Wednesday, August 01, 2012
I'm happy. I've gotten back on track after babysitting two of my grandkids. I did some baking with them and got into the sweets. I made pink lemonade cookies with Abi, and they both helped me make ice cream that tastes like Wendy's Frostys. I made them poppy seed mini muffins. And we also ate sno cones, though I used sugar free syrup on mine. But after they left I had a binge, which always happens before they arrive and after they leave. Oh all right, it happens while they're here, too! Something about watching other people's kids gives me a stressed out feeling that I smother with food. I recognize that and I think I've made headway on eliminating it most of the time. But OY! I hate when it happens. The day after they left, I ate lots of cookies and other snacks we had on hand for them. But the next day I renewed my efforts at staying within calorie range, and got back to exercising. While they were here for 4 days, I only did push ups and planks for 10 minutes one day. I've had 6 days in a row of exercise, and I've even upped my intensity this week. I lost 1 pound, which has motivated me even more to stay on track. I haven't gone over my calorie range for 7 days so far.
This all happened the week that I had my Sparkversary, which also motivates me.
I went for an hour walk at the mall with a friend. She's the same size as me or at least she was, but she started taking green coffee bean extract, recommended by Dr Oz. She has lost 18 pounds! Now that is tempting (to try it) but I'm on lots of medicines, so I called my pharmacist and asked about taking it with them. She said I never should mix herbal supplements with my meds. Then I posted a message on a board for, I don't remember which one, but it was for health and fitness or something like that. Maybe nutrition. Well, EVERYONE who responded said negative things about it. But my friend said three other people she recommended it to have also lost weight. SO tempting, as all HOAXES are.
I have decided that I am happy with my weight. I think I only considered it because she and I seem to have a competition. We're basically the same size, and she always says I look great. That I'm skinny. When people comment on my weight, I get a complex thinking that all that matters to them in my size. EVERY time we are together she expects me to tell her she looks great. I know she is insecure about her looks. She's 55 and in the dating world and is worried she'll be alone till she dies. But now that she's losing weight and she keeps asking me if I tried the green coffee stuff, I wish I could at least try it. What if it works? Well, my answer to that for me is that anything that would cause quick weight loss is not helpful, because it's better to lose slowly, so it will stay off better. There's no magic pill. She says you don't have to exercise or change the way you eat. How does that help you get healthier!
I'm hashing this out with you so I can convince myself that this is NOT for me!
BESIDES, I'm happy with my weight. Or am I??
Saturday, July 28, 2012
For probably the last half of my first year with SP, I've doubted that I was getting anywhere. I felt like I was spinning my wheels. But when I wrote my last blog and saw that I have changed, and that those changes are largely permanent, I'm feeling very encouraged. Just by persevering and keeping up with tracking (food and fitness) eating with a goal for the day and exercising with goals for my week have turned into habits that have really become a part of me.
My attitude toward food and fitness the last two days since the anniversary has become kindess and gentleness to my new self. I respect myself for how far I've come. I decided that though I originally thought of my weight loss as "only" 16 pounds, I need to be excited over what those 16 pounds represent. Success.
To begin a new year looks exciting from that vantage point. It tells me that I can be surprised this next year with continued growth and strength. I haven't got many goals to report. I'm not sure what more I want to accomplish. I suppose I will work on eating less sugar and eating even more fruit and vegetables. This past year I went from eating 2 freggies a day to eating 5-6. I went from no ST to doing it 3 days a week.
Today I asked my hubby if there were any goals he could think of for me. He suggested I plan to rejoin the Y in the winter (when our budget will allow it again) and attempt to involve myself more in programs that include other people instead of doing things alone all the time. I'm not sure how I feel about that, I kinda like to sweat alone. But I'll consider it. That's one more thing that has changed about me over the year...I have become more willing to listen to others' input for my life. I know that comes from all the interaction we have with SP.
I am actually content with the way I look and my Body Fat Composition is at a healthy point for me. How many women, who have ever been overweight, would be sad to find out they had lost a few more pounds? I am one who will gladly accept loss of another 5-6 pounds, but if it doesn't happen, I know I'm doing my best. Because my goal is no longer weight loss, but healthy lifestyle maintenance.
I want to thank everyone who congratulated me on my Sparkversary, and encouraged me on my blog about it. I cherish all your friendships to me.
Thank you all for being my biggest fans!
Monday, July 23, 2012
Wow, time has flown lately. I haven't much to blog about.
I am doing well with the exercise even though I don't have my once or twice a week Y visit. I've just increased my use of my DVD, walking and biking. I haven't gained any weight. But I really feel good about where I'm at right now. I wouldn't mind if I lost a little, but I have a friend who was the same size as me. She lost 13 pounds and looks too thin for a 55 year old. Just doesn't look as healthy, in my eyes. I had had a goal to lose 14 more pounds, but no longer feel that would look healthy. Maybe I'm just envious of her and she really does look ok, but I'm happy and I'm not in a competition with her. Just sayin'.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
You know that thing I talked about only sitting for 3 hours a day? Well I wore myself out the next day trying to keep from sitting and threw in the towel the day after that. I decided that something another sparker said made sense; to be sure to get up every hour and do something, move around. I can climb stairs, go make some tea, do a set of pushups, things like that.
You know I don't believe everything I read. I am prone to believe it more often than not though, and have tons of "shoulds" in my life. Most advice I read I turn into a must do for myself, like it's gospel, and make it into a rule. My husband even comments on how many rules I have for myself and too many shoulds... that I don't have any fun,
Anyone relate? Or any suggestions on how to get out of this trap?
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