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Off to a Great Start, Having Set a New Goal

Tuesday, August 06, 2013

I've had four successful days, of eating really well and getting a nice amount of exercise. I have lost 1.5 pounds over the last week, and maybe I need to give myself more credit than this, but I keep thinking it's only water weight and normal fluctuations. I won't get too excited until I see a relatively steady downward trend on the scale. I'd really like to lose 10 pounds. There. I put a number out there. Except for in the very beginning, 2 years ago, I haven't set any specific goals for loss, because I feel like weight is a fluid thing, and solid goals are not very useful, only inducing frustration (for me). But I want to have something to strive for. Something that will give me reason to feel good about when I achieve my goal. The initial goal I set a couple of years ago was higher than where I thought I should be at, and wasn't able to have vision for myself to attain. (Plus I gained back a few pounds after meeting my initial goal.)

So, I'm off on a "new" journey. I've decided to have less, woe is me time about my binges and get back down to business. I know I have it in me...I've gone from 210 to 145 before. I can get down there again. Though I call it a new journey, it is really a familiar one and I seem to be picking up a similar mindset and good habits that I employed back when I started losing in 2000.

Here are two quotes that inspire me these days.

"Things that matter most must never be at the mercy of things that matter least." by Goethe.

I particularly love this one, and I don't know the author: "Discipline is just choosing between what you want now and what you want the most."

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KANOE10 8/7/2013 9:22AM

    I love that last quote.. Focus on what you want the most..not the now.

You know you have the strength and the tools to lose what you want..as you have done it before.

Good for you staying motivated and positive.


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ANNEMAC5 8/7/2013 12:13AM

    You seem to be in the right mindset to do this .great job on the streak and weight loss you can do it

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NOWORNEVER1982 8/6/2013 9:43PM

    YAH! emoticon Way to go! Sounds like your figuring out what you need and how to succeed. Well done!

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THOMASINA57 8/6/2013 8:54PM

    You sound completely in control! Way to go..

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SHERIO5 8/6/2013 7:51PM

    I like both of your quotes. You seem motivated, that's HUGE!

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CHERYL_ANNE 8/6/2013 7:26PM

    Go with whatever inspires and just do what it is you gotta do. Break it down into smaller time-frames if that's what you gotta do on occasion.

You got this!

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SANDICANE 8/6/2013 6:51PM

    Hey, way to go!

I'm setting new goals too!


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CATNEU 8/6/2013 5:55PM

    I'll be cheering for you! emoticon

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TRAVELGRRL 8/6/2013 5:54PM

    Finding the "zone", that place where you can (almost) effortlessly do what you need to do is such a blessing! For me it is easier to concentrate on the little things (water, tracking, exercise) because the weight loss MUST follow.

Good job on Day 4, may many more follow!!!

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LARISSA238 8/6/2013 5:50PM

    You can do it! Great quotes! You know we are here for you every step of the way! *hugs*

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_JODI404 8/6/2013 5:11PM

    emoticon on your consecutive successful days, and more importantly on finding a new (but familiar) successful mindset!!

emoticon on losing 1.5 lbs! You are off to a great start!

I personally like having a defined goal. What doesn't work for me is putting an exact timeline on it. (Although that is part of SMART goals!) We each have to learn and know from experience what does and does not work well for us.

I do love inspiring quotes -- I agree --the second one is especially awesome!!

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KNYAGENYA 8/6/2013 4:56PM

    That is great! You will do great.

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Wellness Article I Recommend

Monday, August 05, 2013

Don't miss this article on 20 ideas for 60 second healthy habits. They are real pick-me-ups. (Link below)

They include drinking a tall glass of water, taking deep breaths, sitting up straight, doing 1-2 sets of sun salutation (yoga), and making a list of 5 things you are thankful for. One that I have trouble doing is to tell a joke. I think I'll skip that one...I can never remember the punch line. Instead, I'll do the one that suggests smiling, or even follow the suggestion to pay someone a complement...especially a stranger! Check out the list, I'm sure you'll find at least one item you never thought of before.

