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Helpful Affirmations

Thursday, May 23, 2013

Something I'm learning is that I need to keep affirmations firmly in place to build my self esteem and alter the things I've always believed about myself. The source of my binge eating could very well come from the negative picture I have of myself and my faulty beliefs about me.

My good friend SHERIO5 responded to my last blog with the encouragement that reminded me that I have many good reasons in my life to take good care of my body. I told her that "I never have been one to think about good reasons to take care of myself. I guess I never thought of myself as valuable. I always thought of myself as invisible. As I am writing this, my eyes are opening to these misconceptions and how maybe they have a lot to do with why I tend to self-sabotage my weight loss efforts."

Here's some affirmations that I want to hearing myself say in my head instead of all the negative beliefs I've had. They relate a lot to my focus on overcoming binges.


I'm now moving my life in a positive direction

I'm in complete control of my thoughts and actions now

I am happy

I honor myself in all that I do

I am healthy and full of energy

I only eat when I'm hungry

My body is a sacred temple

I love myself

Eating healthy comes naturally to me

I love myself exactly as I am

I like exercise; it gives me energy

I use good judgement in all areas of my life

I am always progressing

I am valuable

I am calm

I am a daughter of God and I'm worthwhile

I am of infinite worth

I am strong


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LARISSA238 5/25/2013 9:53PM

    That's a great list! Keep telling yourself all of that and you will see the truth- you *are* those things!

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DAZZEEDOO 5/23/2013 8:23PM

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NANCYPAT1 5/23/2013 7:50PM

    Really important to keep those affirmations in your view, your mind, and your heart - after a while you might even start believing them. Thank you for sharing these with me.

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_JODI404 5/23/2013 7:24PM

    Your affirmations are great!! Affirming your worthiness and building self esteem are very positive things to do every day!

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SHERIO5 5/23/2013 5:12PM

    Lori,
I love your affirmations! Yes, you are valuable and precious! You are the daughter of a King!! I may use your awesome list! emoticon emoticon

Sheri

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Babies!

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

I am on pins and needles waiting for my next grandson to be born. Mommy's (my daughter-in-law's) due date is today. The baby has dropped way low as she describes it. Now she's breathing a lot easier. They live in Hawaii and I won't be able to go see the baby until October, at least that's the plan at this point. I'd rather go sooner, and my hubby is so baby crazy that I can't imagine him waiting that long. Cross your fingers that I'll get to go sooner. They haven't picked a name yet. My son is doing some Ancestry.com work to find names from his heritage that might be possibilities.

A month ago my daughter, who has two kids under 4, found out she's due to have baby number 3 in December. Her first one was born on the 4th of July, the second was born the day before Valentines Day, and this one is due the 20th of Dec. Which is a set up for a Christmas baby!

My other daughter, the older one, who has two kids age 8 and 9 revealed March 1st that she is engaged! That wedding is going to be on Aug 10 this year. (No babies in this case, but as long as I was sharing exciting news, I thought I'd throw in the engagement.)



  
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LARISSA238 5/23/2013 2:54PM

    Congrats! Lots of good news! *hugs*

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KANOE10 5/23/2013 8:09AM

    Babies are so exciting. I hope all goes well. I love your plumerias on your page. I am glad the elliptical is helping you. It is funny how the same type of machine can be harder at various gyms.



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NUTRON3 5/23/2013 7:41AM

    Very lucky lady!

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ANNEMAC5 5/23/2013 1:29AM

    Thanks for sharing this lovely news, what a busy time. Hope your new baby arrives safe and sound and you get to visit soon.

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KELLIEBEAN 5/22/2013 11:28PM

    Wow! How fun. What an exciting time for your family. I can't wait to hear more details!

Fingers crossed you get to Hawaii sooner than later.

