Saturday, December 18, 2010
O.K. so for me the best way to work through this is to talk about. So here goes, Back in September I was contacted by a magazine to do my success story about how my dogs had helped me lose 165 pounds without having surgery. Of course I was thrilled and wanted to tell everyone who would listen about my good news. I was asked to please keep it a secret until the article actually came out. So as hard as it was for me, I did as requested. Of course all my family and close friends knew what was about to happen. First I was contacted by the editor with a long list of questions to answer. Then in October I was contacted by a photographer who was assigned to take my photos. I was asked to wear certain clothes and wear make-up so I went out shopping for just the right outfit. I don't normally wear makeup so I had to get that too. I even got new coats for my dogs who would also be photographed. I met the photographer, Jim and his assistant at the dog park where my photo shoot was scheduled to take place.The shoot was so much fun and all it went very well. So then it was just time to wait until the January issue came out.
Finally the time came for the magazine to hit the news stands. I rushed out that very day to see my story in print. I flipped through it looking for my picture. I got the the last page and it wasn't there. I could not believe it so I slowly went through the magazine page by page. I am so disappointed, and embarrassed. It that moment I felt like grabbing food and lots of it. There I was right there in the store but I made a decision that I would not revert back to old habits. In the past I would deal with my problems by eating. I would eat to somehow punish myself for not being good enough. Now I know that kind of thinking got weighing over 300 pounds. So instead of turning to food, I have decided that the disappoint will pass and life will go on. I know myself that I am a success whether I am featured in a magazine or not. I am not going to turn it into a setback. I am going to continue moving forward. Thanks Sparkpeople.com for always being there for me.