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Would an autopsy prove he was snoring???

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

You all know I sleep like $#!t. I haven't slept well for as long as I can remember. As a small child I had horrible nightmares. As a teenager either insomnia or days of sleeping. Lenny is a snorer. I have to admit I have considered killing him in his sleep. Could it be considered self-defense??? If I don't sleep I will die...

NO! NO! NO! DON'T GO IN THERE! Lenny's sleeping!!! He often sleeps with his neck all kinked up like that!!!

I started thinking about a 'jury of my peers'. Seriously! My sleep is that important to me. So here are some questions you'd have to answer right in order to be on my jury.

Have you ever wondered how much toilet paper you could stuff into your partner's nose, throat & mouth?

If you poured water in his nose would a wet snore sound different than a dry snore?

Could a person drown on gravel?

Do I have the upper body strength to hold a pillow steady for 5 solid minutes?

Do you have at least one pillow shaped like headphones?

How long would my garden stink?

Would it bother the neighbors?

Is that fertilizer too harsh for my herbs?

Have you ever 'accidentally' punched you partner in your sleep?

Have you kicked them off the bed?

Have you slept in a chair to avoid your own bed?

Has your partner ever complained about feeling like they were beat up in their sleep?

Has he woken up with unexplained bruises?

Would the sound of prison cell doors slamming be worse than the snoring?

So I ask you again...Would an autopsy prove he was snoring???

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PICKIE98 7/11/2014 5:47PM

    My husband's snoring really bothered me until we got divorced. I would give anything to have a wonderful hubby even if he snored. (Not HIM, but a keeper!) Count your blessings...

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KIM22211 6/30/2014 1:59PM

    soooooooooooooo funny! I sleep during the day, hubs at night, we have about 3 days we sleep at the same time. Sometimes his snores bug me. I wear ear plugs! lol He said his former wife snored real bad.................while they were married she died in her sleep.........................(cue the Perry Mason music!!!) lol!!!!!!!!! He said if I snore at all, it is very quiet and very mellow and doesn't bother him at all. Guess thats true. I am still alive! OOOOOOO bad taste Kim bad taste! lol

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CHERYLE51 6/28/2014 10:25AM

    My family tells me I snore. Ted doesn't snore -- at least that I know of. His mother when she lived with us sounded like a train it was so bad. I blame my snoring on my deviated septum aka crooked nose. LOL Anyway, it's tough trying to sleep with someone like that. I agree that it could very well be sleep apnea and he probably needs a CPAP. Anyhow, you are a hilarious writer and person. I can't write as well as you.
I sent you an email, be sure to check your spark inbox. Mom aka Franny sent me a beautiful card. Love it. Love you and her. Two very special people.

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RABBITART 6/27/2014 12:17AM

    Oh this made me laugh, I have been suggesting separate bedroom for years but hubby won't go for it. My hubby used to grind his teeth and that woke me up all the time! The other problem we had was this thyroid was off and he would literally cook me out of the bed...so I can completely relate to how you are feeling!

Maybe Lenny should see if there is a medical condition for his snoring because I would hate to have to write you in prison. lol

As you and your sleep issues have you tried Magnesium Citrate Powder - Natural Calm is my favourite brand and it does help with the sleep. I take a teaspoon before bed and most nights I am asleep with in 15 - 20 mins. Read up on it and see if might work for you.

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BRITT831 6/24/2014 8:51PM

    So very funny!!! But my question is... if you go through with it, wouldn't this be considered proof of pre-meditated murder?! There goes self defense, lmao. You're a trip, LOFLLAMA!!!
Brittney

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4ANEWME2DAY 6/24/2014 1:10PM

    emoticon I don't mean to LOL. Some serious issues going on here. I do sleep on the couch sometime during the night because I have respiratory problems which wakes up DH. I have my good nights and I have my bad nights.
Hang in there!! emoticon You probably wouldn't look good in orange or stripes (a country song).

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AJDOVER1 6/24/2014 11:25AM

    Interesting thoughts. But remember, there's no guarantee your cellmate won't also be a snorer....

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MISSB8604 6/24/2014 10:51AM

    Holy crap this is hilarious.

