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Day 26: Dealing with my diet, not di-et

Friday, May 03, 2013

Ok, so this is really a 2 day blog, day, 25&26. One of this week's challenge for the BLC 18 is to write about a day in the life of my stomach, 3x. I didn't get to post yesterday so I am going to post it here, but first a little bit of info as to explain what I have been eating these last two days.

So Sunday I was really bad, had half of a large Pizza Hut pizza, their new crazy crust pizza with little pockets of cheese. Well that turned into well over 1000 calories. Not just that but a few days after that I found myself munching on pretzel rods dipped in peanut butter, not good. See, I weigh myself everyday. I know you're not supposed to but for me its more motivational. I see the number either staying the same or going down, so I know what I am doing is working and to keep it up and not quit. Now this week I have been gaining weight! THE HORROR!!! So desperate not to see a gain at my weigh in I have drastically cut my calories for these last 2 days, 630 calories on day 25 and 980 today, day 26.

So without further delay, here is a day in the life of my belly!

Day 25:
This day was bad, as in going back to my old habits, somewhat.
Water for breakfast, later had 2 cups coffee with half a cup of skim milk.
Lunch was a cup of sliced strawberries mixed with half a cup of Daisy 2% cottage cheese. Daisy because it has no preservatives or chemicals and only natural ingredients.
Actually had a snack and that was 2 cups of sliced carrots.
Dinner was 2.6 ounces of grilled chicken with a cup of asparagus risotto made with organic vegetable broth.

Day 26:
Breakfast was my typical banana tropical fruit smoothie, which is a banana with half a cup frozen mango mix : mango, pineapple, strawberry; half a cup skim milk and 4 ice cubes. Also had 2 cups coffee with half a cup skim milk.
Lunch was a Healthy Choice meal, Pumpkin Ravioli.
Dinner was 3.6 ounces grilled chicken with 1 cup of asparagus risotto.
Dessert/After Dinner snack was just one square of Lindt 85% Cacoa extra dark chocolate, which was the lowest % of chocolate I could find with no soy in it.

I know I am missing pictures but hopefully tomorrow I will be able to take pictures of my food and upload them.

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    I'm kind of surprised no one has mentioned this yet, and I'm only sharing it because I'm worried and want to see you should never *ever* drop below 1200 calories a day without being monitored by a professional (doctor or registered dietician). This shocks your body into thinking it is not going to get enough fuel in the future (because it's not getting enough fuel in the present), and so it slows your metabolism waaaay down so it can hang onto more fat to use as fuel since it's predicting it won't get enough fuel from external sources. You *can* lose weight with extreme calorie restriction...but only at first, and it *will* come back to bite you in the butt once your metabolism slows down. So when you go back to eating more calories, since your metabolism is slower, you will either lose at a slower rate or you will gain at a calorie level that you were previously losing at.

Honestly, in weight loss attempts past I would drop down below 1,000 because I didn't know any better. I figured the fewer calories, the better! But I learned your body *needs* those calories to perform basic functions. I know anorexia is when there's extreme calorie restriction for a more extended period of time than just the two days you described, but there's a reason sometimes people die from complications from anorexia. Dropping so low is just so not good for you. :-(

Please take care of yourself!!! You deserve to be happy and at a healthy weight...and you deserve to get there in a healthy way, that will help you stay there for the long term. :-)

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VALKYRIA- 5/4/2013 1:16PM

    Don't sweat the pizza... just focus on how good you feel after the good meals and soon you will crave them instead. Progress doesn't happen overnight, it takes time to change our taste buds. emoticon

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SUNNYWBL 5/3/2013 11:59PM

    Please don't ever skip breakfast again. When you log your food on spark, it will show the proper proportion of vital nutrients, fat, protein and carbohydrates. Eating a bit of protein and healthy fat with each meal or snack will keep you satisfied longer and help prevent binges!

