Tuesday, February 09, 2010
It's only 9:30 and when I finish this blog, I'm off to sleep. I didn't have to work today, thank you Lord, and had most of the day to catch up on the piles of things left undone these past few days. I didn't think I'd get as much done as I did, but I just kept doing one small thing after another and tried to not look at the BIG (overwhelming) picture. That helped so much! I believe I'm starting to learn to do what I can and be content with that. It isn't really about perfection, but just trying to push myself just a LITTLE bit without losing site of my need to be kind to myself.
It's definately a different way of looking at life than what I am used to and sometimes I feel like I'm dragging my feet, but in the end, it seems that I get more done - at least more of what matters.
Tomorrow is a bonus. I get to start the day without such a big "to do" list and only have to work six hours tomorrow evening, so whatever didn't get done today, well, there's tomorrow. I really want to do some extra in the fitness arena. Those crazy hectic days slowed me down and today all I had time for was strength and stretching, so I need to ramp up the cardio. I really don't want that to start suffering. This 5K goal is serious for me, and I have a LONG way to go.
Going to cut it short and have a few minutes of quiet time to review my day and then another good night's sleep before I face tomorrow.
Love and blessings to all my spark friends. I hope and pray that you all know how special you are to me and how grateful I am to have you in my life.
Monday, February 08, 2010
Thank you dear spark friends, buddies, Chris and Spark People. It's 10:30 and though I should be in bed, and I will be soon, I just had to get in my blog and thank everyone for pulling me through these past four or five days. I think I just got a crash course in living life without food as a crutch.
There is no doubt that just a couple short months ago, not only would I have been pigging out over the whole week-end, but that tonight, when I got together with the girls, I would have REALLY gone overboard and when I got home tonight, I would've eaten until I fell asleep.
What a difference these past weeks have been. I'm not sure how much time and thought I actually put into making a lot of my decisions...thank goodness for the tracker. I've been faithful that if I was going to put something in my mouth, it had to go on paper(preferably first). In all those days, I managed to stay on track, except the one day my migraine was at its worst and then I was a little low, but not bad....tonight, it was my turn to bring snacks and I brought the biggest veggie tray you've ever seen with every color veggie imaginable, plus hummus and low fat dip. Surprise, they really liked it.....it was gone! I did have to bring a sweet, so cheesecake was the treat, but I figured in just a half slice to my daily totals, and savoured it.
Fitness has really suffered along with time to communicate with all my friends on SP and my reading, but now I have some time over the next three days. I only work one shift and have one group to lead, so I will be able to do some catching up and preparing for the next round of craziness. I think one big lesson I've learned is to have plenty of grab and go food, prepared and measured, and to have all these little chores not just caught up, but to get ahead wherever possible. That is the plan of action for this week.
I'm certain I would have crumbled without all of your support...can hardly bellieve I made it without blowing at least a day or two.
Now to fall into bed for a MINIMUM of eight or so hours.....Aaaaahhhhhh.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Sunday, February 07, 2010
Sorry friends, but this is short, sweet and to the point. I worked till 10:30 last night, and still had to eat some when I got home, probably should have gone right to bed. Was supposed to be up at five am to get to church by 6:15 (I was doing lighting)...didn't even hit the snooze, ust turned off the alarm all together. Woke up 18 mins. before I needed to be there....grabbed the first thing I could find to wear and my make-up case and bible and out the door.
Had to go right from church to work at 1PM - only had time to run through Wendy's for a grilled chicken sandwich (hold the sauce) and a side salad (no dressing). Thankfully someone at church picked up a banana for me when they went out for donuts, so that help me avoid that temptation, and I got a couple of pretzle rods from kid's world, so all in all through the day, I was able to stay on plan. My sister even had made swordfish for dinner, so even though we had Super Bowl Party food at work and Donuts at church, I made very wise choice all day, and somehow God provided me good options because I sure didn't have time to pack anything.
Got home at 7:45 tonight, so I did ten minutes of my stretching tape and some crunches, ate, and logged to to SP. Did my tracking that couldn't be done from my phone and now I'm off to dream land after about 15-20 Mins. of reading.
Tomorrow I work at 8am and tomorrow afternoon I have to make a munchie treat for my women's group that meets at 6pm tomorrow night...I should be home around 8:30....then MAJOR cardio - at least one hour since I've really been slacking and finally off on Tuesday !!!
Yeah! Catch up day! Are you tired yet? I am.......
P.S. MANY THANKS to you ALL for the Prayers and Well Wishes...I know that they are what has kept me on track and able to push through these past few days...today was tough, but NO PAIN IN MY HEAD! Just one of the many things I have to be grateful for!
Saturday, February 06, 2010
This has really hit home with me this past few days. It's the make or break, where I walk the walk or just talk the talk. I've been battling a migraine now off and on for the third day. I have to work 9 hours, so taking off is not an option. I've taken medicine, which I hate doing and am doing things SLOWLY, which I also hate, just to not fall too far behind. I'm doing the best I can to not let this stress me out and thanks to all of you Spark Friends, I'm I'm just trying to be the best "me" possible, under the circumstances, and if that isn't necessarily "THE BEST", then it is for me and that is good enough....
I look back to a couple of months ago, and I know that I would be whimpering under the covers and whenever I felt like eating, I would be eating the world, taking my comfort in all that is sweet and fattening and justifying it by saying that I was sick or had missed a meal.
Unfortunately, fitness, Sparking, and some of the chores are taking a back seat because everything seems to be taking so long to do, but I'm getting done whatever my body will allow without causing it to go into full blown revolt as it did day before yesterday. So, forgive me friends, if I am not quite as communicative as normal, but I have to go prepare a meal and a snack for work, and since I have to work until 10:30 and be up at 5:00 to do my miimum fitness before church in the am...I need to have coffee and breakfast ready for then too...oh, yea., and lunch for tomorrow.
I just need to hand in till Tuesday, then I'll have some real down time and BOY, will I appreciate it!
Have a great Super Bowl Weekend everyone! And a Very Blessed Sunday!
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