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GAILANN48 6/24/2014 10:38AM

    I can't even tell you the images your questions brought to mind! You're hilarious! But not, I would not be admitted to your jury because we long ago agreed that our sleep requirements were SO different (my light vs. his total dark, my open/airy vs. his closed up tight, my cool vs. his heat, my flat vs. his inclined, my light cover vs. his heavy blankets) that we have separate rooms! People who hear that think there must be something wrong, but I know YOU understand how much it has improved the relationship!

If you ever call and tell me to come over and bring a shovel, I won't ask any questions. emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/24/2014 9:07AM

    AAAAAAHHHHHHAHAHAHAHAAHAAAAAAA!!!!!
!!!!!! I'm with ya, thanks for the tips! Um, no, I meant... uhhh, who cares, you know neither one of us is going that route... maybe, probably, hhmmmm...

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ICECUB 6/24/2014 8:40AM

    emoticon emoticon would a fan drown out the snoring. don't go to those extremes just yet emoticon

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SLIMMERJESSE 6/24/2014 8:38AM

    My good night's sleep is so precious to me; I don't know how I'd seriously deal with a snorer who kept me awake. I doubt if ear plugs would help.

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 6/24/2014 7:57AM

    Very catchy title. Funny blog, but a very problematic subject !!
I go to the guest bedroom and sleep there or go to sleep on the couch.
I have thought of sticking straws up his nose.
Come to think of it, he hasn't been snoring lately. Maybe because there is more humidity in the air now?

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KAREN608 6/24/2014 7:33AM

    When I am first falling asleep, some times I snore and I hear myself, and wake up!

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KAREN608 6/24/2014 7:31AM

    You really came up with some good ones!

Earplugs?
White noise machine?

Sofa bed? For him?
Floor with exercise mat for you in another part of the house?

My hubby can snore in ANY position.
And sometimes, it is snooOORE and then a tiny little man inbetween screaming softly... eeEEeeeeeEEEEeeee. a wheeze that makes me begin to laugh then DH wakes up and says STOP THAT. Yeah. Right.

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LINDA7668 6/24/2014 7:28AM

    Snoring is a common symptom of sleep apnea. Encourage him to get tested, if he hasn't already done so. The sound of a CPAP is more soothing than snoring or prison cell doors.

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RIDLEYRIDER 6/24/2014 7:21AM

  His snoring isn't the problem it used to be....but the twitching is keeping me awake much of the night. emoticon

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CROUCHINGFLEA 6/24/2014 7:05AM

    LOL, I know how you feel! My husband snores, and many nights I have woken him up and told him to roll over, just to get a few minutes reprieve from the snoring!

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SANDRALEET 6/24/2014 6:42AM

    Lot of people sleep in different bed rooms

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Give your mind the credit it deserves!

Monday, June 23, 2014

Yesterday I wrote 'You are always the same age inside' & for some reason it touched my friend Gail (love you!) enough for her to comment on it.

I want you to really think about it: WE ARE ALWAYS THE SAME AGE INSIDE! Go look at your eyes in the mirror. NOT your face or the lines around your eyes...just your eyes! Your eyes never age either. They say your eyes are the windows to your soul.

Today just be who you are. See the world like YOU see it...not the way you are supposed to see it....not the way you have been taught to see it.

Our mind is an incredible tool we don't utilize enough. I honestly believe that positive thinking works. More than all outside influences we can use our own mind to help us be better.

If you have a chemical imbalance that causes depression by all means get medicated! It's EXACTLY like diabetes or high blood pressure. It is treatable! TREAT IT!

I do NOT believe you are going to think yourself thin. You will need to lower your calorie intake OR exert more calories than you consume. That's science..HA! BUT thinking yourself thin can help you actualize it! If you think you are thin (or truly want to be!) you will give a second thought to that extra serving or that soda! THINK before you act!

If you want a better life, make a better life. Start with THINKING you have a great life!

How much of your stress is all on you??? You know which people add to your stress. You know what situations add to your stress. Why do you give them the time that you do? Don't misunderstand this. I know that you can't 'get rid of' your 12 y/o son. (that's not at all about ME...Teehee!) BUT you can change how you deal with him. MY day doesn't have to be bad because he's being a booger!

