Friday, January 15, 2010
ok I'm writing here because I just wanted to write.
I just got done eating a healthy turkey wrap that I made from home along with sliced cucumbers & celery dipped in non fat ranch. whole meal ran me 450 cal. So 20 min later my coworkers decide they are going to MCdonalds. Ok I know I can eat mcdonalds if I want, no one says I can't but I just made a deal with myself last week that I would not got out to eat for 30 days. Then after 30 days I will allow myself to eat out, modestly, once or twice every two weeks. So I said, NO! I just have to keep to my word to myself. I wouldn't break my word to a friend & I deserve the same respect from me to me! I have to honor my goals & honor my word. funny thing is I had just eaten, I'm not even hungry, but in the past I would have ordered a big mac meal & packed that on top of what I had just eaten.
I feel Proud of myself & I fell like I just made a huge step forward!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
I don't brag often, but I am just so motivate & pleased with myself that I wanted to write it down for the world to see. Becuase my birthday is the 6th I don't ever start my new years resolutions till the 7th. I always go to a nice fancy dinner with my bestfriend on my birthday & I don't want to be hampered, besides it only happens once a year, I deserve it.....
Anyways, I know how hard it is for me to resist just the little offers of this or that, so I have to go all or nothing. Therefore, if I say to me, "no more mcdonalds" that means "NO MORE, NOT EVEN A TASTE, NOT EVEN JUST A FEW LEFTOVERS FROM MY FRIEND WHILE WORKING NONE, ZIP, ZERO" I have to take a no tolerance policy. Anyways, this week I have committed to a healthy menu & I have been following it, packing my food, eating healthy snacks & eating small portions every 3 hours. What a difference that has made. Friday when I came to work, I was offered a handful of hot, salty, greesy tater tots & I said " no thank you".
Wow, I felt so empowered, I can do this. Then Yesterday, my friend shannon brought me frenchfries from mcdonalds ( my major downfall) & once again it was "no thank you". Even though they were brought for me, I refused to allow obligation to entrap me! Another victory!..... today there are chocolate creamcheese cookies on the front counter at work... wow! Again, my self control kicked in & I pulled out applesauce... I feel so determined. I know I can do this, with each small victory, I get stronger.
Friday, October 23, 2009
I can only think of one other year that has been as terrible as this one, however, even though this one seems so terrible, I have also had much good come out of it.
I call it a bad year becuase of all the horrible things that have happened in my life this year. First I am told I can't walk & excersise like I'm accustomed to, right at a time that I was seeing so much progress, then my brother dies unexpectedly in july. It was only a few weeks later that my step mom whom I am /was close to, ends up in the hospital & dies a month later. Very devestating for my family & wonder if we will ever fully recover. then while I'm still on berevement leave my own mother ends up in the hospital!... I have been emotionally beat up & in the process of all this I managed to stop any cymbalance of working out. Need I even mention eating? My house has been the hub all summer long, thru all this grief, everyone has been gathering at my house, so fixxing meals that can be stretched to feed the multitude has been my only focus.
So now what? Well, I know I need to pick myself up & get back on the wagon & ride along, but I just am having a hard time doing that. I keep saying that "this week end" I'm going to get started & then I mess up & feel like such a failure. All the while I'm super unhappy w/ my body & just not happy with myself for being so weak. So I'm writing this blog. I' know I have come along a couple of time & said " this is it, I'm starting fresh again" & then something happens in my life & fail.... so
here I am again. I am starting fresh again. I am going to start recording everything I eat this week. Just like when I started this gig, I'm going to record for one week, then focus on a healthy breakfast for one week, then add healthy lunch for a week & the dinner.
The get in shape plan is to start back walking, very carefully. On top of that I'm going to add the boot camp video every other day.
So that's the plan. As far as my emotional health, I think that once I get started on my health plan I will start to feel better emotionally.
Ok, so all I needed was to vent & to say that I'm tired of all this stuff happening. I think its all at bay right now & that I can get moving forward. Wish me LUCK!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Well at least that's for me anyways. I always eat less when it's hot out. I don't want to stand over the stove & cook or stand around the hot grill. However I grill all summer long so that's neigther here nor there.
I am feeling GOOD.
I took off for three months like the doctor said. My feet still hurt, but I'm not going to force walking like I was, which really caused more pain. I gained 10 lbs while I was off. It's like I wasn't working out so I just didn't watch what I was eating too strickly .
Now, though, I have been traking my calories again & working out in my little home gym (garage). I'm feeling good. Like I'm making progress again, like I'm going to be OK.
I still can't pick my feet up & slam them on the ground ( walking) but I can do my eliptical & any excercise that doesn't involve foot impact, like swimming & bike riding.
Unlike my doctor, I think loosing weight will have a profound affect on my foot pain. We shall see.
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