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Letter to myself

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Woo girl, it has been a whole eight weeks since you started challenging yourself again. How did it feel? I bet some of your clothes are fitting looser and you can get back up from the floor a lot easier now. I know it was a very emotional journey but you got through it! Go out and reward yourself will ya? I know there might of been times where you fell, but you picked yourself up, dusted yourself off and got right back to it! That alone deserves to be celebrated! I know you are no longer in the 300s and will never see them again. YOU DID IT GIRL!!!!

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FLABTOFABWSANA 10/24/2011 1:04AM

    Oh yes! Cheers to what you'll accomplish after this challenge. Good luck emoticon

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KIBAISREADY 10/23/2011 6:23PM

    LOVE IT! emoticon emoticon

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SMILESHINE81 10/23/2011 4:59PM

    Great letter - I think the reminder to reward yourself is really important! emoticon

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AGASSIFAN 10/23/2011 4:04PM

    emoticon ISN'T it GREAT getting out of the 3's!!!!!

Find a way to celebrate and stay on track!!!!

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Peace & love!


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ADVENTURESEEKER 10/23/2011 12:18AM

    Good job! Keep up the hard work emoticon

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I'm back

Saturday, May 22, 2010

been off of spark for months and months and months now but i think i'm ready to get back on. Lots have been happening since me "hiatus" and well sad to say no weightloss, more like weightgain *grumbles*

Happy to say i am cushing's clear as of january, never had cushing's but my mom does and her dr. wanted me to be tested for it. But right around that time i did start having eye problems, seeing lines over my field of vision, spots appeared from when i stood up after having been sitting down. Well turns out that i have pappilledema caused by too much spinal fluid that was created intercranial pressure and thus squashing my optic nerves. My last visit with my neural-opthromologist was kind of shocking. Was basically told that i need to lose weight or i'm going to go blind. And you would think that would motivate me to exercise, but no still got no motivation.

Ok part of the not wanting to exercise has to do with low self esteem, i belong to planet fitness and well am convinced that if i go there people are going to chase me out. That and i got nothing appropriate to wear to the gym, well nothing appropriate with pockets. I NEED pockets so i can carry my inhaler with me, ah the life of a non-allergy asthmatic. I was so blessed with exercise induced asthma, yeeeeeea me *rolls eyes*

sighs, so ya thats my story for now

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SHARONGD 5/23/2010 4:46PM

    Trust me as a PF member myself and starting off with 40 lbs. and feeling very vulnerable to what people will not be judged! It is a safe place and everyone feels the same way when you get started...just go do it and the more you go the easier it gets and you'll see everyday people just wanting to get healthy again! I see the same group of people each day and it's comforting to feel like you belong far as what to wear? I found most of my workout clothes at Wal-mart! You can do it! Good luck and glad you're back! emoticon

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GRANDMA442 5/22/2010 3:11PM

    I have this little bag I can wear around my neck with the inhaler. It is waterproof so I can even wear it swimming. I got it free with Sybicort points - I don't know where you can buy them but your pharmacist might know. Hope this helps! emoticon

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Long over due blog about 1st visit with brand new Dr.

Monday, October 12, 2009

So I saw my new Dr. a few weeks ago who thankfully gave me some meds to help get my asthma under control and thats about the only thing positive I can think of. When I mentiuoned how I had been going through some old photos and realized that in Oct when i was 14 I was a size 11 and then in June when I was 15 I was a plus size 18. In fact I never even made it into misses sizes, I literally went from juniors to plus completely jumping over a while size class. He just dismissed the whole thing, and when I told him there are days where I am barely eating 1200 he acted as if I were lying to him, that I'm cheating. I think what bothered me the most was when I said I had been walking at a slow pace because my asthma had been really bad and walking at a brisk pace would of thrown me right into an asthma attack, and according to hin that was not good enough and I should of been using my inhaler before I went walking. Well I was. And he kept on giving me that look, like I know your lying to me, you can't this big and doing all you say you are.

I don't know, I have a strong feeling that because this Dr. is on the heavy side and not thin I'm being harder on him then I would of if he wasn't so heavy. It just pissed me off listening to him, I just wanted to smack him and tell him to look in the god damn mirror and take his own advice. I just can't stand people in glass houses throwing stones.

