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Friday, January 27, 2012

I am stressed out being at Shirley's today. I'm here for 5 hours. She has a concussion from her fall the other day. When you're 90, healing takes longer. Pray if you will for her to have a speedy recovery. I'm worried that she'll fall while I'm here, since she is so dizzy. I don't want to be here. She is resting and all I have to do here is read a book or Spark on my iPhone.

I'm so hungry and I have to wait to dig in to my lunch till she eats, too. Otherwise I won't have anything to do while she eats. We sit and read while we eat. I know that's not advisable, to read while you eat, but that's what she does and she wants me to read too so she doesn't feel like she has to have conversation.

I had two of her hershey kisses. I didn't crave any more, but I did want to EAT SOMETHING!
I was in tears from the stress and really hungry. I drank a couple glasses of water.

That was all earlier.

Now, the day with Shirley is done, though I'm still worrying about her. I left before her other help came. I could've stayed longer, but I was eager to get out of there. I know I should feel sorry for her. Instead I feel burdened and stressed. I have no nursing training. I'm just her companion. As she ages it will be harder for me to be with her. But we've become friends and It is more than a business arrangement. When I left she kept saying she was afraid to be alone. She is quite dizzy and could easily fall. It's just been 48 hours since her fall.

I feel guilty for leaving her. But in 45 minutes I have to go to my other job. One time I tried to work closer to the time I had to go to Hallmark, but I was frazzled at Hallmark and had a hard time shifting gears from one job to the next. I didn't want that to happen today, so I left Shirley's at 3. Though my usual hours are 10-2, I stayed extra for obvious reasons.I just couldn't bring myself to stay with shirley till 4. I work at 5 at hallmark. So I've been sitting in a coffee shop with my journal and computer. Trying to get some things done that I'll be too tired to do when I get home at 9:30.

I'm proud of myself that, though I was sure I wouldn't get a workout in today, I biked for 20 minutes before work this morning. Yay. I didn't get to exercise yesterday, so I didn't want to go two days in a row without doing something for my body.

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_JODI404 1/28/2012 11:15PM


This sounds so stressful. I understand how you feel, you care about her, but it's a lot of responsibility to be her companion when there are health concerns like this. I hope that she will be OK and is healing well.

You did so well with eating only 2 kisses and drinking water. I don't think I could do so well myself! Glad you were able to get the bike done in the AM! I'm sure that helped you feel better on such a trying day.

Hope you are able to relax some this weekend. Put on some nice relaxation music and de-stress.

Take care!

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SHERIO5 1/28/2012 12:15PM

    I'm with everyone else, very difficult day, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have stopped with 2 kisses! Good job!

You are a very compassionate person, so be sure to take care of yourself during your "off" time, or make some time for you...you really do need to take care so you don't have "secondary stress" from caring for your friend....that's just as real.


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MISSLISA1973 1/27/2012 7:44PM

    emoticon There was a lot of stress today. No wonder you felt like crying. I can totally relate to you being hungry. I'm not sure I can relate to stopping after just two kisses when hungry. That is amazing!

emoticonHugs to you as you go through this with your friend.

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MARTHASPARKS 1/27/2012 4:42PM

    That was a tough day and the kind that is hard to shake off. Hope you are feeling better now.

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ANGELA482 1/27/2012 4:37PM

    Things got tough but, it sounds like you are getting it done... I know that stress is a really hard thing to deal with. I've lost that battle many times. I am still learning to deal with it myself. But, some situations can't be helped.. You just have to learn how to get through..And, it sounds to me like you did just that!... You even stayed later than you were required too.. You did a great job.. Just hang in there..

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An adrenaline pumping kind of day. . .

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Strange day today.

On my way to work I got thinking that I may have forgotten to take my medicine this morning. I got to work and told the woman who I am companion to that I had forgotten to take my medicine. She encouraged me to go home. That's 1/2 hour round trip. We have a flexible arrangement so I didn't feel too bed doing just that. I got home and found out that I had taken it after all. Oh, well!

