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Two pounds down, several more to go!!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I have taken a way too long break from sparkpeople!!! I have gained weight and am now trying to get back on track with losing it!

I have been keeping a blog elsewhere though. Its very difficult for me to come on here all the time. I'm going to try my hardest but I get so distracted and my life is a lot busier than before.

I NEED to keep myself accountable though!!! I am BACK into fitness full force and back to the way I use to be (mentally) before gaining all my weight, 20 some pounds. I'm DONE with gaining! Back to losing again!!

Been working on strength lately. Been working on so many things!! Hard to write it all out right now. I can't blog every single day. Only now and then but I NEED this. For myself! I need to come back!!! I'm ready to be who I was truly meant to be!!! :)

Here's hoping I can stay here for awhile now! Been yo yoing for quite some time! Ugh!

Sorry to all those I have not responded to.

:)
~L

  


Two pounds down, several more to go!!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I have taken a way too long break from sparkpeople!!! I have gained weight and am now trying to get back on track with losing it!

I have been keeping a blog elsewhere though. Its very difficult for me to come on here all the time. I'm going to try my hardest but I get so distracted and my life is a lot busier than before.

I NEED to keep myself accountable though!!! I am BACK into fitness full force and back to the way I use to be (mentally) before gaining all my weight, 20 some pounds. I'm DONE with gaining! Back to losing again!!

Been working on strength lately. Been working on so many things!! Hard to write it all out right now. I can't blog every single day. Only now and then but I NEED this. For myself! I need to come back!!! I'm ready to be who I was truly meant to be!!! :)

Here's hoping I can stay here for awhile now! Been yo yoing for quite some time! Ugh!

Sorry to all those I have not responded to.

:)
~L

  
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    I would love to see your here regularly like before, but, I definitely understand. Nonetheless, do what to you need to do to get in a healthier place.

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Taking advice with a grain of salt...

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

I have been with a trainer, off and on, for well over a year now. But that is now coming to an end. Today is my last day with my current trainer and I can honestly say that I am READY to go for it on my own! I LOST most of my weight without the help of a trainer in the first place!

Ever since I got with a trainer I have been getting different opinions from them when it comes to food. They have helped me a lot in learning different exercises and etc. But when it comes to food they have a completely different opinion than my own!

According to them, in order to lose weight (drop fat), I need to stop eating certain things for a certain amount of time AND THEN once I reach my goal, I can slowly bring those back into my "diet" (i hate that word!...so daily eating plan). Anyway, some of those foods include certain fruits and even avocados! And cheese. And pastas. Granted, I don't really eat that much pasta anyway! Or cheese or avocados. But when I'm told to "stay away" from cheese (even feta for like a salad for example!!) or to stay away from hummus, that just turns me "OFF!"

I have a more realistic approach to my weight loss (fat loss). Eat healthy and in moderation! YES I WILL eat hummus AND avocados and an occasional mango!!! Or even some grapes! YES I will eat those because it is natural sugars and its good for you. Of course, I'm NOT going to PIG out on them! But even if I do then who cares? It's a lot better than eating a candy bar! That's the way I see it. You're not going to gain weight by eating 2-3 apples in one sitting or 2 bananas or whatever!! Or a nice big fruit salad! No! But you might by eating a whole bowl of ice cream with stuff on top! Your body is able to use what fruit gives you better than whats inside ice cream and syrup. That's the way I see it and THAT is the way I lost weight in the first place. By thinking this way.

I am now at a point where I can do this on my own again. I needed my trainers for a little "shove" but now God is on my side and you can kinda say He's my trainer now! :-) haha!!!!

I'll continue to eat the way that I do because I KNOW it's good for me!!

Yesterday for my dinner I had an eggwhite omelet with zucchini, mushrooms, one serving of low fat cheese, and 3 small slices of avocado!! It was delicious! I know some trainers wouldn't have approved of the cheese or avocado but I didn't care. I measured it all out and it was good!!!

I know that trainers try to get you to lose weight fast. That's how they do it on certain weight loss shows. But that's not the way that I'm going to do it. I'm going to let my body lose it slowly because that's how you gain weight too, slowly. I know I'm losing weight again. I KNOW IT! I hope soon my jeans will tell me! emoticon

For now though I feel GREAT! And that's all that should matter to me. :)

~L






  
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HEALTHEEMOMMEE 12/10/2013 10:44AM

  I love this! I completely agree. It's about making good choices for forever not just for today. Avocado, cheese etc are healthy options. I don't want to see the produce area as an unhealthy choice ever!

