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Just Touching Base

Monday, August 26, 2013

It was a busy weekend. Whew! Not enough hours in the day. Definitely no time to eat out of boredom. I've had two weeks I've eaten a little than lower calories than my allowance, so to make sure I didn't lose ground with keeping a good metabolism, I had a day of more calories. I ate good for me foods, so it wasn't a time to fill up on goodies. No weight fluctuation involved. I got right back to business the next day, and today is off to a great start. I also got past a 24 hour period that we were taking care of the grandchildren. I am so proud of myself that I am finding I no longer stress out over having company in the house. It has allowed me to stop the stress-eating that almost all of the time accompanied having guests. I really can hardly believe it. ]

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I ended up hardly exercising last week. I was feeling a little bad about that, but decided to just not worry about it. I was actually motivated to go out and walk this morning. When I got out there and checked the Weather Channel on my iPhone, I saw it was 55 degrees at 8:00! I took a 5K walk, and the temp only went up to 60. I am so glad I did that walk. It's made me feel good all day. After I got home and hydrated, I waited to absorb the water and proceeded to do 10 min of intense ST. I'd only done ST once last week and I'd like to be doing twice a week. Whenever I ST, I love it, but I have a hard time remembering that so I put it off. It's only 10 minutes for pete's sake! Anyone can do that!

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I'm going to buy a bicycle. I haven't had one in 2 1/2 decades, so I think it's time to get one. I always loved to ride when I was young. It has been so nice out lately that it makes me want to ride and feel the wind in my hair. Though nowadays you have to wear a helmet, so it's probably not going to feel the same. Well, I can feel the wind in my face anyway!


Not much going on in my brain. I just felt like writing, so out came a rambling blog!
Have a great week!

Oh, I also am happy I made it past the 25th day binge free. No urges to binge in all that time! I can hardly believe it!

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ANGGEL40 8/27/2013 10:32AM

    emoticon binge free for 25 days, this is wonderful...I hope you have fun with your new bike..thanks for sharing..Have a Awesome week! emoticon

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KNYAGENYA 8/27/2013 8:52AM

    Congrats! That is so awesome. I can't wait to see your blog about your new bike.

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KANOE10 8/27/2013 7:13AM

    Great job on 25 days. Also it is nice that you have figured out how to entertain people without being stressed! It sounds like you are having a very good week.
I like the cool walks also.

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_JODI404 8/26/2013 11:29PM

    emoticon on 25 binge free days!!!

You are doing a fantastic job Lori!! So proud of you, and I don't think this is temporary either... I believe you have really resolved some old issues with successful new ways to handle them and you are do it with ease it seems -- ie : having company over several times now!

Your walk this morning sounds lovely.

I didn't get to ride my 1 yr old (then) bike at all last year due to hubby's work schedule, weather, and my 4 month wrist injury. I'm really hoping to get some riding in soon -- especially Labor Day holiday.

You are doing great! Hope you have a fantastic week!


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SHERIO5 8/26/2013 9:07PM


I hope you get your bike soon, I got one a couple of years ago. It feels great, even with a helmet!.

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CHERYL_ANNE 8/26/2013 7:34PM

    Thank you for sharing your happiness and joy!

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OOLALA53 8/26/2013 5:53PM

    Kudos on not stress eating with company. And enjoy the binge desire reprieve. Long may it wave!

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KELLIEBEAN 8/26/2013 5:05PM

    I love seeing so many blogs by you now. It makes me smile reading how well you are doing.

I love riding my bicycle! I need to buy a helmet! I wouldn't think of getting on my motorcycle without one. I mainly stay on the paths around my house when I bicycle ride.

Happy day 25!

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CASTIRONLADY 8/26/2013 3:42PM

    Where are you, dear one? It is 85 at 6 am and climbs into the 100s by afternoon. I find myself avoiding the workout place in the garage because 1. it's too hot and 2. I am getting tons of yard work exercise. God bless you and keep up the good work. emoticon

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People Don't All Look at Us and See Our Flaws

Friday, August 23, 2013

Iíve done some reflecting on my sonís comment about me looking healthy and attractive, which I mentioned in a recent blog. It strikes me interesting that I donít consider myself attractive because I see my imperfect, still 15 pounds overweight body when I look in the mirror. I sense that what he may be seeing as healthy is the peace and calm, yet energetic person I have recently become. I am finally feeling at peace because Iím not stressing out over the bondage to food and exercise that Iíve felt for SO long. I am at peace with food and Iím not trying to exercise every spare minute, but allowing myself time to do the things I love the most. Iím taking the mental time I would usually spend thinking about what can I eat next, or fussing at myself for having eaten too much or the wrong thing, or fussing at myself for not exercising, and using it for positive things, like focusing on what Iím doing and really enjoy it as I do it. I am also utilizing the time I normally would spend eating, or foraging for food, to connect with friends, write in my journal or blog and visit with SparkFriends. I am surprised at how much time and effort I used to put into all the negative thinking and activities. So, maybe my son could read my face and demeanor as healthy and attractive.

