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It IS Possible to Notice When My Stomach Reaches FULL

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

I had a new experience with eating a meal.

The normal rate of my food intake since I was a child, had been to eat mouthful after mouthful, not taking my time, but taking another bite as soon as I swallow the first bite. Not putting my fork down, or laying the sandwich down between bites. I always finish my food before anyone else at the table. Especially lately when I eat even smaller portions. It doesnít take long to eat at all! But i remain hungry for another half hour after finishing, so I'm mostly tempted to keep eating. I have trained myself to stop because of calorie count, not because of feeling full.

I was, as a child, always rushing to clean my plate before my brothers. Mom and Dad at some point praised me for being the first one done. I continued to strive to be the first finished. I was always a people pleaser. Who doesnít like to hear praise from their parents?

Yesterday, without any pre-planning, I took the first bite and found myself noticing the moment when that first swallow entered my stomach. I didnít take another bite until I felt that actual moment. I thought maybe that is what Iím supposed to have been doing all along, though it never occurred to me. So I continued to eat my whole meal that way. It took much concentration.

My husband asked me if my food was too hot or if I was savoring my food. I said I was savoring it. He finished way before I did, which has never happened in 36 years of marriage. I actually had to stop eating before finishing. I was full!

Iím also a drink guzzler. (Water, milk, etc.) I am interested to see if I can slow myself down with drinking, too. I donít drink alcohol for this reason. I never paced myself and was a binge drinker.

I am interested in continuing to try to eat deliberately again. I forgot about it this morning until it was too late. But I want to try it over and over.

Another thing I want to mention . . . I made it through the long holiday weekend with hubby home and strange eating schedules, with no over-eating or binges! emoticon

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_JODI404 9/13/2013 12:28PM

    Eating slowly and mindfully is a great practice!

It's very funny: my husband may be the world's fastest eater.... and in stark contrast I may possibly be the world's slowest eater!!! And it's not due to any great mindful practice -- it's just how I have always been since childhood too. When we eat out, I get asked -- are you still working on that dish? all the time and I say - yes, I'm just the slowest eater ever. It's funny that Rob may be nearly finished by the time I barely begin a plate.

However slowly I go: I still can eat without the focus of which you speak. This is a great reminder to -- to savor and really enjoy each bite.

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TRAVELGRRL 9/3/2013 7:19PM

    Way to go!!

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PENNYSAVER2 9/3/2013 1:39PM

    I really enjoyed your blog. emoticon

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LARISSA238 9/3/2013 12:17PM

    You rock! Awesome that you made it binge-free! You can do it!

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CHRISTASP 9/3/2013 11:35AM

    Good blog!
Maybe you should ask someone, like your husband, to re-train you by having him praise you for finishing LAST!

I'm reminded of the book "Mindful Eating' by Jan Chozen Bays. I really liked it.

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SHERIO5 9/3/2013 9:27AM


I need to get back to eating slowly. I've always been a fast eater, learned as a child, trying to be like my dad! You are showing me I can relearn this habit!

Enjoy your success!

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BROADBRUSH 9/3/2013 9:22AM

    yes our body knows and tells us all we need to know - trouble is many times we don't listen. you have done well and learned a very valuable lesson. i always say if you are rushed, or upset before a meal - wait a while - take the time to allow your body to re-focus - then sit down and feast with your eyes first, smell the goodness - then pick up your fork.
so glad you had a super weekend.

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SKMINNY 9/3/2013 9:20AM

    Your title got my attention! i have always eaten fast. i am the first one done in my house too... i am going to start eating mindfully instead of wolfing it down.... i do think i will feel better and stop blaming everyone that i overate! thank you thank you! emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 9/3/2013 9:11AM

    Great job! You have really come so far this month.

I have been working on eating more slowly lately. I've always eaten too fast when I'm eating something I really like. It really makes a difference.

I'm so happy for you!


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    Great job! There are many studies showing that this type of eating (at which I am terrible!) is a great way to lose weight.

