Tuesday, August 06, 2013
I've had four successful days, of eating really well and getting a nice amount of exercise. I have lost 1.5 pounds over the last week, and maybe I need to give myself more credit than this, but I keep thinking it's only water weight and normal fluctuations. I won't get too excited until I see a relatively steady downward trend on the scale. I'd really like to lose 10 pounds. There. I put a number out there. Except for in the very beginning, 2 years ago, I haven't set any specific goals for loss, because I feel like weight is a fluid thing, and solid goals are not very useful, only inducing frustration (for me). But I want to have something to strive for. Something that will give me reason to feel good about when I achieve my goal. The initial goal I set a couple of years ago was higher than where I thought I should be at, and wasn't able to have vision for myself to attain. (Plus I gained back a few pounds after meeting my initial goal.)
So, I'm off on a "new" journey. I've decided to have less, woe is me time about my binges and get back down to business. I know I have it in me...I've gone from 210 to 145 before. I can get down there again. Though I call it a new journey, it is really a familiar one and I seem to be picking up a similar mindset and good habits that I employed back when I started losing in 2000.
Here are two quotes that inspire me these days.
"Things that matter most must never be at the mercy of things that matter least." by Goethe.
I particularly love this one, and I don't know the author: "Discipline is just choosing between what you want now and what you want the most."
Monday, August 05, 2013
Don't miss this article on 20 ideas for 60 second healthy habits. They are real pick-me-ups. (Link below)
They include drinking a tall glass of water, taking deep breaths, sitting up straight, doing 1-2 sets of sun salutation (yoga), and making a list of 5 things you are thankful for. One that I have trouble doing is to tell a joke. I think I'll skip that one...I can never remember the punch line. Instead, I'll do the one that suggests smiling, or even follow the suggestion to pay someone a complement...especially a stranger! Check out the list, I'm sure you'll find at least one item you never thought of before.
Another article I read was about the health benefits of yoga. Most of you already know this to be true. I always push away the thought of doing yoga because I don't want to waste the time on a non aerobic activity. After thinking about it, I decided to give it a try this week.
I hope you all have a wonderful day. Get your week off to a great start. Pick one new healthy habit, and do it right now!
Sunday, August 04, 2013
I'm hoping to keep my focus once again over the next 24 hours. I'm taking it one moment at a time. My last 24 hours passed with success. I even did an intense 10 minute ST, non-stop, after neglecting ST for a few weeks. I woke up in the middle of the night with soreness in my stomach and rib cage, chest and arms. That's a good sign that I truly made the mini workout intense, but also a sign that I've neglected having a good core workout for too long. Time to rectify that!
Thank you all for being so encouraging yesterday. It really does make a difference to have others sharing in my journey.
My plan these days is to stay at the bottom of my calorie range. What helps me is to keep a tally of my deficit in calories each day. One time when I was in my 30s, I did that and it really helped me remain focused and driven to make a deficit each day, and see that number increasing each day, aiming for 3500 calorie deficit to equal 1 pound lost. I know that there are many factors in personal differences in how a pound is actually lost and I hope I won't be thrown off track by frustration if I don't lose that pound, but I think I've learned the lesson that it isn't all about the scale. It's been so long since I've lost any weight at all, that I am not really expecting any great losses.
Saturday, August 03, 2013
I am happy to say that for the past 36 hours I have found focus. I wrestled with much effort to get my mind set on renewed efforts at staying within my calorie range, and had a very successful day yesterday. My calorie count was on the low end, and I felt less sleepy during the day. I also ate healthier choices. I didn't realize how off track I was, I only felt fuzzy and aimless. I am better than that. I am strong, I am confident, I am successful...I decided to keep those things in mind.
You all, my dear SparkFriends, have had so much to do with getting myself turned around. I feel like I have my own personal cheering section in life and don't know what I'd do without you!
The funeral lunch went well, my help was much appreciated and I didn't worry about my outfit. I was calm and confident.
