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I Threw It Out

Friday, May 31, 2013

My neighbor, Bob, likes to bake and deliver goodies to us. Last weekend he brought over a strawberry jello/cool whip pie. I didn't want it. Oh I would eat it if I started a binge with something else. Or I suppose if I tasted it to be able to tell him it was good, I would start binging on it.

After 6 days, I decided I didn't want it in the house anymore. My hubby had eaten a slice when it was fresh, but it sat there and the juices from the strawberries started seeping and it just didn't look appealing at all. So in the end it wasn't hard to throw it out this morning. Down the disposal it went. I felt good about that. Really good. I hadn't even tasted it. What tastes good is the victory!

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SHERIO5 6/1/2013 10:08AM


I can't say I would always be able to do that! But, I try to remind myself that if I'm going to indulge, I am worth the very freshest and my favorite...not some sad, tired leftover!

You are doing so well!

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KANOE10 6/1/2013 9:12AM

    Well done. I throw trigger foods out also. That is a very nice victory for you.
emoticon emoticon At Xmas I put the rest of a pecan pie down the disposal and threw out goodies.


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ANNEMAC5 6/1/2013 1:00AM

    emoticon so hard to throw stuff out

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_JODI404 5/31/2013 9:32PM

    Victory does taste better!! emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 5/31/2013 9:25PM

    You were so good......I would've probably taken it to work or shared it with someone else just to get it out of my house....

God bless,

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BARCLE 5/31/2013 7:28PM


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BJPENNY70 5/31/2013 5:58PM

    You had a victory!!!!!!!!! emoticon

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KEEP_GOING247 5/31/2013 5:02PM

    Good for you! It is such a hard thing to but you have just proved (especially to yourself) how far you have come on this journey. emoticon

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DELLMEL 5/31/2013 5:00PM

  What away to go. But you could just tell him that your are dieting now and if he could hold off on the sweet.

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Description of My Day Eleven Being Binge-Free

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Yesterday I was faced with situations that were dangerous for me. I was exposed to foods that would probably trigger a binge.

First, I went for an oil change. The good thing is that I wasn't even going there thinking of the Krispy Kreme donuts they keep for people who are waiting. FREE. I usually have one or two (I go in the morning while they still have some.) Then I have the mentality of "well I've blown it on calories today, so who cares if I go for everything I desire." Once I was there I saw a man taking a bite out of a donut and was reminded that they were available. I told myself a firm no and forgot about it. That wasn't as hard as it would have been earlier in this binge-free streak.

While I was waiting for the car, I walked over to the nearby Starbucks. I decided on my treat to be a skinny vanilla latte (iced). While I was waiting to be waited on, I saw their sweets display and eyed up the rice krispy bars. That is a rather low calorie choice, I told myself, but shook my head and told myself no. Made my order for my latte and moved on.

After the oil change, I talked a while with the salesman. Got some numbers on a car purchase war were thinking of making later that day. No food problems there, except it got to be 11:30 and I was getting hungry. I had to go to the grocery store and thought i should go home and eat something first.

But I decided I would wait so my lunch wouldn't be so early. I went in the store and the walk from the door to the produce department takes my right through the bakery. I scanned the ad for their sales when coming in and saw that they had a special on pound cakes, so when I was going through the bakery I came right past the table with the cakes on it. I stopped, and spotted the sour cream pound cake and gazed at it, debating with myself if I was going to get it. Thought about how moist it might be. Then I glanced up and took in the sight of all the other goodies and caught myself in the act and asked myself "what are you doing?!!!! WALK AWAY!" I went and got my baby carrots and thanked God for helping me see what I was doing. I made it out of the store with my groceries which included a planned treat. I had seen a few days ago a kind of vanilla biscuit made in Israel, that are 35 calories for two. Just a perfect treat for after a meal. Not heavy on sugar so it doesn't trigger binges for me.

I went home, had a healthy lunch and two biscuits.

Again I had to expose myself to food. After lunch I went to Trader Joes to get my wild blueberries for my oats in the morning. I picked up a few things and the cookies caught my eye, but not for long. I was satisfied from my biscuits. I was full from my lunch.

I managed to get a 45 minute walk before my son asked me to meet him for coffee. I wasn't even tempted by treats.

One more issue came up that day. We were buying a car after we'd eaten at Firehouse Subs. At Firehouse I bought the sandwich as a combo so I could get a bag of chips to take home for some evening with supper. I put them in our truck, which we proceeded to trade in for a car. (YAY! I finally have another corolla...I'd given mine to my son a few years ago, and boy did I miss that car.) When we cleaned out the truck my hubby gave me my chips. I walked around carrying them while we waited for the new car to be prepared for us to take home. I worked hard to not eat them. I was really tempted. I told my hubby that I was struggling to not eat them. That diffused it and I realized that I really didn't want them.

I'm surprised that I'm finding it easier to say no. I am not out of the woods, I know. But I feel if I continue in the prayerful mindset, I will do well. One thing I read recently is to not make such a big deal if you have a hiccup and mess up one day. Feeling like it's so terrible and that it's the end of the world if you blow it only sets you up to perpetuate the cycle of binges/restriction.


Right now I'm happy with my calorie level and exercise routine, and I don't feel so stressed with "OH NO when is it going to happen next?!!" I"m a lot more chill.

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SHERIO5 5/31/2013 7:52AM

    I hope you are feeling really proud! Keep up the great work!

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KANOE10 5/31/2013 7:33AM

    You are doing great resisting your trigger foods and finding healthy substitutes. Good work.! emoticon

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_JODI404 5/30/2013 11:15PM

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Great job Lori ~ avoiding ALL of those various temptations!!

