Saturday, August 23, 2008
Can you believe it's almost Labor Day? If feels like the Summer just started and here Fall is right around the corner. Let's live it up and make the most of the next few weeks. Pretty soon we will be wearing coats and sweatshirts again.
I've been slacking this week on journaling. I haven't entered my food into my writing journal in a couple days. I used to obsess about it. I will need to carry over my goals from this journal to the next because I just didn't do any of them.
I'm having a battle in my mind lately. I'm battling between not gaining weight and adding muscle. I want to be healthy and look great. But I'm still stuck in that old mentality of my weight being a certain number. When I got down to under 100 lbs last year I was thrilled but everyone else thought I lost too much weight. Now that is the old anorexic in me wanting to weigh as little as possible. I was in the process of quitting smoking and I was terrified of gaining weight so I just didn't eat a lot of calories. I love working out and I love the way my muscles look when they are nice and cut. I know to be healthy I need to probably gain a little weight and if it's muscle it's not bad. But I can't get my head to understand that it's ok to weigh 110. I've tried to just concentrate on my body fat percentage but I still feel that is high. It's only 14% so not that's not high. But then I think that for my weight it is way too high. UGH!! Why do I do this to myself?
My DH and I are going to check out an RV today. I'm hoping I can handle the confined space. I wish I could find someone that would rent one but it looks like either we buy one or figure out something else.
Tomorrow we are riding up to Union Grove, WI to Great Lakes Dragway for the Harley/Buell Shootout. I can't wait. This will incorporate all my favorites (riding, drag racing and motorcycles). Plus I'll be with my DH and his friend which is always a hoot.
Lately I've been thinking about going back to church. I know I've been searching for something and that is the one thing I've cut out of my life. I haven't gone to church in a few years now simply because I would rather ride on Sunday than go to church. Honestly, I miss it. I liked going to church. I've been trying to mellow myself out and become less stressed. I work out until I'm just flat exhausted but yet I'm still high strung. I was much better when I was going to church and I felt connected to God. I know you don't have to go to church for that but sometimes I feel like you need a tune up. I just don't want to hurt my dad's feelings by not going to his church. His church is over an hour away and they only have services on Sunday morning. The church they used to go to has Saturday night services that would more fit my schedule. I guess I'll have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
Have a great weekend!