I can cause my stress level to rise by thinking that it will rise! I've proved it to myself over & over. I have taken Klonopin just to leave my house. I got out & was the life of the party! The Klonopin didn't do that...I did! I have made a headache worse by concentrating on a headache!

Think about this: If positive thinking doesn't work then why does meditation &/or prayer work for so many people??? Prayers rarely get answered in the second they are asked for. RELEASING the prayer is what brings you peace of mind.

Today when you are feeling stressed, STOP. Just let it go. Seriously. Let your mind work in your favor. Use it to be a better you. It is all in your head!

Your mind is a beautiful thing! Treat it as such!

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COASTAL6 6/27/2014 12:07PM

    Thank you, Lisa,
Like you said, if you want a better life, make a better life, and I believe I have a better life with you and my sparkfriends. I've learned a lot about stress in my life, and so i'm doing Yoga ,it really helps me coping with life.
Love you,
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KARENE10 6/25/2014 9:01AM

    emoticon emoticon Great Blog Lisa!

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JEANNIE0312 6/24/2014 4:09AM

    Thank you :)

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KAREN608 6/23/2014 11:58PM

    Sometimes I try to figure out what age I am inside. I know it doesn't change as I do. I am me and the body keeps aging.

I turned 55 today at 6:31am.
I told a number of people i am going to sometimes act like two five year olds.
You are warned!
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SANDRALEET 6/23/2014 5:21PM

    As some age see things more clearly

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GAILANN48 6/23/2014 5:05PM

    Such uncommon common sense... You're beautiful, Lisa. emoticon :) Gail

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KIM22211 6/23/2014 3:47PM

    what you think about you bring about. yep!!

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ICECUB 6/23/2014 1:42PM

    emoticon very thought provoking. I believe negative thoughts equal a negative life. emoticon

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I'm a Hipster???

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Yesterday Mikhail (he'll be 13 in less than a month!!!) said to me, 'Mom, you're a Hipster.' 'Really? Why is that?', I asked. He said, 'Well, look at you. You are wearing red shorts, a gray top, blue necklace & pink ponytail holder. You don't care what society says you should do.' 'Also,' He said, 'You dance & sing to your own music.' 'You don't follow the rules.'

HAHAHA!!! I don't follow the rules??? Where did he get that??? I dance to & sing my own music. *I am so beautiful to me* *Nobody knows the trouble I'm gonna be* *Celebrate good food* *Lisa got a big ol' butt*(that one actually is a song somebody else sang!)

I think we are always the same age inside. As a kid I was told I acted like an adult. As an adult I have been told I act like kid. The only real difference between now & then is that now I am okay with who I am. (for the most part)

Should we do what society says? Yes, to a degree. I am PC. I don't use outdated terms for people when I know better. I don't go out of my way to hurt others. I would never be mean just for the sake of being mean. BUT...

If I want to dance, I dance. If I want to sing, I sing. I am not going to 'sit down & shut up'! If I see something I don't like, I say so. I don't just ignore somebody getting hurt. I'll turn the other cheek IF nobody is being abused.

Sing in the rain! Dance like nobody is watching! Do what makes you happy!

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LADYOLIVER 6/24/2014 9:13AM

    emoticon you rock. I'm not surprise your soon would say that.

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FIT4MEIN2013 6/23/2014 1:05PM

    That is the blessing of 'coming of age'. I just don't care anymore. I am not the standard 'pc', but I never go out of my way to hurt someone. I now play more than I ever have. Sure wish I felt like this when I was younger. emoticon

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GAILANN48 6/23/2014 9:31AM

    "I think we're always the same age inside." What a thought-provoking idea! AGAIN you give me food for rumination!

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MARILYNROBERT 6/22/2014 11:31PM

    I still feel very young at the age of 58. I wonder when I'll grow up. emoticon

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KAREN608 6/22/2014 9:30PM

    When we have Children's time in front of the church they often sing a song. Last few weeks it was VBS songs from Weird Animals or something ... great songs. I sit near the front and sing along. I am a big kid at heart. Why should the kids have all the fun. Sometime in my 30s I was aware I was so comfortable with myself even if I don't really fit in with some things like ladies groups. They are boring ... so not missing a thing. I'm all for being oneself and it is refreshing.

