Wednesday, April 21, 2010
It's only 8:20, am I'm going to jot down this blog and I'm hitting the hay. I think it's going to storm here tonight, which might explain why I ache today and why I'm so tired. I woke up with the alarm this morning, and with time to get in 10 minutes or so of fitness, but I was so tired, I just laid there....with the alarm going off.....for 25 minutes. That's ridiculus! I can only believe that it means I need some more rest. I still need to record the snack I'm eating right now and then off to sleep. Sorry all, will have to catch up with you later. Need to run tomorrow.
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Today is my day off, so I didn't have to hit the floor running as usual this morning. Nice change. I still have a lot that I want to accomplish today, but I'm going at it steadily and will do as much as I can. I like this idea of blogging early in the day though...Yesterday I got to the end of the day and between being worn out and disappointed and wanting to "eat the world", I decided that sleep was more important, and I think I was right because today I feel better.
First of all, I'm getting really close to the weight loss goal that was set for me back on Jan 2nd, when I first signed on to Spark. Less than 5 lbs. to go, but I would prefer to adjust that goal. Does anyone know how to go about that? I have it at 146lbs right now, but I'd like to be around 140 (or even 139 just so I can say I'm under 140). I have no idea how to go about adjusting this, so any suggestions would be appreciated. I also want to get the body fat % down from 31% to 27% or less, so I've really got to ramp up the strength training.
Second, I had that HR meeting and it did not go as hoped, but did turn out as expected. We'll see what happens to the schedule now. I have been working 40 hours a week for sometime now, but apparently to be full-time with HD you have to agree to be available 24/7 for scheduling purposes. That may work for some people, but I need to have some dedicated time in my week that I know is for "me" or my other obligations outside of work. So, I will remain on PT status.
Oh well, I'll just have to keep watching my budget closely, stay healthy, and keep an eye open for something else.
Third, I lost another 1/2 lb!!! WOOHOO!!! Got to celebrate THAT! April 1st my weight was 151.5, so this past 20 days, I have lost only 2.5lbs. That's still okay, but not what I had become accustomed to. I need to stay focused on all the other things that are happening that are reasons to celebrate, and on preparing for the 5K coming up. I'm getting nervous already and it's still over 2 1/2 weeks away. Today I'm going back to the same park I ran at Sunday (with the HILLS) and I'm going to do the full 5K just to see what kind of time I log. That will give me a good benchmark to start improving on. Hopefully I can start working toward gettin down to a 30 mins. 5K and then maybe a 10K for the fall....we'll see. Another Spark friend is considering doing a situp challenge and I could really up my core strength and strength training, so I think that is where I will concentrate my efforts on the physical side.
On the more personal side, I am still working on the getting up with the alarm thing and getting more sleep - they kind of go hand in hand. I know this will benefit my life in so many ways, but my sis doesn't usually get to bed very early since she sleeps till 9AM or later everyday. That makes it hard for me to get to bed early, especially when I always seem to find things that need to be done (ie, reading, sparking, dishes, garbage, laundry etc etc etc). That's why I am liking this blogging earlier...it is one more of those things that won't try to keep me from the bed when I get home from my group tonight.
So, those are the plans and goals for this next phase of my journey. I'm so grateful that I have all of you to travel it with. You are such wonderful, special, supportive friends....even when I reach my weight goal, I will be continuing to Spark. It has become about so much more than just the weight. The pounds were just camoflaging the real issues....now I can see that it is about liking me and caring enough about me to give me my very best. It's about being the very BEST ME POSSIBLE - and I think I have more room to grow there....so you are all stuck with me. Enough rambling...I'm getting misty eyed and stuff. Time to get moving and spark spark spark!!!
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Aaahh, it's Sunday. I DO LOVE Sundays! And today is a sunny Sunday to boot, even better. I am really taking a good look at necessities and priorities these days. Getting a grip on what is important and what is not, and who it is important to.
