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Living the Life I Imagined

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Running around Lake Padden at a good pace I passed a runner running in the opposite direction. "I wish I could actually run this." I thought. "What am I thinking! I AM running it!" What an odd occurrence. It took me by surprise. I surprised myself that I would think that. "How did I get here?" "How am I actually doing what I never imagined I could do?"

I love the saying on this picture about Living the Life SHE (me) Imagined. The fact is, I never imagined this. This it too far about what I could have imagined for myself. I did imagine a feeling of health and strength and freedom from carrying extra weight, but to imagine running 5 miles of trails by choice and loving it was not within my imagination at any time during my life. "I'm not athletic" is a lie I believed for many, many years. No one could tell me otherwise. It has been a process of small achievements and new goals that has brought me to the place where I am continually surprised that this is the new normal. This is how I live and what I do. It is an incredible feeling. It is surprising because it wasn't a conscious effort to arrive at THIS place. Yet, day by day and change by change all of those things added up and I am the strongest and most fit I have ever been in my life. This wasn't my goal. My goal was all about the weight. Now, not only is my weight down, but I am experiencing things I never could have imagined which inspires me to believe there's even more for me up ahead.

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LEASIM1231 1/21/2014 1:51AM

    Love this. You are an inspirtion. I also think I am not athletix but I have not really tried

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POSITIVE41 1/20/2014 6:33AM

    Isn't it funny how you are in charge of your own happiness and make things happen? Good for you! Remember, if you are out there running you are a runner! Keep up the great work. You will look back a year from now and be amazed.

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EJOY-EVELYN 1/19/2014 9:14PM


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SHERRYLHBB 1/19/2014 7:43PM

    Life can be more and better than we could ever imagine. Isn't that amazing?! I love this blog. It is a wonderful reminder that every little thing we do may not seem like much at the time, but it all adds up so keep on keeping on. Also, you are such an inspiration. You have accomplished so much. Continue to live life beyond your imagination!

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Increase performance or lower expectations?

Monday, January 13, 2014

Today was my annual Med review appointment. I was so disappointed in my lab results. After 4 years of working to bring my HDL cholesterol up, it is exactly the same, 34. Three years ago I was told, "Just keep doing what you're doing and in a year, you'll be where you should be." Although I increased my exercise and kept my weight off, my cholesterol did not improve. 8 months ago I began taking medication for it. Immediately there were some positive changes. 6 months later, my new lab results are worse than last time. It seems realistically that I will never make it to the "optimal" range. This is a hard pill to swallow as I seem to continually demand perfection of myself. I truly cannot do any more than I am doing to make healthy lifestyle changes. I will strive to lose the recommended 10 pounds, but otherwise, I have concluded that in this case I need to lower my expectations and not expect more of myself. It is hard not to feel like I have failed. I want to control what I can't control. I need to come to a peace that is okay not to be in the "ideal" range for a number of things.

I have made many improvements and feel great. I just seem to obsess on my failures rather than my successes and that needs to stop. Today I am saying I don't expect myself to be perfect and no matter how disciplined I am or how hard I try, I won't be perfect in my own eyes. That is okay. I'm still moving forward and enjoying being alive and having the strength and energy to do all of the things I enjoy and that counts for a lot!

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EJOY-EVELYN 1/15/2014 12:34AM

    You increased your workouts and maintained your weight. These are major successes!

Have you thought to show your doctor your typical meal plans? My husband tried to do oatmeal and omega 3 oil most mornings for breakfast only to find his number increased for the next set of lab tests. Some people naturally have high numbers. It would be great it you can control it with food and fitness, but itís important enough that a change in prescription may be needed. Hug, hug -- Evelyn

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LEASIM1231 1/14/2014 1:36AM

    Maybe my Body's 'not normal , but normal for you' is genetic :)

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RAPUNZEL53 1/13/2014 11:42PM

  Your new attitude will help! Good Luck!

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MCFITZ2 1/13/2014 11:41PM

    You are doing the best you can. My body doesn't meet all the "normal" values either.
If you are taking your meds, eating right, exercising, have gotten ;your weight down you are doing what current wisdom recommends. Remember the normal range is a statistical average. There are always exceptions. Love yourself and what you are doing. Don't stress. It increases the LDL.
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Old Goals, New Goals

Monday, December 31, 2012

I began my fitness journey January 2010. The only real goal I had was to lose weight. I started exercising and really cutting back on my food, trying to make healthy, low cal choices. The weight slowly began to come off. I was introduced to sparkpeople and began setting other goals and receiving motivation and inspiration from other sparkpeople members. I read the book and realized that if I could do this, I could try/do other things too. I started running. I hated running. I slowly built up and triumphantly completed a 5k. I began running with a running group about 4 miles a few times a week. I decided to train for a half marathon. I ended up with a knee injury which took a long time to heal. Finally, in September 2012 I completed my half marathon. Never have I wanted to quit something so badly. The last mile, my knee was causing me so much pain, I just didn't think I could finish. But I did. That is a lesson I will take with me into 2013 and beyond. Sometimes you think you can't succeed, but keep one foot in front of the other and you will reach your goal!

