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Renewed Efforts for February

Sunday, February 03, 2013

Already blew my streak for February of keeping within calorie range. But every day is a new day and I cut myself off from all food after 5 last night, and have eaten well today, so far, with a plan to treat my body with kindness and feed it what it needs and not what it wants. Though I will choose foods that I enjoy and that will satisfy me.

Knowing I will have a calmer more peaceful and relaxed schedule next week will foster my having better control over my food intake and energy expenditure. I miss my almost daily walks and my intense workouts, and consistent ST sessions. I've worked in a few over the last couple of weeks, but now I want to be on top of it all again.

Have a great week everyone, we all deserve to treat ourselves with respect and kindness!

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LUCINDARW 2/12/2013 1:14PM

    You always have a new day to straighten everything out. Good for you on attitude and the kindness you show yourself. Good luck and have a great week! Lucinda

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AUTUMNBRZ 2/4/2013 6:59AM

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POPSY190 2/4/2013 2:04AM

    Take care of yourself. A change in routine, like having visitors, is always stressful, no matter how much you enjoy having them.

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ANNEMAC5 2/4/2013 1:37AM

    Each day is a fresh start, have a great week emoticon

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BABY_GIRL69 2/3/2013 7:31PM

    Thank you & you too!

God bless,

Dee

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_JODI404 2/3/2013 6:06PM

    Between sickness and then all that company, I know it was hard.

Sounds like you are ready to get back on track and I know that will feel good.

Have a great week ahead! Great job on less stress and more kindness towards yourself ~~ you are doing GREAT!!!!

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SHERIO5 2/3/2013 5:15PM

    Weekends are tough for me..we can do this though!

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SCOTMAMA 2/3/2013 2:53PM

    I wish I could cut myself off from food -- but other than pushing heavy furniture across the openings into the kitchen I don't know how I would manage it. lol

Sometimes it's good to start the month off bad -- then you can go forward from there!

Hugs, Eve

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-AMANDA79- 2/3/2013 2:32PM

    No food after 5 pm? Until the next morning? I'm no expert, but I would think going so long without food would slow down your metabolism.

Have a great week!
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KELLIEBEAN 2/3/2013 2:18PM

    EXCELLENT! I'm glad you are going to have a much better week!

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JANAMP09 2/3/2013 2:11PM

    Always look through the windshield and not the review mirror!

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JILLITA55 2/3/2013 2:09PM

    don't worry about it. just keep starting and work hard at it.

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Good news!

Thursday, January 31, 2013

My mammogram and ultrasound revealed that I only have dense breasts. Quite a relief that there was no sign of any cyst or tumor! The radiologist said that my previous mammos revealed dense tissue, but I was never informed about this, otherwise I could have saved myself the extra concern I had.

Well now I know!

Thank you all for your support and prayers!

  
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BEMORESTUBBORN 2/3/2013 2:06PM

    I'm glad to hear all turned out better than you hoped! Every other year or so I have to go back for a diagnostic mammogram after having the routine one. Sometimes it's my left breast, sometimes it's my right. I've begun to suspect that "the girls" are having a bit of fun at my expense. I imagine one saying to the other, "Hey, it's your turn this year!" I don't even worry anymore when I get the letter - the explanation is the same, dense tissue. Of course, I always breathe a sigh of relief!

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Best wishes for continued good health!

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ANNEMAC5 2/1/2013 2:13PM

    So pleased for you, it must have been such a worry

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POOKASLUAGH 2/1/2013 9:45AM

    Fantastic news - woohoo!

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POPSY190 2/1/2013 12:53AM

    Great to hear this.

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_JODI404 1/31/2013 10:52PM

    That is so awesome!!! I had the same experience, sorry I didn't see your prior blog sooner. Mine are very dense. Now when I go each year, I have to remind them of this, and they take 2 or more extra slides to get the views they need which helps avert these scares.

YAY - so happy it went well! I go next week for mine.

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KELLIEBEAN 1/31/2013 10:22PM

    What a major relief!

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-AMANDA79- 1/31/2013 9:17PM

    So glad for you!
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LARISSA238 1/31/2013 8:08PM

    I'm so glad there's nothing wrong! *hugs*

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HDHAWK 1/31/2013 8:06PM

    Thank goodness! My mom had the same issue and went through many biopsies over the years.

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KATRINAKRAUT 1/31/2013 8:04PM

    Good news. I have been there. thank goodness radiology is getting better and better!

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I have a couple of questions of a female nature.