Then I took her to the nail salon. She's 90 and can't cut her toenails, so she likes to go get a pedicure so they will cut them for her. After she got done drying her nails, she put on her socks and shoes. I turned my back just for a second and she tried to stand from the chair, which was a chair on wheels, that also swivels. The chair flew out from underneath her and she screamed and went down, also bumping her head on another chair. She sat up ok but was really shaken up. She took her pulse (without looking at the time, she apparently can judge how fast it's going without a watch) and at first it was rapid and it settled down ok after that. She can't get off the floor and I couldn't help her because of my bad back. She had me call her daughter who lives nearby. Then she said her chest hurt and I was concerned about her heart. I asked her several times if she wanted me to call 911. Eventually, before her daughter arrived, she had me call 911. The rescue people got there shortly after Margey did. I took Shirley's car to her house and picked up my car and went on to the hospital. I was a little shaken as well.

At the hospital, I hung around long enough to be sure everyone got the clear picture of what I saw happen. They wanted to be sure she didn't have a mini stroke or get a concussion, since she was acting confused. It was 1:00 by the time I left the hospital, leaving Shirley there with her daughter and son-in-law. It's 5:00 now and I have no idea how she's doing. Probably fine.

When I left, (my lunch bag got left at Shirley's) I was hungry. I stopped for a bathroom break at a coffee shop I frequent. Got myself a cup of iced coffee (it is in the 60's today) and was tempted by and bought a Krispy Bar. Scarfed that down in the car and headed home. When I got home my adrenaline was still running high and I wanted to eat sweets. I'm sure the krispy bar triggered a hankering for more sugar. I looked in the fridge and saw the fudgey chocolate cake slice I'd bought my husband the night before. I said NO to myself and opened up the freezer, thinking I might have a vegetarian corn dog. But better yet, i spotted a chicken fried rice by Lean Cuisine and decided on that. It was only 260 calories. It satisfied me and I broke that craving for sweets.

I started the day with a 45 minute walk outside. 40 degrees at the time. At the hospital, I got lost trying to find my way back to my car. I don't know how to get around that hospital very well. I've only been there a few times and it's a maze. I must've walked another 15 minutes just trying to find my car!

I hope I have a nice quiet evening. . . .

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CALICO_CHLOE 1/26/2012 5:51PM

    You had an amazing day. You helped an old lady and got in your exercise in more ways than you planned. Strange things seem to happen for a reason Keep up the good job on those good choices

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_JODI404 1/25/2012 9:13PM

    Sounds like a crazy day! I hope that Shirley will be OK. Falls can be surprisingly hard to recoup from at that age.

Congrats on making a healthy choice instead of stress/emotional eating!!! I'm proud of you, way to go!

Hope you are able to relax and unwind tonight.

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BLUE42DOWN 1/25/2012 7:42PM

    Hope everything winds up okay for the woman you're a companion for.

emoticon overcoming those cravings in a healthy way!

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SHERIO5 1/25/2012 6:08PM


No wonder you are wound up! What a day!

Yes, wishing you a calm, relaxing, healthy evening! Good for you making a good lunch choice!

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The art opening was wonderful!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

I had a great time going to the gallery to see my daughter and son-in-law's artwork on display. My husband had me take pictures of the ones he wants to buy. We love displaying their work in our home, and though they would loan us pieces to hang, we want to be sure these pieces stay in the family. (Usually at art shows you're not supposed to take pictures at the gallery, but they let us)

At the gallery there was live music by a guitarist/singer. They served coffee or wine and had delicate treats from a local French coffee/pastry shop. I didn't drink anything, but I'd saved calories for a sweet treat and had one tiny delectable goodie. YUM!

It was raining out but there was a good turnout. I didn't talk to my daughter yet to see what pieces they sold. Hopefully not the ones we have our eyes on! They even displayed a piece that their 2.5 year old son contributed to. That's one of the ones we want, of course!

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_JODI404 1/22/2012 10:56AM

    Sounds like a wonderful time!! I hope you get the pieces that you want! emoticon

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SHERIO5 1/22/2012 8:58AM

    Awww! How fun!!

Hope you get the artwork you want! But how great that their work is selling! Amazing!

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BLUE42DOWN 1/21/2012 11:03PM


Art galleries are great to check out. To go to one that your own child has contributed to makes it just that much more special.

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HDHAWK 1/21/2012 9:34PM

    Sounds like you had a great time!

