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My Sweet Grandchildren in Hawaii

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

I'm still trying to figure out how to put photos on my blogs. Bear with me. I'm trying it out with a photo of Ingrid and Bjørn.



  
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CHERYL_ANNE 6/26/2013 10:04AM

    Oh my gosh -- so, so cute!

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SHERIO5 6/26/2013 9:35AM

    Awww, precious!

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KANOE10 6/26/2013 8:36AM

    Cute kids. I am trying to figure out how to put photos in my blogs also.



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_JODI404 6/25/2013 10:58PM

    They are precious ~ great picture!!

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KELLIEBEAN 6/25/2013 10:35PM

    That's the bet thing I've seen all day. So precious!

Congratulations to everyone in your family!

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AALLEY2 6/25/2013 8:30PM

    Adorable! How lucky you are!

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LARISSA238 6/25/2013 8:17PM

    So cute!

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HDHAWK 6/25/2013 8:08PM

    So sweet!

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JUNEAU2010 6/25/2013 7:53PM

    Adorable!

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GINNABOOTS 6/25/2013 7:51PM

    That is precious!

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LORILEEPAGE 6/25/2013 7:30PM

    I did it! Now I have to remember how I did it!

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Affirmations Pages of My Art Journal

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Today I decided to take pictures of two of my art journal pages, to put them in my blog. I just can't figure out how to put pics in my blog! I think I did it one time a long time ago, but I just can't remember how to do it!

I can put them in my photos, so that's what I did. The pictures are so small, I don't think they do justice to my pages. So check out my photos.

How I made the pages: I laid down pieces of masking tape, drew lines over them with washable markers, and lifted the tape. This left a space to write on. Before writing I used water on a brush to swipe across the marker marks and created a watery effect. Then I wrote in the spaces. But before I even lifted the tape, I traced around the outer borders of the marker marks with a red gel pen.

Art was always my way of creating my own space to inhabit. As a kid I was always drawing and coloring. In school I excelled in art. I had a concentration in art in high school. Would've gone on to art college, if I hadn't gotten married at age 18. I did take two night classes before I had kids, just for fun. I always did art with my kids, who turned out to be very artistic, all four of them. But after they were on their own doing projects without my help, I rarely worked on anything other than fiber crafts. Still art in it's own way, I was still working with my hands.

My hubby always encourages me to paint. I like watercolor painting. But I rarely felt inspired, never knowing what to paint. Recently I saw a publication called Art Journaling and it caught my eye. I was getting some ideas of what to try, but didn't do it for over a year. In a book store I came across a couple of books explaining visual journaling. I was hooked and bought my first 5x7 100 page journal. I went for small pages, because large was kind of overwhelming to me. I finished it between February and May. I decided to challenge myself on my second one and bought a large journal. It's going great so far! I really love doing this. It incorporates all sorts of mediums, including writing, which I absolutely adore, and there is absolutely no right or wrong way of doing it.

Writing the affirmations in the spaces is just another way of cementing them into my brain. I tend to go back again and again over my journal pages, re-reading what I wrote.

Try it sometime!

  
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SHERIO5 6/26/2013 9:37AM

    Wow! What a great way to express yourself!

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POPSY190 6/25/2013 8:55PM

    The art journaling sounds wonderful. emoticon

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_JODI404 6/25/2013 4:52PM

    emoticon Your art journaling sounds just perfect for you!!

I'm glad it is helping you, and your affirmations pages look really great!!

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SCOTMAMA 6/25/2013 3:05PM

    It's easier to add photo's to a blog than to add them to your page. As you are typing your blog, when you want a photo, just click on add picture and follow the path.

I will, however, go to your page and see what you've done. It sounds like a wonderful hobby and something you should not push into the background. Use your talent, there are probably lots of ways of using it -- blogging about it will help as you could get some feedback from other people with a like interest. Good Luck!

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Getting Real With Myself

Saturday, June 22, 2013

I am talking to myself right now. Trying to overcome the feelings of self-recrimination I'm having. Feel free to listen in. I'd be encouraged by any comments. Help me love myself better.

I binged today. I am so angry with myself for doing what I did. What's the matter with me!?

I need to think of some affirmations.

I am loved by God.
God loves me in spite of my binge
Jesus forgives me
I am healthy
I am whole
I can stop beating myself up
God wants what's best for me. He wouldn't want me to beat myself up over this, or to be
unkind to myself
I have a family who loves me
I am strong
I have come a long way
I can get past this
I am a loving person
I am kind
I am patient
I have compassion on others, I can be compassionate to myself
I love others
I forgive others freely, I can forgive myself
I am a positive person
I am loyal
I am trustworthy
I have many friends who care about me
My friends wouldn't want me to be so hard on myself
I am learning how to overcome binge eating.
Today was a learning experience
I can break the cycle of binge/purge by not purging with exercise today
I will do what feels healthy.