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AJDOVER1 6/22/2014 6:02PM

    That's so cute, but I don't think it makes you a Hipster. The Hipsters I know are all following the same rules, wearing the same clothes, listening to the same music, rejecting the same things and are extremely worried about what other Hipsters think of them.

Let's dance! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EILEEN828 6/22/2014 4:27PM

    You're fascinating to him because you're brave when you need to be, fearless to go get the life that you want, and darned sure that you're going to enjoy this life! I find you fascinating too! Now it's time to go do the Lisa happy dance! Yeah you know you are picturing it. emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 6/22/2014 2:38PM

    And go for it!

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SYLPHINPROGRESS 6/22/2014 2:34PM

    Stop fooling yourself: "Lisa got a big ol' butt" -- There's the truth of what makes you a hipster.

(said with love and not an iota of truth.)


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BRENDAGAIL9 6/22/2014 1:38PM

    I have never followed the crowd or kept up with new fashions but wore handmedowns and was grateful to get them. I made a lot of my own clothes after I learned to sew, as well as all the baby and toddler clothes.

I dance to the beat of a different drummer and speak my mind and do what I want, when I want. I can do that living alone. I help my neighbors when they ask but won't let anyone take advantage of me. My mantra is "Never start anything I am not prepared to finish" and "don't put anything in writing I'm not prepared to defend in court".

Have a wonderful day. I slept late this morning so now it is time to get some breakfast and make some frozen strawberry yogurt in my new automatic ice cream maker. Fun!

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ICECUB 6/22/2014 1:30PM

    emoticon BE TRUE TO YOURSELF

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CATTUTT 6/22/2014 1:09PM

    That's a pretty good compliment to get from the youngun. Much better than "Mom, you're an old fart!" lol

Hope you're having a great day!

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SLIMMERJESSE 6/22/2014 12:54PM

    I've always been that way. And comfortable in my own skin, not comparing to others - ever. It's a great gift.

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HOLLYM48 6/22/2014 10:48AM

    Love it! Good for you! That sounds like a good life!

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HEALTHY-SPARK 6/22/2014 10:41AM

    Hah. Sounds like your kiddo knows what he's talking about. I'd definitely take it as a complement!

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Alcoholism and (Not VS) Compulsive Eating

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Yesterday, I started my blog with a small lie. (Small lies don't REALLY count anyway, do they? Psh!) I said I'd been keeping my opinions to myself the last few weeks. I SHOULD have said (in my blogs!) I had been. A woman in a thread got my opinion rather harshly late last week.

The post started something like this: I see ads for food & it must be like an alcoholic seeing their favorite bottle of booze. Okay, I'm down with that. Then she went on to say that withdrawal from food is like a dry drunk..... The worst part was she gave me this: emoticon I PROBABLY would have just let it go to ignorance had it not been for that. That was a direct hit as far as I was concerned.

Okay, NOW I need to say something. That's like comparing apples to oranges. Do not tell me an apple tastes like an orange ESPECIALLY if YOU have never tasted an orange!!! Oranges & apples are both fruit, have a peel & seeds, but they do NOT taste the same. EVER.

I explained to her that WE alcoholics learn to look away.... That every convenience store in America is an 'advertisement' for alcohol. She said it was easy to avoid convenience stores.

This was my response to her:

"As far as avoiding a convenience store being easy. I would think it's not as easy as avoiding a SECTION of a website on the internet. Furthermore I was using that as an example of the REAL WORLD. I get bombarded with alcohol at convenience stores, gas stations, grocery stores, Walmart, Target, K-mart, Shop-ko, and even PHARMACIES!!!!

My point was that at some point we really do need to use will power.

As far as the overeating being equal to a dry drunk I'll just say that if you ever have the DT's or have to lay in a hospital bed sedated for 3 days to keep from DYING from the DT's while withdrawing from a Twinkie I'll give you that.

If you get bombarded by unpleasant things on the computer you can go into your kitchen to find HEALTHY food. I get bombarded by alcohol every time I leave my house, but there isn't so much as a beer in my kitchen.

Just clearing a couple of things up....."

I stand by ALL of this. I am not saying that overeating isn't a compulsion. I'm not saying it isn't dangerous or unhealthy, but it is NOT like a dry drunk. First of all a 'dry drunk' is when a person doesn't drink, but continues to exhibit all the traits of an active alcoholic...short of drinking.

