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Turning out to be an awesome day!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Didn't end up getting out for a walk or a swim yesterday. Went to help my daughter with her kids so she could go to the dr for her bronchitis. Had to work in the evening. Wasted whatever other time I had available in the day.

So, today, being that it's a beautiful day outside, I got out and took a 90 minute walk. The breathless kind of walk. Had 13,000 steps by 12:30. Sure worked up an appetite. I ate a whole grain bread/egg salad sandwich, made with fat free Miracle Whip. Yum. Then, still hungry I had a whole wheat english muffin with a slice of cheddar melted on top. Yum again. Here I sit with my stomach growling only a half hour after I ate all that. I think I need some freggies. Will have to do something about that in a minute.

This morning I made the observation that I've totally transformed my breakfast eating habits. Before, I would have a bowl of cereal and that was it. Now I usually have cereal, greek yogurt, and fruit, sometimes 2 servings. Around 300-350 calorie meal. I feel like I doing something great for my body. I also have 4- 8oz glasses of water.

Right now I'm sitting out on the deck my husband built last spring. it's 1:30 and 77 degrees out. Supposed to be around 82 today. Loving the weather. But I must go have something more to eat. Healthy of course! I don't want to waste my calories on something I'll regret later.

  
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SHERIO5 3/14/2012 2:55PM

    Great breakfast!

Good work on getting in the walking outside! You weather sounds just like mine...I've been cleaning house, but think I'll take a long walk after lunch because it's just too nice to workout inside!

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IATEINSPIRATON 3/14/2012 1:44PM

  Sounds like you are on top of your game and on top of the world. Spring is wonderful! I am so glad I stumbled across your blog because the energy it exudes is contagious. I just started a program and have over 50 pounds to lose. I think you have inspired me to make it through day 1!

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What do others think of my body? Who cares!

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Hi everyone,

Had an appointment with my Dr today to check BP and get a lab sheet. My BP was great! 116/60. Walking and losing weight must be doing a lot of good! Tomorrow I should go to the lab to get my fasting cholesterol test done. It usually runs around 200, but was up a little last time, 5 months ago.

Have had some thoughts about my goals. At church this week, I got a motivation to not be so wrapped up in what others thought about my body. That's not what the talk was about, but I did get an impression that the way I put so much focus on my weight and how I think others are thinking about me is not relevant to the big picture of my life. Yes, taking care of my body and treating it with care is vital. Taking care of the body that God gave me is important to him. But I don't need to be focused on my weight since I am in a healthy range. My BF% is on target, and I'm feeling strong. I'm happy with my weight. Sure a few more pounds could go, but I'm deciding whether that is as important to me as eating well and keeping fit.

I will probably go on tracking food since I have done that since the year 2000. It's a habit that keeps me honest about what I'm putting in my body and helps me see where I can improve if I start gaining back the lost weight. Is that being obsessive? I don't have the confidence that I can guess or instinctively eat at an appropriate level. How many of you plan to continue to track food after you lose the weight? How do you effectively do that? I'd love to know.

I don't want to have in the back of my mind the thought that "if I continue to eat well, and exercise, I will probably lose more weight." Then I will get all wrapped up in that facet which I'm trying to avoid. My husband actually said I should keep trying to reach my goal. When I started SP I set my goal at 140. Then as I started to lose, I got greedy and wanted to get skinnier. As you get older. skinny may not look good on everybody. I'm talking about model skinny. A fit person has muscles, not bulk but I mean is filled out in just the right places. My adjusted goal became 130 and now I'm thinking of readjusting it to 140 or 135 at the lowest.

I tried to think about whether I'm just settling and feeling ready to quit losing out of being weary of hoping every week that I've lost another pound. But I think everyone needs to come to the point where she or he is happy with the progress they've made and with the person they've become. I finally can look in the mirror and see a normal body. One that is taken care of. I no longer am letting myself go, as I had been.

The new me cares what goes into my mouth and has developed healthy habits. It's normal for me to consume what I used to consider mass quantities of water. I don't obsess over the scale, I responsibly get on weekly to keep myself in check. To top it off I don't get down on myself if I don't lose or if I have a slight fluctuation.

I think I'll be ok now. I'll keep Sparking. I want to enjoy this family. I want to be encouraged and be an encourager.

Update:

A note to those who have prayed for my friend Coan, who's leg was crushed by a car; She is now in Rehab after having had three surgeries. She's getting her sense of humor back and I've seen her getting back on Facebook. I went to see her twice, and am encouraged to see her looking better. She has a long road ahead of her. But I thank you for your prayers and concern.


  
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AUTUMNBRZ 3/14/2012 8:22AM

    Everyone has given you such good advice! :) What smart folks us Sparkies are. ;)

I might still track after I reach my goal because the last TWO TIMES-grr I reached goal, I gained it back. I stopped tracking, I stopped exercising. What a shocker that it returned eh? LOL

Skinny is not a goal of mine but healthy is. I will naturally look a lot nicer with 44lbs gone but skinny is not my goal. I actually find skinny icky. It is true. Beauty is subjective and perfection is unattainable.

