Wednesday, November 07, 2012
I'm sitting around this week, nursing that silly sprained ankle. But I want it to heal up nicely so I don't easily re-injure it when I get back to taking walks. The swelling is going down now. I'm trying to keep my mind active so I don't think about food. Yesterday was good in that regard. I stayed under the calories I need for getting no exercise.
I've been seeing the scale creep up after the binges I've had. Yesterday, and already today I've kept in mind the thought,"I don't really get comfort from food. Overeating only brings me DIScomfort. My feelings about myself are positive when I am successful at keeping my calories in check. That's when I go to bed happy with what I've accomplished that day."
Here's to another day of true Comfort.
Saturday, November 03, 2012
Ok. Not such a smart move!
My daughter's family has 4 kids' bikes and a razor scooter. The two kids, my daughter's BF and my hubby and I were fooling around on them. I'm thinking I'd try to burn off a few birthday cake calories. I ended up with the 8 year old's bike ( she's the size of a kindergartener) going down hill was fine, but coming back up I couldn't get the pedals to move, picture me trying to ride with my butt up in the air... and I lost control. Pitched off the bike, heard popping in my ankle, and flew through and landed on the bottom barbed wire of a fence. Not rusty at least. I heard my granddaughter yell from the other end of the road , "Are you OK gramma!" She told me later that she was shaking when she saw me fall, poor kid!
Well, trying to be tough for my audience, I hopped up and walked ever so gingerly back to the group. I didn't tell anyone about my ankle but they had to see me limping. They were mostly concerned about what the barbed wire did to me. We hung around outside for a while. When we finally went in (I couldn't wait to get off my foot) I had my daughter clean up my back. Then I sat down. After a little I asked for ibuprofen and told her I sprained my ankle. (I repeatedly sprain this ankle! Darn!)
We're on our way home, a 2 1/2 hr drive. Fortunately I have 3 ice packs in a cooler so I'm icing the softball size lump that has formed. I know; RICE. I'm working on that.
So Be careful when you want to get exercise...be adventuresome, but be smart!
Friday, November 02, 2012
This morning I made a small decision to walk around the block before work. Just as I got going up the block, I found a half-dozen pieces of assorted candy on the ground, which most likely fell out of some kid's bag on halloween. It looked intact and my reaction was to pick them up and stuff them in my pocket for later. I walked about a half a block more, all the while thinking...what am I doing picking up candy off the ground? am I that hard up for sugar? Stupid.
Fortunately it was trash day and all the roll-out containers were by the road. I pulled the candy out of my pocket and slipped in into a barrel that was open a crack.
There. That was my good decision for the day. It may not be much, but I've been binging on candy and other sweets so much lately that this was a great victory. Just one of those pieces of candy could have sent me into an all afternoon binge.
Have a great weekend full of healthy decisions for your health!
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Yes, I am an avid journal writer. I get everything down on paper. Usually I try to include how I feel about what went on each day. I started a separate journal for my health focused journey, back when I started Sparking. I am not a regular blogger, probably because I work out most of my emotions in my journal.
Yesterday, when I realized I was having stress and anxiety about gaining weight over the holidays, I remembered that last year I lost 4 pound during that time. This triggered the decision to read back in my journal the days starting November first, through the New Year. I could see that I had been sick for 3 weeks and I think I lost because of that. But I also exercised a lot less. So the fewer calories and the lack of exercise balanced out. If I'd just exercised less but didn't control my eating, I would have gained.
There were other helpful steps I took. I didn't bake my usual cookies. And what cookies my neighbor brought over were decisively thrown out. On Christmas day, when my daughters baked our traditional (and my favorite) cut-out sugar cookies with icing, I sent all but one cookie home with them. The only one I kept was the one my granddaughter decorated specially for me. When I ate it a few days after Christmas, I was so glad I'd sent them home with them, or the one would have set off a binge.