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Update: One binge in 22 days. I feel good about that.

Tomorrow is my diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound. My gyn found a lump on January 8 and I'm finally getting the test done. I was supposed to have it last Friday, but we had an ice storm and I postponed it. My hubby will drive me. It will be a comfort to have him there, though I'm not worried about the appointment. I just appreciate his support.

I've heard many women say that when they find a lump it often leads to a biopsy. I am not looking forward to that, if it has to happen. They won't just decide to do it tomorrow will they? They would have to read the mammogram and have the radiologist read the ultrasound, right? Then my doctor will call me to her office or schedule me another appointment for the biopsy, right? anyone been through this and care to share with me?

  
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LUCINDARW 2/9/2013 2:15PM

    LoriLee I smypathize with you on this subject. I've been through it several times and have been ok. The time of month varies the contents of the breast and most lumps aren't cancerous. I will pray for you even though this post is after the fact. good luck and hope all has come out ok. Lucinda

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-AMANDA79- 1/31/2013 8:22AM

    I was also gonna say that it depends on the facility. I had my diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound done at a small town hospital. They were very concerned and sent me to the breast center for a biopsy. The dr. there looked at the mass, wasn't concerned at all and didn't do the biopsy. Just a follow up ultrasound in six months. Phew! :) I know its hard to not worry, but just know that most lumps are not cancer.

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CANDOK1260 1/31/2013 6:07AM

    prepare for the worst and be happy for the best that my motto

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AUTUMNBRZ 1/31/2013 5:58AM

    You may or you may not. It depends on what they see, what kind of facility you are in, and on your doctors discretion.

That was not helpful at all, I know. lol I am sorry.

Big Hugs

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POPSY190 1/31/2013 2:08AM

    Procedures here are probably different from where you live so I'm sorry I can't help there. Hope all goes smoothly for you though!

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SHERIO5 1/30/2013 10:35PM

    Sorry to hear you have to go through this!

I had to have a second mammogram and then an ulteasound when my mammogram showed changes from the year before. They told me it was a cyst within ten minutes and that was that...I haven't had to have a biopsy. The imaging place I go to called my doctor when the second mammogram was strange as well and got orders for the ultrasound the same day...so I knew right away...Scary but I didn't have to come back and wait not knowing.

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POOKASLUAGH 1/30/2013 7:31PM

    Wish I could help but I've yet to get a mammogram. I can't imagine them springing surgery on you on the spot, though.

I hope the appointment goes well!

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Compound Victories over Binge Food

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

I have a great streak going here!

I have not had a binge in 15 days. I had been having them every 5 days always going 800 or more calories over my top number in my range. This was really getting to me. I had a period before that I did well without them, so I knew I could do it again.

I am doing a reward system to keep me on a streak. I give myself a dollar each day I stay on track and a bonus of $5 for each 10 days. (I'm also doing the dollar per workout, though not trying for a daily streak.) Money has a way of really motivating me.

Settling on what to spend it on is proving to be a challenge in itself. I don't know if I want to enjoy little things, spending it as I go, or save for something bigger like major equipment. Clothes are in the medium price range. Craft magazines and supplies are a strong possibility. I'm not into mani or pedis. My husband is willing to pay for hair appointments anyway so that's no fun. But the craft mags that I love are about $15 each so that's why I keep going back to that...i wouldn't spend my husbands money on those.


Sure, I've had a nice streak going...but last night I faced a major challenge.... and was victorious! For the first time since I started my streak, I had a strong urge to give in to a binge on sweets. I haven't had sweets this whole time, which is a miracle in itself, and last night I had one of my hubby's brownies. It was within my range for the day, but after getting that gooey sweet chocolate in my mouth OOOH I wanted more! I decided not and found myself staring into the pantry...no good could come of that. Decided NOT to give in to a binge.

I pulled away, but quickly lost track of my decision to not binge and moved on to the fridge. I saw the gumdrop white fudge box, which is hidden under the bean dip, but remembered it was there, though I NEVER think about it. OH I can have ONE piece. But I remembered how enticing it is to eat it and how I've never eaten just one piece. So I backed away from the fridge. I recognized that I was needing to replace my sweet craving with doing something I enjoy.

So, in victory, I removed myself from the fridge and sat down with a magazine I enjoy. Read for a while and finished the mag. Picked up my book that I've really gotten into and got distracted by my hubby's tv show. I started talking to him about something I did that day that stressed me out and I didn't handle the best. He didn't encourage me but told me how I should've handled it. The negative is all I heard, but today when I look back at it he was probably in his own way trying to say I know you could have handled it better. meaning he was confident in my ability. I had taken it negatively and got angry inside and felt like running to the kitchen for that fudge or something equally destructive.