Another article I read was about the health benefits of yoga. Most of you already know this to be true. I always push away the thought of doing yoga because I don't want to waste the time on a non aerobic activity. After thinking about it, I decided to give it a try this week.

I hope you all have a wonderful day. Get your week off to a great start. Pick one new healthy habit, and do it right now!


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_JODI404 8/9/2013 1:03PM

    emoticon for sharing, these are great tips!

Hope you have a good weekend ahead!

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KANOE10 8/7/2013 9:24AM

    That is a great article and offers many positive habits. I am not sure I could tell a joke a day either.

Thanks for sharing.

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BABY_GIRL69 8/5/2013 6:34PM

    I do love me some yoga it causes me to pray to the Father. Some people don't do yoga cause they believe it is evil. Since you are saluting the sun and a few other things. I say what the devil meant for evil God turned it around for good!

God bless & thanks for sharing!


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TRAVELGRRL 8/5/2013 6:27PM

    Good for you! Love the link.

I know what you mean about non-aerobic activity...I try to do Pilates twice a week, and OMG! It is such a workout, even though it's just you and a mat.

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KNYAGENYA 8/5/2013 1:10PM

    I have the opportunity to take a yoga class each week and it is the best thing ever. I look forward to it every week and feel so much better after the class. You should give it a try.

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SHERIO5 8/5/2013 12:18PM

    These are all good, especially when trying to get back on track!

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KELLIEBEAN 8/5/2013 11:39AM

    I like this. I noticed I earned points for reading it last year but I cannot remember it. I guess I didn't pay enough attention then.

I just wrote down 10 things I'm grateful for and fixed my posture. It makes a difference.

I will be reviewing this each day. Thanks for sharing that!

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    Thanks for recommending this article... I have already had my big tall glass of water and I'm smiling and complementing everyone I see.. It's a good feeling to spread sunshine !

This is the beginning of a good week!

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My Plan for Focus

Sunday, August 04, 2013

I'm hoping to keep my focus once again over the next 24 hours. I'm taking it one moment at a time. My last 24 hours passed with success. I even did an intense 10 minute ST, non-stop, after neglecting ST for a few weeks. I woke up in the middle of the night with soreness in my stomach and rib cage, chest and arms. That's a good sign that I truly made the mini workout intense, but also a sign that I've neglected having a good core workout for too long. Time to rectify that!

Thank you all for being so encouraging yesterday. It really does make a difference to have others sharing in my journey.

My plan these days is to stay at the bottom of my calorie range. What helps me is to keep a tally of my deficit in calories each day. One time when I was in my 30s, I did that and it really helped me remain focused and driven to make a deficit each day, and see that number increasing each day, aiming for 3500 calorie deficit to equal 1 pound lost. I know that there are many factors in personal differences in how a pound is actually lost and I hope I won't be thrown off track by frustration if I don't lose that pound, but I think I've learned the lesson that it isn't all about the scale. It's been so long since I've lost any weight at all, that I am not really expecting any great losses.

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_JODI404 8/4/2013 11:29PM

    emoticon with the strength training intensity!! I love that "good sore" from a great workout!!

Tracking and consistency are great goals!

Taking it one day at a time is a great plan too!



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SHERIO5 8/4/2013 2:39PM

    One day at a time!

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KNYAGENYA 8/4/2013 2:26PM

    emoticon Take it one day at a time and you will see success! I have faith in you.

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KELLIEBEAN 8/4/2013 11:43AM

    Sometimes when I forget about the scale for two or three days, I'm pleasantly surprised.

We are about more than that number.

Enjoy the day!

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NOWORNEVER1982 8/4/2013 10:57AM

    I like the deficit idea too. It shows you factual evidence of your work. And honestly, anything that keeps you moving forward and treat yourself nicely is worth keeping up right now. Congrats on the ST! Being a sore has always been a motivator for me. Well done, stay strong, you got this!

