Saturday, August 15, 2009
ok, so as i see it blogging is like an online diary open for anyone and everyone to see..........so this is my attempt at a blog
i finally got my health insurance through unemployment and finally going to see a neurol endocrinalogist at Mass General on Tuesday and will start, hopefully, running tests to find out if there is a medical reason for my weight. My mom has a rare endocrine disease called Cushing's which is the reason she just recently had her adrenal glands removed. The head of neuro endo @ MGH is her Dr. and saw me in Febuary, looked at my back and then told me to get tested, She feels that it will not matter how much i diet or exercise, that there really is something medical going on. My biggest fear is one of 2 things, it will come out that i'm either just fat and lazy, or that there really IS something going on and i'm gonna have pituitary surgery...........which i really don't want to happen.
On another note, i got way too close to 300 last week so i made the decision to drasticly change my diet by replacing all my meals with kashi protein bars. When i finally came back to reality and realized that would not be the safest thing i decided to eat a protein bar for breakfast and lunch, eat a proper snack during the day and a healthy dinner. Since i typically find it hard to actually eat breakfast and lunch figured this was the best way to go. Started this, this past Sunday and so far have lost 2.5lbs, YIPPEE!!!!!!!! But i kinda veared off the beatan path last night when i was out with friends at a chinese restaurant. Fot the most part i was good, had tofu with veggies that came with steamed rice and egg drop soup.........however i caved and ordered a side of crab rangoons. I just couldn't help myself, this place is almost a 60mile drive and they have the best crab rangoons that i have ever had! And today at the movies i ate a box of dark chocolate rasinets............so i gotta be extra good and carefull with i eat for the rest of the day, but i can do it! if i fall off i'm gonna get right back on!