My new goals for 2013 are to get to my goal of 158. I would like to broaden my exercise horizons and try kick boxing, yoga and learn some ab workouts. I tried paddle boarding for the first time in 2012 and loved it. I would like to continue to try new things. I especially want to become active on sparkpeople again and continue to track my food, exercise and blog steps in my journey.

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SHERRYLHBB 12/31/2012 10:47AM

    Go, you! Isn't it amazing to look back on the past year and realize just how far you've come. You are an inspiration. All the best in 2013!

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Nike watch and running chip

Friday, July 15, 2011

I purchased new Nike running shoes, the watch and chip around 3 weeks ago. I am so happy with it that I thought I would share the info for anyone who is running and wants to track their mileage. It is the handiest little device and not too expensive. Firstly you need a pair of Nike shoes that are made with a place for the chip. Then you purchase the watch and chip together. It is super easy to set up an account online, then everytime your run, you take the part out of the watch and put it in your computer and it automatically uploads and stores your info, including distance, pace, calories, and time. I have previously only ran mostly on a treadmill and did not like the idea of not knowing how far or how fast I was running. Now with this little set, I can run outside and still track everything. Very handy and highly recommended!

P.S. I do not own stock in Nike :-)

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SHERRYLHBB 7/17/2011 4:07PM

    It sounds like a neat gadget. I'm glad to read that it is working well for you. Does it tell you your pace as you are running?

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LMBARR1 7/16/2011 12:40PM

    Yes, I am bringing it with. THat is the main reason I got it now so I would have it when I don't have a treadmill...

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LEASIM1231 7/16/2011 3:11AM

    Sounds cool! Are you bringing it with?

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FLAB2FAB26 7/15/2011 3:27PM

  Sounds like a great investment! I have something similar on my droid phone - run keeper app - and I love knowing my stats during and after a run. The only problem is that my phone is pretty heavy, but it's totally worth running with it!

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Overcoming Obstacles

Friday, June 17, 2011

Spark's recommendation is to write about an obstacle in a blog. My biggest obstacle is tracking my food. This should be very easy and painless, but I can't seem to consistently do it. I do know that over the past school year, I have lost 8 lbs. It could have been more and I could have reached my final goal, but I haven't been tracking my food most of the year. The times I did, I lost weight. When I don't, I maintain although I feel I should be losing. I obviously eat more calories than I think I do. That's why tracking food is so important. I believe there is an "Honest to yourself" factor to tracking and accountability. I don't have access to computer most of the day and am on dial-up most of the time. I think I will try tracking in a journal and entering it all at the end of the day.

I have overcame quite a few obstacles over the past two years. I have found a way to fit exercise into my life on an almost daily basis. I have began running and have consistently improved. I have tried many new things and broadened my horizons and joy. I have met many new people, especially at the gym who have become a part of my support group. I have cleaned out much of my clothes and rest of the house removing clutter and excess, freeing up space both physically and mentally. I have completely changed my eating habits and have educated myself on the healthiest food choices and habits. Overall, it has been two years of much progress.

In addition to tracking my food, my new goals for the summer include:

Clean out the garage (big mental burden)
learn new healthy recipes
visit new places locally
read a few books I have been wanting to read
stain the deck
cut back on caffeine
do one running event (planning for 7 mile July 9)

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SHERRYLHBB 6/21/2011 5:59PM

    Good goals! I agree about the food tracking. When I was tracking I lost weight pretty consistently. I need to make the same goal.

I feel your garage-cleaning pain. I read a blog that I really like and thought you might like it too. The site also has some other pretty interesting stuff.

BR>P.S. I'm counting the days...

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LEASIM1231 6/20/2011 3:54PM

    The books sound interesting!

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LMBARR1 6/20/2011 12:32PM

    The books I want to read are:

Life Without Limits

A Million Miles in a Thousand Years

The Spark: reread the "Pillar" chapters

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LEASIM1231 6/20/2011 2:06AM

    I think cleaning the garage is on the same level as doing all the rest! What are the books you want to read?

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