If he can call me healthy and attractive, and I consider him to be very frank and not say what he doesnít mean, I have no excuse to be so hard on myself. A silly thing kind of triggered this thought today. I was outside at my clientís house today and her neighbor, who drives a Jaguar, said he likes my car. It is a gray 2013 Toyota Corolla. It is new, but it was filthy today. I was embarrassed that he was even looking at my car, yet he, the owner of a sharp Jaguar, saw beauty in my dusty Corolla.

People donít always look and see our flaws. They recognize our beauty. We can do better for ourselves than be so critical of ourselves. Just love ourselves for who we are!

My son, so smart he is, suggested I type my blogs in Word, so I can keep from losing them, as I have done a bunch of times by inadvertently typing the wrong key when I've typed right into the blog entry box. Now I copy and paste from Word and have no more problems!

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CHRISTASP 8/28/2013 4:40PM

    Wonderful blog to read. I wonder just how you made those changes / how they came about?

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    Interesting blog. I think you are right about both things......you are more at peace now and also others just plain notice all the aspects that we dwell on.

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_JODI404 8/24/2013 2:58PM

    Your son is very wise!
He definitely may be seeing as you as attractive and healthy -- seeing the new peaceful and calm, yet energetic person you have recently become.

Instead of spending so much of your time and energy struggling you have learned to stop fighting yourself so much. Let go of fighting your weight and thinking about food and instead, embrace your body, your health and your spirit.
I believe that when you feel good, you canít help but look good.

I LOVE this that you wrote, and totally agree with you!
"People donít always look and see our flaws. They recognize our beauty. We can do better for ourselves than be so critical of ourselves. Just love ourselves for who we are!"

Comment edited on: 8/24/2013 2:59:22 PM

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SHERIO5 8/24/2013 1:19PM

    So, true!

Sometime you may hear that positive attracts positive...I think that seems true. I've notice that when I'm feeling good about myself, I get more compliments. Focusing on enjoying each moment, each person, just being really present, can make me feel more peaceful, happy, and content. It sounds like you've found your own fountain of youth!

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LARISSA238 8/24/2013 12:13PM

    Great insight! we do have to know that people see us for who we are, not the little things that we see that drag us down. You have to get up and over them, and it sounds like you are doing a great job! And once again, you have a wonderful son!

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KNYAGENYA 8/24/2013 9:41AM

    That is a great way to see things. You have a very smart son...then again look who he has as a mother.

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POPSY190 8/24/2013 3:27AM

    I do the copy and paste too for the same reason!
We are often very hard on ourselves and our eyesight is often skewed when it's ourselves we are looking at! emoticon

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LINDA! 8/23/2013 10:17PM

    You have a wise son. emoticon

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ANGGEL40 8/23/2013 7:08PM

    So true... we really are so much more then our flaws..love is the key word..thanks for sharing!

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KELLIEBEAN 8/23/2013 4:34PM

    So true. We are more than our weight and looks. When things start feeling good on the inside, they show on the outside!

We are our own worst critic!

Good job using Word first!

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SUEPERWOMAN 8/23/2013 4:06PM


Lovely. I so agree with you! We tend to be our own worst critics.
To have your son, who is an honest boy, tell you truthfully how you look to the outside world, that is important information to have. You obviously have come a long way and should be celebrating all that you've done. Can you still tweak your journey? I'm sure you can. Yet do it with much love, because you are all you've got, you know?

Love, Ginger

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CAMAEL100 8/23/2013 4:02PM

    I agree. I think we are the ones that see our flaws the most.

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Day 21 Binge Free!