I'd like people to understand what they THINK they know.

I don't know if overeating is an addiction. I've read studies that say the same part of the brain is triggered when an over eater is exposed to certain foods just like an alcoholic's brain is triggered by alcohol.

I know that nobody ever died while withdrawing from candy. People die from DT's (Delirium tremens) every single day! You may wish you would die, but the withdrawal (in & of itself) from drugs like heroin & cocaine will not kill a person. Alcohol withdrawal can be & is often deadly!

When I went to treatment for alcoholism I was sedated for 3 days to keep me from going into DT's. I've had DT's at other times in my alcoholic life & they hurt! They hurt SO bad! I have bought a drunk a drink to help him avoid the DT's...or at least put them off.

I've had my issues with food. I don't know if I would have ever been considered a compulsive eater. I've been on both extremes of food intake. Overeating & starving both, but I don't think I truly understand compulsive eating. I DO understand alcoholism tho & I'm telling you it is NOT the same.

I KNOW that compulsive eating is dangerous. I understand that it could be considered an addiction. I do not think that alcoholism is worse....I think it's just different.

Whether you like it or not there DOES come a point in our lives that WILLPOWER comes into play! I've been sober for almost 8.5 years. When I was drinking I'm not sure that I had a choice. NOW, I absolutely do! I do not stay sober 'one day at a time'. There were points (especially in the first days) that I stayed sober one second at a time. Now, most days...sometimes weeks or months go by without me thinking of drinking, BUT because I am exposed to alcohol almost every time I leave my house I make a conscious decision to STAY sober!

The only way you will ever truly be free of over eating will come through willpower. You have it in you! I believe that!

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JEANNIE0312 6/24/2014 4:05AM

    WOW!!
I have seen people I love suffer with addictions to both alcohol & drugs.
I on the other hand only eat too much. The two may have similarities but, in no way do they compare!


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CINDYT63 6/22/2014 4:42PM

    I think people who don't know what it's like to be an alcoholic, with all the wonderful consequences and physical repercussions, assume food addiction is similar. I have been lucky enough myself to experience both (and MORE), and while a food compulsion/addiction-whatever you call it-is certainly not a picnic, it doesn't hold a candle to alcoholism. You must get sober before you can make any meaningful changes in any arena.
I too, hear people comparing them frequently. I think because it's the worst thing they can think of. Neither are fun. And, lucky for them, hopefully they won't have to find out.


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COASTAL6 6/22/2014 3:09PM

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AJDOVER1 6/21/2014 11:28PM

    Awesome points, Lisa!

I only know my own demons. It's strange to hear someone making comparisons to something they know little about. I have to make my decisions each day not to return to my addictive behaviors. The characteristics of alcoholism go far beyond just drinking alcohol.

It's not a competition. Addictions are hard to overcome for all of us. Let's support each other in our efforts to become our best.

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EILEEN828 6/21/2014 5:15PM

    You are so right, they are not the same at all. Alcohol is a poison, food is food. Food can only hurt you one of three ways, spoiled food, allergic reaction or overeating. Alcohol is a poison to your system no matter what. The only way to mitigate that besides not drinking at all, is to drink only sparingly. A person who has gotten to the point of alcoholism loses even that. Alcohol is a beautified poison with outrageous addictive properties. Compare it like dog poop. If you ate some would you be able to process it? I assume yes. But would you then ever consider it to be food? No, because it is not the same thing as food, it is a waste product. Alcohol does not provide nutrition. It may have some minor properties that can cause physio reactions in your body that can be very temporarily beneficial to you, but that's a pretty far out there stretch. The liver knows what it is immediately, Poison. It will literally stop processing any other foods and chemicals in your system JUST to take care of the alcohol first. Talk about a diet killer right. Here let's stop progress and make your metabolism shut down for awhile so you won't die from poisoning. Then we'll get to the extra 500+ calories you ate that you were counting on a working metabolism to handle. What vitamins and minerals? You used all those up taking care of your poison problem. So do I drink? Admittedly yes, but sparingly, and this is what I remind myself of it all the time. You have to convince yourself of what it is that you are REALLY doing. It's way too easy to lose track of it otherwise. It comes with a cost.

