Monday, February 27, 2012
I have been off track for the last week.
Follow-up: I went to the doctor and was indeed diagnosed with exercise induced asthma thanks to my newly found allergies. I have no insurance, so my doctor had me fill out papers for a program from Merck that will provide my medications (An inhaler, singualair, Nasonex) for free. I still haven't heard back from them or received any medication. Last week I got really sick. My head hurt, had a horrible runny nose and head congestion. At first I thought I was getting the flu, but it turns out it's my horrid allergies! I found some really, old, nasonex of mine in the medicine cabinet and I have taken a few of my son's singulair to feel better. (I have to get my singulair soon so I can replace my son's meds.) I am doing better though I still have the runny nose and occasional headache. Having no insurance and being "poor" sucks!
So for most of last week I did nothing. I didn't track my food most days and because I felt bad I ate comfort foods. I haven't weighed because I am sure I gained. I am getting back on track today and making sure I run and do 30 Day shred, and stick to my diet so that I can get below 220 before Friday.
Hoping that I can get my motivation back. I have been sooooo unmotivated. I have noticed my lack of motivation has been in line with my lax in reading weight loss themed books, stories, and magazines. Need to find some on my Kindle today!
I am also starting my new job hunt. Year #3 trying to get a teaching job. WIsh me luck!
Have a great day Sparkers!
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
It's been awhile since I have blogged. Don't know why I haven't...it just hasn't happened. Basically I have been doing well. I am down to 224.4 pounds. I have been doing my best to stick to my diet. I have been following my C25K running plan and have started 30 Day Shred.
Last night was Wk3 D1 of C25k. Basically for a part of the workout time last night, we had to double our running time which SUUUUCCCCKKKEEEDDD. Well I noticed while I was running, even during the walking portion, I was having a hard time catching my breath. I finished the workout just as planned and went back home to do 30 day Shred. I could barely do it. I felt awful. I was wheezing some. I have had small bouts of exercise induced asthma (I self diagnosed) before. But this was the worst yet. I really felt like I was sucking air through a straw. Afterwards I was so tired and MEAN (I didn't sleep well the night before) that I blessed my family with an early bedtime for myself, took 2 melatonin, and went to sleep. This morning my back, near my right shoulder blade feels as if it is in knots, and it hurts through to the front of my chest. I am not sure if it's from my wheezing workout last night or if it's from the way I slept. (I sleep on my sides which put a lot of strain on my shoulders. I have had problems with that before.) I have taken 2 ibuprofen, and am trying to work through it, but it's no fun at all.
I have no health insurance so I am going to make an appointment with the free clinic (Which is run with the help of my own doctor) and see what they can do for me about this exercise induced asthma. I don't want this to stop me from working out, or to hurt my workouts in anyway.
So I am pretty bummed...
I am in 2 different Biggest loser competitions. One is with my family and I am pretty sure I am not winning it, and the other is with one of the schools I work at and I am pretty sure I am not winning that one either. Lol! Aunt Flo is visiting again and I blew my diet yesterday, so I have to be extra vigilant with what I eat the next three days to make sure I lose weight again on Friday for BL Competiton #2.
Workout today is suppose to be strength training. I feel like such crap, i am not sure I will get it in. I will do what I can do and that's all I can do...
Everyone have a great day!
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Well since our President is preparing the state of the Union address. I decided to give the "state of my body address." The purpose of which, I will outline the current state of my body, which really is only of interest to me, but since you chose to read this blog, now you must suffer through like all of us did back in the 80's when the State fo the Union address would come on TV, and we were forced to watch because it was on all 3 of our channels!
To start off, though I have made progress, my body is still a mess! I have fibromyalgia and arthritis. Which causes all over body aches and pain in my joints.
For starters, I have an injured elbow. It only hurts when I am doing bicep or tricep work with weights. My bad knee, which I injured in 2 car wrecks several years ago is still "wonky."