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Day 21: Weigh In

Sunday, April 28, 2013

Started at 327
Last weigh in 315
Today weigh in 312.6

That's a 2.4lb loss! WOOT! WOOT! I know the tortoise won the race but AUGH! I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT LIKE THE HARE!!!!!! I want to lose more weight than I have been losing for one reason and one reason only, the summer is coming, my nephew will likely be spending the summer with Mom and I, and that means we will be taking him to theme parks and I want to be able to fit in and ride the rides with him!!! I don't want to return to the theme parks and feel like a bloated whale every time I try to fit into a ride. I know I'm only looking on the negative and I need to start looking on the positive. Like, hey I just lost 14lbs in a month! WOO HOO!!!!!! But then that little pestering thought creeps in and says "ya but how about 20lbs in a month, you didn't do that and if you keep it up you will never be able to fit in and ride those roller coasters, you might as well throw those smaller pants that you're too fat for, you're never going to be able to get those on again." Ya I know, I am my own worst critic, I think we all are to ourselves. Just got to keep on pushing on and not give up. Mom tried to encourage me today by telling me her own story, that when she lost her first 30lbs from her heaviest, there is a picture of her and you wouldn't even be able to tell that she lost any weight. Not sure if its the most encouraging statement, but at least I know her heart was in the right place.

Ok enough of all that, what have I done this week? Well I started a strength training routine and I started the 5k walking program. Strength training seems to be easier than the walking does. I first started off at a 3mph pace walking only to realize that it's too fast for me right now. I finish hot, sweaty, out of breath, my chest super tight and so tired that when I get home I grab my water and slouch down in the recliner/couch. The stretches I plan on doing completely thrown out the window. The plan this week, slow down my pace and get up much earlier than I have been and get out walking early in the morning before it gets too hot. There is nothing morning about me so this is going to be a real challenge!

This week I put my baking skills to the test, made me first ever strawberry rhubarb pie with a whole wheat crust. I made the crust because after reading the ingredient list of the pre-made pie crusts at store told me I can no longer use them, why is every company under the sun using soybean oil!?! Not to mention all the other chemicals and preservatives they have in there. So I learned a few things....1 I freaking love this pie! OMG NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM, been fighting urges NOT to eat the whole thing in one sitting. Ya that will do my whole day of tracking in, might as well as just walk from here to Disney World, then around that whole Disney compound just to burn it all off. 2 I can make it healthier, even more so than I have done. Future pie with only have a top crust, really why do we put a bottom crust on pies? Also will cut the sugar down to only half a cup. Once this pie is done I'm going to make a rhubarb pie and see how it turns out, hopefully not to tart since there won't be strawberries to balance out the rhubarb. I want to get my Mom to try it, that's why I won't be adding the strawberries due to Mom being allergic to them.

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AMBER281 4/30/2013 5:31PM

    You are doing AMAZING!!
Keep up the good work.

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SUNNYWBL 4/28/2013 10:53PM

    Fourteen pounds in one month is amazing! emoticon

Slowing down your walks is a good idea! But not too slow. Or you can add a faster pace for a minute and slow back to recover. Easy does it! emoticon emoticon

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STEVIEBEE569 4/28/2013 3:26PM

    Congratulations on your weight loss! Keep up the good work!

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CATHYROSE40 4/28/2013 2:35PM

    Congratulations on the 14 lb loss! Feel good about that and realize that slow and steady wins this race. I understand the hare thing, but the turtle won in the end, right? You go girl and keep up the good work!!!!
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SSC-FS 4/28/2013 1:57PM

    Great job loosing 14 lbs!!!! Keep up the good work and don't get yourself down. You are 14 lbs closer to your goal.

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Day 19: Pie crust FAIL

Friday, April 26, 2013

Ok, so maybe not an exact failure.....Finally made that Strawberry Rhubarb pie that I have been wanting to make. Cut out some of the sugar, made a whole wheat pie crust and everything was going well until I had to roll it out. My pie looks like a Frankenstein pie!!!!! It still looks good though, can't wait for later when its cooled down and I can eat a piece! Just wish I had some whipping or heavy cream so I could make some home made whipped cream to go with it.