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SYLPHINPROGRESS 6/21/2014 1:47PM

    I remember you.

Candy isn't my problem (only three things from childhood still taste good even though they are of poor quality), but real food is. When I win the desire the binge, I may feel cranky, grumpy or sorry for myself, but I've never experienced a death wish over it. I've never felt that death was imminent.





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SANDRALEET 6/21/2014 7:40AM

    Sometime its best to be tactful in whot we say

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CROUCHINGFLEA 6/21/2014 6:40AM

    emoticon Wow, some people should really think before they speak (or type), I call it having no mental filter. They are not alike. My husband and I were just talking about something similar, I can handle a few headaches and maybe getting the shakes from not having caffeine or sugar, but drug/alcohol addictions are so much more severe. I think your reply was well said!

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ICECUB 6/21/2014 6:36AM

    WILLPOWER COMES INTO PAY AT SOME POINT. WE MAKE THE DECISSION TO CAVE OR STAY STRONG.

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KAREN608 6/21/2014 6:32AM

    Will power or proper decision making comes into play for both but we NEED to eat. Other things can be given up. We live in a society that markets all kinds of junk we do not need, and you are so right, we have to make right decisions over and over. And no one ever had withdrawl from candy/junk food. Just think we do since we had liked it. Replacing junk food with better food is the way. With alcohol, there is no replacement. We have to give it up. I had a problem with it as well, but not as deeply as you. I got really mad at myself and stopped at age 28. Hubby had wine in the house for a while but I convinced him the extra calories were not good for him, and the so called proof it was good for you was not really true. And the cost! So alcohol free again until step child comes over, maybe once a year if that. They are alcoholics. Sigh.

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Atrophy to Death???

Friday, June 20, 2014

You all may be surprised because I've been keeping my opinion to myself the last few weeks! It's been hard....oh, so hard.

You know my mom had MS. She was diagnosed in her mid forties & was in a full care facility by the time she was my age. Yes! Before she was 50 she was in a wheel chair & NURSING HOME. Her body was completely atrophied. MS is mean. By the time she died at 61 she only had VERY limited use of her right arm. She could hold a sippy cup & sometimes a fork to feed herself.

My sisters & I traveled back to Billings when she was diagnosed. I thought that MS was a death sentence. Ironically, it was actually worse. Yes, worse. My mom was sentenced to almost 15 years alone with her thoughts, regrets, unknown ambitions & hopes.

The Dr had given my older sister some exercises for my mom to do to keep her body from deteriorating any faster, but my mom refused to do them. IF she did do them she complained the whole time and as soon as my sister went home mom abandoned her exercise routine completely. She continued drinking, not exercising & eating horribly! (if at all...my mom was also anorexic.)

By the time I saw her again she looked completely different. I didn't recognize my own mom when they wheeled her out to the visitor's area. My niece called her Grandma & hugged her. I was shocked. She had gained probably 25 pounds. Her hair was waist long & it's natural color. Other than being in a wheelchair I hadn't seen her that healthy in years! MS indirectly saved her life. Or at least prolonged it.

I got so angry at her because almost immediately she told me she wanted to 'go somewhere'. WHAT??? She spent the better part of 20 years on a bar stool & NOW she wanted to go somewhere???? My dad took us to Disneyland & mom sat on a bench the entire time complaining that she was bored! She was in her early 30's at the time.

Why am I telling you this? Because I don't want to let myself atrophy. Am I going to sit on the couch until my legs wither up & die?

Are you going to start getting fingers & toes removed before you get your diabetes under control? Maybe you'll need to lose a leg to the knee?

My mom's life was too short. I don't know what lessons she learned, but I know the ones I have. They aren't going to be wasted!

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LISALGB 6/20/2014 10:30PM

    You very well may be the bravest person I know!!