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NUTRON3 9/3/2013 8:04AM

    Good job

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KANOE10 9/3/2013 7:58AM

    You are doing great and staying on track after the long weekend. Eating slowly and stopping when you are full is a very good step.


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CHERYLHURT 9/3/2013 7:41AM

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MJREIMERS 9/3/2013 7:39AM

    emoticon As a teacher, I eat most meals in under 15 minutes. I know it's ridiculous, but I only get 30 minutes to eat and often it's less than that. I'm still working on slowing down when I eat. Your blog helped! emoticon

I know it won't be easy to undo 20+ years of chowing food down, but I'm going to try! Have a great day!

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NOWORNEVER1982 9/3/2013 7:36AM

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Sugar Reaction. . . Yuck!

Monday, September 02, 2013

Yesterday, after I wrote my poem about my being "on my way" and feeling wiser, I went to the mall with my hubby after a good lunch. There is a dessert that I've eyed up every time I go past a cookie shop. It's a red velvet brownie, cream cheese icing and all. I always told myself not to get it because once I tasted it, I'd be more likely to eat one again.

This time, before I even got into the mall, by calculating my calories for the day, I decided it was ok to get one. So I did. It was very delicious and the texture was perfect. I didn't regret it. It didn't make me crave more sugar, which is unusual. But, in three hours it was supper time. I felt exceedingly hungry by the time our meal was ready. I decided exactly how much I was going to eat. (because I knew if I didn't I'd overcompensate for being so hungry.) I stuck to it.

For four hours following dinner, I felt shaky and edgy. I blame it on the sugar overload I had earlier. I did not like the feeling at all. In the past, this feeling would drive me to eat, maybe even binge! I didn't do either. I poured myself iced coffee with cream, and sat and tried to watch tv with hubby. The only thing that seem to help was distracting myself by scanning through Pinterest. I'm sure it was reaction to sugar, since I hardly eat it anymore. If I do, it is in quite limited amounts.

I didn't eat more. That's a good thing. I also feel like I learned my lesson. Do I really want to do that again? Does the four hour sugar reaction pale in comparison to the few minutes I enjoyed the brownie? I think not.

I hope in the future I will recall this event and be wise in my next decision about this or another sugary choice. To top it off, I'm cranky today. So it is probably more than a four hour reaction. I hope I've really learned my lesson. Sure, I stayed in calorie range, but those empty calories could have been more wisely spent!

I'm reseting my brain. Refreshing in my mind the commitments I've made to myself to eat at the low end of my calorie range, and to keep myself free from binges. I can do it!

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_JODI404 9/2/2013 10:03PM

    Yes YOU CAN do it!!!

I think you will remember this as a lesson learned. I recently did a 30 day reset to reduce my sugar and I loved how much better I felt during that period. It sounds like a classic sugar reaction to me. One thing I try to do now is always split in 1/2 any treat with hubby. Automatically that cuts the "damages" in half and still allows me a treat if I want one here and there occasionally. I find that 1/2 is always more than enough.

You did a great job with staying busy on Pinterest. I've been using that staying busy technique myself and it really does help a lot!

You are doing really great!! When you document these things in blogs, it helps that you can go back to read again too if you are seeing a trend develop. That and your super awesome quotes that I love!

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CASTIRONLADY 9/2/2013 9:08PM

    Sugar rush is for the young. It just makes me jittery too and feeling uncomfortable in my skin. One bite may be fine but the whole thing!

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LARISSA238 9/2/2013 8:04PM

    Congrats on not bingeing! You did a great job! I'm sorry you had such a bad reaction to the sugar, but I'm glad you learned from it. *hugs*

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TRAVELGRRL 9/2/2013 7:51PM

    What a lesson! You really analyzed the treat and its results. As we go on in this journey I think we continue to learn lessons, both big and small. Good job with this one!

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NOWORNEVER1982 9/2/2013 7:07PM

    Great insight! I'm sure a lot of us, as we start eating better, occasionally go through similar situations and I can relate. But, I think you handled the situation like a champion and you should be proud of yourself for it! emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 9/2/2013 5:40PM

    I find that the treats I used to enjoy now make me feel gross. It's great now to look at those foods and remember that gross feeling and turn away.