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TRAVELGRRL 8/4/2013 10:48AM

    I like the idea of keeping track of the deficits. Way to go on the ST! I'm going to work hard to do the Spark ST video while we are on vacation; if I can, it will be a major accomplishment for me. Good luck maintaining your focus today!

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I Believe I've Found Focus

Saturday, August 03, 2013

I am happy to say that for the past 36 hours I have found focus. I wrestled with much effort to get my mind set on renewed efforts at staying within my calorie range, and had a very successful day yesterday. My calorie count was on the low end, and I felt less sleepy during the day. I also ate healthier choices. I didn't realize how off track I was, I only felt fuzzy and aimless. I am better than that. I am strong, I am confident, I am successful...I decided to keep those things in mind.

You all, my dear SparkFriends, have had so much to do with getting myself turned around. I feel like I have my own personal cheering section in life and don't know what I'd do without you!

The funeral lunch went well, my help was much appreciated and I didn't worry about my outfit. I was calm and confident.

I'm really getting excited about the wedding celebration next Saturday...it is going to be a blast. I just found out my brother and his wife will make the drive from Wisconsin to West Virginia to be at the party. WooHoo! I love them so much and don't get to see them often at all. My parents can't make the trip, so it means a lot to my daughter to have someone from my family coming.

A small victory last night and this morning: two of our younger grandkids came to spend the night last night. I didn't fall into the stress eating cycle that usually plagues me when we have company!

Another small victory today: we went out to lunch and I didn't eat potato chips that hubby and I usually share, and I left a quarter of my sandwich.

It feels so good to be able to make healthy decisions!

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_JODI404 8/4/2013 11:24PM

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Yay for a series of victories!! Choice by choice... they really do add up!!

Way to go Lori:

* eating healthier choices!

* feeling strong, confident, and successful! (You GO girl!)

* having company without stress eating!

*saying no to the potato chips! (great job!!)

Glad you are looking forward to the wedding celebration next weekend, and that you will get to see your brother! It sounds like it will be so much fun!

Way to go with those empowering healthy choices!
One choice at a time... you are doing GREAT!!

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KNYAGENYA 8/4/2013 9:07AM

    Look at you go! You rock!

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THOMASINA57 8/3/2013 9:20PM

    You sound so good! Congrats on doing so well and staying focused and dealing with having company!!


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CHERYL_ANNE 8/3/2013 8:44PM

    Here's to healthy decisions!

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TRAVELGRRL 8/3/2013 5:04PM

    Success breeds success! You are on a roll, girl! Keep up the good work. emoticon

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SHERIO5 8/3/2013 2:57PM


You've got your spark back!

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LARISSA238 8/3/2013 2:42PM

    Awesome! You rock! Every victory should be celebrated! *hugs*

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HONEYCAT22000 8/3/2013 1:40PM

    Good for you! This is a victory for you in your journey!

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-DAVE- 8/3/2013 1:12PM

    Your mind seems to be on your side. Good for you.

In Kindness and Warmth,


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Problems With Focus

Thursday, August 01, 2013

I've had a few things happen recently that have effected my focus.

Most recently, 95 year old friend passed away last Monday night. It was a relief to see him no longer in pain. He'd been quite well up to two weeks before his death. Never been on any meds, no heart or cholesterol problems. He had Parkinson's for 40 years and it never was severe. He had macular degeneration, so his sight was almost gone by the end. But up till the end he would play little concerts on his violin. He could play all the oldies, of course. Many of them I knew because my parents played them on the stereo, and most of them I know the words to because of this. He was even singing to us in the hospital a week before he died. "I could've danced all night" was the last song he was singing. And his wife was singing with him.

I have fond memories of him. Tomorrow is the day for final good-byes. I wouldn't be involved except I need to go to the house and have lunch set up for the family for after the funeral. (I'm a sort-of housekeeper/companion) I am invited to stay and eat with them. I don't really want to, but I suppose it would be good to go and be supportive to Shirley, though she is surrounded by family.

