Friday, July 23, 2010
I had a rough day, but I think I handled it pretty well over all. I am going to spill it all so I am sorry in advance if you read something you may think is too personal but this is more for me than for anyone else...
I slept well! I have not been sleeping well last few nights but last night was awesome. Well I must have been very tired because I didn't set my alarm. I woke up to my husbands alarm 5 minutes before I was supposed to arrive at work. Luckily I only live 7-10 minutes from work. I took the worlds quickest shower, and the only reason why I did that is so I could condition my hair against the humidity! It was still wet when i got to work. Amazingly enough, I was at work 30 minutes after I jumped out of bed. It helps so much when you pick out your clothes and pack your lunch the night before let me tell ya!
I woke up with a headache. Not cool. I know why I had a headache. A couple of reasons really. One is allergies, so not in love with them! The other was hormonal, ahhh yes TOM is back. Since I started exercising my headaches have become a rare occurrence which I am very thankful for, now it is mainly during that one week a month and then it is almost everyday! Blah! Is there anything that can stop those? If anyone knows let me know! When I got to work I did my usual routine of checking my email (work and personal), got my log in points at SP and checked out my friend feed. Friday is also payday. I get paid once a week and my husband gets paid everyother. Today was my husbands payday so I did my usual checking to make sure the paychecks were directly deposited. As I did my quick jot down of all the bills I need to pay in the next two weeks I realized that I would not have enough money! SIGH! I am about $50 short of being able to pay for everything that is due in the next two weeks! Great! As some of you know my husband was laid off for 7 months. He is now severely under employed! He makes about half of his previous income. We got smart early in our lives and don't have a lot of debt. We have one car payment, a house payment and a second mortgage (we had to have two basement walls replaced in our house) . No credit card debt. Before he lost his job we saved approximately 20% of our income (of course we went on a 2 week vacation and used a bunch of money out of our savings 2 months before he was laid off). The point is, is that we have money in savings to cover the shortage but it will not be replaced! We are saving NO money, there is no college education fund, and he has no retirement fund! That stresses me out! So I started on my work (seeing I was at work after all) but I just wasn't into it. My head was pounding, I was thinking of the money that is slowly being drained from the savings account worrying about what was going to happen once that was gone. I was even considering starting to look for a 2nd job.
I work in accounting and I was given the task to reconcile one of the General Ledger accounts that hadn't been done since 2008! SIGH! Which means staring at the screen looking a numbers! Which is totally mentally draining! That is when I started about eating...at work we have a "snack" cabinet. Inside is chips, cookies, little debbies, candy, trail mix, breakfast bars... you get the idea. It is all free! I really wanted nothing more than to go back there and grab just whatever! Everything in my head was telling me to stay at my desk but I didn't I got up! I walked back there and got a breakfast bar. Nothing terrible. high protein with fruit and nuts in it. Then I also got a mini pack of peanut m&ms. I knew I shouldn't have but the devil on one shoulder told the angel on the other shoulder to just shut up and that I want it so I am eating it! I was working away (head still pounding) and I wanted to eat more. Oreo cookies or maybe a peanut butter cup! I really wanted cookies! So instead of going to the cabinet again I got on SP and I reached out. I put it on my friend feed and I put a huddle on two of my teams. even though I only got 2 responses (one person on each team) it made me feel better. I text my husband and told him I wanted a cookie and he told me not to (God love him). That is when my mood started to turn around. I started thinking that I am greatful for having money in my savings account to relay on. I started thinking I am glad my husband has a job instead of one of those people who are waiting on the government to renew unemployment benefits! thinking that I did a lot of work to get to where I am and I don't need to mess it all up in one day! I put on my friend feed how I felt and that alone made me feel better.
Anyway, my head stopped pounding and by time I left work i was feeling much better and to top it all of my dear husband gave me a foot rub tonight! How cool is that!
Thanks for Reading.