I'm glad it didn't lead you to overeat! It's a win, a tough one, but a win!


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SHERIO5 9/2/2013 5:04PM

    Not fun! Glad you resisted the urge to overeat...maybe a smaller sized treat, or just a couple of bites could satisfy the craving, and prevent a reaction?

Glad you are on track!

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KANOE10 9/2/2013 3:58PM

    I am the same way..I cannot handle much sugar and stay away from it. You were strong to work through the after effects and to stay away from more sugar. well done.

We are all learning more and more about ourselves.


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OOLALA53 9/2/2013 1:42PM

    Sometimes I wish I had those reactions. Most of the time, I don't. But, things are actually going well. (Personally, I don't mind having some minor urges to eat a bit more. I can ignore them and some sweets are worth that, but I don't like that logy feeling.) I'm getting much better at choosing the items and amounts that I can enjoy without feeling any negative reactions to. The rest of the time, it's not hard to pass things up.
Two things overeaters typically do, and which helped me to put some effort into reversing, is magnifying how good a food will feel and taste, and minimizing how crappy they will feel after eating it at the moment of choice. Go ahead and spend some time now really remembering how you felt AFTER eating the brownie. Briefly imagine yourself in a situation where you might want a sweet, and imagine thinking of wanting to avoid those consequences. It really is worth the few minutes it takes to do this BEFORE you get into the situation.

You are doing so great! I think you are down to the fine-tuning now, aren't you? emoticon

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-KRISTI77- 9/2/2013 12:37PM

    Great job on not overeating later! Off to check out the Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge that was posted in the comments. I feel like SparkPeople is really helping me with mine already, but extra help to drive the point home is never a bad thing.

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THESAME6LBS 9/2/2013 12:01PM

  I know that terrible feeling well. It's a good awareness to have and definitely not worth the feeling.

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CHERYL_ANNE 9/2/2013 11:47AM

Experience is a very good teacher if we allow ourselves to be receptive to the lesson!

Here's to you feeling better~!

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CELEST 9/2/2013 11:41AM

    Well done on not caving. I do get what you are saying about sugar unbalancing you. Now that we have gone on healthy eating, that sugar does BAD things to us. I try to give sugars a wiiiiiddddde birth.

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-AMANDA79- 9/2/2013 11:15AM

    That brownie won't be taunting you anymore when you walk past it! What's that saying? Something about lessons learned hard are learned best?

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NEECOLE09 9/2/2013 11:09AM

    Hello! Have you tried the Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge? I just completed it and it really helped me with my sugar issues. It looks like you have it pretty much under control but if you're interested it is a good challenge team to join!

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KNYAGENYA 9/2/2013 10:54AM

    Wow- sugar can be evil. Good for you for not going overboard. Congrats on not binging. I am so proud of you.

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ONEKIDSMOM 9/2/2013 10:52AM

    I have observed the same reaction in myself when I "justify" certain kinds of treats. I have to work harder to stay on track after the fact, or even to "get back on track" if I don't nip it in the bud. Makes a compulsive eater remember, keep it green, but it's scary as anything... and most times? "Not worth it."

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On My Way

Sunday, September 01, 2013

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As time passes

Iím seeing changes

Healthy changes

In character

In habits

Evolving day by day

Feeling settled

Finally feeling my age

Not older

But wiser

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(This is a poem I wrote myself)

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SHERIO5 9/2/2013 10:21AM

    Beautiful! I'm so happy for you, Lori!

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ANGGEL40 9/1/2013 9:20PM

    emoticon just so touching emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 9/1/2013 6:48PM

    Feeling settled... one of the best "feelings" there is!

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BABY_GIRL69 9/1/2013 6:28PM

    Baby steps...we need to take them daily..

God bless Lorilee!


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_JODI404 9/1/2013 4:36PM

    Awesome!! These changes are so positive.... just wonderful Lori!