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BOSTONBLUESGIRL 8/14/2013 3:17PM

    PS--As my trainer says and I've heard from other weight loss successes who have kept the weight off and look at their health & fitness choices as a journey or a lifestyle change say the same thing..."slow and steady wins the race." Many who lose weight quickly gain it back in time because they don't develop habits they will keep for the rest of their lives. The point is to develop habits you can stick with forever. The point isn't to lose weight then revert to old habits that got you in trouble in the first place.

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BOSTONBLUESGIRL 8/14/2013 3:15PM

    I agree with you 100%. I am very very grateful that I have a good trainer who is not into the fad diet, lose weight quick schemes. He's all about you as an individual, your goals, your needs, your fitness level and working with you to develop a plan that you can sustain that brings you the best health possible. I've found that at a lot of gyms, there are a lot of bad trainers who are more about "how many clients can I get this month to meet my quota" or who think one plan fits all and have the Jillian Michaels mindset of "unless you're puking or fainting you'd better do whatever I tell you to do." No thanks. Not for me. Good for you for knowing this trainer was not for you. There are good ones out there, but man, they are hard to find. emoticon

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AEPSMITH 6/20/2013 9:28AM

    Totally agree! Kudos for knowing what works for you. After all, it is your lifestyle not a diet/quick fix!

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CHANGINGSAM 5/23/2013 10:27AM

    Agreed!

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ELIZABETH5268 5/22/2013 5:46PM

    Great outlook! I agree with you on how yuo look at food.

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I am definitely back!! :-)

Friday, May 17, 2013

It's amazing what a bit of time, patience, and self discovery will to do ya. :-)

Over a year ago, shortly after I had moved here, I came down with various things. It was more like a mental illness and I had no idea how to control it! I was confused and had so many other emotions running through me every single day! I had no idea what to do!

I had found my home gym, 24 hour fitness, and started going to some awesome classes! I was on track. I lost my last 20 pounds when I moved here. I was at my BEST ever!

Then from one moment to another I lost it all. I started gaining weight slowly, and my fitness level went down big time! Not only did my fitness level all but disappear, a bit before that I was ready to give God up in my life. Then all this mental stuff happened.

I was put on medication for depression and anxiety because that is how bad it had gotten. I had gone to 2-3 different therapists trying to see what was truly wrong with me.

I had started making a lot of friends, yes. I had no problems being myself. I stopped exercising like before but I was still going to a few classes each week. I started eating garbage again. But I still had been making friends. I'm a social butterfly. I've finally come out of my shell and was able to be myself around others. I figured if they really don't like who I truly am, then that is their problem and not mine. I still think this way.

I've slowly been discovering myself! I don't even know what to type right now as I sit here! Where to start???

Point is, I truly believe the enemy really really had a tight grip on me over a year ago. And it lasted for quite awhile!!! Being put on meds and slowly getting better because of them. But somehow I took the right turn. Somewhere along my journey I came to a fork in the road but I decided to go the right way this time because I figured "God wouldn't hurt me more than I have been hurt the past year, right?" ... I couldn't see what was ahead of me but somehow I knew that if I had enough faith, everything would definitely be OK! I know God isn't out to hurt me. Sure, he teaches us lessons and some are harder than others but He definitely knows what He is doing!

It started one day when I decided to go back to church but I hadn't been for so long and had a "thing" about going to church by myself. So a friend had invited me. That night I found out that God had helped me lose weight in the first place! Oh my gosh! I cried!! Right THEN I knew that He had a plan for me. But I needed to just HANG in there!!! I could still feel the enemy surrounding me, talking to me every single day!

I hung in there. I let God lead my way. I gave it ALL to Him!! He took the worry off my shoulders! He took my depression and anxiety and I'm on a lower dosage of medication right now and hopefully with time I'll be completely off of it! I have to be patient though.

I have kept the enemy at a distance lately. I recognize the different spirits that come into my life now. Thanks to an awesome Bible study that I go to once a week! And there's a story to it there too!

