Sunday, January 06, 2013
I'm lax on exercise, I've had a major binge. Not a great way to start the New Year!
But over the last 48 hours I've corrected the eating part. I'm on my second day of staying at the low end of calorie range. I did lose .5 pound last week, but the day I read that on the scale was the day I had a compulsive sugar eating foray.
I have read "It doesn't matter how many times you fall down, what matters is how many times you get up!"
At least I am getting up again.
I want to get over the tendency to binge. Yet I don't want to completely exclude things from my diet, namely sugar, because I'm certain that saying no completely will lead to binges. Some people are in the "don't keep any in the house" corner and some are in the "do not deny yourself completely" corner.
I imagine different things work for different people. I can have a little every day without any problem for the most part, but faced with having company, I sneak to the kitchen and secretly down a ton of sugar. It especially happens when the little kids are here. My hubby takes care of all their needs and I feel bored and useless, and detached from involvement. That's when I'm most prone to the dreaded binge. I recognize this when I'm being rational, but in the midst of a situation like this I succumb.
I'm being lazy with exercise. I'll admit to that much. I exercised the two days before my company came, on the 1st and 2nd of Jan, but focused on the social aspect of my visit with my friend who came to stay for three nights. We crafted all afternoon for two days. We had lots of fun. That kept me out of the kitchen until the tail end of her visit. At the end of her visit I was anticipating two grandkids for an overnighter and headed for the chocolate. Why didn't I suggest to my friend we take a walk? Well, she is from El Paso TX and was cold all the time while here. I hated to ask her to step out into the cold weather.
On a positive note, my friend's daughter who is 19, was curious about different food and exercise topics, and I was able to share an exercise with her to strengthen her obliques. She wanted to strengthen her abs and her mother and I shared with her the importance of planks and push ups. She was receptive. She was curious about how you burn fat and how you replace it with muscle and how that all works. She was misinformed and I felt confident to share the things I've learned being with SparkPeople for over a year. (she's not terribly overweight, but at least she's thinking about keeping from letting it get worse and also improving her strength.)
My friend has the same body shape as I do, and it helped me not be self conscious about what tummy I have left. She was confident about who she is, or so it appears. It helped me love myself a little better. It also helped me to see that I'm doing ok with my maintenance, and that I should not be down on myself for choosing this weight as my goal.
I am a work in progress and I hope to see some progress over the rest of this month, and on through the year.
Friday, December 21, 2012
Hi everyone! I've missed you.
I've read emails, and tracked workouts on my app, but that's all the sparking I've done. I am looking forward to touching base with you all again.
Hawaii was wonderful again. My son and DIL are doing a fabulous job with my 20 month old granddaughter and while we were there Steph had an ultrasound and found out they are having a boy! We can't wait! Next time we go see them they will be a family of 4! They are coming here in Feb or Mar, and the baby is due in June. We will go back in August if we can stand to wait that long!
For exercise, we walked to my son's from the hotel all but the last day when he had to pick up us and our luggage. He was 1/2 hour walk away, but we also did lots of walking during the day.
One day we hiked up a steep climb to see a waterfall. It was a muddy path, part of the way (my first mud-run!) Great workout. Beautiful scenery.
Another day for exercise I took a swim in the ocean. There was a pool at our hotel, but I never used it (what a shame!) because we left the hotel every morning before it opened and came back after dark every night.
And one day I did a great 15 minutes of continuous ST. That was at the very beginning of the trip, when I had great dreams of being steadfast with my workouts. The best thing I did was walk, and that was usually with my husband who walks so fast I am always pushing hard to keep up. Makes for a great workout!
