Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Did you ever wish that you could be someone else? I don't mean like a real person, like "OH I wish I was Sharon Stone." NO! I mean, sometimes I have this inner voice that says that would really like to be less shy around people I don't know. Or I have this wish to be more confident with the way that I look. I am very modest and shy. Don't get me wrong, I LIKE me! I really do. I just wish for enhancement for my personality, make my outward personality the same as my inward personality.
I heard someone say once, this is not an exact quote...We are the person that we want the person we are with to see.
Makes sense huh? So if we have an old friend that have been with you threw thick and thin you are a different person than you are with a person let's say that you just met and are starting a new friendship with.
As I am going through my weight loss journey, it has occured to me that as I am relearning to appricate my body for what it has done for me. As I am treating it better, I can allow myself to transform into the person I would like to be. A better person. A person that isn't afraid to do or wear what I want because of the what someone else might think.
Example: I am short. I am 5 foot tall and my goal weight is 113 pounds. Currently I weigh 121. I have NEVER been comfortable with telling people what I weigh because I get some nasty reaction or dismissive reactions. What makes YOUR weightloss more admiral than mine? It is just as important to me as yours is to you!
Example: I have this inner wild child in me. I never expressed it in my 20's and now I am in my mid-late 30's I feel the need to. I got my first tatoo this month
I haven't shown it or told a lot of people because of what they might think of me. I am 37! Why should I care!?!
Example: There are a lot of clothes that I would like to wear. Somethings that are more figure flattering. I have worked really hard to tone and lose the extra weight. I am not talking slutty or wearing what a teenager would wear, just something that is not baggy frumpy! I have dabbled a little bit in this but mostly I don't because of what others may think!
As you go on your journey, has it occurred to you that this new body can also come with a new out look and/or personality? I am thinking about it little by little. The changes are starting to come....
Thanks for reading.