(I swear, I do not believe I have ever used the word "Wonky" before in either daily conversation or in a blog entry. Though I believe it does fit here.) Though it functions fine, I always have the feeling it may blow out at any time. My "good" knee has now become my bad knee. Last week while doing The Biggest Loser Cardio Max workout, I hurt it. To be honest it began hurting after the workout stopped. I took 3 days off from exercise to nurse my wounds, and have started again, but it still is hurting off and on. So now I am attempting to workout as hard as I can without further injuring either knee. So when a workout calls for jumping jacks, I attempt to do as many as I can until I feel it is getting rough on my lower extremities, and then I will do the "modified version" of jumping jacks. I started Couch to 5K, a running program for beginners, on Sunday. I am not really a beginner, but I did sit on my arse the last 6 months of 2011, so I decided with my injuries that I would start at the very beginning. Cardiovascular-wise, it is too easy for me, however taking into the account the number of injuries I have, I must remember that slow and steady won the race! However, I have not figured out what modification there is in place of running if it is too hard on my knees. Walking I guess, but that gets boring.... Anyway...I digress...
I also have an injured foot. Though I have not seen a doctor, as I have no health insurance, since I can not find a full time teaching job, (Address that problem Mr. President), I have self-diagnosed myself thanks to Webmd, and believe I have plantar fasiitis, that is an inflammation of the tendon running from the arch of my foot back to my heel. I read online that one should massage and ice the foot...which I do, and buy certain inserts for your shoes. I went to Dr. Scholl's for that and was delighted to see they made an insert specifically for plantar fasiitis! It has helped. Most days I am pain-free in my foot.
Now for more of the bad...
My arms are too fat, my stomach is still flabby, too large, cellulite-y, and unattractive. My thighs are cellulite-y, and they touch. Eww. My back is flabby with one roll on each side, and I generally resemble the shape of Mike Wizowski, but with a head on top of his head. (See past blogs to view Mike Wizowski, if you don't have children, and thus have no clue what the Monsters are named from the movie Monsters Inc.)
However, in less than a month there have been slight, tiny, almost unnoticable, changes....
My face appears smaller, my double chin has shrunk. My arms are less jiggly and are smaller. My belly....the part of my body I hate the most, is smaller, less cellulite-y than before, and I am starting to see the beginning of my waist. My breasts look firmer, my back looks firmer and not as flabby, and my legs look more toned and are starting to come closer to their former shapeliness.
In short, despite the fact that I have only lost a miserable 4 pounds thus far, I am better than I was 3 and a half weeks ago.
I have more energy. I don't get the afternoon drowsiness anymore, exercise has become a source of pleasure- though I do admit to cursing Jillian Micheals out last night while doing TBL last chance workout- overall, I am finding the former athlete that used to be me. I actually enjoying counting calories! I don't feel depressed much anymore. I am excited about becoming the new me.
However, the biggest improvement within my body these last three weeks have been within my mind.
I stopped doubting myself. I stopped telling myself "I can't do it" and believing that I can. I have accepted that with fibromyalgia and arthritis, and my injuries, I have limitations, but they don't and won't stop me.
I am always looking for sources on inspiration. I am becoming an encyclopedia of weight loss knowledge.
I am learning to take my time, and not overwhelm myself with too many goals at once, while also learning that if I don't push myself to my limits I will never see change.
From the outside I know that many people look at me and see an overweight, out of shape, Mom. However, it's what they don't see that makes me who I truly am.
They don't see me running down my road or busting out 50 squats in my livingroom and not even getting sore from it! They don't know that I have set a goal to lose a total of 82 pounds and that in March I am going to run a 3K and later this year a 5K. That sometime in my life I am going to run a marathon.
I can run, jump, play basketball with my kids, do 3 boys push-ups, and get my heels flat on the floor in downward dog. I can grab the bottom of my foot when stretching out my hamstrings. I am flexible!!
Though I have allowed myself to become fat. Fat is not who I am. It does not define what I can do. It does not define who I am or what I will be.
I am a Mother, a girlfriend, a daughter, a teacher, a nurturer, a gardener, a crafter, a genealogist, a runner, an athlete, and an achiever.
Fat? Yeah, that I am not. At least not for much longer.
So in closing, my Body, like our nation, has many problems, but overall, it's still pretty great. I have a long way to go, but look how far I have come!
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