I have been off schedule, because I'm not working regular days with her, since she has family around. So I have more idle time. This hasn't helped me stay on track, though the last three days, I got good workouts in. I even got 3 workouts in the past week. So it hasn't totally been a washout.

I went shopping for clothes, looking for something to wear to the wedding reception. My daughter said it is an outdoor picnic, games and food and fireworks affair. We'll be sitting on blankets the ground and probably getting squirted by squirt guns! I am invited to wear "whatever I'm comfortable wearing" I guess I'll go in capris and a bohemian style top. Suits my personality and will be comfy. The top is gauzy and pretty. Sure, I'm the mother of the bride, but it's a party and not a church service! It's taking place in the mountainous countryside in West Virginia. I've met Josh's parents and I am sure his mother will not be dressing up. I am a bit insecure, if you haven't noticed! I thought about wearing a dress, but I can't be getting up and down from the ground chasing after grandkids with a dress. That's just not very practical. I never wear dresses...don't even own one!

My medicine issue (costing me bukus of money for a month's supply) has been resolved. My doctor is getting me off of that medicine. I will be off of it in a month and he has supplied me with samples to get me through the month. If I have any problems with mood swings, he has a backup medicine he can put me on. So far I am doing very well. He did put me on one mg of a medicine that has helped me in the past (it's really cheap) and I think that is making me drowsy in the early afternoons.

As soon as I have lunch, I get super sleepy. I can't do anything but sit in the recliner and nod off for 30 minutes. It has been happening for about a week now, as long as I've been taking this extra pill. I thought at first it had something to do with what I was eating...that maybe that's what caused the sleepiness. I also thought I should make myself go out for a walk (too Hot out). The nap isn't interfering with my sleep at night, I've been sleeping 9 hours. (my usual amount) So maybe I just need a little extra sleep right now.

The napping and binge eating I've been struggling with is reminiscent of the years preceding my all time high weight. I'm fearful that I am getting set up for a repeat of that escalation of weight.

It's a new month, I've binged already. I've got to get my act together. Right now I'm not feeling too kind to myself. It's easy to say that I should just bear with this period of trials, and once things settle down I'll be fine, but do things ever really settle down? There's a trip planned each of the next three months, then comes Thanksgiving, then Christmas, etc. I need to figure how to live life as it's happening. A healthy life!

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_JODI404 8/4/2013 10:08PM


I'm sorry I haven't been able to keep up with commenting on blogs as timely as I would like.

I'm sorry to hear that Shirley's husband passed away, although as you said, it is good that he is no longer in pain. To live to 95 in such good health is amazing! Those memories of singing will be ones to treasure forever!

I think getting in three good workouts during such a trying week is a great accomplishment!

The wedding reception sounds like it will be very fun & comfortable attire will be quite appropriate. It's funny, I am not a "girly girl", and never used to wear dresses. A couple of years ago when visiting Charleston in a massive heat wave, I realized most all of the women were wearing sundresses. They looked cool and comfortable, blowing in the breeze. I took a lesson from them and learned that a dress can be the most lightweight and coolest thing to wear in the heat. I now have several and shocked a lot of people when I first wore them! I think your Capri's and top sound perfect for the occasion, especially with the kids.

Glad to hear that you got your expensive medicine issue resolved. That is just amazing how the price could go up that significantly!!

Don't let fear and anxiety get you really upset. Focus on the present moment! Don't dwell in the past, or invent troubles that you create in your mind about the future.

Figuring out how to lead a healthy lifestyle right in the middle of difficult, stressful times is something all of us have to work to figure out! I don't think it is easy to do, but one choice at a time... break it down into manageable little pieces. Do the best you can. You have a lot of great support here!

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I know you won't give up!! you've come too far to turn back now!!!
We're all rooting for you!!!