A friend that I had met in church invited me to this bible study she started going to. I went, and right away I knew I was meant to be there! I have also been going to the church counselor and talking to her about my problems because I knew they were more spiritual than anything else! I knew that once I got that part of my life in order, everything else would fall into place!! Including my fitness!!!

Now, I sit here and I thank God that He has my back and is helping me!! I have faith in Him! And I know the enemy doesn't like it one bit!

I had some "issues" with a certain friend of mine. I couldn't understand why she was treating me the way that she had been treating me recently. Then I found out that she herself has her own demons, spirits, and I'm sure she doesn't even know it (jealousy is one of them). She's a Christian and goes to the exact same church as I do. She is the one who introduced me to that church in the first place! As God can use just about anyone to get through to a person, the devil can also use just about anyone to harm others as well! And yes, even people you think are your Christian friends, who would never hurt you. It's heart breaking but I have finally had my eyes opened to this friend and our friendship and I've had to take a step back. There is so much more to this story but that is pretty much the core of it. She's treated me poorly and has hurt me more than i can count on one hand. But thats the end of it. I know now it is the enemy that was trying to harm me through her. Trying to discourage me from going on Gods path for me. NO longer!!!

I am BACK baby!!! And now getting stronger! :-) Even more than before!!! I just have to keep myself up on my feet as long as I can! I know God has my back! He always has had my back!!!

Sure, I don't read my Bible every single day. Sure, I didn't go to Bible school. Sure, I don't necessarily pray 20 times a day. I'm not always listening to worship music. And so on and so on....but that does not make me a bad person or less of a Christian! I know what is right and what is wrong. I know I'm a sinner. But I am human. We are all sinners but God loves us regardless of what we have done in our lives!!! He is just happy to have us back!! And the enemy will continue to try to take over but one has to stay strong! Even if we do fall back and sin, KNOW that God is always there with his arms opened ready to take you back no matter what!!!

FEED your physical and spiritual self healthy things and it will grow in the way it was truly meant to grow! :-)

I have had an awesome past couple of days health wise! I have been making healthy foods and my kids are finally starting to get back into healthier eating thanks to me!

This morning I made french toast with Ezekiel raisin bread, egg whites, cinnamon, greek yogurt and fruit! It was super delicious!! My daughter was a bit "MEH" about it but I know with time she will come to love it. :-)

Thank you spark friends for reading my blogs and for your sweet words!!!

~L

  
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JESSERS22 6/21/2013 5:01PM

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PRESBESS 5/17/2013 12:37PM

    I am thrilled about you coming back to SP and getting back to your healthly lifestyle! But most of all, I am beyond elated about your journey in Christ. Stay close to HIM, pray, stay connected to your church.

The best is yet to come!

Your sister in Christ.
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CHANGINGSAM 5/17/2013 12:11PM

    Welcome back, friend!

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It's great to see you back and Sparking !

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Update Blog Entry...God is with me!!!

Friday, May 03, 2013

I don't even know where to begin!!!!

I completely lost track of who I was becoming a little more than a year ago! I gained 20 pounds and a few inches around my waist! I have been struggling with different things the past year! Depression, anxiety and pretty much losing my path. I don't know what happened. You could say (if you are a believer) that the enemy got to me and almost succeeded. But somehow I came out of it! I was drowning but I managed to get myself above the water and almost completely out of it myself! God helped me but other than that, I had no other help really. Words of encouragement here and there but not as much as I had hoped.

It's kind of funny how when someone struggles spiritually, the friends who you think are close christian friends of yours, tend to back away and not even really help out at all. It's sad but it does happen. When I needed help the most there was just no one there for me. I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself all the damn time and get stronger on my own!!! BUT I wasn't alone. God has been with me this entire time!!! He has helped me lose weight and HE has a plan for me!!!

Now, more than anything, I want to finish what He and I started, together!!! I know I will come out stronger than ever in my life!!! He doesn't want me to quit. NOT NOW!!! Now that I know He has a plan for me!!! And it's a GREAT one!!! I know it is!!! The enemy has tried distracting me and has tried to discourage me several times now! But, now I recognize it and I WON'T let the enemy get to me as easily this time. I WILL REMAIN strong!!!