My life is pretty full. I work full-time and help out at church, where I am pretty active. In addition, I live with my sister who is partially disabled, sometimes more than others. She has gotten to this phase where sometimes she is able (if she wants to do something) and other times, she doesn't want to and then her inabilities kick it up a notch. The most recent is the lawn...we have a riding mower, but after enough phone calls to enough doctors she finally got one to say that she can't ride the mower....add another task to my never ending list. I don't have a problem with doing the lawn per se, it's just htat I work and have other obligations, so it will have to be squeszzed in when ***I***have time. Apparently this is not good enough, so she called another sister in from out of town. In some way, whe is trying to make me feel guilty for not jumping right on this newest chore, however, it is a blessing to me. I finally have sometime to do some sparking and this afternoon, while they are busy, I'm FINALLY meeting a friend at the community center path to do some running.
I believe the sisters are grilling 1/2 lb burgers for dinner, so if I make it home in time, I'll have a 1/2 of a 1/2 lb burger with them. This will undoubtably not go over well because after I got home from church, she told me what we were having so I "could plan". They fail to realize that NO amount of planning is going to make eating an entire 1/2 lb burger worth it.
I am starting to realize that much of what I do is in an attempt to make other people happy, which rarely works, and if it does, it isn't for very long. In the process I let what is good for me suffer. This HAS to change. So, I am working on that today.
Tomorrow, I have a meeting with HR at work. They are asking me to go to full-time status (I am already working the 40 hrs a week), but my availability is not completely open, nor will it be, and that is generally a pre-requisite for full-time. We'll see what they have to say. Full time would be nice and I could certainly use the $ and the benefits, but at this point in my life, I am no longer living to work. Work is a very important thing, but it is NOT the only thing.
So, now I have my blogging done and am mostly caught up with sparking and e-mails and even have some of my reading done for my TWO women's groups this week....I can do the rest tonight while the sis's are vegging in front of the tube.
It feels good to take care of me for a change. Hope that feeling holds when the backlash begins.
Friday, April 16, 2010
My biggest issue isn't eating healthy, I can do that. Even with people all around me who may not be deliberately trying to sabotage my efforts, but who definately don't choose to eat healthy nor understand my desire to. I still manage to watch what I eat and stay within my limits. I've done that every day (except Easter Sunday) since the beginning of the year.
My biggest issue is that my schedule is ALWAYS on overload and if even one more thing gets added, I fall behind, and when I fall behind something suffers. Most recently two things, sleep and fitness. I would love to be able to do some fitness in the morning when I get up, but since I go to work at 7AM most mornings, I don't know how I'm going to make that happen. I'm still trying to get up with the alarm in the morning and only doing that about 50% of the time. So, I'm taking a step back. I've got to get that sleep and getting up thing conquered. It won't be easy since it will mean being asleep at 9PM....but if I'm going to get to the next step and not start falling back, I think that is the next logical step.
Oh boy, wish me luck, for now I'm heading downstairs to get in some strenth training and some intervals on the treadmill.
Any suggestions or advice are GREATLY appreciated. I don't know what I'd do without you Spark Friends. I know I wouldn't have made it this far. Much thanks to you all!!!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
I'm halfway through the month and feeling a bit disappointed. Since the first I have only lost 1.5 lbs. I know that I shouldn't beat myself up because I'm still losing, and Easter didn't help matters. Without that total blow out day, I would probably be down another 1 to 1.5 lbs.
To be perfectly honest I know that the issue is that I haven't gotten back to the level of fitness that I was at before the Easter week. I am doing well to do 15-20 minutes a couple of times a week unless I'm running and this week, so far, I have only one run in. Tonight was to have been my run with the two "new" running buddies and one ran into a glass door and is badly bruised so her doctor said no running for a few days and the other one I have not been able to reach all week. I shouldn't let other peoples actions affect me like this, but they bummed me out so bad, I just blew off fitness altogether today, no run, no ST, nothing. That kind of attitude isn't going to help at all.
Trying to see the "up" side, I finally am pretty much caught up with all the e-mails and sparking and laundry and kitchen cleaning and yard pick up that I had fallen behind in, so maybe after a good nights sleep I'll feel ready to tackle a good hard fitness session to get the scale kick started.
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