In my journal I wrote down the menus for Thanksgiving and Christmas and recorded the exact portions and calories of the items I would consume for those meals. I wasn't rigid, but made substitutions, (rather than additions to my meal) when someone brought a surprise snack or dish to serve. I had veggies and hummus out to snack on so I wouldn't grab candy or cookies. This proved to be very effective (writing it out beforehand)
It took planning and determination to stick to my plan; it was literally work. I even made myself get up and work out in the morning before I started cooking on Thanksgiving Day.
I was proud of myself. And I look back at that season with pride mixed with wonder that I actually pulled it off.
So now I'm thinking that I don't have to dread the season, but look at it as a challenge that I am capable to handle!
Starting with Halloween, which isn't usually a problem...my hubby and I don't give out candy and so we don't buy any... usually. For some reason this year I bought a bag of candy corn. Actually it was for a recipe. I made the recipe and gave most of it away. I kept a gallon size baggie of it, it started as 15 cups! (it is called Scarecrow Crunch) a trail mix made with sweets,cereal and caramel corn, not nuts and fruit. I've had a handful every now and then and keep it in the back of my cupboard. I count the calories on my tracker, keeping honest with myself. I hate to waste calories on empty calories, but I have been having binges lately on sweets. Somehow I haven't touched the Crunch. I want to savor it.
So the season really starts with Halloween, which I never thought was true until I read about may other Sparkers' problems with the holiday. Last year I ended up having Valentines Day be a problem because the store I worked at had candy out and I got a discount. I didn't gain weight, but I had eaten plenty of it. Boy oh boy, I guess the holiday season is REALLY LONG!
Once again I will journal all holiday season, and next year I can look back and be proud!
I can do this. You can do this. We can do this together! Fight On!
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Things are going well for me. I'm maintaining and I'm able to keep on tracking workouts and food consumed without being consumed by charts and schedules and checking off goals met.
Don't get me wrong. All those things were implements to help me get to my maintenance weight. I love charts and checking off my to do lists and making reward/star charts. I think the problem is I love them too much. I gave them all so much attention, I forgot to live in the real world. I was in weight loss world.
I will always need to plan ways to meet my calorie goals (goals that will always be part of my day). I just don't want to be a slave to charts and schedules that became an obsession. There is a fine line between commitment and obsession, and I think I am finding balance.
-I have employed monetary rewards to motivate me, and it was effective.
-I have also made star charts with five major fitness and food goals for each day, and stars really turn me on. I am a kid at heart, always loved school and being the teacher's pet. My star chart fit into that world.
-I have used points on SP to motivate me, which helped me get on track with things like drinking more water, getting regular sleep, getting my freggies, etc.
But now I have all these things as lifestyle, and am down to the basics of tracking food (I can't keep an accurate tally in my head) and fitness minutes (I like seeing if my calories expended is enough to support my food intake), which also are a way to troubleshoot my weight fluctuations...assisting in my maintenance.
My food intake notebook next to the fridge, is where I tally calories, check off each fruit or veggie and tally calcium servings, the nutrient I want most to control. See I still check off a few items daily...I haven't totally abandoned my tracking.
My use of this site is limited to keeping up with blogs and emails, including reading an article or viewing the daily example of additional exercises to add. I check in on the feed occasionally. I don't want to totally lose touch with the site, knowing that I may come into a rough patch. You know how the holidays are, and times when I may have an injury or illness. SP is important to me. I hope I'm not slighting anyone by lessening my involvement. If I have, it is only to work on my independence while maintaining my weight.
Some of you may have discovered that attempting to be independent of SP has led to regaining weight. Maybe you can share with me your story and if necessary talk some sense into me. Your story may be just what I need to hear before I stray too far away. I think I've changed my level of SP commitment for three weeks now. I'm enjoying a freedom and confidence in myself and in my ability to live my new lifestyle. I feel more mature, and that is thanks to all the encouragement I have received here.
Thanks in advance for any input you have for me.
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