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Huge Step forwards

Friday, January 15, 2010

ok I'm writing here because I just wanted to write.
I just got done eating a healthy turkey wrap that I made from home along with sliced cucumbers & celery dipped in non fat ranch. whole meal ran me 450 cal. So 20 min later my coworkers decide they are going to MCdonalds. Ok I know I can eat mcdonalds if I want, no one says I can't but I just made a deal with myself last week that I would not got out to eat for 30 days. Then after 30 days I will allow myself to eat out, modestly, once or twice every two weeks. So I said, NO! I just have to keep to my word to myself. I wouldn't break my word to a friend & I deserve the same respect from me to me! I have to honor my goals & honor my word. funny thing is I had just eaten, I'm not even hungry, but in the past I would have ordered a big mac meal & packed that on top of what I had just eaten.
I feel Proud of myself & I fell like I just made a huge step forward! emoticon

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JOCKOLEWIS 1/15/2010 5:47PM

    Great work Tree:) Stay true to yourself and you can't fail!

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WENDYWITKOSKI 1/15/2010 4:51PM

    Way to go! I know how hard it is to resist fast food.
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DENNISBISHOP 1/15/2010 4:09PM

    Social eating is a huge challenge. You were right to decline, your health has to take priority. Catch up with your friends over a diet soda or coffee. Way to go!

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any small victory is progress in my book

Sunday, January 10, 2010

I don't brag often, but I am just so motivate & pleased with myself that I wanted to write it down for the world to see. Becuase my birthday is the 6th I don't ever start my new years resolutions till the 7th. I always go to a nice fancy dinner with my bestfriend on my birthday & I don't want to be hampered, besides it only happens once a year, I deserve it.....
Anyways, I know how hard it is for me to resist just the little offers of this or that, so I have to go all or nothing. Therefore, if I say to me, "no more mcdonalds" that means "NO MORE, NOT EVEN A TASTE, NOT EVEN JUST A FEW LEFTOVERS FROM MY FRIEND WHILE WORKING NONE, ZIP, ZERO" I have to take a no tolerance policy. Anyways, this week I have committed to a healthy menu & I have been following it, packing my food, eating healthy snacks & eating small portions every 3 hours. What a difference that has made. Friday when I came to work, I was offered a handful of hot, salty, greesy tater tots & I said " no thank you".
Wow, I felt so empowered, I can do this. Then Yesterday, my friend shannon brought me frenchfries from mcdonalds ( my major downfall) & once again it was "no thank you". Even though they were brought for me, I refused to allow obligation to entrap me! Another victory!..... today there are chocolate creamcheese cookies on the front counter at work... wow! Again, my self control kicked in & I pulled out applesauce... I feel so determined. I know I can do this, with each small victory, I get stronger. emoticon

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JOCKOLEWIS 1/10/2010 10:01PM

    Excellent work! Sounds like you are starting something great!


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ELSIE_BEE 1/10/2010 9:33PM

    Hooray for you! Good job!

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WENDYWITKOSKI 1/10/2010 4:31PM

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GAGABABA 1/10/2010 4:28PM

    That sounds awesome !

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CHUCKLES0719 1/10/2010 4:26PM

    emoticon You SHOULD be proud!

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A bad Year!

Friday, October 23, 2009

I can only think of one other year that has been as terrible as this one, however, even though this one seems so terrible, I have also had much good come out of it.

I call it a bad year becuase of all the horrible things that have happened in my life this year. First I am told I can't walk & excersise like I'm accustomed to, right at a time that I was seeing so much progress, then my brother dies unexpectedly in july. It was only a few weeks later that my step mom whom I am /was close to, ends up in the hospital & dies a month later. Very devestating for my family & wonder if we will ever fully recover. then while I'm still on berevement leave my own mother ends up in the hospital!... I have been emotionally beat up & in the process of all this I managed to stop any cymbalance of working out. Need I even mention eating? My house has been the hub all summer long, thru all this grief, everyone has been gathering at my house, so fixxing meals that can be stretched to feed the multitude has been my only focus.

So now what? Well, I know I need to pick myself up & get back on the wagon & ride along, but I just am having a hard time doing that. I keep saying that "this week end" I'm going to get started & then I mess up & feel like such a failure. All the while I'm super unhappy w/ my body & just not happy with myself for being so weak. So I'm writing this blog. I' know I have come along a couple of time & said " this is it, I'm starting fresh again" & then something happens in my life & fail.... so
here I am again. I am starting fresh again. I am going to start recording everything I eat this week. Just like when I started this gig, I'm going to record for one week, then focus on a healthy breakfast for one week, then add healthy lunch for a week & the dinner.
The get in shape plan is to start back walking, very carefully. On top of that I'm going to add the boot camp video every other day.
So that's the plan. As far as my emotional health, I think that once I get started on my health plan I will start to feel better emotionally.

Ok, so all I needed was to vent & to say that I'm tired of all this stuff happening. I think its all at bay right now & that I can get moving forward. Wish me LUCK!

