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I have a confession.....

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Ok, so I've had a not so great week. Somethings were in my control and some were not....but most things were and this is where my confession comes in. I totally messed up this week, didn't go the gym one day, tried to convince myself I was making healthy food choices when I knew I wasn't, and I totally over ate. All right, so that makes me feel a little better to be open about it. I know the mistakes I made and this time around, I'm not going to deny them or try and hide them. I will own up to my mistakes, learn from them and move forward.

The Gym. Well, this was kinda my fault, kinda not. I did not feel good all week and it started on Monday. I was honestly having these pains in my chest, like sharp stabbing pains that took my breath away. The pain would then radiate into my arm. Soo...I was totally scared at first, but I soon marked it as stress. Over all, though, I just didn't feel right. I woke Tuesday with the same pains so I decided not to go to the gym not knowing was going on and I didn't want to be on the treadmill and pass out or something. Thursday was my next gym day, however, I had to leave work early because of the pain and broke down and went to my doctor. Good news, nothing too serious! I have acid reflux and a few years ago had surgery to 'correct' it and it looks like something is no longer working. All the pain I was feeling they think is from the acid reflux as well as stress. I rested the rest of the day Thursday....no gym. Saturday morning was my next chance, didn't happen. We cleaned in the morning, which was a good thing, but that's about as far as I got. My husbands birthday is Tuesday and we went to 'birthday weekend' lunch at a place he's never been. We really enjoyed ourselves and I fell into the trap of, 'I didn't eat breakfast so I can really enjoy lunch'. Bad idea. Today was supposed to be a gym day, but we went out last to a concert and got home late and choose sleep over the gym.

I convinced myself I was making healthy food choices all week.....I know deep in my heart, I wasn't. I tried, I always began the day with good choices, but by the end of the night, I found myself looking at what I ate and was disappointed in myself. I have some days like this, but I've never really experienced a whole weeks worth! All though, to my defense.....the chicken sandwich I ordered for lunch.....I didn't realize it was breaded until they brought it to me, it didn't tell me on the menu! BUT NO EXCUSES!!

I over ate......and need to come to terms with it. This really ties into myself trying to convince myself I was making healthy food choices when I wasn't. Last night, after the concert, my husband and I met up with friends for a 'post concert' drink. We ended up ordering nachos and took them home, in which I preceded to eat the ENTIRE box by myself!!! Oh, I'm so embarrassed! I can't believe I did that, yes they were so very good, but I seriously did not need to do that! Today, I really haven't overeaten much today, however, I didn't really make the best food choices. I 'snacked' throughout the day, which I didn't want to do. I snacked on foods that weren't the best choices, all though I could've made worse.

What did I learn from this? I learned that I have got to stop convincing myself I'm making a healthy choice when I'm not. I did it so much this past week, I can do nothing but own up to it. I learned that even though I make bad choices, it is ok and I just have to pull myself together and move forward. I learned, it is NEVER a good idea to have some drinks at a place that serves tasty nachos!!

My goals for the week ahead?

Enjoy and celebrate my husbands birthday on Tuesday while still making good choices. We are going to a little Jamaican restaurant for his birthday dinner. While I know the foods there aren't the healthiest, I will do my best to make really good choices throughout the day Tuesday so that I wont feel so guilty about it.

Gym Time! I will go to the gym this week and make it worth my time. Now that I know the pain I'm feeling is nothing dangerous, I can work out and not worry. I actually look forward to my date at the gym.

Try and blog more. I find the days I'm posting a blog, I get to really reflect on the day or the past few days. It really helps bring things into perspective.

Read a good book. I finished a book Friday night and am ready to start on my next week. I even got into the first chapter Friday night, but I'd like to try and put aside a little time each night before I go to bed to read a little.

Another wonderful weekend has past, I look forward to the week ahead and making better choices!

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  Thanks for this! I've fallen into this pattern...and it has lasted about 8 months! I've started slowly into working out again and am ready to get started full force after this weekend (I'm unfortunately traveling). Thanks for your inspiring list of goals. emoticon

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MYSTERY-LADY1 4/15/2012 10:44PM

    emoticon Great Goals for the week.

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A Fresh Start

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Well, it's the end of another weekend and onto another work week. The weekend went pretty well for me, I got a lot done and got to spend some time with friends I haven't seen in awhile. On Friday I posted a list of five items I wanted to get done this weekend, and I'm very proud to say, I did it!! I cleaned, read, spent time with my husband, gave the dog a bath, and had my first attempt of a Jamaican bread called Easter Bun.

As my husband is from Jamaica, I wanted to bring a little 'home' to him this Holiday and he loved it! I can honestly say that was probably my most favorite part of the weekend for me. To see his face when he saw what I did for him brought to tears to my eyes. I can't imagine what it would be like to be in a totally different country than your family. We are about 3.5 hours away from mine, and sometimes I have a hard time with that!

This year, I regret to say, we didn't really do anything to 'celebrate' Easter. With my husband's job, he works nights, weekends, and holidays. I had the option to make the drive myself to have Easter with all of my family....aunts, uncles, cousins.....all of them! I thought about it for awhile, this was my niece's first Easter, but I didn't want to give up what little time I did have to see my husband. I don't regret it, but I do find myself looking at pictures my family has already posted on facebook, wishing we were there. Hopefully next year!

I have to make a confession, I was NOT good this weekend with my journey to a better me! I'm a little embarrassed how far off I was this weekend, but I also look to learn from it.