Thursday, August 22, 2013

I am so encouraged that I seem to have turned some kind of corner in my battle against binges. One of the key things lately is that I retrained my brain to seek activities other than eating to fill the spaces in my day when I usually would be in the kitchen looking for food. It's strange, and I think there must be some other factors involved that clicked in my head, but I don't even get urges to binge. I'm hardly having anything sweet, which may stimulate binges, but I'm deciding I don't want the end result that comes from having a little. Why have a little when I know it will lead to more. I don't want to risk it. My goals are more important than having the candy bar or piece of cake.

Two quotes I've mentioned before, but really mean a lot to me, so they are worth sharing again:

Things that matter most must never be at the mercy of things that matter least.ĖĖby Goethe


Discipline is just choosing between what you want now and what you want most.

I think the second one really has empowered me to get out of the bondage to binge eating. To anyone else who now struggles with binges and overeating, THERE IS HOPE!

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POPSY190 8/24/2013 3:39AM

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SUEPERWOMAN 8/23/2013 1:51PM

I congratulate your binge-freedom!
I have also been making such amazing strides this year.
Taking the excess food away has cleared my mind and my intentions for my own life.
It will free me of excess weight, yes, but it is also freeing me of emotional baggage I didn't even know that I had.
I applaud you and I am rooting you on !!

Love, Ginger

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LARISSA238 8/23/2013 12:54PM

    You rock! 21 days is awesome! they say that's how long it takes to develop a new habit. I'm so proud of you!

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CHERYL_ANNE 8/23/2013 9:43AM


Well done you!

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KANOE10 8/23/2013 9:22AM

    That is a wonderful accomplishment. I love the second quote..what is you want now is not always what you want the most!


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SHERIO5 8/23/2013 9:01AM

    This is so wonderful, Lori!

I've heard it takes three weeks to retrain your brain with a good habit..I think you've made it!

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KNYAGENYA 8/23/2013 8:13AM

    Congrats! I am doing a happy dance for you. That is awesome. I knew you could do it.

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SANDICANE 8/22/2013 9:19PM

    I'm happy for you!!! I think when I get back from my vacation, I'm going to "bow off" desserts b/c one does lead to another, or at least WANTING another!!!

Thanks for the 2 sayings...they are great!


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COMPUCATHY 8/22/2013 9:19PM

    So proud of you! Getting binge free is a truly great accomplishment! I'm so glad to see TGIF on the horizon! Hope you have a great weekend planned! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! emoticon emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 8/22/2013 8:41PM

    YAY! This makes me happy.

I can feel your smile while reading this. Here's to a great day 22!


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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 8/22/2013 8:25PM

    That is awesome.

I'm so pleased for you!!!


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_JODI404 8/22/2013 8:23PM

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*CONGRATS*!!!! Lori!! You are doing so well, and I really believe that an important mindset shift has taken place -- and you are really on a good path!!

I LOVE both of these quotes and I'm grateful you shared them again because this time I am going to copy and print them! They are really great! emoticon

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CASTIRONLADY 8/22/2013 8:13PM

    Congratulations, Keep up the good work. emoticon

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OOLALA53 8/22/2013 8:03PM

    Wonderful! I love both quotes and am so glad for your three weeks! It really is a combination of thinking and foods. They work together! emoticon

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WANABHOT2 8/22/2013 7:27PM

  Congrats that's great!

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HAPPYMENOW58 8/22/2013 7:17PM

    Thank you! And hats off to you!

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I Have to Tell You What Wonderful Things My Son Said to Me!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

My 21-year-old son and I have always gotten along. Except of course when we butted heads a few times when he was finding his independence as a teenager. We always made up and hugged. He was the sweet boy who kissed me on the lips nightly before bed, until he was 8 and asked if it was ok if he didnít kiss me like that anymore.

When I was 210 pounds, he was in early elementary school. I used to try to go sit with him for lunch regularly. I was embarrassed because all the other moms were fit and trim (at least those were the ones I focused on), and it was hard to fit at their tables, but I knew how important it was for me to be involved in his school life. I was never able to do this with my older kids, I canít remember why.

One day after school, he and I were talking about his school day. He surprised me by telling me that he was embarrassed to have me with him at school and please donít come any more. So I stopped going to his school except for meetings, and then I was even more self-conscious. If my 6-year-old observed my size was an embarrassment, it gave me more fuel to be ashamed. This was a catalyst of the beginning of my diligence in losing weight.

