Saturday, March 15, 2014
YOU have to!
Spark is full of educated staff, great recipes, insightful & informative articles, healthful & helpful exercises, more information than one could learn in a lifetime, and has a community full of the most encouraging & inspiring people on the planet, BUT....
Spark will not count calories for you.
Spark does not hold you accountable for what you put in your pie hole.
Spark cannot exercise for you. SO....
What will YOU do to be successful???
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Like I told my friend Heather: The great thing about my 'Old Lady' moments is that they usually only last until my next skipping session. I imagine at some point I will become an antique kid rather than an old lady, but as for now I really am just a kid. (As so many of you Beauties pointed out to me yesterday!)
I guess the fact that I question who I am, what I have accomplished, what I may still contribute is a good thing. In & of itself, it probably says that I am a decent person or I just wouldn't care enough to ask. I've known people who never cared much about anything except for what they GOT out of life. I'm grateful not to be like that. It's kind of pathetic & probably very lonely in the end.
I've earned every laugh line I have. I probably even earned those gray hairs that only stay colored for 2 weeks before they spring up off my head like little antenna! I think they are what transmit 'the others' for me!
I am so happy Spring is close. Winter always lasts too long. We had a relatively mild winter, (Especially compared to the rest of the country) so it's hard for me to complain too much about this one. We didn't even have our usually rainfall. We had colder days than usual, but for me cold is 20. As I say...hard to complain. I noticed yesterday that we already have Rhododendrons blooming. In the almost 20 years I've lived out here I have never seen them bloom this early! What a great sight!
Spring truly is a time of renewal. With the buds & flowers come hopes & dreams of all the new great experiences we have to look forward to. New baby animals are born. Trees put out shoots they never had before. It's a great time to question where we are & why we got to where that is. It's never time to question what might of been...obviously, because it will never be.
I had an old guy give me his phone number at the grocery store the other day. I'd heard that it was the new pick up spot, but I thought it was a joke. Mikhail & I were teasing this man about stalking him because we kept running into him. The first time I was alone he came up to me & started joking about it being okay if I stalked him. Not even realizing he was hitting on me (I never have been good about picking up on this) I said 'well, me & my son are kind of a package deal'. He said 'Oh, that's okay. Call 709-....' Mikhail was NOT amused! Mikhail wanted to know what I did with his number. I said I didn't even write it down, Silly!
I have to admit it was a little flattering. I get flirted with a lot because I am a flirt, but I rarely have ever had men be so bold as to give me their number. I've been told I come across with a big NO all over me for that! HA!
It's been really nice to be able to dress pretty around the house. I am SO happy I emptied my closet of all my old clothes. I can't wear my old frumpy clothes that I don't have! I even replaced my pajamas so now I can wear new stuff most of the time....wearing PJ's all day probably still isn't the best answer, but I do occasionally 'forget' to get out of them until very late in the day!
I think one of the things that was scaring me about my age is that I bought some 'velour' pants. They are very cute, but I wondered if they were really cute or I just got old enough to think they are now. Kinda worrisome, but I still don't own any polyester pants with the crease line sewn into them so I think I'm good! Do they even make those anymore???
Lenny will be 60 10 days after I turn 47. I was doing my old lady complaining to him & he said, 'How do you think I feel?' Everybody ruins my complaining fun!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Old Lady Who?
Why are you yodeling?
Gee, I hope you aren't yodeling 'Old Lady Who?' in your head now! Teeheehee! I need to know somebody else is such a weirdo that they'd actually do this too! (Yea, YOU...ya weirdo!) For added enjoyment put a 'Swiss Miss' on the end of Old Lady Who & if you are from the USA & old enough you'll have an old hot cocoa commercial to remember. I'm a mean one sharing the junk in my head, aye?
8 days from now I'll be 47 years old. I have had Old Lady Who stuck in my head since the beginning of March! How did I get to 47 years old??? I remember when I was a kid I thought I'd never see the year 2000. Now, it's 14 years later. WHAT???
I'm going through a weird time. Who am I? What am I? Where do I belong? Who needs me? Who wants me? Who loves me? Who do I love, want & need???
Don't get me wrong....I'm Lisa Gail....I'm in a weird time often! BUT, now I am questioning everything I want to be & everything I have & HAVEN'T been.
I expected to have either set the world on fire by now OR at least everyone in the USA know who I am...if even by infamy! Why, I'm not even a serial killer. Strange! There aren't REALLY people in my garden! HA!
