Monday, April 23, 2012
I am on top of the world. . .
for more than one reason...yet foremost on my mind is the way my moods settled down now that a bit of time has passed since our trip. I'm sure the emotionalism I had related a lot to how sensitive my system is to taking my Psych meds on a strict time schedule. The changes I made for a week effected my mood, and now after 11 days, I can say I've officially settled down. Moodiness may not be a big deal to some people, but when you have bipolar disorder, you learn to tune in to all the little things, to be sure you catch a depression or mania before it gets full blown. I believe I'm out of the woods. I can safely say that I wouldn't hesitate to make the trip again. This was a big test and I passed!
Also, I gained weight on the trip. Around 5 pounds, and I have lost all but 1 pound of it again. I'm super happy about that. It's taking discipline and getting back to my regular routine.
My sleep schedule finally righted itself, but it did take until yesterday to feel like I'm back on my regular schedule. It was definitely worse than the Spring Ahead, Fall Back time changes which are hard enough!
I've struggled with motivation to exercise, but I'm getting encouragement from my hubby and all of you. I got so darn much walking done in Hawaii that I'm having to do other things beside walking to keep my interest up.
I hope you all have a great night, and a sparking good Tuesday!
Friday, April 20, 2012
Last night after dinner my hubby asked if I wanted to go for a walk. I've been real lazy and not wanting to do much since we walked SO much in Hawaii. But I've been only having an average of 7000 steps this week and decided to push myself. After all, if he is going to OFFER to go on a walk with me, why would I turn him down!! That would be counter productive to my goals. He wanted to walk to a grocery store which is only 30 minutes walk away, but we got to one road and there is no cross walk and the cars travel 50 mph there, and it was a busy time of day. Plus both sides of the road had no sidewalk. This city doesn't make it easy for pedestrians. In Hawaii, everybody walks or uses busses. Each intersection has lighted crossing signs for pedestrians. And cars heed the walkers. I wish it were like that here. I'd have more options on places to walk.
So we didn't cross the street, but had a 50 minute walk. That was a good thing. My steps equalled 11,500. Yay!
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Had a good workout yesterday doing a made up circuit/interval routine. Sure gets the heart rate up and is fun because I can do a different routine each time I do it....no boredom. Good aerobic workout and ST all in one. Saves time.
Wednesday, I weighed myself again. I had weighed on Monday. I have a rule to only weigh once a week, but this week I needed to be encouraged, and I felt like I'd possibly lost something. Sure it was just a pound, how could I notice that?! But it was a very important pound for me...shedding my vacation weight is foremost on my mind.
I started having gastritis, which I've had before, and get when I eat too many rich foods. So the trip probably brought it on. I have to eat a bland diet for a few days till it settles down. That will probably help my weight loss, but I may have a hard time consuming enough calories to be in my range. Yogurt, toast, bananas, rice, crackers, things without any acid (coffee is out and so are the more acidic fruits, fats, too) Any one who has any suggestions, if you've had gastritis, let me know. I don't want to go too low on my calories.
Have been kinda depressed. I know I'm missing my son, his wife, and my granddaughter. They are the most gentle, loving and quiet family in our family. I am so relaxed when I'm around them. My husband and I are rather quiet. I used to be more explosive but I've mellowed. We are talking about going back in 4 months, if my husband doesn't get one of the jobs he's applying for at the University my son attends.
Yesterday I printed out some photos I took while visiting them. It helped quite a bit to have photos I could hold onto and look at to remember the good time. Sent some to my mother, too. She and Dad love to have pics of the great-grands and my kids. I know I love receiving pics of my grandchildren. Most of them come via text message. That's ok, I can store them in my iPhone and print directly from there. I wish printer color ink wasn't so expensive. I should go get them developed once I put them on my computer. That's a couple more steps, but it would be cheaper.
Again, if anyone has any suggestions for food while having gastritis, please post for me.
I hope you all don't mind my rambling about my moods; I consider you all friends. And as a friend I will gladly be there to listen to you!