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IRON_RESOLVE 6/20/2014 10:13PM

    It's always interesting to see how some people are born survivors, and rise above all circumstances. First there is the family of origin, we move on from that, with learned behaviors, over eating, etc. Next we move to our family of choice. Here we make good and bad choices. But ultimately, if we are wise, and if we mature, or if we can put the past, where it belongs, (in the past), then we learn to sincerely care for ourselves. This can be a quick, short and decisive destination or a very long road to realization of what is best for us, or even a winding or jagged one, where we don't use our judgment, or let others think for us, or hurt us. But eventually, if we live a life of clear and personal choice, it's here we make positive and consistent changes that lead to continued growth. It's where we live out our best life.
So glad you are where you are, and that you continue to blossom, and that you are living out your best life. I also love that you share. People can learn so much from others sharing their story. With your wit and concise rendition of what you have lived, and what you have learned, I think you will sum it up eventually and write the story of your life.

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GAILANN48 6/20/2014 9:37PM

    If we can learn from the mistakes of others, it can be much less painful than needing to make those same mistakes ourselves (we can make different ones!), but it still hurts to see those we love suffer in any way. You've taken pain, frustration, fear, and anger and used them to inspire beautiful words, Lisa. Thank you for caring enough to do that. You're such a love.

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KAREN608 6/20/2014 7:15PM

    I learned a lot from the bad choices of others also.
I know quite a few people that seem to WANT to continue the parents bad habits of smoking, drinking to excess, risky behavior. Go figure.

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EILEEN828 6/20/2014 3:35PM

    It's great that you've been able to look at poor choices in someone else, see the lesson in it and apply it to yourself. It's easy to say , "Well that was their problem, not mine." Unfortunately "those" problems can easily turn into " your" problems. The more I educate myself of specific health concerns I find myself amazed about how much is interrelated, the commonalities. If you can focus on treating the commonalities just how much of the specifics will never manifest? For instance, just how much is related to your guts alone? A huge amount as it turns out. Any how that is my focus right now, getting my digestive track back to optimal. It's good to have you blogging again. emoticon emoticon

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CROUCHINGFLEA 6/20/2014 2:49PM

    emoticon for sharing. My Mom died of untreated, diagnosed diabetes. If she'd have just gone to the doctor she could have lived a much longer, fuller life.

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COASTAL6 6/20/2014 2:45PM

    I don't don't know what to say, I feel so sad for you, and also you have come a long way, I'm very proud of you my friend. I'm so very happy to hear from you, I missed you! emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 6/20/2014 12:22PM

    You brought tears to my eyes with this blog. My dad died of Alzheimer's, and I didn't recognize him the last time I saw him.

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ICECUB 6/20/2014 12:01PM

    very interesting blog. diabetes runs in my family. when my father passed he had loss both legs at the knee. a good incentive to lose weight.

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BRENDAGAIL9 6/20/2014 11:55AM

    My mother died at age 37 from cancer. I was 16 and took care of her at home until the day she died. It was 9 months she lasted after she was diagnosed and they did a few surgeries that never healed. She was also an alcoholic, married five times and three children with different fathers. It was a hard life but it made me very strong and competent.

I met my father a couple times, he was an alcoholic, married to one and they had three children. It is a very long story but it is my story and I don't dwell on the past. I don't feel sorry for myself and don't depend on anyone.

We all have our stories and I enjoy reading about others.

In my building there are only two of us that are really healthy, eat right and get out and walk.

The sun is shining brightly today and it will be a beautiful one. I ordered an ice cream/yogurt/smoothie maker from Amazon that will be here today so I can make my own goodies and control the sugar and fat. Reading labels these days is very scary.

Have a good weekend. I do enjoy your blogs.

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LADYOLIVER 6/20/2014 11:45AM

    emoticon for sharing. Knowing my family history was one of the other reasons I was determined to change for HEALTH. Though it was sudden death for mom in January, she had made the decision to change some bad health choices. But she didn't get a chance to live them out. It was too late.... emoticon

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HOLLYS_NEW_LIFE 6/20/2014 11:35AM

    Absolutely! I've got one life, and that's why I needed to change it for the better.

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MISSB8604 6/20/2014 11:11AM

    You are as always, amazing.

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SANDRALEET 6/20/2014 10:23AM

    Life is to short to waist

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NANCYPAT1 6/20/2014 10:01AM

    We learn from both our own and others' mistakes and decisions. I am sorry you lost your mother but I am happy that you have learned something from the sad way that she ended up "living" or "not living" her life.

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SLIMMERJESSE 6/20/2014 9:51AM

    Touching blog. Thank you!

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