Naw Ruz, (As a Baha'i I celebrate The New Year) Spring & My birthday all land on March 20. What better time to examine who I am? I guess. Why am I here? What am I supposed to do?
Since my med change 6 months ago I feel like I've lost a little bit of who I am. My Bipolar Spark has been spritzed. Not fully extinguished, but dampened some. I don't care what anyone thinks I love feeling GRANDIOSE!!!
Spring is such a great time of renewal. My herbs are coming up. Mikhail's apple tree (he grew from seed that's now 3 feet tall) has buds on it. I always feel like this is the beginning. I don't think it was by accident that I was born on Naw Ruz & the first day of Spring. How can you not have Hope this time of year?
I don't even know why I'm blogging. It just seemed like a normal (HA!HA!) thing to do when I'm feeling like this.
What's Next??? I'm kinda hoping my fame won't come at the expense of anyone's life!
Wednesday, March 05, 2014
I did it! I know I said I was going to buy a new wardrobe for my birthday, but I couldn't wait! After wiping out 75% (it ended up about 90%) of the clothes in my closet I really didn't have any choice but to go buy clothes.
I bought new blouses, all size medium. No matter what size my waist is I think medium is as small a blouse as I'll ever wear again. When I was sick & got down to 125 I could wear a small, but I couldn't maintain 125 even if I wanted to...which I don't because at 5' 9" that's skinny for me. I like being thin, but I don't think skinny is attractive.
What kills me is that I still wear a size 7 jeans??? I wore a 7 at 115 when I was 19 years old!!! I weigh 140 now! It's stupid! Do clothes' manufacturers think that American women are so vain as to pretend to be the same size we were at 19...even at 25 lbs heavier???
Now the Levi's I bought were a little more realistic! I bought a 32" waist & had to shrink them in hot water, but they fit. I think I'm finally okay with a big waist....well, for this moment anyway!
But, ah, I came to a HUGE problem. I thought that it was logical that you would wear the same size underpants (Man, that word is funny to me ...in a 12 year old kid kinda way!) as pants. NOT TRUE! Do you have any idea how large size 7 underpants (teehee) are??? If I were to sew straps on the top I could wear it as a one piece swimsuit! HONESTLY! I want my rear end covered, but sheesh!
Every time I buy underwear I have to take a package back the first time! You'd think I'd remember. Is it really that long in between times when I buy them??? Maybe I need to consider this as part of the problem.
& the final funny. I tried on a Large (HAHAHA!!!) 'Genie bra'. It squeezed fat out of my armpits?!!! I have fat armpits???? OMB! Seriously??! I did not even know you could store that much fat UNDER YOUR ARM!
I guess big booties are in...big boobies out??? Why else would I need tiny underwear & a large bra??? Good grief! What is happening in the world of clothing???
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Seriously!!! My favorite pair of sweats fit in the waist, but otherwise are huge! The crotch hits about 4 inches above my knee! WOW! What's really embarrassing is that I actually bought them like this! They aren't left overs from my fat girl days! When I lost the weight I got rid of ALL my clothes. So, why now would I be dressing like a fat girl still????
I would NEVER wear these out in public!! So, why then do I subject the people I love the most to see me like this??? (Including ME!) I realized how horrible I've been dressing again. WHY??? I admit I love to be comfortable, but does comfort have to be UGLY too???
I'm so ready for Spring so I can wear all the new shorts & tank tops I bought last fall! In the winter I dress SO bad. I'm cold all the time so I usually wear at least 2 big shirts & sweats or leggings. I did update my wardrobe & bought 3 pairs of vinyl running pants to wear over my leggings. REALLY, Lisa???? GADZOOKS. When did I become such a bum???
My house is too cold for skirts, (which I love!!!) but why can't I buy some decent looking slacks? Because it's too much work??? I have long legs & a big waist, but not real big hips so buying pants is HORRIBLE! On average I would say I need to try on 20-25 pairs of jeans to buy 1...Yes, ONE pair! It's awful! I will keep a pair of jeans for YEARS! Style, schmyle!
If I ever become rich I will have ALL of my pants tailor made!!!
The one good thing about it tho is that if I start gaining weight I lose it FAST. The thought of buying pants keeps me more accountable than anything else?!@! I'm not the kind to walk around with a big ol' muffin top either! When I lost the weight I bought tight shirts for the first time in my life. I am not walking around with my big belly out there for all to see!
I need to get back to REALLY working on my midsection. I can't wear this pair of sweats much longer!!!
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