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Woohoo! One tiny little accomplishment at a time.

Monday, February 22, 2010

I did it! I walked around the block after dinner! You guys don't know what a big deal that is for me these days. AFter I wrote that last blog entry, I really started racking my brain about what was keeping from getting out the door to an evening walk after dinner. Aside from the general fatigue and lack of motivation that I have by that time of the day. I think I figured it out. I am a person that needs to go for that walk IMMEDIATELY after I finish eating. No down time, no letting my food go down. If I let my butt hit an even mildly comfortable surface like the couch, my bed, or my favorite chair...that's it. I am down for the count. So, as soon as I finished eating tonight, I got up before my husband and kids had even finished eating and headed out the door. It takes 20 minutes for me to walk around the block, and since I am 200 pounds overweight, it always feel like I am scaling the side of a mountain on my face! The unfortunate thing about never being successful at consistent weight loss is that exercise never gets any easier if you are always the same size. It has health benefits in general, but I don't feel like it's getting any less grueling. Sometimes I get a glimpse of my shadow as I am lumbering down the street at the pace of a toddler (which is all I can handle). And there are times when I start to think...what's the point? Why do this to myself? And the answer is always the same. I don't EVER want to be a person who wakes up one day and discovers that they can no longer take care of themselves or of anyone else for that matter. Those people would give any amount of food to be able to walk again, or go to the bathroom by themselves again, or have any resemblance at all of a normal life again. May that never be me.

  
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COFFEYBEAN 2/24/2010 4:50PM

    Good job.... emoticon

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INKAGOAL2012 2/23/2010 12:28PM

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L3DESIGNS 2/23/2010 2:32AM

    Great job getting out the door! Hope you have another great day tomorrow!

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FRANRN76 2/23/2010 12:50AM

    WTG. Hey you did it! You committed to it ad you got up and you exercised. Keep it up and it will get easier for you.

I feel you. I almsot didnt get my exercise in, because I got too comfy. But I got my big caboose of the couch and went and broke out a hard sweat!!!!

Have a good night.

Hugs
Frances

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No energy when I need it the most.

Monday, February 22, 2010

I spent some time in recent months figuring out what would be the best times for me to go walking in order to keep weight gain at bay. Since weight loss itself has proven to be...elusive...I wanted to at least stop gaining. So, aside from the walk that I take every morning, I experimented with walking before dinner versus walking after dinner. When I walked before dinner, I sometimes still gained weight that day, depending on what I ate for dinner. But on the days when I walked after the evening meal, as long as that was the last thing I ate for the day, I rarely gained weight. The problem is my non existent energy level at that time of the day. I am always ok once I get out of the house and start walking, but forcing myself out the door is something else all together. I suppose it is as much a problem of motivation as it is with energy. Because I just can't seem to give myself that mental push that I so badly need. A while ago, I was doing the after dinner walks most days. I can't think of what happened to change that habit. So, how can I re-start this very necessary healthy habit?

  
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LISSA1976 2/22/2010 11:10PM

    My motivation is sadly wrapped in what I am wearing alot. If I don't come home and change into my gym clothes and put my tennis shoes on, it doesn't matter how many minutes or hours it is until gym time, I will find many excuses to not go. (too cold, too hot, too full, tired, too comfortable, etc.) Sad, isn't it. So maybe it could be something about being ready for you as well. What is it that you need to be ready to walk, S? Is it something you can put on before you make dinner so that after, you walk out the door? If you try to avoid it (as I have) every time you look in the mirror, look at your feet, etc. it reminds you.
Just an idea. :)
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DUSTIER58 2/22/2010 8:31PM

    I find doing activities like taking a walk, or going to water aerobics, hard to do at the end of the day, too. I try to get myself up at 6 am and go for a swim or strength training at the gym. This time of year it's cold and dark both early in the morning and early evening as well (not to mention cold-brrrr!) So I am having the same issue. Wish I had a solution--especially an easy one!--but I think pushing yourself is the only thing that works until the activity becomes a habit. Good luck!

