. You are on the right track today.

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CHRISTASP 10/18/2013 1:17PM

    It could be that God is the only 'person' (power) that does not care about our weight or what we eat but loves us uncondionally, hmm. I guess He (She/ It) would want us to be happy. I think He/She/It would be worried more about our emotions, the type that tend to lead to overeating.


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KELLIEBEAN 10/18/2013 11:50AM

    That is beautiful! Today is a new day, 24 hours to make a change!

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_JODI404 10/18/2013 11:16AM

    I hope you have a great day,and great weekend!

Pushing the RESET button is often a necessary part of this lifestyle change journey!!

As long as you reset, and start again fresh the next day, you are learning more each day and moving forward.

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PENNYSAVER2 10/18/2013 10:57AM

    Thanks for sharing. You have a positive attitude and that is necessary for success.
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C'est La Vie, My Ankle is Sprained

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Not cool.

A year ago I sprained my ankle. It's been not perfectly healed up yet. Today I had a major setback.

You know how it is when you are walking along the sidewalk and you come to a driveway where the car is parked so it's sticking out over the path, right in the way? And there is an area right where the sidewalk connects to the driveway having a triangular area of grass? Don't step in the grass. I learned my lesson. Usually I step over it and stay on the concrete, but this car was too close, so I had to step onto the grass. I found myself having a sudden rolling of my ankle because though the grass was pretty and nicely cut, there was an invisible hole under it.

I had walked 4 miles already and was a mile from home. I had no choice but to hobble home. That was the longest mile ever. So I walked 5 miles today. Big deal.

Now it's RICE for me. I'm okay with the ice and elevation part of the equation. I'm doing that right now. Rest is easy for the moment, but I have a hard time not being on my feet. I have been having a hard time being motivated to exercise, and today I finally felt motivated to get moving and get back on track. I'll need to convert that energy to chair workouts from SP videos. And if you have any suggestions on exercises that don't add stress to an ankle, please add them on the comments below.

I've got the windows open, it's 70 out. The birds are chirping. I've got my friends on SparkPeople, and a nice large bottle of ice water. I'm charging my phone so I don't have to be lonely.

C'est la vie!

  
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LARISSA238 10/18/2013 6:45PM

    *hugs* Feel better soon! i've fallen into those grass traps myself. it's not fun. Spark People has a section for chair exercises, so you can do those while you heal.

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AMANDAJCD 10/17/2013 8:11AM

    Ouch on the ankle! I hope you're feeling some improvement in it by now? Granted, it's only two days later...

I'm one of those who views injury as divine intervention to sit upon my duff (I know, I KNOW!), so I applaud your desire to do the chair workouts! That's awesome :D

Feel better soon!

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THOMASINA57 10/16/2013 3:08PM

    so sorry to hear this! I hope you heal quickly!! emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 10/16/2013 10:45AM

    Yikes! I hope you are ok and it heals quickly.

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KNYAGENYA 10/16/2013 10:45AM

    Yikes! I hope you are ok and it heals quickly.

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KANOE10 10/16/2013 8:36AM

    Sorry about your injury. Good for you staying positive and figuring out exercise.

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POOKASLUAGH 10/16/2013 8:11AM

    Ouch! :( I hope it heals quickly for you!

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TIGER_LILY_613 10/15/2013 11:32PM

    Ouch ! Speedy Recovery ! emoticon

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_JODI404 10/15/2013 10:25PM

    emoticon emoticon Oh no!! So sorry to hear this!!!

This is a bummer! You have an admirable positive attitude though, and that is going to make a great difference in your happiness level.

I'm all too familiar with RICE from double knee injuries! No fun.

I think chair exercises are good. You may be able to do some core where you are lying on the mat such as crunches that don't bear your weight. Push ups from your knees.

I hope you feel better soon and heal quickly.

Sending you healing thoughts & prayers!
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ANNEMAC5 10/15/2013 4:05PM

    Sorry to read about your ankle but you are doing all the right things try not to get too frustrated with yourself and take care

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JULIAINLA 10/15/2013 3:43PM

    I'm very sorry to hear about your re-injury. I keep doing something similar to my lower back. Maybe not worry about exercise too much for the next couple of days. -so it can heal. I do like the idea of some light chair type exercises mentioned, thinking for upper body, arms. In the meantime...hang in there....hope it heals soon... emoticon

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WHYNOTJ1 10/15/2013 3:40PM

    I'm sorry to hear it. I have "loose" ankles that roll very easily, so I know how painful and frustrating it can be. Have you considered deep-water exercise in a pool? There is zero impact, so the most painful part might be getting there.

