Monday, November 04, 2013
Was going title this Lady & The Tramp but decided against it
I've known for a while Charlie & myself have been spending way to much time together. We are so opposite with our lives no 2 people could be so opposite. Yes I've heard all my life "OPPOSITES" do attract.
I have been questioned about our relationship he now has been questioned about "US" . That is what lead to last night. 3 hours trying to sort out what is going on . Yeah if you look at our text messages and that he comes into where I work to see when I'm done with work and I always say "see you later?"
He has even started leaving stuff in the car so I have to take it to him. I ask if he wants a dinner plate? I picked up some clothes from the Salvation army for him as his jeans were stolen etc
Last night the food plate that I bring him is just his way of getting to see me and that he thinks of me all the time that's why he texts me. I look forward to our texts
The first part of October we hit a rough spot someone was trying to get him & I not to hang out we got that fixed and since then constantly together.
I only see Charlie as a person many bring to my attention that he is homeless He has a home that happens to be in the woods I have been there visiting. Me I live in my brother & mom home
As he told me last night he doesn't know if he deserves to have a good woman in his life and he has nothing of real to offer that I deserve better. Well this wasn't suppose to happen. We both agree its all James fault if it wasn't for James we would never have started this relationship.
Charlie wants me to tell him what I expect and want. He doesn't really want a short term but doesn't know if he has a long term relationship in him at this point of time.
Still as it sounds at my age (I'm older then he is) what I want and need is really just the companionship it can get real lonely not having that someone to go to when things get rough or I'm upset I just want some one to cuddle with. Not interested if its only going to be short term in that case no sense in putting me out there to be hurt. If we go any further there are things I will not except will not stay if disrespected will not deal with a cheater or anyone who would hit & beat on me. I do want him to try get his act together.
Last night was the 1st time he hugged back really hugged back in an embrace for a very long time at least 30 minutes we would not let one another go. We spoke about our religious . He beliefs. He also said people will try to break us up again we will have our rough patch with people causing trouble .
My family is so pissed right now that I spend so much time with Charlie my mother always tries to ruin every relationship I have been in
Now I'm waiting to be able to speak with him again see if we can get this to work out I'm willing to give it a try and see what happens.
Sorry for the very long post