When I did lose a good bit, my 13-year-old daughter was hugging me, and as she reached around me she exclaimed,Ē my arms can reach all the way around you!Ē That was a revelation to me and really meant a lot. The kids were acting proud of me and my efforts. I was truly making progress!

I continued to lose weight, and I have a few vague recollections of complements from the kids. I knew I had done what I set out to do.

My son, the one I started out talking about, and I have spent hours at coffee shops over the past 4 years. We love to sit and talk. He is a bright insightful young man. (Heís VERY attractive as well! But he doesnít realize it.) He likes to eat healthy and exercise. He is aware of all my current struggles and goals for myself and we discuss the mind games we play with ourselves to help motivate ourselves. Overall, we have very lively discussions. I love him to pieces!

Heís learning to feel confident and have a better self-image. All his life he came across as very confident and cool. But he was insecure. I never realized that until he became an adult! Poor kid! He now has a life-coach who is helping him with all of that. This man is a perfect helper for him; we have seen tremendous growth in him.

Sunday after church, he and I were talking out by my car. He told me something that made me feel really good. Something unexpected. He told me that I look really healthy. That itself was wonderful to hear from him. He added that that really means that I am attractive. Woah! I never thought Iíd hear him say such a thing to ME! He said, ďHealthy is attractive.Ē Iíd rather hear these words instead of, ďYou look like youíve lost weight.Ē I never think of myself as attractive. (Hubby hasnít said it very much through the years.) It doesnít bother me, I donít think Iím ugly, but I almost always think I look like I need to fix my body.

I wish you all could meet my son. He is a gem!

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JULIAINLA 8/22/2013 2:35AM

    What a wonderful story. Thank you for sharing. Made my heart feel good. emoticon emoticon

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SHERIO5 8/21/2013 11:47AM

    Wise man! Healthy is very attractive!

What a blessing!

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KANOE10 8/21/2013 9:58AM

    What a sweet son and I love his Healthy is attractive! That is a great compliment. I also spent my years as a mom of young children being overweight and feeling out of place compared to other mothers. Now we at least be healthy and thin for these young adults.

You are a great mom and have a wonderful son.


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CHRISTASP 8/21/2013 3:33AM

    That is very touching. Your son sounds like a wonderful person.

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ANDYLIN90 8/21/2013 1:49AM

    Sounds like a real "Mom Moment." Good for you; you deserve the compliment!

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TRAVELGRRL 8/20/2013 8:11PM

    What a great guy! How wonderful you have such a good relationship with him.

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LARISSA238 8/20/2013 7:53PM

    Sounds like you are a great mother for raising such a wonderful son!

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SUEPERWOMAN 8/20/2013 7:23PM


What a lovely compliment! You deserve it.

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CHERYL_ANNE 8/20/2013 6:54PM

    Aw! Your son (actually all your children) sound wonderful and are absolutely a credit to you!

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ANGGEL40 8/20/2013 6:54PM

    So sweet..yopu have a wonderful son..and I am sure he thinks the world of you!

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_JODI404 8/20/2013 5:23PM

    He sounds like a true Gem, and that is a wonderful compliment he gave you!

Healthy is very attractive!! Great affirmation!!!

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JUNIORGOLDEN 8/20/2013 5:10PM

    The whole story is just so sweet to my heart! What a blessing your son is to your life!

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SCOTMAMA 8/20/2013 4:49PM

    That was a sweet thing for your son to say, and it came right from his heart. It just shows that kids do notice, and he is appreciative of the changes you have made in yourself.

Hugs, Eve

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POPSY190 8/20/2013 4:43PM

    What a great relationship to have!

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CAMAEL100 8/20/2013 4:30PM

    I love that story. My son is just 10 and we have a pretty good relationship and I would love to think of him going for coffee with me in 10 years time!

Like your son, he can be very observant and can be very complimentary which I always know is genuine as he is equally quick to give 'constructive criticism'! He is often the only one that notices when I get my hair done or some new clothes!

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KNYAGENYA 8/20/2013 4:18PM

    Oh how wonderful! I am so happy for you. Keep up all that good work.

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KELLIEBEAN 8/20/2013 3:59PM

    You are a great mom! What a wonderful compliment!


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We Are Vessels

Sunday, August 18, 2013

This morning as I was listening to Pandora, Piano Solo Radio, which plays mostly works of a sacred nature. I heard, ďHave Thine Own Way LordĒ You know, the one about God being the potter and I am the clay?

Lots of things about our journey in life can be considered while thinking about the words to this song.

