Sunday, August 30, 2009
ok so i know you shouldn't loose more than 2-3lbs a week, and its not like i'm trying to loose more than that a week, hell i haven't even started exerising. But this past wee, somehow i managed to loose a whole 5lbs!!! I"m just hoping I'll be able to keep that weight off, and continue on this trend on loosing weight. My biggest fear is that I will gain that weight back and then some. I'm trying my hardest to change how i eat and what I eat. I don't know, maybe I lost 5lbs because I'm extremely heavy and have stopped eating pints of Ben and Jerry's.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
ok, i've been wanting to start exercising but i seem to keep on puttung it off. lets face it, i am the queen of procrastination, and there is a bike trail only 0.2miles from my house. its just been really hot here and i have exercise induced asthma, so not wanting to go out in the morning or at night, what i want to do is go walk the trail at the crack of dawn but i haven't been able to get up for it. and since i don't get up i end up doing no exercise for the whole day
also been wanting to go back to planet fitness, but i have low self esteem and can't help but feel everyone is going to be looking at me and talking behind my back, i really need a gym buddy to go with me and unfortunately none of my friends live close enough to do that
i'll eventually get out of this rut, hopefully sooner than later
Saturday, August 22, 2009
ok, well i think i'm finally realising that i need to eat more snacks and less meals
today i had my typical 3 meals, breakfast, lunch and dinner but i also had 3 snacks inbetween those meals as well and prolly gonna have a 4th snack before i go to bed
but i gotta try to keep my snacks healthy, like they wre today, 2 were a serving of baby carrots and the other one was a mcdonalds fruit parfait. if i have another one tonight it will most likely be an apple with peanut butter
but just the other day i doubled up my veggies for dinner hoping that would keep the night munchis/hunger away and it did not, so definately gonna have to make more room for snacks in my diet
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Well today I had that fun drive into Boston and saw a Neurolendocrinologist. He doesn't feel I have Cushing's (YIPPEE!!!!), but is gonna run one of the tests they do to check for it anyway (keeping my fingers crossed). He also sent me to see the vampires to run a few different thyroid tests and to see if I have growth-hormone issues. All in all I really liked him and he seemed genuine that he wants to help me and get down to the reason for my weight. Or it could just be that eastern european charm of an accent he has.
Also wouldn't mind seeing my Mom's neuroendo either, she's so freaking cute and tiny, I just want to put her in my pocket every time I see her!!!! Not to mention she's one of the top in her field at that hospital.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
ok, so as i see it blogging is like an online diary open for anyone and everyone to see..........so this is my attempt at a blog
i finally got my health insurance through unemployment and finally going to see a neurol endocrinalogist at Mass General on Tuesday and will start, hopefully, running tests to find out if there is a medical reason for my weight. My mom has a rare endocrine disease called Cushing's which is the reason she just recently had her adrenal glands removed. The head of neuro endo @ MGH is her Dr. and saw me in Febuary, looked at my back and then told me to get tested, She feels that it will not matter how much i diet or exercise, that there really is something medical going on. My biggest fear is one of 2 things, it will come out that i'm either just fat and lazy, or that there really IS something going on and i'm gonna have pituitary surgery...........which i really don't want to happen.
On another note, i got way too close to 300 last week so i made the decision to drasticly change my diet by replacing all my meals with kashi protein bars. When i finally came back to reality and realized that would not be the safest thing i decided to eat a protein bar for breakfast and lunch, eat a proper snack during the day and a healthy dinner. Since i typically find it hard to actually eat breakfast and lunch figured this was the best way to go. Started this, this past Sunday and so far have lost 2.5lbs, YIPPEE!!!!!!!! But i kinda veared off the beatan path last night when i was out with friends at a chinese restaurant. Fot the most part i was good, had tofu with veggies that came with steamed rice and egg drop soup.........however i caved and ordered a side of crab rangoons. I just couldn't help myself, this place is almost a 60mile drive and they have the best crab rangoons that i have ever had! And today at the movies i ate a box of dark chocolate rasinets............so i gotta be extra good and carefull with i eat for the rest of the day, but i can do it! if i fall off i'm gonna get right back on!
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