I started Saturday actually pretty good, AJ, my husband, and I made it to the gym for a great workout. We came back just in time for me to try a new recipe I found online. I got my cleaning in while lunch was baking and got to sit down and enjoy it with AJ. So far, so good! Well, he went to work in the afternoon, I was exhausted, so I took a little nap.....which felt great! I woke up realizing I needed to take care of some much needed birthday shopping for AJ. I went on a quest around town trying to find the perfect gifts for him. I have almost completed my shopping a week before his birthday and am very excited for that! I got home a little later than I had wanted to Saturday night and realized I needed to still make the Easter Bun. I got that going, and while that was baking, I gave the dog a bath. A friend came over and we enjoyed a glass of wine....or two and got caught up. By this time, it's 11:00pm and I have realized I have not eaten anything since lunch and was starving! I helped myself to a turkey sandwich, which wasn't so bad for me. It's what I ate next......french fries!! AAHHH!!! I found some stuffed in the back of the freezer and decided the bag was almost done, so I might as well finish it. But oh.....they were so good!! I realized I had slipped, but knew it was ok and just enjoyed them for what they were.

This morning, well, this was a story all in itself! AJ and I decided to make a 'big' breakfast for just the two of us.....our little way of doing something special for the Holiday. We made French Toast (which was from a recipe I found on SparkPeople), pancakes (which in no way shape or form were 'healthy') and turkey sausages. We then proceeded to have mimosas while cooking breakfast together. While it was no means the best breakfast I could've chosen, it was the perfect one for us spending time together in the kitchen.

Lunch, it was more a light lunch for us as we still a little full from breakfast. I made Baked Egg Cups from SparkPeople and they were a hit for the both of us!!

My dinner was alone, and it wasn't too bad, I had two MorningStar Veggie Dogs and a Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich.

I think what hurt me the most today, was the jelly beans that just kept calling my name! I love jelly beans this time of the year and they just tasted so good! I tried to allow myself just a few, but then it turned into more and more. Thankfully, I haven't finished the bags.....I would really be worried if I did! I'm tempted to just through them away, but then again, I don't like to be wasteful! I might just have to stick them in my husbands work bag so he can have them :).

Tomorrow is a new day though, so I'm not going to stress on this, I'm going to let it go, hold my head up and move forward. I have my fruit ready to go to work with me tomorrow and it's going to be a good week!

I hope everyone had a fantastic weekend and a wonderful Holiday! I'll try and post all the new recipes I tried this weekend late in the week. Here's to a new week and a good week!!


It's the weekend!

Friday, April 06, 2012

Ahhh, how I love the weekends! We work all week just to have 2 days of freedom, which they always fly by so fast and before we know it, it's Monday.

I've already taken care of two of my goals this weekend, get groceries and make some guacamole (I posted the recipe in another post). My remaining goals are, listed not in any particular order:

1. Clean!! Not my idea of fun, but it's something that must be done in order to enjoy the remaining weekend. I've gotten it down to a science, doesn't take me too long to get through it all.

2. Enjoy a book. I have one I'm reading now and it's almost finished, so I'd like to finish it tonight and get started on a new one. I really do love reading!

3. Enjoy the little time I do have with my husband. He works odd shifts, so the weekends before he goes to work is really the only time I can really see him. I look forward to working out with him, enjoying a nice lunch and just sitting outside enjoying the weather.

4. Give the dog a bath. Sasha is a miniature American Eskimo and she's starting to look a little tan....not so white as she usually is. I went out and bought some good smelling shampoo for her, so I can't wait to try it out!

5. Enjoy Easter Sunday. I'll pretty much be alone this Holiday, due to my husband's work schedule, but at least I'll get to spend the morning with him. My husband is from Jamaica, and I'm trying to make a 'bread' for him and surprise him Sunday. It's called Easter Bun....it's not going to a SP friendly recipe, but he'll really appreciate it. I just hope it turns out, I've never done it before!

Happy Friday Everyone!!

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RINA2002 4/6/2012 11:52PM

  You sound quite energized for your weekend!

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BFMONICA 4/6/2012 10:47PM

    Sounds like a great weekend. I love to read also. My faves are mysteries. The bread sounds delicious. Enjoy!
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Friday, April 06, 2012

I made this tonight, it was such a great snack with carrots!! I forgot to buy an onion at the store today, so I added some extra seasoning. I didn't add any salt and I still thought it was good. Next time, I think I'll try and add some tomatoes. Enjoy!

Fresh Guacamole

2 ripe avocados, peeled and chopped
1/3 of cucumber, chopped
1/3 of medium onion, chopped
1 garlic clove, minced
1 tsp cumin powder
1-2 Tbsp lemon juice
Salt to tast

Add all ingredients to blender or food processor and process to desired consistency. Add salt to taste. Served chilled.



Mexican Tortilla Casserole

Friday, April 06, 2012

I made this the other night and it was pretty good, so I thought I'd share! I forgot to take a picture of it, but the taste is great!

Mexican Tortilla Casserole

1 lb. boca soy 'beef'
14oz no-fat refried beans
1/4 cup salsa
4 whole wheat tortillas
1 1/2 cups shredded cheddar cheese
Taco Seasoning to taste

Heat oven to 350 degrees
Heat boca on stovetop
Stir in can of beans and salsa
Heat mixture through
Spray round casserole dish with no-stick cooking spray
Lay one tortilla in the bottom of the dsh and spread approx. 1/4 of boca mixture
Sprinkle 1/4 cup of cheese over that
Continue to layer, then top all with remaining cheese
Bake 15-20 mintues, or until hot

My husband, who doesn't have to worry about what he eats loved it, next time I'm going to have to double he reciepe!

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NANCYRUBIO 4/6/2012 11:59PM

    Have to copy recipe for Bob, he doesn't have to worry either.

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MCNC72 4/6/2012 10:09PM

    sounds good - I am not a real fan of refried beans - but, looks good!

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