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My poor pudgy grandkids.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

My daughter called me today after she took my 2 grandsons (ages 2 and 6 mos) to their doctor appointment. She was told that she needs to keep an eye on their weight, because they are on the high end of where they should be. I always tried to tell my daughter that the older one almost came out of the womb looking...husky. Not fat...but kind of like a shrunken football player. The baby, however, whom she has fed WAY too much from birth (even though up until now it has only been formula) is too big. He's adorable, and cute, and I love him dearly. But that child looks like the Michelin man in a diaper! She's about to start feeding him solid foods, so I warned her not to go crazy with it. I don't want the little guy to look like Jabba the Hut before he has his first birthday. I am hoping that as the boys get older and become more active that this won't be an issue. But my daughter is the type that feeds them whenever they act up in order to quiet them. I have tried to caution her against it, but like all young mothers, she doesn't really listen. Maybe she will now that the doctor has expressed concern about her children becoming the toddler equivalent of Sumo wrestlers before they even get into kindergarten.

  
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COFFEYBEAN 2/20/2010 6:06AM

    I had a nephew that sounds just like your grbaby....and surprisingly once he was active, the weight just fell off...His parents were big, not fat just big boned, and not overweight for their height, but to see that all compacted into this small child we were all worried if he'd ever be able to walk with the added weight...but once he started moving...omg, no stopping him. He did get in trouble sitting on their pet dog every once in a while, and laying on his brother, but like I said it all came off by the time he was 2. So there is light at the end of the tunnel...but they need to be active, and not eating the wrong things. Hope your daughter truely listens to the doctor, it would be ashame to have the children go thru their lives missing out on things due to their health. Love and prayers.


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TRENTDREAMER 2/18/2010 8:54PM

    I weep for your grandkids. Seriously.

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LISSA1976 2/18/2010 8:39PM

    Ah, that's so sad. But you are right, maybe since the advice didn't come from only Mom, she will attempt to listen. I just hate to see kids suffer and being set up to struggle their whole life. We all know what that's like.



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At least...

Thursday, February 18, 2010

At least I am not one of those people that is bedridden because of their obesity.

At least I got in my morning walk.

At least I have been able to refrain from buying soda.

Sometimes I find myself grasping for comfort in the "at leasts" in my daily life. It happens on days when the scale is unkind, or when I know my eating has left a lot to be desired.

I have come to the absolute conclusion that I have dieted my way to being 200 pounds overweight over a period of 20 years. Losing 5 pounds, only to immediately gain back those 5 pounds...plus a few more. That has been the dietary story of my life for two decades! If only I had known back when I first started gaining weight that all I had to do was exercise consistently in order to stay at a normal weight! Now...although my exercising has become a part of my life, my willpower when it comes to eating is all but nonexistent most of the time. If it wasn't for the support that I receive here at Spark People, I would probably be on the roof most days. And on some days, it is just REALLY frustrating to know that the changes I have managed to make with my eating, like giving up soda, haven't been enough to make me lose weight. It isn't as if I don't know what I need to do. Ofcourse I know! Nobody is better at dieting that fat people! We are professionals at it! But I am just emotionally exhausted with the mental fight. I don't want to spend every moment of every day struggling with what I should eat and what I want to eat for the rest of my life. So...I don't. I am sure that the only reason I don't gain weight in droves is the exercise I do. And I suppose I am grateful for that much.

