Tuesday, March 09, 2010
Oh, my goodness, I am in complete and utter shock and amazement! What a difference a day can make.
Yesterday was tough, I woke up tired, was tired all day, still did my D1W4-C25K and had probably some of my worst times yet. It was a real struggle, but I finished. Had a lot to do (so what's new, right) and for the third day in a row, didn't get around to tracking my nutrition untill this morning (always scary). I LOVE THIS PROGRAM!!! Even though I've had late commitments that have involved eating - and mostly at places I haven't chosen and couldn't plan too well for, I managed to stay within all my nutrition limits all three days!
Today, the plan was to do some catching up and preparing for yet another 5 day stretch of craziness. I still had to go back to last weeks tracker and copy everything for the first week of the March challenge - quite a time consuming tasks - I really eat alot!!! In the middle of all that I noticed that I had gotten a spark mail message, but I figured I could read that when I got done with entering all that food and adding up all my points for the week....so I finally finished and went to my spark mail and the results for February were in....
I started checking the week three and week four total points and exercise points and I really did well! I made the top three in each catagory, except one, which with the schedule I keep was completely satisfactory in my book! THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH TO ALL OF MY SPARK FRIENDS, for not letting me quit and encouraging me so much to stick with it - even when I couldn't do everything i wanted to perfectly! You have all taught me so much! I've always been quick to quit when I'm not meeting my own expectations(which I often set unrealistically high). While I was going over all that in my head, I got another spark mail message, so I opened that one and....it said "YOU WON!!!" I think I was in shock, and maybe still am a little...I just kept going back and forth between the two messages trying to figure out how that could be!?!?! But, it really is true, all those little goals, whether I achieved them to perfection or not....I did my best and they really added up!
I still am awed, amazed, shocked, honored and very, very grateful!!! There were so many tough competitors out there! You all were amazing, yet in the same breath, you were encouraging, inspiring and I know I could not and would not have been able to do this without each and every one of you. Thank you all for teaching me just how far I can go when I push beyond what I believe to be my own limitations and for being able to accept my limitations as being good enough.
P.S. I'm not so tired now!!!
Monday, March 08, 2010
Not sure what is wrong with me today. I woke up tired. I was dragging all day. My run made me even more tired and now it's just past nine and I'm EXHAUSTED. Have a list of stuff I need to do, but sleep has moved right to thte top of it all.
Maybe that will help me get it together tomorrow. Night all.
Sunday, March 07, 2010
Okay, home from church and just getting a few minutes to stop and blog...I missed two days in a row and I feel bad because I hadn't missed a day since I started SP until now. Life just got hectic, what's new, and with trying to eat and work and clean and get in fitness plus all of the other commitments, I guess one day I didn't have time and the other, I just plain forgot.
Today is busy too, it's 11:30 already and hopefully it will stop raining soon. Supposed to meet my running buddy at 3:30 to run and thn go to a benefit spaghetti dinner at 6:00. Work tomorrow and my ladies group tomorrow night. Tuesday is my day off this week, so hopefully I will have a little more me time and if the weather holds, will start week four of C25k OUTSIDE. If not, it's back to the dreadmill.
Went with friends to see a community theater group play lasst night , and of course, that meant going out to eat. They chose Culvers and I was careful all day to stay on the light side so that I could eat something with them. I was tempted to go for the green beans as a side and almost ordered them, but I was pretty sure that I was good enough to have fries. As it turns out, when I got home and tracked, I stayed within all my limits altho.ugh the protein and carbs were a little low and fat was at the higher end of the scale. The point is that I was okay in all three areas and today is just another challenge.
Got to get moving though. Need to clean the kitchen, catch up some studies, spend some time with sis so she won't feel deserted when I leave again today for the run and dinner, wash the workout clothes and probably 10 or 20 other things that just won't get done. Oh, well, just got to keep doing the important stuff and enjoying life and being the best me that I can be.
TO ALL MY
Oh, yeah, today I wore my low rider jeans to church with a tank top that is short enought that it doesn't quite tuck inwith a flowered jacket. Kind of cool, no muffin top when I'm standing...and just a little roll when I sit (notice the key work roll (not plural!!!)
