Monday, August 09, 2010
OK so this is the second time I am typing this blog up. I did it this morning and I just got an error message for my efforts! Kind of like me on the scale but I digress!
My sister was here over the weekend! I haven't seen her in just over two years. We have always been close but she has firmly planted herself in a LARGE city in Florida. She is a true city girl now. I was born and raised in the city too but I have always considered myself to have one foot in the city and one in the country. I live in a midsized/small city (depending who you talk to). There are a few things that I knew about my sister but I had forgotten about until this weekend.
1. She wakes up talking. Literally! She will wake up and she is talking a mile a minute AND making sense! I do NOT do that! I am one that doesn't even speak to the cat until I have been awake for at least an hour!
2.She is a drama queen! That is right! A girl that is a drama queen! Hard to believe I know! I am not a drama queen (you can ask my husband Really!!)
3. She is a "one upper"! Yep, because of her love of talking she has a just slightly better story than you do. Always! I don't mind until mom and her get together because they are both like THEN it just drives me nuts!!!
4. I love her more than words can express! That is right. I love the drama, the constant stories...ALL of it!!! I miss her like crazy a lot of the time!
Another thing about my sister...she has always had problems with her weight. My mom and I are small (I am 5' and mom is 5'2" and she is 5'3"). As a kid she was heavier than both mom and I. I never had any problems with my weight until after I had children. I can't imagine how she must have felt as a child. It was pretty hard I am sure. When I saw her this weekend she was as heavy as I had ever seen her. She told me she was 190 pounds. The last time I saw her two years ago she was 140. It kind of broke my heart. I have told her about sparkpeople for a year and a half now! She is a fad dieter...she would rather do something that would drop the weight quickly than to make a life style change. Right now she is on diet that consists of eating 1000 calories one day, 2600 the next, 1400 the next then the cycle starts all over again. I think that is crazy! I really try not to preach what I have learned here on SP. I realize what it must sound like have a person who has always been thinner than you tell you what you how you should be eating...yea, not good! She will soon be 39 and I know it will be harder and harder for her to lose the same 40-60 pounds over and over again. I really don't know what to do to help her unless it is to just keep mention SparkPeople.com to her!
I had a great weekend with her and her classmates (she was here for her 20 year class reunion). It was great seeing people I hadn't seen in 20 years, of course that makes me feel old!!
I am going to track my food for a short time again. I wasn't feeling quite myself for a few days last week and in looking back I think I was putting myself into starvation mode! I ate but I don't think I ate enough! I was also getting to the point that I wasn't hungry in the morning to eat breakfast! That tells me I am not eating like I should. The choices I made were good ones, I just don't think it was enough.
I am also still needing to get motivated to start exercising more routinely! I have been exercising but usually it is a day to day decision vs a plan. I am a planner and I think if I ever want to get back down to my goal weight, instead of gaining and losing the same 3 pounds right in the middle I need to plan!
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
I don't have anything profound to say just typing up some of the thoughts running through my head. STILL trying to find some balance. People have said that I am just a really busy person but a lot of the time especially in the afternoon and evening I feel like I could be using my time much better than I do. This week has been the exception to this rule! I am totally exhausted but I feel like my time was used wisely and I had a bunch of fun doing it. As I shared in my last blog I have been going to my kids' school to do Peaceful Playground Painting www.peacefulplaygrounds.com/ More than 15 people (teachers and parents) were invited and well on average there was 6 people there. I think I put in 10-12 hours in four days time. There were a couple people that came just one day, a couple more that came just 2 days, etc. I was there all four days as well as 2 other ladies. One I had never met before, the other I met on occasion because her son and my son were great friends and had a couple play dates together. After spending that many hours with them I thought they were a lot of fun. I did find out for sure that I will never be able to talk religion or politics with either of them because the are way right and I am right smack in middle ground! But you know that is ok because most people know not to talk religion or politics. It is all good! Anyway I can see us being good friends! Great ladies and very fun. I am happy to say we got done with the project yesterday. It looks beautiful and I am so glad we are done. It was a labor of love though. I really hope the kids use it! LOL The other thing I feel is that it is like a let down. It is all done, now what?! Well as we were talking last night we decided that we do need to get together at least one more time because we need to order balls, make bean bags get all the stencils cleaned up and put in some kind of order...So we are doing that next week sometime. Also on the exercise part of this, I was feeling all the bending and stretching going on! the backs of my legs were so tight I could hardly walk yesterday after sitting at my desk for awhile! I put it in the fitness tracker...did you know there is one for painting? I didn't either! LOL
I am still having mixed feelings on my weight loss and goals. Right now I am maintaining a weight I am comfortable with butNOT really happy with. I keep going from as long as I don't gain anymore weight I will be ok - to - I will get back down to my goal weight and stay with in 2-3 pounds of that! I am in a healthy BMI though a bit on the higher side of it. It seems like whenever I look at myself in the mirror I only look at my stomach that is just too round, but I still have a waist (think smuggling a basket ball!) I remember how I felt a year ago having more energy and a much better (TMI warning here..) sex drive. I miss that. Though I am not totally convinced that it is ONLY because of my lack of regular exercise that both of those are running low. I do have a lot going on right now. I am not using that as an excuse as to why I haven't been exercising, it has been a total choice I have made, putting other things in front of that. I need to either make peace with that or stop it and do something about it.
Speaking of Friends, I have recently made a few great new friends on SP! You all have been of great support and encourage to me lately and I really do appreciate you! Oh yea, you know who you are!
Thanks for reading!
PS I just re-read my last blog and MAN! I could tell it was late when I was writing that! Sorry for all those grammar mistakes! LOL
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