God has been clearing a path for me and He is still helping me. Holding my hand the entire time and not letting go! Even when I feel like the path has been erased or lost! He's still there and lights the way for me!! Everything that I have gone through and am going through is for a reason. It's making me stronger. I can feel it! It's making me believe in myself even more. AND THE enemy is NOT liking it one bit!!!!

I have had a certain someone in my life recently who I thought was a good friend, but unfortunately is not, try to discourage me in several ways. I am no longer comfortable with the microphone in her class, nor have I ever been comfortable! She intimidates people. She intimidates me! And the funny thing is, I am in a bible study group (support group) and we are talking about people in the Bible who have gone through the same struggles but came out STRONG in the end by obeying God and not the enemy!!! That gives me hope! My so called "friend" has hurt me more times than I can count but I have always forgiven. And I've forgiven again now, but this time I just can't go on with it anymore, with that friendship. I KNOW now I have to back away. It's sad but it's true. She thinks things of me that aren't even true and has told me things that SHE thinks are true but aren't and I know for a fact they are not. She's claims she's helping me by telling me "the truth" about how I'm doing up in the front with the Microphone but it's not true.

Oh I could go on and on!

You see, I am trying to audition for a Zumba instructor position but ever since I let her know, it seems like she's been trying to sabotage everything! Distracting me in class while I'm up front, telling me I'm not smiling enough, telling me she can't hear me, telling me this and that. Truth is, I just can't do it in front of her. I try but I am not able to be myself around her. She's shot me down or "corrected" me several times when I've tried to be myself around her. The person that I AM NOW she is not liking one bit.

Last week we went out and I wore skinny (jeggings, leggings) with my beautiful high heels! My one true HIGH heels that I have! With sparkles! :-) I felt SO GOOD about myself that night! She shot me down and didn't compliment me once! While my other friends did. I told her I NO longer had "HER" hairstyle (so she claimed) and that I was taller than her for the night (at least!). She told me back "No you're not!" and about my hair "I used to have my hair like that." .... Sure! uh huh. I believe you.

Now I know that whatever she tells me now is just a reflection of herself. She told me on Wednesday how she thinks other people think I'm "all that" because of HOW I WALKED to the microphone, up in front of the class!!!! Oh my gosh!! ... I have never believed I am "all that" or anything! The way I grew up, very humble, poor home...I WOULD NEVER believe that about myself! I just feel GOOD about myself NOW more than anything!!!!! I'm myself...and people LIKE ME FOR ME!!! My crazy self!!! :-) I LOVE the friends that I currently have...the friends who LOVE ME FOR ME!!!!! I'm NOT A FAKE!!! I'm not going to hide myself anymore!!! I hid away for such a long time in my life that I will NEVER do that again!!!!!!!!!

The people who love me for who I am now are truly lucky! The people (like my so called friend) are missing out, for real. I think she is just jealous (words from my support group as well!) of me for some reason. Like I said before though, I think it's just the enemy trying to discourage me from going on on my journey! My devotionals lately have been spot on with what I am going through right now. God is talking to me every day now and I need to keep listening! :-) Because I know He is standing right by my side helping me! Making me stronger! Spiritually AND physically!

I'm looking forward to my future!

Here's to a NEW weight loss journey!!! May I truly succeed this time!!! I WILL have what I have been wanting my entire life!!! I will come out strong!!! God is with me!

~L

  
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PRESBESS 5/8/2013 1:05PM

    I am sooo happy to see you back, in action and declaring the truth of God's word. You are so right on. The enemy wants you to not go any further in Christ and would love for you to be discouraged and distracted by any means. Stay with God. Stay in church. Stand on His word. The best is yet to come.

As for fake friends... don't waste another minute on them. Continue to surround yourself with people who want to have a real friendship with you. Life is precious.

You're a blessing. Press on!
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DRAGONFLY02 5/3/2013 1:09PM

    I have/had one of those so called friends and so I can totally relate. It was actually a co-worker, but since I just left my job and am starting at new company, it was an easy way for me to sever our friendship. We still text back and forth some, but I know over time that will end, especially when I move closer to my new job and won't be "local" to her anymore. Many hugs and I hope you can get through ending this friendship and come out stronger in the end. Isn't it amazing how God puts his word out there at just the right moment? I'm so glad that your bible study is relating to your current situation. It always makes things easier to know you aren't alone.

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