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BABY_GIRL69 5/22/2013 10:12PM

    Congrats all around!! My your life has been busy bustling & growing by leaps and bounds.....by the by, I welcomed my grandson Camden Immanuel to the world on the 9th of May. Tonight MoMoe (me) is spending the night with her precious little grandsons....So cheers to you!

God bless,

ee

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_JODI404 5/22/2013 9:03PM

    WoW ~ that is a LOT of wonderful, exciting news!

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CHERYL_ANNE 5/22/2013 7:38PM

    How exciting for everyone when the family grows because there's more to love!

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SHERIO5 5/22/2013 7:18PM

    Awww, congratulations on all the happy events! I guess it's true that children multiply our blessings! You have some awesome reasons to take care of yourself, don't you?

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HDHAWK 5/22/2013 7:04PM

    Wow! You have a lot of great things happening! emoticon

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Back After Ten Weeks Away

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I'm ready to put some time into SP, now that I've taken a 10 week break from it.

The thing I've missed the most is encouraging others on how they are doing. I also missed the accountability to you, my SparkFriends. I know I need other people in my life to spur me on.

One thing that has changed is that I think I'm finally able to say I am attending to my body with the purpose of taking care of it and being healthy. I did gain 6 pounds, and struggled with binges. I don't want this to be about how much I weigh. I want to be a good steward of the body that is on loan to me while I live here on this earth. I want to be healthy and have a healthy relationship with food. Not using it to self-medicate. But to nourish and enjoy in moderation. I want to get to the point that I don't have binges.

I am dedicated to calling on God for help to catch myself before diving blindly into a binge. When I start a binge, the only thing that stops me is if I run out of sweets or I get so full I can't eat another bite. I'm becoming very aware of the thoughts that run through my head leading up to a binge. I am looking forward to (and am hopeful this will happen)
having a healthy non-binge oriented attitude toward food.

I'm praying, but I also have recruited my husband to help me. I am doing my best to only make trips to the grocery store or gas stations (candy spot for me) with him. If I go alone I am in danger of stocking my cupboards with binge trigger foods.

Another thing I'm trying to do is not eat until I pause in front of my plate and be grateful for it and be sure I'm not eating out of emotion but that I have a calm, stress-free feeling while I eat. Practicing some mindful eating.

I tried not tracking food, but I realized that not tracking doesn't work for me. I've tracked since the year 2000. I figured I shouldn't knock something that works for me.

Something really cool happened last week. My hubby bought me and assembled (with my 21 year-old son's help) a brand new elliptical! He rigged up a TV on a tripod right in front of it. It is so cool! I had quit my membership at the Y because the only thing I was doing there was using the elliptical two times a week. Hubby didn't use the membership and now I can see him getting use out of my machine too!

I want to renew SparkFrienships and make some new friends along the way. I hope you all have a great night and a healthy week ahead.

  
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LARISSA238 5/25/2013 10:04PM

    Welcome back! You have been missed! I'm so glad you have a good way to work out at home! *hugs*

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_JODI404 5/22/2013 9:02PM

    Lori,

So good to see you back! I'm glad to hear you are doing well. You new elliptical sounds fantastic!

Sounds like you have some good solid plans in place to help keep your lifestyle healthy!

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KNYAGENYA 5/22/2013 3:25PM

    Welcome back. I missed you.

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KANOE10 5/22/2013 8:37AM

    How fun to get an elliptical. You sound like you are ready to take positive steps and to get back on track.

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POPSY190 5/22/2013 6:10AM

    Good to have you back. Also great to hear you have such support at home - it makes a lot of difference.

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ANNEMAC5 5/22/2013 12:18AM

    emoticon nice to have you back. You will soon shift that gain. Nice gift from DH I have the same habit of buying treats when I get petrol but last time I made an effort and got sugar free mints
Anne

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CHERYL_ANNE 5/21/2013 8:07PM

    Hi there! So glad you're back from break. Missed you. emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 5/21/2013 7:43PM

    Hi!

Good to hear from you again. Congrats on the elliptical! I'm glad your husband is there for you.