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I rarely "go out" other than to eat out. But tonight. . .

Friday, January 20, 2012

I'm doing something fun with hubby. We are going to a little part of Charlotte, called NoDa. It is full of galleries for local artists. Two artist we know....our daughter Emily and her husband Joel, are showing art there. They paint. We will go to see new paintings they have done that we haven't yet seen. They have a 2.5 yr old and an 11 month old, and it's amazing that they found time over the last month to create all this new artwork. Tonight is their opening in this gallery, so I got the night off from work especially so I could be there.

We need to be better about doing things other than eat out as our time together. Sometimes we take walks together, so that's a good thing. We sit in front of the tv every night. I am on the computer or writing in my journals. I rarely participate in the watching of the tube. But still, I'm sitting on my butt. Lately, I've started getting down on the floor and doing crunches and push-ups every so often so I don't sit all night.

Well, it's time to get ready to go!

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SHERIO5 1/21/2012 10:35AM

    I'm right there with you, my husband and I need to do other things besides eating!! We do more when the weather is nice...but still.

How fun to go to an art show, and your daughter and son-in-law's too!! Wow! I'm impressed!

Have fun!

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MY_HEALTH_BABY 1/20/2012 7:07PM

    Good for you! Enjoy your time out :)

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HDHAWK 1/20/2012 7:04PM

    That sounds like fun! Enjoy!

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_JODI404 1/20/2012 6:55PM

    Sounds like a fun evening out! Have a great time!

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Slow start. . . strong finish!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

I have the whole day off today. So I slept in. (that turned out to be a mistake). Then I decided to take my time with my morning routine. I was kinda depressed today. I think I had too much sleep. (10.5 hrs!) I think I also do better when I know I've got to work at squeezing in my routine tasks. (I have less time to fool around with if I'm working that day.) I need to be grateful for days off. And plan something fun...me time. Since I dilly dallied, it got kinda late fast! It was 11:30 before I went for my swim.

I really really didn't want to swim today. It felt cold in the house and I remember how cold the pool feels on days like this. I just had to force myself to go. Once I was at the Y and walking up to the water, I almost started to cry. I was NOT wanting to get in the cold water! Sure it's around 85 degrees in the water, but to a 98 degree body, that feels chilly. I got in and brrrr I just took off swimming so I would warm up. In a few minutes my heart rate was up and I was warm. I swam for 40 minutes, 44 laps. In the last week I noticed I've increased the amt of laps I can do in 40 minutes, from 40 to 44. When I finished, the endorphins kicked in and I felt great. What started out to be an aimless day, became a productive day.

Next, while in the locker room putting on my too big pants, I decided that I would have some fun and go to a store where I could try on jeans to see what size I really am. I have one size 8s that fit, but I think they are cut big. I do know my size 12s are too big, and I don't have any 10s for some reason. I think, since I fit those 8s that different brands size their clothes differently. Anyone else find that to be true?

Just as I was going to leave the parking lot at the Y, I got a call from my daughter Emily. Her son was needing to go to the Dr, and wanted to see if I was free to babysit her napping baby while she went to the Dr with Ajax. It's also hard to juggle a 2.5 yr old boy and an 11 month old baby at a Dr's office, so I was glad to help. That decided my afternoon for me.

I may not have been able to go have the fun I was looking forward to, but my day was rewarding in different way. I can look forward to my next chance to go try on clothes.


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_JODI404 1/19/2012 7:54PM

    Sometimes the hardest part of working out is dragging yourself there... then if you can just start, you almost always feel great once you are done!!

Kudos to you for going and getting it done when you felt so uninspired about it. And for increasing your laps too!

I just love sleeping in any chance I can get. I understand though, it can be a productivity killer.

Different brands definitely have different cuts and fits. When I went down sizes, I would have to try on 3 or 4 different brands to make sure it was "real". I really was so stunned I couldn't believe it.. but Gap, Tommy H, DKNY, Calvin Klein all agreed. I also like trying on a variety for comparison to get a great fit. I just happen to love Gap right now, but every one is individual in their tastes.

Glad that although it wasn't what you had planned, it was a rewarding day off. I'm looking forward to some major "Me" time this weekend myself.

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