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Saturday, November 22, 2014

What happens when you write a blog that gets a 'Popular blog post' award? Firstly, you get lots of lovely comments from other Sparkers. Secondly, you (or I really) feel a bit embarrassed and self conscious - as if you went looking for people to say nice things when in fact you just wrote how you felt. And thirdly, you feel a bit pressured. As if EVERY blog from now on until eternity has to get 'Popular' status or you are somehow failing.

Lastly (phew, I hear you say), you get over yourself and all the daftness in your wee head and you just blog.

On the weight front I have been doing well on calories some days and not so well on some others. I seem to be losing weight but not very fast. I have to double -check my weight anyway as my parents' scales may well be lying (in a generous way - I'm not fooling myself here but being cynical). I have reviewed my goals this morning and made some changes that I hope will inspire more success.


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Restart Revelations

Monday, November 03, 2014

I haven't been on SparkPeople for a while. I let things slide and have gone back to my heaviest weight for a long time. However, I'm back and ready to shift the weight once more and this time I have had a good think about why I gave up before.

One of my main problems had become motivation. I felt like I worked really hard but the weight didn't shift. However, I wasn't really being honest with myself about how hard I was really trying. I often went over my calories and pretended to myself it didn't matter, but obviously it does.

Another personal issue was fitting in exercise. I was going to Zumba once a week but missed a couple of classes because of bad traffic and then with being away on trips. I need to restart this tomorrow. Yes, I'm scared of going, but I also know I've no reason to be. I actually really enjoyed it before and no one is there to judge me.

Lastly, I'd begun to think this was just an endless problem: I put weight on easily. I just don't have an athletic build. I don't like sport. I love food. I felt depressed at the thought of always having to watch what I ate.

Then it hit me: LOADS of people have to do this! Actresses and pop stars have personal trainers and chefs for goodness sake! Think of all the lovely people on SparkPeople who have been here for years. Its not a case of 'poor little me, I'm special, I'll always find this hard and its not fair'. Its a case of 'Lots of people find this difficult, but they stay on it and keep trying. You are not alone. You have lots of people with you here. Keep trying and, if it is a case of trying all your life, well - it just is. You will be healthier for it. You will be happier for it.'

Right, time to get serious!

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DAKARISAH430 11/16/2014 8:41PM

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LAURAGALE28 11/11/2014 5:09PM

    I so glad to have spark peopÅ‚e to share this struggle with. It does feel lonely sometimes but we are not alone. Thanks for your honesty I am right here with you. We can do this. One step at a time.

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SIMONEKP 11/11/2014 10:42AM

    we are right here with you. And, sometimes, you do work hard and nothing happens on the scale, I've been there a ton of times, it's frustrating but you just have to keep pushing.

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VEQUIEMHK 11/11/2014 5:46AM

    A revelation of who you want and can become! It's sweaty, and messy, and a full time gig getting there, but once you are there you jump higher, carry heavier loads, laugh harder, and live fuller! It is beyond worth it! It's exciting! It's freedom! emoticon emoticon

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CARSU77 11/8/2014 5:02PM

    Every day I am just hanging on, but the best thing is I don't fall off.

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1HOTFUDGEMAMA 11/8/2014 4:30PM

  keep pushing on!

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NSCARNEY 11/6/2014 9:27PM

    Testify! You summed it up well. Hang in there!

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Autumn Goal

Thursday, October 02, 2014

Inspired by a fellow sparker, I have decided to set myself some goals for Autumn:

1. to stay in calorie range for 6 days a week

This is to encourage myself to avoid being too bad at weekends and undoing all my good work during the working week. If I let myself have 1 day a week I think I'll find it easier to be good on the other 6. Will try it anyway and see.

2. to drink water at work every day

I know I never drink enough water so I'm going to carry a water bottle to work every day and every day it must return EMPTY!

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ROBBIEY 10/2/2014 12:27PM

  Awesome goals, a cheat or relax day is very good idea. emoticon

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Little break throughs

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Day Two and I am really pleased that I have managed to stay well within my calorie range! This is very good as I have not been really doing well at this for a while. Lying to myself has become a skill instead - no more! I am also very proud that although I really wanted a wee bit of cake at work today and was thinking of all the reasons why this should be allowed, when instead I stopped and thought about why it was a bad idea. This is a great break through! I thought about the knock-on affect it would have on my calories for the day. I thought about how it would mean having a smaller helping at dinner or going over my range when I have promised myself to stay in range all week. I decided it wasn't worth it and do you know, it really wasn't.

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PROPMAN1 9/23/2014 2:38PM

  emoticon Being 'mindful' of what we eat is a big step to winning our personal battle with food. emoticon

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A change in thinking

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Haven't blogged in ages. I was feeling very disheartened with the whole weight-loss thing. However, I am feeling like I will never lose weight if I just give up. So I have just revamped my page with an image that is not of me at all, but meant to inspire me. I'd love to lose the flab around my middle and I KNOW that I CAN.

I have adjusted my calorie and nutrition goals a little to see if this helps and am determined to stay in calorie range all week. Even on Sunday when we take my Mum out for afternoon tea because if I eat things high in calories it does NOT mean I give up - it means I eat less later. Maybe I'll not have any dinner. Maybe I'll have half. Whatever it takes to stay in range.

I recognise that this tendency to think 'Oh well, I've messed it up for today now so I might as well just keep messing it up' is a big part of why I'm not succeeding right now. IT IS OK TO SOMETIMES HAVE CAKE. IT DOES NOT MEAN I SHOULD HAVE MORE AND CHOCOLATE AND PIZZA AS WELL. One high calorie food does not cancel out all the good and mean that I have 'failed' - it just means I need to think carefully about my other choices that day.


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