I'm really getting excited about the wedding celebration next Saturday...it is going to be a blast. I just found out my brother and his wife will make the drive from Wisconsin to West Virginia to be at the party. WooHoo! I love them so much and don't get to see them often at all. My parents can't make the trip, so it means a lot to my daughter to have someone from my family coming.
A small victory last night and this morning: two of our younger grandkids came to spend the night last night. I didn't fall into the stress eating cycle that usually plagues me when we have company!
Another small victory today: we went out to lunch and I didn't eat potato chips that hubby and I usually share, and I left a quarter of my sandwich.
It feels so good to be able to make healthy decisions!
Thursday, August 01, 2013
I've had a few things happen recently that have effected my focus.
Most recently, 95 year old friend passed away last Monday night. It was a relief to see him no longer in pain. He'd been quite well up to two weeks before his death. Never been on any meds, no heart or cholesterol problems. He had Parkinson's for 40 years and it never was severe. He had macular degeneration, so his sight was almost gone by the end. But up till the end he would play little concerts on his violin. He could play all the oldies, of course. Many of them I knew because my parents played them on the stereo, and most of them I know the words to because of this. He was even singing to us in the hospital a week before he died. "I could've danced all night" was the last song he was singing. And his wife was singing with him.
I have fond memories of him. Tomorrow is the day for final good-byes. I wouldn't be involved except I need to go to the house and have lunch set up for the family for after the funeral. (I'm a sort-of housekeeper/companion) I am invited to stay and eat with them. I don't really want to, but I suppose it would be good to go and be supportive to Shirley, though she is surrounded by family.
I have been off schedule, because I'm not working regular days with her, since she has family around. So I have more idle time. This hasn't helped me stay on track, though the last three days, I got good workouts in. I even got 3 workouts in the past week. So it hasn't totally been a washout.
I went shopping for clothes, looking for something to wear to the wedding reception. My daughter said it is an outdoor picnic, games and food and fireworks affair. We'll be sitting on blankets the ground and probably getting squirted by squirt guns! I am invited to wear "whatever I'm comfortable wearing" I guess I'll go in capris and a bohemian style top. Suits my personality and will be comfy. The top is gauzy and pretty. Sure, I'm the mother of the bride, but it's a party and not a church service! It's taking place in the mountainous countryside in West Virginia. I've met Josh's parents and I am sure his mother will not be dressing up. I am a bit insecure, if you haven't noticed! I thought about wearing a dress, but I can't be getting up and down from the ground chasing after grandkids with a dress. That's just not very practical. I never wear dresses...don't even own one!
My medicine issue (costing me bukus of money for a month's supply) has been resolved. My doctor is getting me off of that medicine. I will be off of it in a month and he has supplied me with samples to get me through the month. If I have any problems with mood swings, he has a backup medicine he can put me on. So far I am doing very well. He did put me on one mg of a medicine that has helped me in the past (it's really cheap) and I think that is making me drowsy in the early afternoons.
As soon as I have lunch, I get super sleepy. I can't do anything but sit in the recliner and nod off for 30 minutes. It has been happening for about a week now, as long as I've been taking this extra pill. I thought at first it had something to do with what I was eating...that maybe that's what caused the sleepiness. I also thought I should make myself go out for a walk (too Hot out). The nap isn't interfering with my sleep at night, I've been sleeping 9 hours. (my usual amount) So maybe I just need a little extra sleep right now.
The napping and binge eating I've been struggling with is reminiscent of the years preceding my all time high weight. I'm fearful that I am getting set up for a repeat of that escalation of weight.
It's a new month, I've binged already. I've got to get my act together. Right now I'm not feeling too kind to myself. It's easy to say that I should just bear with this period of trials, and once things settle down I'll be fine, but do things ever really settle down? There's a trip planned each of the next three months, then comes Thanksgiving, then Christmas, etc. I need to figure how to live life as it's happening. A healthy life!
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