Monday, April 16, 2012
Well, hello to reality. I finally jumped on the scale. I waited a few days, until my usual Monday weigh in day. 4.5 pounds is ok I guess. Not much I can do about it now except lose it. I did my best and had 4 days out of 7 of eating within budget. Lots of salt in the food and surprisingly not so many veggies and fruits being served. I got some smoothies and some cabbage dishes. We ate out every meal. with no way to accurately measure calories. My son got the picture quickly that I only wanted one sweet per day and we stuck to that.
I did get to exercise every day. Only thing I didn't do was ST, even though I brought bands with me. I couldn't do my push-ups on the hardwood floor of the Inn, and just bagged it instead of even thinking about doing wall push ups. I just kind of abandoned the ST. We were at a B&B so there was no fitness room. The salt water pool was nice though.
I am really thankful we got to make this trip. My husband wants to move there, though there isn't much chance of that happening. I'd be happy with just visiting there a few more times while my son lives there the next two years until he graduates. I know we are going for graduation at least.
I went for a swim today. It felt good to get back to doing a good work out. I had taken two days off as I was adjusting to new sleep and eating patterns. I adjusted rather easily. My appetite is low, and I'm less focused on "when do I get to eat next?" I think I felt pressured into eating things I normally wouldn't choose (my son wanted me to try all kinds of things that weren't appetizing to me) I managed to find things that I liked, but still, it wasn't my usual diet. So now I'm laid back and content to not be forced into eating. I wish it would stay like this, but I'm sure I'll get back into old habits of obsessing over wanting the next morsel of food I can eat. BUT maybe I realized there's more to life than food. There's relationships to build, nature to enjoy, and just plain letting life give me pleasure.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Well, back to life in Charlotte. I miss paradise already. I especially miss my son and DIL, and little Ingrid. We had such a good visit that we would probably move there if my son was planning on staying there after he gets his PhD. At any rate, I think we will be taking a couple of more trips there in the next two years before he graduates.
The worst part of the trip was trying to sleep in the plane on the way back. I had almost bought one of those neck support pillow, but didn't . I think it would've helped.
I missed weigh in day while there and I really don't look forward to this coming Monday when I will weigh myself. I can feel my clothes are tighter, so I anticipate a gain, but I hopefully won't beat myself up over that because I know I did my best to eat well and exercised daily while there.
I conquered two fears while there. I was fearful of actually swimming (doing actual strokes) in the ocean. Two of the beaches were calm ones where the water didn't splash into your mouth when trying to take a breath. I thought I'd hate it when getting salt water in my mouth, as I'd experienced it before. But it didn't bother me. I was able to actually swim a few laps. It helped that my son and DIL swam with me. My hubby always watched the baby so we could be in the water together. He didn't even bring a swimsuit to Hawaii! He was planning all along to be with Ingrid.
I also had been afraid of snorkeling, since when I was a kid I'd tried it and always got water in my mask and therefore up my nose. My DIL took me out and taught me how to do it. I still got water in my mask and up my nose, and even panicked the first time it happened. I got out of the water and decided that I wasn't going to try it anymore. My son convinced me to try again with him this time.(later they told me that I had such a defeated look on my face that they couldn't let me quit...I'm thankful they didn't) I did it and grew in confidence and relaxed better and did a better job of not breathing through my nose, which is how the water gets into the mask. It is not easy to breathe completely out of your mouth. I got over my fear, and realized that all I had to do was stand up and get the water out of the mask and start over. It was worth it, the fish were beautiful. I saw a sea snake and some urchins as well as several colorful fish of all different sizes.
We snorkeled on our last day there, was a great way to end the trip.
Today I took a day off to recover from the night flight. (Hard to sleep on a plane) Getting back on a normal eating schedule, and relaxing after the go-go-go of the visit.
One day while there, I went swimming with my pedometer in my board shorts pocket. Oops! I have taken an average of my steps each of the last 6 weeks, and I naturally average 10,000-11,000 a day. But I think that is partly because wearing the pedometer every day motivates me to make more steps in a day. So my husband recognized that and took me today to buy a new one. I will start tomorrow with recording my daily steps again.
Thank you for all your encouragement and support when I needed it most while on my trip. Have a great weekend!
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