I hope you are having a wonderful evening!

Kellie

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My Sermon. My Change in Direction.

Sunday, March 10, 2013

"it is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." -Galatians 5:1

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon me and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden light." -Jesus in the book of Matthew.

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." -Galatians 1:10

I am a people pleaser. Especially when it comes to worrying what other people think about my body. I get so consumed by trying to eat and exercise for the purpose of bettering the look of my body that I no longer strive to serve God.

I need to focus on servitude.
I need to live by the Spirit; work on allowing the Spirit's fruit to be expressed in my life. These fruits are love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, FAITHFULNESS and SELF-CONTROL.

Faithful to God being my god and not letting my stomach be my god. Including allowing the Spirit be expressed in my self-control in my eating habits. With the Spirit in me I do have the capacity to have self-control.

I have an obsession about my weight. I'm having thoughts pertaining to what God may feel about weight. (one time I read a scripture, Isaiah 53:2 that left me with the impression that physical beauty is not something God would care about, though I do know our health matters. This verse states "He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground, He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him." If you read it in context you can see it is a prophesy about Jesus.)

Mark 11:23 records Jesus saying,"Have faith in God. I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him." God is happy to help us with our attitudes of the heart that trip us up and take our eyes off of him. The thing I am now planning to cast into the sea is my frame of mind that is my obsession with my body.

What would it mean to be done with my obsession?
No more constant weigh-ins.
No more focus on calories, but on portion size and healthy eating, no more binges.
Enjoy what I eat but eat for hunger not cravings.
No more talking about, and boring others in my family about calories and workouts.
I'd still exercise regularly, without being obsessed with counting every calorie I'm burning.
I'd still take care of my body.
I'd have more mental time for giving to others and be less self focused.
I wouldn't have body image problems, I'd set aside self-consciousness.

I know this is the right thing to do. My faith dictates it.
But it is hard.
What makes it hard? my selfishness gets in the way of my faith.

It is right, it is good, it is godly. I have the Spirit's power and the Spirit is nudging me to consider this. The Spirit is reassuring me. It's a big change after 30 years of counting calories and obsession.

"Finally, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things." -Philippians 3:8

These things are what I want to focus on and God by serving people. I will not be devoted to SparkPeople over devotion to my God. I get too wrapped up in focusing on what people think and say to me; not negative comments by other SparkPeople, because I never have had those, but all the yearning for praise that I do.

  
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EJOY-EVELYN 3/14/2013 10:01PM

    Great message! Thanks for some awesome words. My service is to God and his temple and I pray that it is his will that gets completed (vs my selfish one). May God be glorified through our thoughts, words, and deeds. Amen!

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LUCINDARW 3/11/2013 2:26PM

    LoriLee what a good and true message! thank you for sharing and well wishes for success! Lucinda

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POPSY190 3/10/2013 3:14PM

    Whatever our personal beliefs I believe we have been given life as a gift and it is our responsibility to keep ourselves in the best condition to deal with whatever Life expects of us. Therefore, I believe working towards a healthy lifestyle is not selfishness but, on the contrary, an inescapable duty. Without this we cannot reach our purpose in life, whether service to others or something else. emoticon

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SHERIO5 3/10/2013 2:20PM

    The things which matter most must never be at the mercy of those that matter the least.

One of my favorits quotes. Praying for balance in your life.

Sheri

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KLMEIRING 3/10/2013 2:00PM

    In all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us and gave Himself for us..... Grace and peace to you today, Spark Friend. emoticon

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A Little Kindness Goes A Long Way!

Saturday, March 02, 2013

I started the day discouraged that I haven't lost any weight that I gained this past few weeks with company here. I gained 4 pounds and though I'm still within range of my maintenance numbers, I want to get back down to 144. I was sulking about it this morning and my hubby, who was in pain from his shoulder injury, told me to stop thinking about myself and think about others. He made a lot of sense. It was silly of me to be obsessing about my weight when he was in pain. He did offer to go to the mall to walk a 1 mile lap. He said it would take his mind off of his pain.