Eating was interesting. I enjoyed my food so much more this trip because I'd decided not to track (too hard anyway with all the eating out we did...between 1/2 to 2/3 of the time we ate out) My son likes to introduce us to new cuisine. So often my husband and I would order something to share and my son would order something else he'd like us to try and we'd have a bite of that too. You'd be amazed at all the Asian foods you can find there. Not so amazing when you consider the cultural heritage of Hawaii. I think my favorite new experience in food was eating Korean bbq. The bad part that was oh so yummy was how my son planned a new sweet treat for each day. A Taiwanese dessert was particularly yummy. It was Snow Ice, which is almost like shaved ice milk/cream. They had all kinds of fruit flavors, and chocolate, but my choice was the gingerbread flavor. They have a beautiful presentation. Mine came piled high with a candy cane leaning against it, and a butter icing drizzled on it. I comes with pretty little bits of gelled fruit. almost too pretty to eat. I did take a picture, but I'm terrible at posting pictures on here. If I can figure it out I'll post a pic later.
So I've told you about exercise and about my eating exercise, now what I'm not going to tell you is how much weight I lost or gained. I know it will be in the gain category, that's definite because I feel it in how my clothes fit...at least they still fit! I will not weigh myself for about a week, so I can lost the flying bloat, and the sodium bloat, and get on with eating normal and exercising a bit more for the next week. (at least as normal as the holiday will allow.) Within the next week I'll also have to allow for a holiday, but that can't be as hard as my last 10 days was on my efforts. I hope I'm not going to eat my words on that!
Well, it's good to be back, and I'm looking forward to being back on SP!
Sunday, November 25, 2012
I have to keep my life kinda low-key to help prevent the mood-swings that come with my bipolar disorder. Keeping stress away is challenging, but I've become quite good at it. I have to consider the stress factor whenever I start anything new in my schedule.
I've been contemplating what I should do differently with my time, since I'm feeling some periods of boredom. I feel like so much time and energy is focused on food and exercise. I work 9 hours a week and spend one morning a week with my daughter and her kids. I go to church on Sunday mornings and I spend an hour journaling every day. Maybe a half hour Sparking each day, too. 5-7 hours of exercise a week as well. I read for 3 hours a day on average. I love to read.
I'd been considering signing up for a clay studio class. I used to throw on the wheel, and would like to do that again. My only problem is I end up with lots of pots, cups, and plates with few people to give them to. Where do you store such things?
OR I love learning and my husband often encourages me to take classes at the local U. I've done classes recently and discovered that 2 classes at a time works for me. When I did 3 classes plus a lab, I was overtaxed. Problem is, I don't have any goal to shoot for in taking classes. (no ideas on a degree or second career...I'm a career Mom...what should I do NOW?)
I also have the beginnings of a book about my struggles with bipolar and BPD (borderline personality disorder). Bipolar tends to run in families and I want to have an account available for future family members who may need some encouragement and insight into the disorder. I want to give them hope.
Life is too short to be spending so much of my mental energy on food and my body. I will always have weight as a concern, I'm finding out that maintaining takes as much striving as weight loss does. But I don't just want to finish my life with the legacy of a healthy body. Isn't life more than the body?
I kinda am leaning toward the option of writing for a while. Now I just need to figure out how much time I want to devote to writing each day. I believe this will give me focus and keep my interest a while each day...enough to help with my boredom.
Thank you for listening to me while I sort this all out. Writing helps me think. And in writing this down I can see that writing about my bipolar experiences might be an important thing for me to do.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Thirteen days later and I still can't take walks. What a nuisance this sprain has become.
I am eating mid-range, which isn't causing any problems with the scale...yet. I could be doing some strength workouts and even chair cardio, which I did one day. I just am rediscovering my lazy bone. If I could get out and take a walk, I'd be more motivated to do ST. That's what usually helps. I need to get crackin' and get out the weights.
It's just that I'm feeling so relaxed since I don't have my workout schedule screaming at me. Maybe I should make a new, "easy does it workout schedule" that will get me some structure while I wait for full mobility?
EDIT: I just talked myself into a 30 minute intervals ST workout...I got sick of hearing my complaining about not being able to do my regular workouts! The workout felt great and now I'm going to write out a little schedule for myself...
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