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TRAVELGRRL 9/1/2013 3:43PM

    Fantastic! Talk about a Non-Scale Victory! Change is the name of the journey. Congratulations on the changes you've made, and the ones to come. emoticon

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THOMASINA57 9/1/2013 3:32PM

    Beautiful.. aging wisely!! I love it.

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KNYAGENYA 9/1/2013 2:32PM

    I love it.

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ANNEMAC5 9/1/2013 2:31PM

    simple, lovely.

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Binge and Biking Progress

Friday, August 30, 2013

Iíve passed the 4-week (28 days) point in my binge-free streak! Today is day 29 and I am thrilled that things are going so well! Two weeks from now I will be spending almost 2 weeks at my parentsí house. I am looking at this as a challenge. These two weeks prior to the trip, when Iím living in anticipation and excitement and maybe a bit of anxiety of having to face comfort foods, will be the first challenge in not having any binges.

The next phase of my challenge will be the actual trip and visit. One thing that makes it pretty easy not to binge at Mom and Dadís is that they donít keep any food in the house, so I can buy what I want to eat. The only trouble I had last time was when I made the mistake of baking for them. Of course, I ate most of it! There are a few other candy and bakery goodies from my hometown that suck me in whenever I go. But Iím going home more frequently, and they donít have such a pull on me anymore. Last time I was there and indulged, those treats didnít taste as good as I remembered them to taste when I was younger. If I just remember that, I wonít even consider buying them.

About a week after I return from Wisconsin, weíll be heading to Hawaiíi! CANíT WAIT! Will get to meet baby BjÝrn, our youngest grandson. Hubbyís mom is coming with us on the trip. Having her there will help me keep my fingers off the extra helpings. Iím self-conscious eating around her. This may help keep me in line.

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Bike riding is so much more enjoyable and exciting than riding my recumbent bike upstairs. This seems like a better workout. I got the bike on Tuesday night, rode it twice on Wednesday and once yesterday. This morning I took another ride. Loving it all the way! Got MapMyFitness app on the suggestion of KELLIEBEAN. I started at 10 minutes, increased by 5 for the next two rides, and this morning added 5. So Iím up to 20 minutes. I canít believe how pooped I am this morning! It was humid, so maybe that has something to do with it. I am using different muscles than indoors. Once I get my time increased to where I want it, I will increase speed. I carry my phone in my cargo pants leg pocket. The app calls out every mile or so and how long I have been riding, my speed and everything! Love it. It will also do this for my walks, (and runs, but I donít run). Iím finally having fun working out. I used to have fun while swimming, but I didnít like dealing with locker rooms and showers at the Y.

I am so glad I got a bike! It was the least expensive piece of major equipment I have purchased! Hubby said maybe weíll get a bike rack soon. Iíd love to take it to the greenway!

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KNYAGENYA 8/31/2013 9:24AM

    Congrats on being binge free. That is awesome. Keep up the good work. You can do it...I have faith in you.

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TRAVELGRRL 8/30/2013 9:39PM

    Congratulations for staying binge-free! I am really happy for you and know what an accomplishment it is. You sound like you have a good handle on the eating challenges coming up ahead. Way to go for analyzing the strengths and pitfalls of the weeks ahead!

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    biking is being 12 again! I got a bike rack off craigslist for $20 several years ago and use it all the time. Happy trails!

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CHERYL_ANNE 8/30/2013 9:02PM

    Here's to progress in all areas!

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LARISSA238 8/30/2013 8:43PM

    You can do it! Being binge free is awesome! I've fallen short lately and have been bingeing. But I just try again. You are doing an awesome job and I'm proud of you! Biking is great low impact exercise... keep it up!

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SHERIO5 8/30/2013 8:01PM

    You sound prepared for your trips! Planning is a great idea!

I'm glad you are enjoying your bike, it makes me want to pump up my tires and go! It's too hot right now, and my hand and arm are still healing anyway...but soon!

