Monday, May 18, 2009
Okay, so I am in this play and it's a really nice size production so to speak. Tonight we had to try on wardrobe and the dress for one of my scenes could not fit and they were unable to get the zipper up. As a matter of fact part of the zipper broke off. The great part is that no one made me feel unconfortable, but I felt so sad within myself. The whole ride home I battled in my mind whether to go straight to the gym and work out until I couldn't or just go home and eat something just to make me feel better.
Instead I came straight in the house, passed up the kitchen, and sat at the computer to be with my sp family. I know someone else has felt the way I feel right now. As I type the tears are welling up in my eyes, because I don't want to allow myself to be defeated. I must do this for the better me to come forth in every way, because my health is important..... Thanks for allowing me to blog myself right out of messing up my great day on the right path.