I feel better. My anger has dissipated. I no longer feel the urge to purge and will just do my usual workout.

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Many of the things I can say here are things I am hearing in my head are things many of you who have commented on my blogs have said to me at one time or another. For these comments I am very grateful.

  
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_JODI404 6/27/2013 9:33PM

    Your list of affirmations is wonderful!! How powerful and awesome!!

It is natural to be upset after a binge you have worked hard to avoid. This is a learning process, and it takes time! Please don't be too hard on yourself. It is NOT an easy thing to overcome, so perfection should definitely not be an expectation.
Do your best... staying positive, and treating yourself with the same loving-kindness that you would to others.

I hope this list will help you, I think it is a GREAT idea that would be really helpful to reference when you may struggle.

I saw this picture on another blog regarding H A L T / binges. You may already be familiar with this, but thought I would include it if it could help at all. (cut/paste to view)

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Cheers to continuous learning, and continuous improvement!

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KANOE10 6/23/2013 11:11AM

    It is good for you to express your emotions. Be compassionate with yourself. We all learn on our journey to health. You are learning to accept yourself and go on. You can do it.

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POPSY190 6/23/2013 3:10AM

    Well done for standing back and assessing what is going on.

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LARISSA238 6/22/2013 9:36PM

    You are all those things on that list and more! Don't let one little slip up throw you off! I'm trying to quit fast food and I've had a couple of slip ups, but I just try and dust myself off and start back at day 1.

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LIFEISPURRFECT 6/22/2013 4:57PM

    You're only human! Be gentle with yourself. The list is a great idea and you should print it out and keep it with you so you can refer to it whenever needed. Don't let one binge define who you are. You are a child of God and that's all that matters. emoticon

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JULIAINLA 6/22/2013 4:24PM

    Wonderful list... re-read it till you realize all is well....life is filled with ups and downs...hope you feel joy again soon...I'm sure its just around the corner...:) emoticon

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SHERIO5 6/22/2013 3:27PM

    Looks like progress to me! I think when we can start treating ourselves as kind as we treat our loved ones, then real healing can come!

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CHICKPEA23 6/22/2013 1:53PM

    It sounds like you've already given yourself forgiveness and a clean slate. It's still a beautiful Saturday, and it's important to be compassionate to yourself, as you mentioned. Every affirmation you listed is true! I hope you are able to enjoy the rest of your day.
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DETERMINEDAPRIL 6/22/2013 1:51PM

    Great job calming yourself down! 1 step back, 2 steps forward! You're only failing if you choose to not get back up :) Hang in there!

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Blueberries!

Friday, June 21, 2013

We are now starting to harvest blueberries! We've had the bushes for 3 years, this is the 4th. Every year so far the birds ate all the berries, but this year my hubby made a mesh cage around them. He calls it a bird cage, since a couple of times a bird has found it's way inside.

Yesterday I picked the first berries. I had a nice handful, off of the five bushes. It's only the beginning, the bushes are full of berries this year.

I ate them all while standing outside, savoring their yumminess. I can't wait to be able to put some on my oatmeal in the morning.

  
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LARISSA238 6/23/2013 5:22PM

    Yay for growing your own food! And yummy food at that!

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PAMNANGEL 6/22/2013 5:12PM

    Mmmm mmmm!

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JULIAINLA 6/22/2013 4:40PM

    That is delightful. I lovvvee blueberries....

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LIVINGFREE19 6/21/2013 10:45PM

    Wonderful!

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_JODI404 6/21/2013 10:36PM

    How awesome!! I love them in pancakes. They are also one of many fruits I use in my smoothies.

ENJOY!!

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KELLIEBEAN 6/21/2013 9:47PM

    That is great. Yumo!

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CHERYL_ANNE 6/21/2013 7:24PM

    Lovely!

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BARCLE 6/21/2013 5:42PM

    emoticon yummy!

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Binges! Help!

Monday, June 17, 2013

I am disheartened by witnessing my last three out of four days and how out of control they have been.

After my binge a few days ago, I fully expected that I could easily get back into the grove of depending on God for strength. Something in me is just fighting the help I could easily receive if I really wanted it. I see myself rebelling.

First, I had said I wouldn't beat myself up over my binge. But I did.
Next, I said I wouldn't purge by exercising like a crazy woman...and that's exactly what I did. On two days.
I also did another thing which perpetuates the binge cycle...I restricted calories (extremely) for two days.

These things all backfired and I ended up binge eating for two days.

