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A funny thing happened

Thursday, February 09, 2012

A funny thing happened this week. With the help of a new burst of resolve I adhered very closely to my program. I ate my planned meals, no deviations. I didn't have any in-between meal snacks. I didn't eat any candy. I didn't drink any soda. I exercised. And, I still had a good day.
I didn't:
-die of starvation from not snacking
-regret eating my packed lunch instead of fast food
-collapse from exhaustion from my workout
-fall asleep at my desk from lack of caffeine
-go into a chocolate deprivation shock
I did:
-have a great day
-feel good about myself and my choices
-got everything done and still had plenty of time for me after I worked out

So, now I know that those inner voices that tell me that I NEED chocolate, I NEED caffeine, I NEED a snack, I NEED fast food or I NEED to skip my workout are nonsense. I can have a perfectly happy & fulfilled day without any of those things.


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EAGLES_WINGS 2/14/2012 5:56AM

    You are making great strides. I still have a ways to go to get that careful. You inspire me! Thank you for your good word! Keep up the great work!
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LOLADUVALL 2/10/2012 9:03AM

    I think that is an excellent idea. :) :) :)

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1STATEOFDENIAL 2/9/2012 5:17PM

    Call your local bookstore and ask if they have the new EW mag and treat yourself to buying at least 1 (or all 3!) of the covers. My local barnes and noble put them out today and had covers 1 (I&N) and 3 (all 3) so I went there and got cover 3. Eeep!

I think you definitely deserve to treat yourself to something that will help you feel good but won't break your diet.

Good work! I'm so glad to see things coming together for you!
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Monday, January 16, 2012

For me, this blog is a personal record of the good things I've encountered during my journey. I want a place to record the things I feel good about. This way I can brag a little without annoying my friends, family and co-workers with every little high point of my weight-loss/becoming healthy journey. I can also come back and "relive the moment" whenever I need a little boost. I haven't written an entry lately because I haven't felt like there was anything good to talk about. I've been pretty stuck for the last month. I made a lot of concessions and excuses over the holidays. And, as a result my progress stalled. I didn't track my food every day, I wasn't exercising anymore, I wasn't preparing as many meals at home and I wasn't making the best choices. It's funny how quickly I can revert to the old habits. It is also interesting that I've had such a mental barrier around the weight of 230. Over the years I've lost weight a couple of times, got to 230, reverted back to my old ways, gained it back & added more weight. During my whole journey 230 loomed over me like a impenetrable fortress. I have been so afraid that I wouldn't make it to 230, or I'd just make it but gain the weight back. I find it very interesting that I made it past the dreaded 230 barrier...then stopped. I started to drift back to my old ways again...almost.

Luckily something is different this time. It isn't vanity (wanting to look better/skinnier) fueling my efforts this time. It isn't an intangible idea of possible health problems fueling my efforts this time. It isn't a willingness to please others (my doctor, my mother, my husband, my similarly weight-challenged friends) fueling my efforts this time. This time I am changing my life because of a real and measurable health risk (Diabetes). And moreover, I have changed my life and improved my health already. I refuse to stop, revert back to my old ways and virtually thumb my nose at the improvements I have made in my health. I'm already back on track and expect to see some forward progress on the scale by the end of the week. I'm tracking my food, I'm preparing most meals at home and I'm bringing back the exercise. I will not let some scary wall I created in my head stop me. If I built the wall I can dismantle it and turn it into a road to victory.

The scale is important, especially because the less I weigh, the more efficiently my body can use my insulin, keeping my blood sugars under control. However, it is not the only way to measure my progress. Although I may not have enjoyed seeing weight lost on the scale for about a month, I have had some small victories during that time. I made it through the Holiday season without gaining weight. I shopped at Eddie Bauer (warehouse store...with a coupon) for the first time in my life. Six months ago I wouldn't have been able to wear anything in the store. Today I don't even wear the largest size they carry. I can wear my wedding ring again. I haven't seen that on my finger since before my (8 year old) daughter was born. My blood sugar is normal and I was able to reduce my diabetes medication by half. I also had the confidence to go to a table of complete strangers at my co-worker's wedding and ask to take their picture. (I had guessed that they were my co-worker's friends from out of state and thought she might want their picture.) I painfully shy, so that was a big accomplishment for me.

I do look forward to being able to measure my progress with a smaller number on the scale soon. However, I am still proud of me for what I have accomplished.
Edited to add: I took my measurements today. And, oddly enough I'm 1/2 inch smaller in my hips, waist and thighs (1/4 inch in my arms). I know that the measuring tape will often move when the scale isn't for various reasons, but this was still unexpected because I had not been exercising like I should. Surprising, but I'll take it.

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LOLADUVALL 1/17/2012 9:52AM

    Sheri - No worries, I'm excited to meet you. Getting to know you a little online helps to take the edge off of the fear. I'll have to practice mustering up the courage to speak to those certain people. I'll work on that and should be in good shape by the time I need it.
Also, the weekly & daily goals have really helped me get back on track. It was a fabulous idea and I thank you for it. It is exciting to see my progress so far and I'm already thinking ahead to future goals.