After many ankle fractures and injuries, I finally gave water exercise a try. I think it saved my life because I could finally exercise without hurting myself. I began in deep water and gradually built enough strength for shallow water. There's more impact there, but definitely not as much as exercising on land.

Lots of athletes are now doing cross-training in the pool--water exercise has changed quite a bit in the last few years. Men and women of all ages participate for a workout that can be adapted to suit most people. There's everything from gentle stretching to aqua boot camp!

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TRAVELGRRL 10/15/2013 3:29PM

    I HATE a fitness injury! It's such a derailment! Well, nothing for it but rest and recup. emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 10/15/2013 3:02PM

    Been where you are - air cast and all.

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Chair videos on SP - and I bet you can adapt other "seated" workouts or, if you can work from the floor, maybe "floor" ones?

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CHRISTASP 10/15/2013 2:14PM

    I'm so sorry!
I think doing the chair exercises is a very good idea.
Wish I had other advice but I hope others can give you good ideas.
Hang in there. Maybe the forced rest will do you good in some way. Time to recover from all the events and maybe connect back with your source / Source.

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BERTAS_JOURNEY 10/15/2013 2:14PM

    Oh no!! So sorry to hear that you have re-injured yourself. I can tell you that the times that I have fallen on my face, have been those nice little hidden holes in the ground. Yep, been there & done that!!!

Happy to report that I've never really injured myself other than I bruise VERY easily, so it usually looks like someone has beat the tar out my leg / thigh / arm.

I hope you get to feeling better soon & make sure that you get plenty of rest.


P.S. Thanks for the goodie.

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LINDA! 10/15/2013 2:12PM

    I sprained my ankle about this time last year too. Sometimes I still feel the pain. However, re-injuring your ankle must hurt like crazy. I am so sorry. emoticon

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Analogy of The Beached Starfish/Struggle For Life

Tuesday, October 15, 2013



A couple of weekends ago hubby took me to the beach. There was this awesome starfish, but it was crawling away from the water. Too often I find myself crawling in the wrong direction. Away from the things I know are helpful for me to have good health. It takes awareness that I'm headed in the wrong direction, then a determination to change and head back toward the foods and exercise that support my health. This starfish needs the ocean to survive. If it recognized what it was doing, would it go the other way? Or die by giving up? My tendency is to give up, though in the long run I make many renewed efforts to stay in the ocean and have a great life. The tide of motivation in my mind goes out, leaving me behind. I struggle to find my way back. Perseverance is the key. I have to remember where true life and health belong in my life.

I am in the struggle mode. Just as the tide has left me behind, it will come back to me. It will sweep over me and refresh me with it's life-giving water. I need to make the effort to head back to greet the tide. The tide if motivation will return.

  
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LARISSA238 10/18/2013 6:43PM

    You can do it! It's hard to get back on the wagon, but it's worth it. Remember all the reasons why you started this journey and use that as motivation.

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KELLIEBEAN 10/15/2013 10:31PM

    That's a great analogy! I'm glad you keep turning back to the ocean and taking care of yourself.

I'm sorry about the ankle! The SP seated workouts are great!

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_JODI404 10/15/2013 10:17PM

    lovely writing Lori! I'm really sorry you are in struggle mode, but life is all about surfing the waves that come our way.

Motivation will come and go, but as you say - perseverance is key!

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JULIAINLA 10/15/2013 4:09PM

    What a great blog about your struggles-comparing your own struggle to the starfish you saw. Very introspective!

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BERTAS_JOURNEY 10/15/2013 12:40PM

    Never thought of it that way. Thanks for sharing.

Just so you know... you aren't alone in heading in the wrong direction. You see that crowd standing beside you?? I'm in that crowd too. Stay strong, maybe if we all shift in one direction, we can turn the crowd around.

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CHRISTASP 10/15/2013 11:44AM

    Interesting comparison... good questions.

I tend to think though that you are not the only one who has a tendency to 'crawl the wrong way'. Most people in this society (the western world I mean) are very tempted to do it. The ocean of health may be behind us but IN FRONT OF us a LOT of temptations are placed.
So it's no ordinary thing to turn around and get back in the water. It is an accomplishment when we do it. And, you've done it before - you know the way! :)

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