But I remembered the 2 pounds I had misplaced when I looked at the scale that morning and decided my anger would have to leave me a different way. He came to the couch with a bag of chips and offered me some. They are yummy and I love them, but I stubbornly said no. Usually I'm able to eat just two or three and I'm satisfied, but I was rejecting him rather than the chips and refused them.

I decided to calm down. The anger passed in 5 minutes, as did the urge to binge. If you wait a couple of minutes any negative mood you have will dissolve if you let it and don't nurse it. After a while, I got up and made two pieces of wheat toast with sugar free jam; I needed a few more carbs and calories for the day, and satisfied the sweet urge. Later I had a sugar free dulce de leche pudding. Still a sweet but all within my calorie range. I had decided I was clearly past the urge to binge before I had these two snacks, and I didn't want to set myself up for a binge today by total denial of food.

I went to bed victorious and knew that a restful sleep would reset my brain and get me off to a fresh start without anger and cravings. I had forgiven my husband and realized he meant no harm.

Today I had a couple of more victories! I was a little hungry by 10:00 this morning when I was out shopping. I drove past Chick-fil-a and thought about how I could have a chicken biscuit. I'm never by a Chick-fil-a in the morning and I love their chicken biscuits. I decided no, I can wait till lunch when I get home and have a healthier choice. Victory #1 for the day. YAY!

When I ended up at Walmart for a few groceries, I walked past pink, red and white m&ms and thought about all the yummy cookies I could bake with them as gifts. I thought about the crunchy shell and the sweet chocolate and realized I was fantasizing over having them as a little snack, but recognizing they would become a binge food. I decided to put it off, Valentines day is a ways off and there's plenty of time left to buy them. I love the holiday colored M&Ms. But for now I turned it into a victory!

When I was walking by the freezers, I suddenly remembered the Special K sausage egg and cheese flatbreads I have at home that I haven't tried yet. What a great replacement for the chicken biscuit I had wanted. I decided to try that for lunch when I got home. I got out of the store without any sweets and stuck to my list. Which is a hard thing to do when you go food shopping with a bit of hungriness.

I got home at 11 and had my flatbread. They are actually quite good and I was satisfied. They have turkey sausage and wheat flatbread. They are 240 calories. Better than mcDonald's sausage egg and cheese biscuit. I thought I'd miss the biscuit, but the flatbread was satisfying. YAY another Victory.

One victory builds on another. I'm looking forward to making this my 16th day of staying within calorie range.

  
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OOLALA53 2/5/2013 6:21PM

    You did a lot of the right things! Deciding to delay having food, rather than giving in at the first twinge of desire, is well-recognized. It is absolutely normal to want more sugar when you have it; the only way to counteract that is to stick to a moderate portion, as you did! Evenutally, that will be your default, though the urge to eat more can crop up periodically for just about anybody. We don't have to eat more just because we want to, and it gets easier to say no most of the time. Also, recognizing that you were dwelling on the positives of eating and minimizing (or ignoring) the consequences later is a strong habit in many bingers. Sounds like you thwarted that one, too.

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LUCINDARW 1/26/2013 12:52PM

    Congratulations on your victories! Keep up the good work LoriLee! I've been terrible with binging lately and your thoughts and suggestions might work for me as well. Thank you for sharing. Lucinda

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GAYEMC 1/24/2013 10:39AM

    Congrats on your victories! That's great that you were able to stop yourself and take the time to think about what you really wanted. (A trick I use is to brush my teeth if I eat something that triggers me to want more. I also kep almonds in my purse for when I get hungry when I'm out, they always tide me over until I can eat a healthy meal).

Keep up the good work!

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SHERIO5 1/23/2013 5:50PM

    You are having an awesome steak! I am on day 3 of mine! I like that you included your thoughts in the decision making. I may use some of your lines on myself...

I remember reading that men want to "fix" problems rather than just listening....they think this is being really helpful! The problem for me is that I feel like I'm being treated like a child or someone incapable of working out her own problem. I wonder if your husband needs some help from you on this...like letting him know what would be most helpful...my guy really tries now that I have told him what would be better for me...still needs reminders!

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LARISSA238 1/23/2013 4:46PM

    emoticon Great job overcoming temptation!