If you are happy with you then you are all set!

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_JODI404 3/13/2012 8:39PM

    Lori,

I've seen a lot of people make adjustments to their goal weight as they approach reaching it. My original goal weight was set based on a healthy BMI. Then I wanted to be a few pounds below that so I wouldn't go back to "overweight" with just one or two pound gain. I honestly have never worried about the scale going down. I get really excited when it does... but I never had any expectations. I just kept making good choices, and the weight just continued to come off in response. It was never stressful. I am now 10 lbs below what I had set as my goal weight. I'm very happy at this weight. I'm surprised to be here... I would have never thought it possible! It seems like a comfortable weight for my body. I am maintaining it easily just by living the same "lifestyle" choices that brought me here in the first place. I am maintaining within a 3lb range, which is comfortable.

I think that you must decide if you have reached the place where you are now really happy with your body and your health.
It really sounds like you have.
If your weight is in the healthy range, your BF% is on target, you are feeling strong; and you are happy with your current weight. You look in the mirror and see a normal body, one that is well taken care of. You are, and will continue eating well and keeping fit. That is what this is all about!

I think it's human nature to worry about what others think, and to compare ourselves to others. But ~ we really should NOT do that!! We are all so unique! You can get input and opinions, but ultimately it is all about how YOU feel about YOU... and of course only you can decide that. And, you are always free to change your mind again in the future, if you are so inclined.

I'm really glad to hear that your friend Coan is improving... that is great news. I'll continue to keep her in my prayers as she continues to heal and recover.

You look fabulous and have done a great job in creating a really healthy lifestyle! You are an awesome, supportive SparkFriend, and I'm glad to hear you'll be sparking... no matter how you define "Goal"!

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SHERIO5 3/13/2012 5:08PM

    I love this blog, Lori!

I too am evaluating where I am at with my weight loss, maybe being withing the healthy range for your weight AND continuing to eat well and exercise should be the ultimate finish line...with no real finish!

Your BP is impressive, and you should be super proud to have accomplished this!!!

Thanks for your honesty here. I too have been wondering if "skinny" is what I should be shooting for...I know it doesn't always look so great as we get older...it's hard to know...but it sounds like you are feeling pretty good about yourself and your health, so... emoticon!!!

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AMANDASHRINKING 3/13/2012 1:08PM

    you diff. push and encourage me lady I love ya and great job on the BP I know personaly I dont track food anymore just to time consuming and Im having enough trouble sparking but you have to do what works for you...Also Im glad your friends doing alittle better thats so sad.

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J3N1971 3/13/2012 12:38PM

    Keep on keepin' on!

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Update on Coan, fellow Sparker

Wednesday, March 07, 2012

Just a note to update you on Coan's progress. She had surgery Monday to get plates and screws put in her femur. The dr was pleased with how well she's healing, but after surgery she had a hard time breathing and ended up with pneumonia. I visited her this morning, and found her to be really out of it. I had called and asked her if she wanted any visitors, and she said yes, but once I got there she was having difficulties, and I only stayed a few minutes so she could rest.

She is a fellow Sparker. She hadn't been on in a few months, but what does that matter in the grand scheme of things?

I am sad for her and trust that God will answer our prayers for her and her family.

Thank you for your continued support

  
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SHERIO5 3/9/2012 10:11AM

    Thanks for the update, Lori. Prayers.

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_JODI404 3/7/2012 8:59PM

    Thanks for the update, I'm glad to hear the healing is going well.

I'll definitely to continue to pray for her recovery and healing.

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BLUE42DOWN 3/7/2012 6:38PM

    emoticon and thoughts for her, emoticon for you for being there for her.

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HDHAWK 3/7/2012 3:35PM

    Sending more prayers! Hopefully she'll be feeling better soon.

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Working on staying on track today.

Monday, March 05, 2012

I was off track since Saturday. Ever since I heard about my friend Coan's accident. While I was off track it felt like I was messing up for a week rather than just those two days. The days seemed endless, when my mood was "off" and my eating and effort to exercise sucked. But they were only TWO DAYS!

I can do this. I can get it back together. I woke up with resolve to move on. My weight was up a little, but I'm not going to let that get me down. I can get back to my healthy lifestyle and continue on making progress, and I WILL reach my goals.

Today, so far I'm
ON TRACK with water: 12 glasses by 2:oo pm.
ON TRACK with exercise: had a 30 minute swim and the motivation to get my walk after typing this.
ON TRACK with ST: I've done 4 sets of 55 push-ups, as well as some planks, crunches, bicep curls, etc.
ON TRACK with my pedometer: about 45oo steps so far, almost half of my goal for the day.ON TRACK with eating: no sweets yet, (I allow 1 per day so I won't binge) Calories, between 550 and 900 left for the day, which is great considering it's date night and we'll eat out.
ON TRACK with my sleep: had my usual 9 hrs last night.
ON TRACK with mood: I'm not down or lacking motivation. I'm feeling great!