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CATNEU 8/2/2013 4:13PM

    Sorry for your loss. Don't be too hard on yourself. Sometimes it helps to think of how you would respond to a friend in your position. Try to be think about some of the positive things that you are able to accomplish right now. Seems like you've accomplished so much!

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SHERIO5 8/2/2013 10:14AM

    I'm sorry you have lost your friend...it sounds as if he was a positive person and bc able to do what he loved until the end..we should all be so blessed.

I can relate to losing focus. I had a nice streak going, for me anyway! The past two days I have fallen into old habits. I wish I had the answer to share!

I think it comes down to wanting long term health over immediate gratification from food, for me. I think if I could find a way to keep that in front of me, all the time, this eating for health would be a cinch.

Please try to be gentle with yourself. You know as well as I do that being hard on yourself is only going to lead you to a binge. Instead, why not focus your attention on being the best friend to your grieving friend, do some exercise, try a new recipe, enjoy your naps! emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 8/2/2013 9:43AM

    I'm sorry about the passing of your friend. Oy, the image of him and his wife singing I Could Have Danced All Night, put me into tears. I love that song and what a beautiful moment that must have been.

The wedding sounds fun and your outfit sounds perfect for the setting. I always WAY overanalyze how to dress for an event. I received an invitation yesterday to my daughter's friend's wedding party. It's a reception at her house after a private cermony and I'm already overthinking what I will wear. She was my second daughter throughout the girls' junior, high school years.

Sorry I'm rambling. I wish you luck with he new med situation. If you need a nap take it then take it one hour at a time from there. Put a binge behind you.

I'm thinking about you!

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KNYAGENYA 8/2/2013 7:33AM

    It looks like you have a lot of stress in your life right now. I like to delve into my hobbies when I am stressed. I have been stressed lately so I have been doing a lot of knitting. I hope everything goes well for the wedding. Enjoy. emoticon

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POPSY190 8/2/2013 1:54AM

    When I want to eat nothing much will stop me - so I try to make it something healthy! I don't always succeed in that (yesterday was a case in point) but it is a small step towards making the overeating less damaging. emoticon

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NOWORNEVER1982 8/1/2013 9:37PM

    So sorry to hear about your friend emoticon Sounds like you're definitely having a rough time but blogging and being nice to yourself is super important in times like these. I've been having a rough time lately too for various reasons and I wish I had the answer to how to treat yourself kinder but just take one day at a time. We all have our ups and downs and just remember, your SP friends are here for you during both of those times. emoticon

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    I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. It sounds like he certainly lived life to the fullest. What an example to learn from! Definitely stay for the meal, you won't regret the few extra minutes and it will mean the world to Shirley!

It sound like you have everything else under control. You're certainly living in the moment, your daughter's wedding sounds like a blast (squirt guns! I love it!!)

And it sounds like your really listening to your body by taking that extra 30 minute nap time.


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TRAVELGRRL 8/1/2013 7:23PM

    Hang in there, and just focus on one thing at a time WHEN it's time.

You should definitely go to the luncheon for Shirley. My mother didn't want to make a big deal out of my Dad's funeral but was unbelievably comforted by everyone who came, sent flowers, cards, had Masses said, etc. It even surprised HER how much it meant to know my Dad was loved and missed.

You've made your decision about what to wear to the wedding, now let it go. To be honest, no one's going to be paying attention to you ANYWAY (um, bride/groom, fireworks, squirt guns?? Everyone's going to be too busy to talk about your choice of clothes!)

Thank goodness you are on new meds! If it means a 30 minute nap, so what? I say enjoy it!

Congrats on getting the workouts in, and tomorrow, try to have carrots or a piece of fruit before you "binge." Sometimes something crunchy for me is all it takes to head off a binge.

Hang in there! emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 8/1/2013 6:56PM

    It sure sounds like you are living a healthy life as it's happening - you're in the moment - and that's a wonderful thing to experience!

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