I had a similar day full of temptations recently and I felt so empowered by my ability to stay strong and resist.

You are doing so great!

Happy, less stressed, and more chill = *A*W*E*S*O*M*E*N*E*S*S* !!!!!!!!

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LARISSA238 5/30/2013 10:08PM

    Great job! The longer you go without it, the easier it gets!

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On A Roll

Wednesday, May 29, 2013


I'd become a binge machine, gained some weight, got a few pounds over my maintenance range and I'm on my way back to home plate again.

We all have our beliefs, and mine is one of deep, lifelong trust in God. When I try to do things all on my own, I can find periods when I do great, but I do my best when I ask for strength from God. He is the source of all my help! He is giving me the strength to say no to myself when I start thinking about binge foods. I am happy, I feel freedom from the bondage of binge eating.

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_JODI404 5/29/2013 9:24PM

    emoticon That is wonderful Lori!! emoticon

I'm very happy for you! Keep asking for strength.... emoticon !!

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THOMASINA57 5/29/2013 9:01PM

    This is great!! Day by Day, hour by hour, minute by minute.. you will succeed! emoticon

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LUCINDARW 5/29/2013 12:19PM

    Good for you LoriLee! May the streck continue for you.

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CELEST 5/29/2013 11:15AM

    Good for you plugging into a higher source than yourself. I checked your photo's and my word you've come such a long way....congrats on all your weight loss.

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SHERIO5 5/29/2013 9:48AM

    So happy!

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NUTRON3 5/29/2013 8:57AM

    Keep going!!!

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SLIMMERJESSE 5/29/2013 8:44AM

    Fabulous! Way to go!

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KELLIEBEAN 5/29/2013 8:42AM

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KANOE10 5/29/2013 8:21AM

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Good for you finding the strength to get back on track! You are doing a great job.

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CHERYL_ANNE 5/29/2013 7:53AM

    May your streak continue!

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Strength Over Snacking

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Yesterday I put in my nice little 4 hour workday...which actually got shortened to 3.5 hours. I went to the bank with my check and before I went home I remembered there was a new Amy Grant album I wanted to download onto my iPhone. I tried doing so in the parking lot, but found out my iTunes credit wasn't enough to cover it. I decided to get an iTunes card. I drove over to the Target, next door to the bank. On my way into Target, my mind started automatically thinking about their red velvet, chocolate chip muffins. I had seen them a month ago and have always had a hankering for som. While I was thinking about them (I wasn't even in the store yet) I imagined I'd eat all four of them if I actually bought them. Here's what happened that was different than the way this would normally play out: I quickly asked God for strength to get in and out of Target without any snacks. I also asked for strength to actually forget about having a snack for the rest of the afternoon. This all happened before I even got into the store. I felt so victorious and thankful when I got out of there with only my iTunes card in hand!

When I got home, I found out we were babysitting the grandkids and I was to go pick up a pizza. I managed to eat my pizza and some strawberries from the garden and didn't even go over in calories for the day.

I'd like to have that kind of day every day!

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KELLIEBEAN 5/26/2013 6:54AM

    I got a little misty reading this! I'm SO happy for you. What an accomplishment. And you managed pizza and stayed under calories. That would have done me in.

What a great day you had. I hope today goes just as well. Congratulations.


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_JODI404 5/25/2013 10:18PM

    Great job Lori!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

That is a wonderful victory!! It really is a decision. And you contemplated one, and then strengthened your resolve and made a better decision.

I am proud of you!! Hope you enjoy your new tunes!

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LARISSA238 5/25/2013 10:02PM

    Such a great job! You should be so proud of yourself! I always walk out of the store with things I didn't plan on buying, normally crap food.

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CHERYL_ANNE 5/25/2013 9:19PM

    Hurrah for you - and all the steps you took to achieve your goal

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SHERIO5 5/25/2013 5:27PM


This is a great victory! emoticon

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FENWAYGIRL18 5/25/2013 3:07PM

    emoticon Great job, it's not easy when you get something in your head and your actually in the store, so good for you for just getting the I tunes card and walking out victorious in so many ways! emoticon

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Helpful Affirmations

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Something I'm learning is that I need to keep affirmations firmly in place to build my self esteem and alter the things I've always believed about myself. The source of my binge eating could very well come from the negative picture I have of myself and my faulty beliefs about me.

My good friend SHERIO5 responded to my last blog with the encouragement that reminded me that I have many good reasons in my life to take good care of my body. I told her that "I never have been one to think about good reasons to take care of myself. I guess I never thought of myself as valuable. I always thought of myself as invisible. As I am writing this, my eyes are opening to these misconceptions and how maybe they have a lot to do with why I tend to self-sabotage my weight loss efforts."

Here's some affirmations that I want to hearing myself say in my head instead of all the negative beliefs I've had. They relate a lot to my focus on overcoming binges.

I'm now moving my life in a positive direction

I'm in complete control of my thoughts and actions now

I am happy

I honor myself in all that I do

I am healthy and full of energy

I only eat when I'm hungry

My body is a sacred temple

I love myself

Eating healthy comes naturally to me

I love myself exactly as I am

I like exercise; it gives me energy

I use good judgement in all areas of my life

I am always progressing

I am valuable

I am calm

I am a daughter of God and I'm worthwhile

I am of infinite worth

I am strong

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AALLEY2 5/27/2013 10:42PM

    emoticon emoticonYes you are strong and it is emoticon emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 5/23/2013 5:46PM

    Excellent and so true. You are SO worth taking care of!


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