So we walked at the mall, before the stores were open, so we could go along at a really good pace. He couldn't stand to do any more than that, but I was grateful he helped me get out.

Then in the afternoon I told him I planned to do my ST, but wasn't motivated. He asked me if I listen to music when I do ST. I said no, I don't have a good way to do it. He found an old pair of speakers and found a cord that would connect my iPhone up to them so I could listen to my favorite tunes. I listen when I walk, because I can carry my phone in my pocket. But I don't have an arm band for my phone, and when I lay down to do exercises on my back, my headphones fall off. Anyway, his solution was perfect and I was very motivated, not just by the music, but by his kindness and efforts to help me with my goals.

I love my hubby!

  
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LUCINDARW 3/11/2013 3:44PM

    LoriLee your husband is so understanding thank your lucky stars! That's great that your help each other out all the time and may it continue. You will be able to lose those pounds in a flach if you excerise. Good luck and I know you can do it! lucinda

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_JODI404 3/9/2013 4:31PM

    Hi Lori,

Hope you are enjoying a nice weekend!

You are so right -- a little kindness does go a long way! I find that I really need music in order to work out. It's amazing how much harder I can push myself when an awesome song comes on! I'm glad your sweet hubby was able to craft a great solution for you!

The weather is finally warming up for us here in the South - 70^ here tomorrow (woo~hooo!).... those 4 lbs will be history for you in no time!

Hope hubby's shoulder is doing better too.

Take care!
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SUSUSUZZZIE 3/3/2013 9:27PM

    Your hubby's advice is going forward from him to you and from you to me. I'm sulking because I can't exercise while my foot heals from surgery. I'm bummed and stressed from work and I feel like I really need to burn some calories. So your hubby's advice to think about others is precisely what I'm going to do from here. And your blog also reminds me I'm not the only one (not that I thought I was) dealing with injury or sickness or other.

Your hubby sounds like a great guy. Thanks for sharing his good advice. I'm going to turn my sulk around and find someone else to support.

Hugs to you!

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KELLIEBEAN 3/3/2013 6:33PM

    He's a keeper! I'm glad he supported you and that you both got out walking together. It was good for both of you.

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KANOE10 3/3/2013 10:20AM

    That was sweet of your husband to support you. It is hard when you have up pounds to stay motivated. Now is the time when you need to stay determined to get those pounds down and keep exercising. You can do it.

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CAMAEL100 3/3/2013 9:32AM

    Awww, that was so nice of him!! Not so bad after all is he!!!

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BEFIT014 3/3/2013 8:12AM

    It's great when your family is on board with you!

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PHEBESS 3/3/2013 5:56AM

    He sounds like a sweetheart!

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POPSY190 3/3/2013 3:36AM

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JULIAINLA 3/3/2013 12:37AM

    I liked your blog. Glad you have a supportive Hubby. I hope you lose those extra pounds you have been struggling with. Me too -I think we are about the same weight! It's tough to lose!

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-AMANDA79- 3/3/2013 12:17AM

    What a thoughtful husband!
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POOKASLUAGH 3/2/2013 9:32PM

    Aw, that's great!

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HDHAWK 3/2/2013 8:46PM

    What a great guy! I was shopping for pants today. Some are too big, but nothing here fits quite yet. I'm sort of between sizes. I was feeling kind of sorry for myself that the weight is coming off so slowly. While I was waiting for a fitting room I saw a lady with a scarf on her head due to her lack of hair. At that point I had to stop and think how lucky I am that I feel good enough to exercise and I'm not battling something much bigger.

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SHERIO5 3/2/2013 8:28PM

    Awww! You probably helped each other out today!
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SHERIO5 3/2/2013 8:27PM

    Awwww! You probably helped him by letting him help you!


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