Thursday, February 27, 2014
I am now on week 2 of working from home and pretty much not going anywhere except for doctor's appointments. This lack of mobility, combined the extended winter of snow and frigid temperatures in addition to missing a few days vacation that I had really been looking forward to, is stirring up a mess of emotions: boredom, cranky, and the faint edges of apathy. All of which could lead to emotional eating, which I very much want and need to avoid.
I've remained on-track fairly faithfully, but I am having to stay more mindful and vigilant as some foods are starting to call to me in a way they didn't pre-accident. One thing I am doing is making a greater effort to try some new healthy recipes to help satisfy the need for variety. Much to my surprise, making a Spark Recipe for an egg-kale scramble seems to be as satisfying mentally as a candy bar. Go figure!
Something else I am doing is mentally framing the current state of affairs as temporary and something I'll just have to power through. Keeping in mind that this is temporary rather than wallowing in the feelings of being housebound and trapped goes a long way of reducing those feelings.
What about you, what have you done to respond mental/emotional/situation triggers for food?
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
This morning I decided to try and get a reading on where my weight is these days. This is tricky given that I can't stand on it with weight on both legs, but figured I could stand on one foot and balance myself with my walker. Given my new morning routine, I needed to do this after I got dressed, so I was ready to allow 1-2 pounds for clothing. I also figured that my cast would add another 3-5 pounds, so I was fully prepared to see a number around 7 pounds higher than my last weigh-in.
Well guess what? The scale popped up 158.6, over 7 pounds *less* than my last weigh-in at 165.8 about 2 weeks ago. Much as I would like to believe that, it really defies logic that with clothing, a cast and virtually no activity for the past two weeks I would be down 7 pounds. I guess even with my cast resting lightly on the scale, not having my weight evenly distributed across both legs really threw the scale for a loop.
So I guess I'm confined to following my eating plan (I've been doing very well with that) and celebrating NSVs for at least the next month.
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
I had another doctor's appointment today for my foot & ankle. Good news: so far all is healing well and I do not need surgery. I was very happy to hear this as I figured that surgery was going to add to my recovery time. OTOH I also found out I will be in the hard cast for 6 weeks, and I'm sure I'll need an interim walking appliance and physical therapy... So I'm guessing my overall, total recovery time is more in the order of 3 months, not 6-8 weeks.
I'm moving around more and more easily. I've rented a knee walker and can go pretty fast in it, almost a normal walking pace. I've also got a walker which I'm much more stable on than crutches, and today I was able to get up the two small steps into the house on my own. Progress!
Friday, February 21, 2014
The other night I was on the phone with my 84yo mother, talking about the accident which lead to my fractured foot and ankle. In an earlier blog, I had taken the blame for the fall fully on myself, as I was feeling guilty as h-ll that I had a sudden influx of wine the night I fell due to celebrating Valentine's Day. My mom proposed an alternate theory that doesn't get me off the hook 100%, but is certainly something to pursue further with my doctor.
3 days before the accident I had my blood pressure taken as part of the pre-op testing for surgery I was supposed to be having done next week; at that time the reading was 124/82. Three days later when I was in Urgent care for my foot, it was 108/76. Keep in mind that usually when someone is in pain blood pressure goes UP, not down. As a former nurse, my mother honed in on that detail and suggested that what might really have happened was that I had a sudden drop in blood pressure, which is what made me dizzy and caused the fall.
Now if this was the one and only time I had an incident like this, I would likely disregard her theory. But four years ago I had another incident that was almost exactly the same as this one: I woke up in the middle of the night; overheated, dizzy and light-headed. I got up to use the bathroom and fell, hitting the back of my head. Again, I was extremely lucky that I did not hurt myself very seriously. One time is a scary accident; two times is starting to make a trend.
This is not to say that the wine was not a contributing factor: it may very well have contributed to my body overheating. But what's more worrisome is how much my blood pressure dropped. I do not remember if I had anything to drink the first time I fell; that may have just happened out of nowhere. I'm not taking any of those drugs that claim "sudden, unexpected drop in blood pressure" as a side effect. So what's going on?
Definitely something to bring up with the doctors... And in the meanwhile, Ken and I have imposed a two-drink limit for me, and if I wake up feeling that awful dizzy feeling, I'm not going anywhere alone.
Update: Just looked at my SP blogs and found the one I posted after the first incident. The date was 2/13/10, almost exactly four years earlier than this year's incident. Definitely time to start drawing medical attention to this.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
On day 4 after breaking foot and ankle, and finally getting to see the orthopedist this afternoon. Also hoping to get a knee walker to help with mobility around the house; I gave up on the crutches after falling while using them. My SO Ken has been very sweet and patient making me my low-carb foods, but I'm looking forward to regaining some mobility and independence.
One strange thing I am noticing: I am not nearly as depressed as I thought I would be. Sure I'm bummed that I'm cancelling our trip to Florida this week; after this cold snowy winter I have been really looking forward to it as well as seeing family. But I'm not really miserable and depressed - how can that be?
I am not a calm, accepting person and I don't meditate (I should, but that's a separate blog). I did notice pre-accident that my energy was somewhat better since going low-carb, and now I am noticing that my mood seems to be better as well. The other thing that I'm noticing is that my weight-loss experience is helping me to frame this in a more positive light. Instead of focusing on the end-game of being back 100% to all pre-accident activities, I'm defining mini-goals: getting more mobility with knee scooter, walking cast, etc.
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