BBEAUTYMAN - Thanks for the encouragement!! I appreciate it.

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1STATEOFDENIAL 1/17/2012 8:39AM

    No need to hold off on posting until you have something 'good' to say - you've seen some of my blogs and they're not always good. Blogging helps us get things out of our head and show others they're not alone if they feel like we do.

Though I think you should be bragging it up a little - you've been doing better and taking steps forward. It's so awesome to see how well you're doing! You'll bust through that 230 wall and find your way to a healthier life. I believe in you and think you have it in you to do even more incredible things. You've been meeting the challenges you've set for yourself and maybe that's a good way to approach it: meet the small challenges so you're not so overwhelmed by the bigger goals.

I'm proud to call you my sparkfriend and I look forward to meeting you at some point (and making sure you're not too shy to speak to some certain people hehe). You are an amazing woman and I can't wait to see your future accomplishments!
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BBEAUTYMAN 1/16/2012 10:32PM

    congratulations, you are doing an amazing job... keep up the great work emoticon

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Less Medicine!!!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

I had my doctor checkup last week and she is still pleased with my progress. So pleased, in fact, that she said that I could drop my Metformin (diabetes medication) from 1000 mg (2 pills) to 500 mg (1 pill) per day. She also said that if I keep losing the weight I could get off of the medication altogether. YAY me! I'm so happy to not only see the progress in my waistline, but to also see it in my health / bloodwork. I'm now very happy taking my pill every morning knowing I don't have to take another one that night. :-D I'm gery glad and proud of myself for doing what I needed to do to keep myself healthy.


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1STATEOFDENIAL 12/20/2011 11:42AM

You are doing so great! I'm so glad to hear this. Just think how much money you'll be saving - not just in possibly in food bills but in medications and health care expenses!

Keep working at it. I look forward to the day you tell us that you're off the meds completely (as I'm sure you are too!).

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I lost my daughter (in pounds)!

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

I've lost 56 pounds. My 8 year old daughter weighs 56 pounds. It is amazing to see a representation of how much more weight I was carrying on my body. Of course, the volume is not necessarily exactly the same, but it is close enough to give me a pretty good picture. I also know when I'm giving her a piggy back ride, that her extra weight is what I used to be carrying around every day. No wonder I was tired and had knee aches! I'm glad I look much better and feel much better without the weight of an extra person clinging to my stomach, butt and thighs.


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LOLADUVALL 12/8/2011 9:39AM

    I figured the title would be a little startling. :) Thanks for your comments and encouragement.

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1STATEOFDENIAL 12/7/2011 2:55PM

    The subject totally made me take a second look. haha Good work! It's incredible to think how much extra weight some people are carrying around and see that representation. As you said, giving her a piggy back ride reminds you how it used to feel with all the weight you USED TO have. Kind of a good reminder of why you don't want it back.

Keep up the great work!

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Thursday, December 01, 2011

Holiday parties / events make staying on track difficult, but not impossible.

I've slowly been training myself to not feel like I have to eat everything I want all at once. I've been doing a fairly good job of policing myself when I'm craving something. If I can fit it into that day's program, I indulge, track it and work it in. If it's late or I can't work it into that day I just tell myself that I'll work it in the next day. Then, the next day, if I still want it, I work that little indulgence into the day. More often than not, I'm over it by the next day anyways.

Holidays & holiday parties make the bargining with myself a lot more difficult. I'm sometimes faced with an overwhelming number of choices and I'm in situations where I can't postpone my cravings until the next day. I stumbled a bit over Thanksgiving. But, importantly, I'm back on track and I recognize what will be my stumbling block over the next few weeks. I'm going to try my best to make good choices for myself. I just have to remember that I'm doing this for my health & that is what is most important!


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LOLADUVALL 12/7/2011 11:37AM

    Thanks! That is a good idea. If I plan on an indulgence for every day
I'll probably not be so fixated on any one craving. Then, I can either have my portion-controlled treat, or I won't be interested and that's OK too. Sounds like a plan, thank you!

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1STATEOFDENIAL 12/1/2011 7:49PM

    Once you realize where your journey took a wrong turn then you can steer back onto the correct path. I think you have a great plan for how to handle cravings - often times they're gone after a few hours or a day.

Since you know for the next month there will be many overwhelming choices that will tempt you, what if you set aside 100 or 200 calories every other day to allow for an indulgence? If you don't need it that day, then you're doing great. Just an idea. I know I'm very tempted all day long to eat things I shouldn't eat, and when I'm surrounded by temptation non-stop I can only hold out so long before I give in and have something I shouldn't and I pay for it. If I could give in to small things every few days it would be easier for me, so I was thinking it might help you.

Still, 54 pounds lost is incredible! You're clearly doing a lot right!

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