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LITTLETREES 10/25/2009 12:05PM

    Thanks everyone, You are all right! Counting my blessings & seeing all the wonderful things I have in my life are what keeps me going. I feel determined & my motivation is coming back. I know that I can get up & get going. Thanks for all your encouragment.

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GEORGANNE39 10/24/2009 5:58PM

    I cannot even image that after all you have weathered, all the people you have cared for and fed, you still feel WEAK? Maybe you are just a little too hard on yourself. I think you sound courageous and determined, and more than capable. I would love to be your Sparkbuddy so that I can see your progress and help you celebrate your victories, because they are just around the corner.
I lived in Kelso years ago, then other places as well, finally settling in Vancouver, so we are neighbors! LOL
Keep your chin up and recognise your successes as often as your failures. emoticon

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ELSIE_BEE 10/24/2009 10:49AM

    On the other hand, you have a close family, good friends, and a wonderful house. You have Sonny, two cats, and a pug who adore you.

Focus on those things and the other things will fall into perspective.

Let's get together soon!

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2BFREE2LIVE 10/24/2009 3:20AM

    Your back that is an important step in the right direction.
With all the upsets in your life this past year you have probably put everything and everyone one ahead of your needs.
This is your time now to concentrate on you and your health. We are here to help you along the journey to a new you.
Stay focused on what is important to you and keep your sight set on your goals. You can do this!!! emoticonSandy

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WENDYWITKOSKI 10/24/2009 1:53AM

    emoticonSo sorry you have had such a bad year!
Welcome back! Good luck! You can do it!

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DAWNWS1 10/23/2009 10:22PM

    Good luck! You've had a terribly difficult year, and I do understand (lost 4 family members, my dad, grandma & 2 uncles, all in 13 months), please remember to take care of yourself even as you're trying to take care of everyone else. And above all, be kind to yourself! Acknowledge that even small steps right now are a big deal. Get out and take a walk, eat that healthy meal, whatever, just don't add to the stress by expecting perfection. You can do this, one small step at a time, and I think you're right, doing good things for yourself is also going to help you heal. emoticon emoticon

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MCCALI59 10/23/2009 10:21PM

  You really have had a terribley sad year. But now (at tour own pace) you can start to think about you. If anyone deserves it it is YOU. Good luck and God bless you. Hang in there. emoticon emoticon

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gotta love the heat for curbing the appetite

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Well at least that's for me anyways. I always eat less when it's hot out. I don't want to stand over the stove & cook or stand around the hot grill. However I grill all summer long so that's neigther here nor there.
I am feeling GOOD.
I took off for three months like the doctor said. My feet still hurt, but I'm not going to force walking like I was, which really caused more pain. I gained 10 lbs while I was off. It's like I wasn't working out so I just didn't watch what I was eating too strickly .
Now, though, I have been traking my calories again & working out in my little home gym (garage). I'm feeling good. Like I'm making progress again, like I'm going to be OK.
I still can't pick my feet up & slam them on the ground ( walking) but I can do my eliptical & any excercise that doesn't involve foot impact, like swimming & bike riding.
Unlike my doctor, I think loosing weight will have a profound affect on my foot pain. We shall see.


No more Walking for me

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Dear Diary
I have some bad news. I saw my podiatrist today & he said I have done more damage to my feet by walking the lake. I had to get more shots, & some new anti inflamatories & pain med. He forbade me to walk, run or do anything that pounds. I can get on the eliptical, my total gym & a bike, but absolutely no walking until I am healed & then I will still have to be very carefull.

I was in tears. I am so upset about it, but at the same time I am in sooooo much pain. The shots help & the meds he gave me are already helping. But I am super dissapointed. He said I could hike maybe two times a month (every two weeks) but that it was conditional. I have to stop immediatly upon feeling pain. & I have to keep a very moderate/slow pace.
This just could not happen at a worse time. I
He said I could swim so I am going to check into swimming at kelso high whill I am on the hill & then maybe Mark Morris or the Y once or twice a week.

He said it was very critical that I do exactly as he says & follow all the excercises & stretches & meds. I know I need to just follow is instructions, let him treat me & get better.
This sucks!

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GRAMMACATHY 5/16/2009 10:25PM

    Shall we swim instead of walking the lake? Hmmm......I meant swim at the Y

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ELSIE_BEE 5/2/2009 10:02AM

    This just sucks.

Rest up and then we can continue our walk-n-chats.

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AMAZINGAMAZON 4/30/2009 3:10AM

    Im sorry for your loss in regards to walking but I know you will tear that Elliptical up like crazy! Good luck and feel better

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LITTLETREES 4/29/2009 7:13PM

    thank you so much, I have a bad case of plantar fasciatis. I have actually worsend it by continueing to walk. I am refusing to get bummed & I'm just gonna get on my eliptical & go like crazy.

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SCAROUSEL1 4/29/2009 10:03AM

I'm sorry to hear you won't be walking for a while.
What were you diagnosed with?
How long does your doctor think it will take for your foot to fully heal?
Hang in there and you will be new again!

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