UGH!

I have shed tears. I am now coming to you all who have binge problems, especially those of you who have had some or much success overcoming. Does it get easier to pick yourself up and return to normalcy?

I wish my tastebuds would suddenly have an aversion to the taste of sweets. I am even asking for this in my prayers. Or at least to be satisfied with just a few bites.

  
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ANNEMAC5 6/18/2013 1:39AM

    It is always something that can happen we all get bad days but you are doing great by sharing them with us. You can get over this you know what to do. Even when maintaining it can be so difficult it is been mindful forever
Hope to-day is better

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MEDDYPEDDY 6/17/2013 11:57PM

    In my experience bingeing leads to more bingeing, which really should keep me from doing it. Hang in there, you can do it!

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LIVIN2LOVE1 6/17/2013 11:12PM

    I know your pain all too well. I'm sorry to say that I can't help but I stopped by your blog so that I can not feel so alone in the matter. I loved reading through your comments and I hope that something triggers in the two of us so that we can find some peace. The last 6 months have been rough for me and I've put on 15 of the 65 that I lost. I'm finding a balance today (starting yesterday) only because I enlisted the help of my children. There is strength in numbers. Let's stick together. emoticon

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_JODI404 6/17/2013 10:14PM

    Hang in there, this too shall pass!! emoticon emoticon

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LIFEISPURRFECT 6/17/2013 9:01PM

    Everyone has given you some wonderful advice. All I can add is to believe in yourself and that you are a gift of God. Through him you can do anything! emoticon

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SCHUBERTR1 6/17/2013 6:44PM

  it's not what you're eating. It's what's eating you. Binging is often a symptom of not living your truth. What are you really seeking? What do you need to live your authentic life?

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CHERYL_ANNE 6/17/2013 6:09PM

    In your heart of hearts, what is it you're rebelling against and why? What other ways could you have this rebellion that don't involve Emotional Eating?

We all have to re-fuel our bodies every day which means we encounter "Food" which we Emotionally Eat.

Sit down and speak to yourself the way you would someone you loved and forgive yourself. When you're done, put the episode behind you and continue on your way.

You can do this!




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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 6/17/2013 5:14PM

    Hang in there. You are definitely not alone.

We have a whole section about bingeing in the Big Page of Links - maybe some of those resources could be helpful?

http://tinyurl.com/
maintenance-links

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DANIELLESAUTUMN 6/17/2013 5:11PM

    So Sorry you've had a rough time with this. I don't have much experience in that area, but I do know that it sucks. I bet you there was one time in that binging two days that you put something to your lips and thought- I can just stop right now and it wouldn't be all lost. But something else (probably the food) overcame that tiny conscious voice.

Like others said, pick yourself back up. Find out what your triggers are and think really hard on how you can stop them from happening. Either the triggers or your urge to go right to food. Binging doesn't just happen, right? It's fueled by something emotionally or environmentally. You're strong- think it through and it might take some extra diligence the next few weeks to get back on track. And it wont go away forever, this wasn't your last binge I'm sure. But figure out why it's happening- what stops you inside from putting the food down?

I hope you get back on your feet without any problems- good luck! you can do it, just stay strong with yourself! Respect yourself!

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MISSB8604 6/17/2013 4:09PM

    All you can do is the best you can. Try to focus on small things to get yourself back to "normal". You can do it, you're supported.

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OOLALA53 6/17/2013 4:07PM

    It goes through stages over the course of a several years. People can go a long time feeling the problems are all over and still relapse. What they do then makes a lot of difference. The urges will usually come back very strong, but if they are resisted, they will quiet down again. Most people don't last long enough to get to the point of binges being infrequent. I think it's because they expect it to get easy too soon. They want the trouble to be over with NOW. That is the exception, not the rule. But it IS worth keeping on. Keep feeding yourself reasonably and resist the urges to overdo,

I don't mean you have to live in fear with no sense of delight in your eating for years. You will have many good times! But just realize that a few good days, weeks, or months of feeling free is just part of the process. Slipping and getting back up (not easy) is part of it, too. Don't give up because it's hard! The alternative is being at the effect of your body's attachment to food forever, most likely. It's worth a few years of ups and downs to get good at negotiating food. It might not ever get to the point at which you don't have to think about it at all, but it won't always be a burden.

Part of the process is learning not to let it overshadow the rest of your day. Have your meals and get into the rest of your life, the mundane and the exciting, the happy and the difficult. The more you make that your habit, the better.

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ROBBIEY 6/17/2013 3:35PM

  Just keep moving and don't give up or in. There is always good days, weeks and years, but keep it moving!!!

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SHERIO5 6/17/2013 3:30PM

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