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Aaahhhhh. I had no idea that this could feel so good. It is a positively beautiful day here in northern Illinois. The most incredible blue skies, not a cloud to be seen. It is a tad brisk, but once you're running you don't feel it. Personally, I love the heat of summer and don't have much use for temperatures below 60F, but I could change my mid on that one. Right now it's 41F and I just got back in from my first road run....WHAT A JOY! I had my MP3 and did week three of C25K - mapped out the distance in the neighborhood to just over what I was doing on the dreadmill (since that's on a small incline) and got out and did it! Without the 5% incline, I went about 10% farther in the same time. Now I've got to work on setting my watch / pedometer to my running stride and on coming up with my own training music mix. I am using one from the internet which is a little new agey for me, but has a good beat to move to , so for now, until I get more techy, it will do. Came home and entered my times and distances, and after eliminating the warm-up/cool down times, I was moving at a good clip, right around 12 1/2 min miles.
I would have loved to go farther, but my sis has an insurance adjuster coming over and my task list has suddenly gotten quite large (appointment was made 2 days ago - he'll be here within the hour). I still get to do my cross training cardio and weight training today and hopefully the weather holds thru the weekend. I'd love to get in two more runs in the sun beofre the weather turns!
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
I've lost wieght before, even kept it off for a couple of years. It's not something I can't do, or don't know how to do. But it's something I guess I didn't believe I deserved.
This time is different. So very different. No vacation to get into a swimsuit for, no wedding dress to fit into, no Army weight standards to meet. No, this time it's for me. More than ever, even more than when I began this journey on Spark. This time it's for me.
I started Spark on Jan 2nd of this year. It wasn't a New Years resolution. I just got tired of my sister and I telling each other how we needed to lose some weight and I was hating the way I had to camoflage the rolls of fat when I dressed. I knew the numbers on the scale were continuing to rise daily and I had just quit looking at how much. I don't know how I found Spark...I still attribute it to being a gift from God. He knew exactly what I needed, and I will be eternallly grateful.
Only this program would have kept me going and brought me this far. Farther than I had ever imagined. As it turns out, my sister still hasn't decided to come on board...still eats all the same old junk in addition to the healthy foods that I prepare. I certainly didn't sign on for any fitness or exercise stuff, but, now it's such a part of my life that I actually get cranky when something or someone gets in the way of my fitness plans.
Today, I was sooo excited about starting week three of the C25K...and with a real live running buddy to boot. I really wanted to start yesterday, but it was my day off and I'm trying to learn to follow instructions, so I did some circuits and woke up ready to hit the road. My buddy, however, had other errands and appointments that would keep her from meeting me until almost 6 tonight. I looked forward to that run all day, with apprehension because I've not pushed the consistent run time that far, but none the less, I was ready to go. Finally, at 7pm she called to say we wouldn't be able to do our road run until Sunday. Needless to say, I was VERY disappointed. The weather was beautiful today and I could have gotten a good long run in at any time, but had waited for her...and now she was not coming.
This is just one of those situations that, two months ago, would have sent me to the freezer for a big bowl of ice cream and then to bed early...and I was tempted, but then I thought, this isn't about her, and I made the decision not to run earlier. This is for me. I want to feel good. I want to lose weight. I want to dig out fromunder this layer of fat. I want to run this race! So, as much as I dreaded it, I trudged on down to the basement, stretched, and got my butt onto the dreadmill. I was really scared about the rotations on week three...they are the longest of the run lengths and there are not shorter runs in the rotation. I got thru the warm up still not feeling as energetic as I normally do at that point, but I kept going...and I did it! I even got in a mile in just over 13 mins. I would never have believed I could do it! It's not a great time, but it's respectable and I still have over two months to finish preparing for the race. My whole goal was to be able to do the race in a respectable time (under 40 mins and preferably closer to 35). I can do this. I really can. Even in the face of disappointment, I can march through and get it done. One more load of baggage gone - and that was a heavy one!
This time, yes, it's for me. I want it. I'm earning it. I deserve it and I WILL GET IT DONE, only this time, because it IS for me, I will cherish it all the more and I will keep it (off).
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