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ANGGEL40 8/30/2013 4:23PM

    Yay good for you..it's good to have fun working out and enjoying it as well..Good Job! Enjoy your trip and thanks for sharing! emoticon

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THOMASINA57 8/30/2013 3:54PM

    emoticon Way to go!!! You are doing so well and I loved your blog. It is so inspiring. I never did get around to riding my road bike this summer and your blog makes me wish I had..

Good luck on your visit with your parents and the trip to Hawaii sounds like a lot of fun! emoticon

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CHRISTASP 8/30/2013 3:24PM

    Reading about your biking experiences makes me smile. Taking bike rides is my go-to form of exercise (with a foot injury I can't walk or dance or run much). I love being out there in nature, or ride through town and look at all the trees, the houses. It helps me clear my head.
Indeed riding outside is much more fun than riding a recumbent bike. (Though on a recumbent bike, you get to READ! lol).
I'm wishing you the best of luck with your eating while away. No one and nothing can take away the progress you've made so far, that's certain!

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My New Ride

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

This is a picture I couldn't resist sharing with you all. This is my 2.5 year-old granddaughter Daisy. She was so excited to get to pick a PINK flower from my garden, roots and all!

I woke up with an extra bounce in my step. As soon as possible I went outside and jumped on my brand spanking new bike!

I didn't have to order it after all. We remembered there was another Academy Sports store another 15 minutes up the highway. So at 7 last night we called them and they had one! I was able to get the color that I wanted, which of course will make it a better bike, haha!

I took a 10 minute ride around the neighborhood. 10 minutes was all I had before I had to leave for my daughter's. But 10 minutes got me out of breath. It's a 6 speed bike and I pushed myself to use higher gears. I LOVE IT! Makes me feel like a kid again!

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CASTIRONLADY 8/29/2013 10:12PM

    Cutest of all granddaughters. Nice wheels. All the old Harley dudes say "Anything on two!". God bless.

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PMRUNNER 8/29/2013 8:24PM

    Yay! Love the picture of your granddaughter, she is about my Elizabeth's age. Love the bike too. I am happy we are a one car family again and I am able to bike commute daily. Enjoy your bike!

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TRAVELGRRL 8/29/2013 8:01PM

    Granddaughter is a doll! How cute. Love your bike, too!

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SHERIO5 8/29/2013 9:27AM


Don't forget your helmet! Have fun!

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KANOE10 8/29/2013 7:28AM

    How fun to get a new bike,. I like the ones with the lower number of gears. Your granddaughter is adorable! Have a great day

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    Woo hoo!!! So excited for you! Such a sweet picture of your granddaughter, too!

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_JODI404 8/28/2013 9:38PM

    emoticon emoticon YaY!!! So happy you got your bike!!!

It does make you feel like a kid again! I love it!!!

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I know you will have fun & it is great fitness!

LOVE the pic of Daisy, and LOVE her name too!

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ANNEMAC5 8/28/2013 9:17PM

    Adorable little lady :)

You sound so excited about your bike. It looks really smart and I love the colour looks like you will be having lots of fun as well as keeping healthy

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ANGGEL40 8/28/2013 6:26PM

    Awww..your granddaughter is so cute..cool bike, love the color..so glad you got the one you wanted..enjoy your new ride!

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KNYAGENYA 8/28/2013 6:23PM

    I love it! The color is great. You are going to love cycling. We can be cycle buddies!

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CHRISTASP 8/28/2013 4:37PM

    What a gorgeous, gorgeous picture of your granddaughter! 'Too' cute!

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KELLIEBEAN 8/28/2013 3:33PM

    I love it. What a great color! I downloaded the Map My Fitness app on my phone and it keeps track of my bicycle miles as I ride as well as my miles whe I run!

Your granddaughter is so sweet!


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CHERYL_ANNE 8/28/2013 2:53PM

    Having a color you want in something you desire automatically makes it better!

Congratulations on your wheels.

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PICKIE98 8/28/2013 2:43PM

    Pretty snazzy! I love the color! Polish that helmet and rack up the miles!

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