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SCOTMAMA 1/23/2013 2:02PM

    You seem to have a strict "his" money and "her" money arrangement, and I wondered why you do that. Is it a 2nd or 3rd marriage for each of you? Usually, even if the wife works the money is just pooled into one account and everything is paid out of it. As I am much older this time, my husband and I choose to keep the majority of our funds separate, although my name is on his checking account and we have a common credit card. I still like to pay for my own medical costs and many times when I shop for clothing I will put it on my personal card.

Food-wise you're doing great. I think that binging is basically a way of relieving nerves or something along that line. I have found myself doing it rarely, and even as it is happening I don't really know the answer -- just that whatever it is tastes soooooo good that I keep eating another and another!

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POPSY190 1/23/2013 1:02PM

    What a terrific streak! Congratulations - it is just so hard to resist that drive to food like this. It's that first taste that does all the damage for me as well. Happy Streaking!

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I'll Persevere at Least Make Some Effort!

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

First I want to apologize to everyone who I didn't thank for the congrats on my one year of maintenance. I was overwhelmed with the marvelous show of support. You are the really friends, in my book. I'll take some time when I feel better to get back to as many of you as possible...once I start feeling better. I'm pushing myself to type out a blog entry in spite of the pain I have in my head. Being sick is no fun!

I'm getting my new year of maintaining off to a slow start. Doesn't help that I've been sick for 9 days. The first 4 it was mild so did some gentle workouts. But then it hit full force with sinus and ear infections plus bronchitis. I guess I go what everyone else has been getting since before Christmas. I'm happy we got through the holidays without anyone getting sick at our house. But the new year brings with it thoughts of setting streaks and planning great workout schedules. Eating on target and eating the healthy stuff all the time.

I have done very well with keeping a streak for 7 days of eating within range. Low end actually. But that's easy because I have no sense of taste nor smell. No appetite. What I am eating is comfort food, and since I have no appetite and get full quickly, I don't have to try hard. In fact the only thing I'm trying to do is keep my freggies up, for the vitamin C. I never drink juice, I'd rather eat my calories usually, but I've had a small bottle of grapefruit juice once a day. I can kind of taste that. The thing I can taste most is sweet. But the flavor of the food is not there, so I say why waste calories on something I can't taste? I've heard that when you get much older, you can lose your sense of smell. Is that why old people eat so little? If food doesn't taste good, I don't enjoy it.

I don't even feel guilty about not working out. It used to be that when I was ill, I would fight for the minute I'd feel better so I could work out, but I feel so crummy that I can't imagine working out. The guilt is not there, and I know I'll do fine getting back on track. I used to think that if I missed more than one day of exercise in a week I'd lose my momentum and never get it back, but One thing I've learned about myself, and really gotten through my thick skull it that I have always exercised for health, since I was a kid, in some form or other. Why would I suddenly be different!

I love you all!

Lori

  
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LUCINDARW 1/26/2013 1:12PM

    Sorry that you are feeling so sick and hope you are better soon. Take it easy while your body is trying to heal then start back to excersise a little at a time. I know you can do it! Lucinda

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_JODI404 1/15/2013 9:41PM

    Sorry you are so sick, but very glad to hear that you are allowing yourself to get all of the rest you need.

Exercise will come when you are able... but until then, rest is when your body repairs, so take all you can get.

Hope you are better soon! Also, when you first feel good ~ don't overdo it.... sometimes it's a trick, and you end up totally sick again right away. Ease in when you feel good and you'll be right back on track.

You are one year into a new healthy lifestyle, and unfortunately illness is a likely event here and there, and coping with it properly is also part of taking good care of yourself!

Wish you well my friend!
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LARISSA238 1/15/2013 8:38PM

    emoticon I hope you feel better soon!

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SHERIO5 1/15/2013 3:49PM

    The crud is really going around...take your time..rest...you'll get back on track... emoticon emoticon

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POOKASLUAGH 1/15/2013 1:49PM

    Whatever everyone's been getting is horrible. I love working out, but for two weeks after I was supposedly no longer sick, I still just felt too run down to do anything! I'm finally back on the right track, but I think this illness just stays around silently for awhile. I've read a lot fo blogs lately about people who got this and then didn't start exercising for a week or two after the main symptoms went away...

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POPSY190 1/15/2013 1:09PM

    Our news just had an item about a new powerful strain of gastro enteritis coming our way. :( All these things seem to be getting more powerful - this one is able to bypass human immune systems. Sorry to hear you are so unwell, but you are doing the right thing giving your body rest and time to recover. All the best! emoticon

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