I used to make pottery, the pieces you throw on the wheel and fire and glaze in the kiln. I love the process of doing that. It has been 7 years now since I was taking lessons and practicing this wonderful craft.

I made some not so wonderful pieces and many that were quite decent, I have never thrown a single piece away. I was told I was quick to learn and good at it. The expense kept me from continuing. I gave away a few of my better pieces, and kept even more, though to my eyes and touch, I knew every flaw. I was critical of my work, at least I was when I first made these pieces. As the years have passed, each one has become precious and even perfect in my sight. I have learned that though each one has different thicknesses (something professional potters have to be very careful of) and they have differing imperfections, I really no longer look at those. I donít even see them. I love them just the way they are. I love holding them and looking at them. I appreciate the work that I had put into each one. They are perfect just the way they are. I even love the chunkier ones.

As I was thinking about these things, I was simultaneously making parallels in my mind about loving and accepting my bodyís imperfections. Am I fond of it? Do I look at all the work that has gone into making it what it is today? It is strong, healthy and maybe still a little chunky. Do I treasure it? Why would I worry what others think or say about my size, like I used to worry about othersí opinions about my pottery? I like the pottery, which is what really matters, imperfections and all. My body is something that is becoming more precious to me as time goes on and I see a purpose for it.

Our bodies are a vessel. They are containers made for a purpose: to hold or carry something. I have an art studio. In my studio, on the tables, I have many pots Iíve made in assorted shapes and sizes. Each one contains something different. One has a set of markers, others have other types of markers. A couple of them hold paintbrushes. Yet another has pencils and scissors. Some hold balls of yarn. I like them for their individuality. The hard work and thought I put into each one makes it special. I am no longer embarrassed of them, because I see their value. See the parallels?

Keep working hard and love the process, as I loved the process of making pottery. Admire and value the results you are getting. Be proud of your vessel. And donít forget you probably love the individuality of each person you know, without seeing them as a body, but as another human.

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_JODI404 8/20/2013 5:44PM

    Beautifully written blog Lori! Wonderful analogy, and great progress in loving and accepting yourself just as you are! Individual and unique, all with our "flaws" that maybe without such a microscope are not really flaws at all but points of interest and character.


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LAURA747681 8/19/2013 5:20PM

    I love the images of pottery too. What I think about is that clay pots are where God chooses to reside! "We have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us." 2nd Corinthians 4:7.

God could have chosen anywhere and anything to display his power and majesty, and for some reason, He chose US! Imperfect, flawed, easily chipped and broken, to carry His purposes into the world, His healing into the world, His compassion into the world.

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SHERIO5 8/19/2013 10:19AM

    I have always enjoyed the parallels in pottery making to the spiritual life. One of my favorites is that we are vessels made by God, and he chooses to dwell in US, and shines brightest through our cracks!

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POPSY190 8/19/2013 12:58AM

    You are right to be proud of this blog. It expresses ideas and sentiments in a pertinent and telling way.

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CHERYL_ANNE 8/18/2013 6:42PM

Beautifully expressed! I feel blessed that you shared it with us!

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KLMEIRING 8/18/2013 6:41PM

    Thank for sharing!

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TRAVELGRRL 8/18/2013 5:29PM

    What a great analogy! Love it and thank you for sharing it. We really should appreciate our "vessel", since it is the only one we get.

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GOULDSGRANITE 8/18/2013 4:57PM

    Beautiful words! Just to be in the moment, appreciating the words and meaning of the song and to BE present in that minute to translate God's purpose into our own journey !!! Powerful, Strong message. I have thought for years about how I love my friends and family, unconditionally. I do not critisize their size and imperfections. Why on earth do we do that to ourselves? Let us really GET IT now. I can understand it, Can I really believe it and be content, a Potter's perfected vessel? God Bless you for sharing.

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ANGGEL40 8/18/2013 4:41PM

    So true..Well put..thanks for sharing such an Awesome blog!

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KNYAGENYA 8/18/2013 3:23PM

    That is so true!

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JUNIORGOLDEN 8/18/2013 2:13PM

    How nicely written it is! "Keep working hard and love the process..." That is what life is about, and that is what this journey of losing weight, keeping healthy is about Thank you for such beautiful writing and the thoughts in it! emoticon

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ANNEMAC5 8/18/2013 1:59PM

    Nice, very thoughtful. Does us good to reflect on these things

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