Here I go, Off to take a walk!

  
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_JODI404 3/5/2012 10:14PM

    Sounds like you are totally back on track!! Way to Go!!

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SHERIO5 3/5/2012 3:51PM

    I'm glad you are feeling back on track today. You have met some awesome goals already! Keep in mind, your goals are pretty big, it's always ok to adjust especially during times of stress or illness...and then readjust when things are more "normal". I think you are doing a great job!

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Sad News about a close friend. I need support! Help...

Saturday, March 03, 2012

I got such horrifying news yesterday that I actually nearly passed out. I never react so strongly to news like this and I never had something like this happen to someone I feel so much love for.

My young friend, in her 20s, was at an IHop waiting outside for her dad. A car (put in forward instead of reverse,) jumped the curb and sidewalk and pinned her to the wall!!! She almost lost her leg. She has had two surgeries by now, but I just heard about it at work, where I know her from. The girls there were like "didn't you hear what happened to Coan?" and then they told me. That's when I had a strong emotional reaction.

I hurt for her and will go see her now that she's out of ICU. I will feel better once I see her, I think. Please pray for her to get full use of her leg. She has a wedding planned for next spring, just started grad school and just started a new job as a deputy clerk at the courthouse.

I just had to share all that with people who care about me.

The repercussions of this were that I, at 9:30 last night on my way home from work, got chick-fil-a chicken strips and a shake. I had already had all I needed calorie wise for the day. I never eat at night, and I certainly didn't need it. Emotional eating at it's worst. I slept fine, though I would normally get heartburn from an indiscretion like that. I woke up in less than 8 hrs and couldn't stop thinking about Coan. She's a strong girl, and has faith, so I'm sure she'll be alright. But I woke up with an attitude of "who cares" about my breakfast. I ste some of my usual, minus the protein in yogurt I usually have. I've had 6 glasses of water by 8 o'clock. That's a good sign. I took a 5 minute walk, then it started raining so I walked 5 more min. to get home. 10 minute walk that started out to be planned for 30. I'm in a funk.

I'm thinking about what I can bring to her when I visit her this afternoon. Something from Hallmark, since I have to work today until 3:30.

Love that girl...

  
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HUNGRYWOMAN2 3/4/2012 6:43AM

    One of the best things you can do for her is to take care of yourself. In this way you can be at your best to be fully present for her.
She is very fortunate to have people who care so much. A true friend is rare.
I will pray for her and her family-wishing her a speedy recovery. I will also keep you in my prayers. You, will be guided through these difficult moments. emoticon emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 3/4/2012 2:04AM

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_JODI404 3/3/2012 11:25PM

    Wow, that is a terrible accident!! I will definitely be praying for your friend.

I hope things are going better after you got to visit her today.

The emotional eating is not that unusual in such extraordinary circumstances as these. Don't worry too much about it.... it's not a normal thing for you and it is nothing in the grand scheme of what is really important in life such as your friend's survival and recovery.

I hope you are doing better emotionally now that you have had time to process this shocking news.

Sending you hugs and positive thoughts.

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TRUEREINVENTED 3/3/2012 10:18PM

    Just another reminder to never take anything for granted--and that your life can change in a new york minute.
Tell your friend that complete strangers are praying for her.
L

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YIWEN39 3/3/2012 9:34PM

    I hope your friend is OK. That is such a terrible accident. It's good that you can be there for her. Take care of yourself so you can be strong for her.And don't worry about one little emotional eating incident. It happens.
Thinking of you and your friend,
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HDHAWK 3/3/2012 10:53AM

    Take care of yourself so you can be there for her. What a terrible accident. She is young and strong and can overcome this with prayers and the help of her family and friends. Remember that is could have been much worse. She is lucky to be here. All the best.

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GBELLOUS 3/3/2012 10:30AM

    Wow, what an awful and terrifying experience for your friend. Your love and support for her will will be a huge comfort to her. Don't beat yourself up for eating something bad, it happens. Just get back on track. If you will be at the hospital for a long time be sure and toss some healthy snacks and water in a bag. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your friend and her family! emoticon

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NANCYRUBIO 3/3/2012 10:14AM

    Sorry love, you do not need support. Your friend needs all the support you can give her. Put your feelings aside and think about her, realize how much she needs all the friends she has and prayers.

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LADYIRISH317 3/3/2012 10:14AM

    That's terrible, but thank God your friend survived! Sending prayers for her AND you.

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SHERIO5 3/3/2012 10:10AM

    Wow. Terrible news. I can understand why you felt you needed to emotionally eat...

Today is a new day though, and you will be such a comfort to your friend I'm sure. Remember, when you eat well you are caring for yourself, and you will have so much more to give to others when you do that! (need to keep telling myself this one as well!)



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CAT609 3/3/2012 9:07AM

    Just by being there will be such comfort to her. It will show that you care. We will pray for her, too. If she is still in ICU, they may not let her have anything in the room like flowers. My heart and prayers go out to her. Stay strong. You can do it. emoticon

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