UPDATE: OMFG!!!! Why have I never had this kind of pie before!? It's AMAZING!!!! I think it just might be the best pie I have ever had, before pumpkin pie has always been my favorite but I think it just might have gotten knocked down to #2. The recipe I used called for a cup and half of sugar but I only used a cup. I think next time I make this I am just going to use a top crust and only use half a cup of sugar. The only thing I see the sugar is there for is to get the juices out of the rhubarb and strawberries.

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CAJUNBUCKEYE59 4/27/2013 9:44AM

    Its a failure only if it doesn't taste good, no matter what it looks like...yum yum!

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PICKIE98 4/27/2013 7:26AM

    Looks okay to me!! You know, I started making cobblers,, eliminates the calories of the crust and you get more fruit! I used to make mile high huckleberry, raspberry, apple, cherry, etc pies, now I just make the cobblers and I do not miss the crust!!
Let us know how the sugar change tastes!

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EVERGREEN0587 4/26/2013 11:22PM

    Hey I'm very impressed. I'm a horrible cook. No really! I can burn boiling water.I would probably burn down my house trying to make a pie. lol

Kudos for trying something new!

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VALKYRIA- 4/26/2013 7:56PM

    taste is more important lol! emoticon

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EWL978 4/26/2013 7:40PM

    Looking good!!!!

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Day 16: Put together a motivational weightloss collage

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

So one of the challenges for the BLC#18 is to put up a visual motivational collage. Now Spark also suggests you do this but I never did. I didn't want to bother, didn't want to clip pictures of thin girls that just make me feel worse about myself and just make me look at those girls with disgust for something I can't see myself at the moment ever seeing for myself.

Well I got brave finally and did it! My inspiration is from embarrassment of what happened to me a couple years ago, was at an amusement park I grew up going to and OMG I couldn't fit in the rides!!!!! All the roller coasters that I loved riding I couldn't go on anymore. That should of been a wake up call, should of been a motivator but it wasn't until now. I just told myself "well you really don't go to amusement parks and they are only open a few months out of the year so you won't have to do this again." But now i live in Kissimmee, Fl where Disney, Sea World, and Universal are only 30 minutes away and Busch Gardens is an hour away.....and they are open year round! Another thing that should of been a wake up call was last year when I had to fly up for my Grandfather's funeral, I couldn't fully fasten the seat belt. Also my stomach was/is so big that the tray rested on it! THE HORROR!!!!!!

So in my collage you will see loads of roller coasters, roller coasters I want to ride! Then there are pictures of airplane seats to remind me of why I am avoiding going on a plane. Quite literally I am truly avoiding flying because of the embarrassment of not hearing that click of the seat belt. If I can't drive there then I'm not going, was invited to go to Las Vegas for Thanksgiving and I didn't go simply because I would have to fly. Last but not least there are motivational quotes and pictures about never giving up and what exactly is a pound of fat and what 5 pounds of fat looks like compared to 5 pounds of muscle. It is truly EYE OPENING!

So I have to place this collage somewhere where I will see it, I posted here in this blog, its in my pictures and I am thinking about replacing my desktop picture with it. It needs to be changed because it is a picture of snow, I miss snow, and I just hadn't gotten around to it yet. So every time I am on my computer I will see this new collage.

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BOOKWORM27S 4/26/2013 7:40AM

    This is a great idea! Good luck in your weight loss journey.

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SHINING_ON 4/25/2013 12:22AM

    Great plan! I have my visual motivator somewhere I can see it daily, too. I try to make it part of my daily routine to look through it. :)

I'm with you about roller coasters! I can't can't CAN'T wait until I can ride them again!!!

