Thursday, June 28, 2012
I am so mad. It's a finances thing. I keep eating cookies trying to stuff my anger. So I thought I'd try writing about it. I can't go into specifics, but let's just say my hubby and I don't agree on how to spend it. (in particular where our grown children are concerned) I'm tight and he's not AT ALL.
I can't even write here all the words I'm thinking in my anger. I better just quit typing for now.
Sunday, June 24, 2012
What a messed up day yesterday was! I gave in to carbs and sweets. I know now, looking back over the week that I held back since Tuesday, not counting calories, so I was afraid I'd go over and and am so paranoid about having any weight gain, that after holding back I caved and consumed too much. I need to remember to have moderation. That I'm fortunate to be able to eat so many calories. The amount allowed by SP is more than I ever allowed myself while really dieting and restricting too much which messed up my metabolism.
Today I'm having a fresh start. Not beating myself up over yesterday. Hubby and I went out for Chinese. We get a plate of chicken and broccoli. I eat all the broccoli, and a very few pieces of chicken. He likes white rice, and I don't so I don't have any. For years my hubby wouldn't eat Chinese, but in Hawaii he discovered that he actually liked getting asian food, since we were exposed to it so much there. Everything in Hawaii that my son introduced us to came with white rice. That's the part he liked. Here, the only places that serve white rice with a meal are Asian places. Well, I always loved to get Chinese, and missed it. I hate how now that I'm counting calories, he decides to like it! It's so hard to figure out the nutrition in it. So many hidden calories in the sauces. But it's a treat.
Missing my son in Hawai'i today. (tears) We will probably get on the computer and do FaceTime with him and his little family. I'm looking forward to that!
Hope you all are having a great Sunday. I hope you get off to a great start this week!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Well, cutting out the splenda isn't as hard as I thought it would be! I just dug in and changed what I was doing. I haven't reached in the cupboard for a single splenda packet in 2 days! So far today I only had a smear of sugar free jam on my toast, and had a bottle of diet Mountain Dew. But, that's it for the spenda today! I haven't eaten any sweets today so far, the kind with regular sugar. I haven't even wanted one. Yesterday I had a piece of banana bread I made for my guys. HAD to make sure it tasted ok. LOL. But at least I didn't go for a second piece. It's a smallish loaf, too. I have another loaf on the counter, (yeah i know I shouldn't leave it out where I can see it) But I'm not tempted by it.
I found a neat recipe today to use bananas. You freeze sliced bananas and put them through the food processor until they become as creamy as soft serve ice cream! It's yummy and not a strong banana flavor. You can add cocoa, or peanut butter and cocoa. I even read of someone putting frozen peaches in with the banana. You can freeze the leftover, and when you want more, just take it out for a few minutes to soften it. I haven't tried my leftovers yet, so I don't know what consistency it will be then. I made two bananas this time. So I ate half of it. A great way to have your fruit! You could even feed it to babies as a sweet treat without the mommy guilt!
Friday, June 15, 2012
I am so excited! Everything y'all said to help me yesterday really helped!Including the HUGS you sent. Partly, I helped myself by writing down my thoughts and coming to the conclusion that I was worried about what my son thought of me. But the real help came when you mentioned that my life is what it is and if I just be myself, he'll love and respect me for it. Thanks for that, my spark friends.
Today, I haven't been snacking and munching over any weird emotions. I've felt like I could be myself in front of him. I'm having a successful day!
Last night, while we were sitting in the living room, my son commented to hubby,"Mom is always on her iPhone." My hubby agreed. But my son said,"that's ok, though." I defended myself saying I needed to track a lot, since I eat several small meals a day. I didn't include how I always check each email as it comes in (my phone dings for every email, and I get emails every time someone comments on my blog or a status post.) I like to text my kids and send emails to friends. I check the temp outside, I check pinterest, I look at Facebook throughout the day, there are so many things to do on an iPhone. But truthfully I feel a slave to it. This morning I had a bad dream that I dropped my cell phone and the screen shattered and I woke up crying about it! HELLO! Wake up call here...I am too attached to my phone for sure! I resolved to just check my emails twice a day, and Facebook once a day. I'm not even carrying it with me to every room and checking the time! I did take it on my walk this morning to time the walk and listen to my iPod. But usually I check every email that pops up or push notification from FB. Today, I feel FREEDOM! I'm finding other things to do with my time. I want to prove to myself that I don't HAVE to do all those things all of the time!
I'm planning on tracking twice a day. Once will be to see how many calories I have left for supper and my evening snack. I know how much to eat for breakfast and lunch, I usually eat about the same thing each day. But I need to be exact at the end of the day. Then after my last snack of the day I'll record the end of the day.
There's a SparkFriend I have who has lost some weight lately, at a quicker rate than she had been for quite some time. She attributed it to the fact she's gone for 3 to 5 freggies
each day. I tend to have 3 myself and am actually not losing. I tell myself I've reached my low and say I am content with that, but I really haven't reached my goal yet. Maybe if I increase my intake of freggies I'll see a difference. My son just started using a juicer. It is at our house for now. I don't like the taste of the juice he's making, but I'm sure if I find a different recipe, I might actually like it. I don't know, I'm just toying with the idea for now. Fact is, he's probably going to take it with him tomorrow. It belongs to my son in Hawai'i. It cost hundreds of dollars so I can't picture my hubby going out and buying one for us, but stranger things have happened.
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