Saturday, May 22, 2010
been off of spark for months and months and months now but i think i'm ready to get back on. Lots have been happening since me "hiatus" and well sad to say no weightloss, more like weightgain *grumbles*
Happy to say i am cushing's clear as of january, never had cushing's but my mom does and her dr. wanted me to be tested for it. But right around that time i did start having eye problems, seeing lines over my field of vision, spots appeared from when i stood up after having been sitting down. Well turns out that i have pappilledema caused by too much spinal fluid that was created intercranial pressure and thus squashing my optic nerves. My last visit with my neural-opthromologist was kind of shocking. Was basically told that i need to lose weight or i'm going to go blind. And you would think that would motivate me to exercise, but no still got no motivation.
Ok part of the not wanting to exercise has to do with low self esteem, i belong to planet fitness and well am convinced that if i go there people are going to chase me out. That and i got nothing appropriate to wear to the gym, well nothing appropriate with pockets. I NEED pockets so i can carry my inhaler with me, ah the life of a non-allergy asthmatic. I was so blessed with exercise induced asthma, yeeeeeea me *rolls eyes*
sighs, so ya thats my story for now
Monday, October 12, 2009
So I saw my new Dr. a few weeks ago who thankfully gave me some meds to help get my asthma under control and thats about the only thing positive I can think of. When I mentiuoned how I had been going through some old photos and realized that in Oct when i was 14 I was a size 11 and then in June when I was 15 I was a plus size 18. In fact I never even made it into misses sizes, I literally went from juniors to plus completely jumping over a while size class. He just dismissed the whole thing, and when I told him there are days where I am barely eating 1200 he acted as if I were lying to him, that I'm cheating. I think what bothered me the most was when I said I had been walking at a slow pace because my asthma had been really bad and walking at a brisk pace would of thrown me right into an asthma attack, and according to hin that was not good enough and I should of been using my inhaler before I went walking. Well I was. And he kept on giving me that look, like I know your lying to me, you can't this big and doing all you say you are.
I don't know, I have a strong feeling that because this Dr. is on the heavy side and not thin I'm being harder on him then I would of if he wasn't so heavy. It just pissed me off listening to him, I just wanted to smack him and tell him to look in the god damn mirror and take his own advice. I just can't stand people in glass houses throwing stones.
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
well today was my second day exercising........walked 1.9miles, in 45 minutes, which is 5minutes faster than on Monday, and did my strength training exercises as well. Learned something though, I'm going to be hungry after exercising so I'm going to have to set aside some food for that. I kinda crashed and craved today, adding some BK and McDonalds fast food to what I ate today, There went my colories and fat for the day, but I'm gonna get right back on that "horse" and try try again. I'm sure that is not going to be the one and only time I fall off track and I am convinced that I WILL learn from my mistakes.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Ok, so I've been asthmatic since I was 5, and not lucky to have allergy asthma, but I got exercise indused asthma. And this past week has been the week of asthma hell. I have been wanting to get back walking but just didn't trust my lungs. So yesterday I finally geared up for a SLOW walk, easy does it, right?
I started exercising in april and that lasted for only a few weeks, and i think that was because I over did it. So yesterday I got my ipod, put on my sneakers, took two puffs of my inhaler and out I went. 1.9 miles in 50 minutes, no shortness of breath or anything. When I got home I also did the core strength training Spark has suggested. I feel really good about this........not really too concerned if I;m getting a real areobic exercise right now. Just figuring that if I can build my body and lungs up, by the time I get my asthma back under control areobic walking isn't going to be as much of a problem as it has been in the past.
Sunday, September 06, 2009
Well got up this morning and I could breathe! Well ok not really, but a whole LOT better than I have been. Lets face it, this has been the asthmatic week of HELL. The prednisone is definately working and I just got two more days of pills, and I doubt that I'm going to have to use my nebulizer today. Pretty soon I think I can start walking.
I've wanted to go walking for a while now but when my asthma was kicking in full force there's no way in hell I'm going to exerercise, would be like committing suicide. Not trusting my lungs today either, but crossing my fingers for tomorrow.
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