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CAJUNBUCKEYE59 4/24/2013 3:18PM

    Bravo for overcoming the negative vibes....hurray for you....Slow motion is better then No Motion is what i always say...keep up the good fight.. emoticon emoticon

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LESLEE33 4/23/2013 11:45PM

    It is always good to have little reminders of why your doing this! emoticon

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Day 14: Failure week

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Started at 327
Last weigh in 317.2
Today weigh in 315

Wow, 2.2 lb loss and with zero exercising! Well except for taking my dog, Hally, out on her potty walks. I'm beginning to think this new way of eating is to credit on this. I am going flexitarian or part-time vegetarian. I love meat, especially steak, so I cannot give it up. What I am doing is eating very little meat, if I am eating it at all. The sum of my meat consumption this week was at lunch with deli roasted turkey sandwiches and that is all. Learning how to make veggies the main course rather than the side dish has been challenging, but not impossible. What I've been doing is buying what is on sale and then looking up a recipe for it. Not the greatest method, but it helps until making meals out of veggies comes second nature to me like it does with meat.

I have also gone all natural, meaning no preservatives, no artificial ingredients and no GMO's. I don't know about you but I just don't trust the people who created agent orange to be supplying me my food. If I really wanted to be an experiment I would just move to Love Canal up in Niagara Falls, NY. Now I haven't been able to go completely clean yet, it didn't dawn on me this week when I bought popcorn kernals that I should wait until I can get organic ones since popcorn is corn and almost all corn products in US is a GMO crop, the same is to be said for soy as well. Oh well, it is a process to flush all this garbage out of my food. But what does this all mean? Literally the majority of food at the grocery store in the aisles are off limits to me! If is see the words, canola, corn, soy in the ingredient list and no where is there a USDA Organic stamp, it gets put back because it is a GMO item. Not to mention any packaged item with artificial preservatives and ingredients gets put back too. Food should be that, FOOD! Not chemicals that we really aren't meant to put in our bodies.

Oh, but I did buy some coconut oil. You can use it just like butter or any other oil out there and it's actually better for you. According to researchers and Dr. Oz the human body doesn't hold all of it like it does other saturated fats and it flushes out about 40% of the amount you consume. Also it boosts your metabolism, so why not use it if its more beneficial to me? It's not that expensive either, about the same price as a bottle of olive oil, depending on whether you but organic or not.

So what was the failure you ask? Well I didn't exercise at all this week. Tried going to the gym and just couldn't figure out the elliptical machine. Asked the guy at the front desk of the club house and he even had trouble figuring out "it must be a science" he said. I was on it for 3 minutes trying to figure out how to change the setting, and OMG my thighs!!!!! My poor thighs! They hurt so much on that machine. WAKE UP CALL! You my dear body are out of shape!!!!! And I have not been back to the gym. I don't know what it is. Lack of motivation? Being lazy? Not wanting to put on socks and sneakers because I live in flip flops and hate it when my feet are confined? The walk to the clubhouse, which isn't even that far considering I walk Hally almost to it every day. My self consciousness? The chance others might be there? Being watched? It's something, part of me feels that if I had my own machine in the privacy of my own home I would more likely be hopping on it and using it. And then another part of me is just saying that its all excuses, I lack motivation and am just too lazy.

Now onto the good news. I have done it! Finally! Last night I signed up for a 5k virtual walking race and set up my fitness tracker. Every other day I will be doing strength training. Today I am supposed to be doing upper body, need to get to that, Tuesday is core, and Thursday is lower body. Which leaves Mon, Wed, Fri for cardio or my 5k Walking training program. Now I know I can do this, literally I know this. If I can walk Disney, Universal, Sea World and Busch Gardens I can walk a 5k. Just hoping I don't slack it off again like I did with the last one I signed up for and never completed.

Here's a question, does anyone else dislike the new fitness tracker? OMG I HATE IT!!!! I like in the old one you can set up your exercises and then check them off once you've done them. I like seeing them because there is no way I am gong to remember them all or how to do them correctly. Just wish I could add a link to stretching videos I am going to use for afterwords. I checked, Spark doesn't have the option like it does for the other exercise videos. Why not Sparkpeople? What gives?

Sorry if this seems a bit jumbled, I have so many thoughts and things I want to say and really am not very good at putting it all together, especially in a blog.

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ALBATROSS925 4/21/2013 11:23PM

    Congrats on your loss!

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PENNYSAVER2 4/21/2013 4:28PM

    Hang in there!! It's a process. Congrats on the weight loss so far!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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