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LORRAANN77 11/15/2009 10:41AM

    Yep, I agree with the rest, you need to fire this Doctor. You need some one who will listen and validate that YOU know your body best and help you research and discover what's truly going on with you. Wish you the best.
s Support Team Co-Leader

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IRENE4548 10/20/2009 9:54AM

  My Family practice physican does not know anything about Cushings. Every time I get the perscription for blood work they have to look it up. He said I am the only patient that got that much blood work. I am going to see a lady doctor on Thursday and may transfer. She is in her early 40's. Thank goodness my endrocnologist is a good one. When my endo. does receive my blood work results, he comments sometimes that he doesn't get what he wants. I also have a big weight problem, by my doctor (endo) says it is risky losing weight with cushings. He told me not to gain any more. I focus on healthy foods. I really mess up though. Continue looking until you find the right doctor. You will know, especially if they show interest in you.

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UGOGIRL51 10/13/2009 12:12PM

    I had a dr like that before and got rid of her as soon as I could. Keep telling her I don't eat that much and she said well you must be eating in the closet.... emoticon

It runs in my family genes to be one the little heavy side and I was only eating one meal a day. It was all the darn steroids and predinsones I was taking. I wanted to smack her into never land

Drop him like a hot potato and don't look back sweetie.... emoticon

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asthma / copd team

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GRANDMA442 10/12/2009 3:51PM

    I agree with Bonnie! Keep looking and keep doing as much as you can. Exercise sets me off, too. It is very hard. emoticon

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BONNIE627 10/12/2009 8:53AM

    sounds like you need to keep looking for a dr.. you are not happy with this one and should not stay with him feeling that way..

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2nd Day Exercising

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

well today was my second day exercising........walked 1.9miles, in 45 minutes, which is 5minutes faster than on Monday, and did my strength training exercises as well. Learned something though, I'm going to be hungry after exercising so I'm going to have to set aside some food for that. I kinda crashed and craved today, adding some BK and McDonalds fast food to what I ate today, There went my colories and fat for the day, but I'm gonna get right back on that "horse" and try try again. I'm sure that is not going to be the one and only time I fall off track and I am convinced that I WILL learn from my mistakes.

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LORRAANN77 11/15/2009 10:49AM

    Great job on the walking! You're an inspiration to me!
Keep up the great work!

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BONNIE627 9/10/2009 3:12PM

    learn from our mistakes is what we are suppose to do.. you will get there.. just plan some healthier food to eat after walking.

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CHERYLRG 9/10/2009 12:47PM

    Great attitude!


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BELTONWALKER67 9/10/2009 9:19AM

    You are doing great! It takes time and lots of patience with yourself and you can reach all your dreams and goals one step at a time. Keep on Sparking.

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LANNBOL22 9/9/2009 10:35PM

    You will learn. It is all about motivation, which is probably the toughest thing for someone to have and keep. Good luck in your trek.

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Asthma + Exercise = No Attack?

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Ok, so I've been asthmatic since I was 5, and not lucky to have allergy asthma, but I got exercise indused asthma. And this past week has been the week of asthma hell. I have been wanting to get back walking but just didn't trust my lungs. So yesterday I finally geared up for a SLOW walk, easy does it, right?

I started exercising in april and that lasted for only a few weeks, and i think that was because I over did it. So yesterday I got my ipod, put on my sneakers, took two puffs of my inhaler and out I went. 1.9 miles in 50 minutes, no shortness of breath or anything. When I got home I also did the core strength training Spark has suggested. I feel really good about this........not really too concerned if I;m getting a real areobic exercise right now. Just figuring that if I can build my body and lungs up, by the time I get my asthma back under control areobic walking isn't going to be as much of a problem as it has been in the past.

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LORRAANN77 11/15/2009 10:51AM

    Any kinda of start is good, and I think it's commendable that you're being conscious and cautious with your asthma.
With slow and steady work, you'll get there!
Way to go!

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BONNIE627 9/10/2009 3:09PM

    way to go.. just start slow and keep at it..

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GRANDMA442 9/10/2009 10:20AM

    This is what I need to do, too. Thanks for sharing. I have been afraid to try!

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PEGGYEV 9/9/2009 6:23PM

    I have had asthma since the age of 6. I also suffer from exercise induced asthma. What I have found is key for doing cardio for me is having a slow, steady ramp up of my heart/breathing rate. If I start off too quickly, I will trigger my asthma, but if I work up progressively I don't. I'll take 10 minutes to work up to my target heart rate - more if necessary depending on how I'm feeling. But once I do that, I can work at the upper end of my target heart rate without triggering an attack. And it does get better as your lungs get stronger.

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TXSPLA 9/9/2009 2:55PM

    That is great you had a good walk and core exercises. Don't push too hard - take it slow and easy.


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ELKAY6 9/9/2009 6:06AM

    So glad you had a good day!!!

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NYCGRRL 9/9/2009 1:13AM

    That sounds like the best way to do it.

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