  
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COFFEYBEAN 2/20/2010 6:22AM

    I felt the same way when I finally SAW myself in the mirror...I guess I just couldn't see things in their true perspective. Now that I've truely found a new way of eating, I've been having success...although this past winter has really put a damper on my losing....but AT LEAST I'm not gaining. I work nights, sleep during the day, and by the time I get up and get things moving for my family, it's dark, terribly cold, and this winter has been just nothing but snow. I work out with my dvd's Biggest loser, Wii Fit, Wii active, but that gets boring after a while. I miss my walks, my fresh air....and I think my whole state (Iowa) is going thru a depression of no sunshine for the past 3 months. Everyone is irritable...but AT LEAST I'm eating correctly...and I'm eating 3 times a day...before when I tried to lose, I'd skip meals, because I truely wasn't hungry...but I've learned FINALLY that even in our minds we can't see that we need to eat. We think less is better...It's only been since last June that I realized, you need to eat...REALLY....and you'll lose. Just watch what you eat. I use to eat fresh Pineapple and grapes, thinking that was good as it was fruit...but then realized that they were both the most caloric fruit to choose...so I switched to kiwi, apples, and oranges. Better choice. I still have grapes and pineapple every so often, but nothing like before. I always have veggies ready for the grabbing...but found out that carrots are high in sugar content...my father was a diabetic due to his medications before he died, and I cut way back on eating them. I try to keep my calorie intake to 1000 or just a little over, due to my sleep patterns, and work, (I'm sedatary) at my job, I don't get the exercise I need...it worked great for me when I can be active, doing yard work, walking, gardening, I try to keep myself extremely active in the summer months. During the winter I've been shoveling snow..but that's about it...so I've been at a stand still...but like I said I haven't gained. You can do it....it just takes some self control, and don't go out starting to lose 5 lbs in a week...make your goal something really attainable...as you know you may lose a good deal, but if you're not willing to keeping up the hard work for a weeks goals, it's going to come back and then some more. I try to make my goal 1 lb a week....and if at some time during that week I get sooo energetic that I work my butt off, so be it...but don't expect it to happen every day...Another trick I do, well not a trick, but a goal I try to set for myself, is I weigh myself as soon as I wake up, and I try to stay at that weight during the day. It's hard, and like I said, if you don't work out, or do some kind of exercise it's almost impossible...but then day I weigh my self it's either the same or down....it's a little challenge I do with myself. In the summer it works much better...but I still check every morning....(which is night time for me)

Well, sorry, I'll get off my soap box, but wanted you to know that there's a lot of us right there with you...remember any ounce is a goal, an acheivement, a victory...it's whether we want that victory to become bigger or not....it's up to each individual.

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XICANITA 2/18/2010 1:18PM

    I think it is important to focus on the "at leasts"...I know I have to do this whenever I start feeling bummed or stressed out. Keep up the hard work and maybe check with your doctor to see if there is anything else that may be inhibiting your weight loss.



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TIFFYFANNY 2/18/2010 1:16PM

    Well said. I feel your pain, because I feel the same way. I have worked my butt off for the past month and a half to only lose 2.5 pounds. It will eventually work. Have faith.

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My taste buds think I'm cheating.

Saturday, February 06, 2010

I am a hot dog on buns lover, but I have always had a hard time finding low calorie ingredients for them. And, I always eat at least 2 or 3 of them. But I recently tried some high fiber whole wheat hot dog buns (80 calories) with 98% fat free hot dogs (40 calories). As long as I go light on the condiments, they come out to about 200 calories each. And they're delicious!

I could also practically live on tacos/burritos. So I started using whole wheat tortillas instead of flour ones. I also cut them in half to make it stretch more. Instead of using ground beef, I use lightly seasoned chicken, light sour cream (measured), lettuce, tomato, white onion, and fresh avocado (none of that store bought guacamole). My whole family loves them, and the kids (who are SUPER picky) don't even know they're eating healthier. It'll be my little secret.

If burgers are your comfort food of choice, which we eat once a week...try using the 4% fat ground beef patties in the freezer section. I tried using turkey patties, but I found them to be a bit dry, and besides, they are the exact same calories as the lean beef patties. I make them with 100 calorie high fiber whole wheat buns. If anyone is interested in the specific brand names of the products I use, I will be happy to share.

  
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LITTLEBIGWOMAN 2/6/2010 10:13PM

  Mamapat3 - you sound just like me! My sister is also living with us, and she is also quite heavy, with absolutely NO intention of adopting a healthier lifestyle with me. My teenage daughter thinks the world will end if she can't continue to live on sugar, but my husband (who is normal weight) is as supportive as a thin person is capable of being.

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MAMAPAT3 2/6/2010 6:36PM

    you are doing great! My problem is my sister. She lives with my family and needs the Spark program more than me! She is overweight and happy - refusing to eat my healthy alternatives with our new lifestyle change. My husband is onboard - my 15 year old son only eats 3 things in this world; so he is a whole nother story!

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