Sunday, January 13, 2013
well, my 12-week program with work starts on Tuesday and as today is the beginning of the week I'm considering it the beginning of my 12-week makeover, too. I am committing myself not just to the program with work but to just overall improve my life.
Things I need to work on diet/exercise-wise are:
-counting calories/tracking calories
-going to the gym on lunch break every day again, even if I don't feel like it!
-not expecting miracles
what I mean by that last one is that I know I can lose weight by counting calories and exercising and just overall making good, healthy choices. I don't need a specialized eating plan like South Beach to help me lose 15 pounds in two weeks; that might happen for some but for me it is UNREALISTIC. I know my body pretty well at this weight. The first week on track I lose a fairly decent amount (4 pounds has been my average) then it slows (which is normal) and I get discouraged, slip up, and gain the weight back. I need to remind myself that this isn't a race and if I stick with it, the pounds will come off, even if it's only 1 pound a week it's still better than where I was the week before!
So, obviously I've decided to just count calories during these 12 weeks instead of trying to limit myself to a low-carb, low-fat, low-something else diet. I'm pretty sure that's what the trainers I'll be working with will be recommending and I'm sure there will be more info provided about proper amounts of carbs, proteins, etc. too that can help me.
Other things I want to work on in the next three months:
-spending more time with my kids, playing, not watching TV,
-being nicer to Chloe. I'm honestly not keen on being a stepmom, and I find Chloe to be exhausting and infuriating most days. However, I need to remind myself that 1) she loves me regardless of how I feel towards her and 2) she's only four.
-more time and loving with the hubby. We're quite distanced, we need time together away from the kids and more hugs and kisses daily.
-doing more around the house. I'm lazy, I'll admit it. I hate chores. Mostly, I leave them for Joe with the reasoning that he's home all day, which isn't fair. He's busy with the kids during the day and I need to start pitching in with household stuff.
I'm excited and nervous for the next twelve weeks... but, ready. I need to commit to this once and for all, I've had too many false starts and I just need to DO it. In a few weeks it'll be habit, right?
Thursday, January 10, 2013
So, as I think I mentioned, Joe has pneumonia. He saw our family doctor yesterday and was told that it seems to be working it's way out and he just needs a strong OTC cough medicine, so I picked him some up today. He doesn't seem to feel as bad BUT now he's suffering with a bad gout flare-up in his foot making it hard for him to move. He's a baby when he's sick or in pain and it's just...annoying.
Chloe started complaining about not feeling well today. Of course, neither Joe nor I believed her because she CONSTANTLY LIES about either feeling sick or needing to throw up. I'm not exaggerating. Ever since she threw up recently with the flu, she tries to claim sickness every time she wants to get out of something or get attention. Mostly, we ignore her and have tried several times to explain that lying about feeling sick is not okay because when she really is sick no one will believe her. Much like the boy who cried wolf.
Anyway, today she interrupted me in the bathroom to use the bathroom- which she didn't. Then a few minutes later she comes in and calmly says she needs to throw up. I kicked her out as she has lied about this in the past a million times... and then she throws up in the hall. So, okay, I'm pissed at both of us but whatever. Send her off to bed. A few hours later I go to check on her, she's sitting in her room with the light on. I asked why she wasn't asleep. She said something about needing to go potty but doesn't actually make any effort to leave her bed to GO potty. A few minutes later, I hear her throwing up again, this time in the middle of her room. WTF. Then again, she just casually walked to the toilet and spit a little into it.
I'm so beyond frustrated with the sickness in this house. I am Lysoling the ish out of everything before I go to bed.
Anyway... my diet/exercise has been non-existant this week but I'm okay with that. I've been counting calories loosely with a plan to start fresh on Monday. I need to figure out a style of eating and I just need to committ. Some days I count calories, other days I try to restrict carbs, some days I don't pay any attention at all, and it's a major issue. I'm not losing weight and I'm just confused about how I should be eating- even though I KNOW, logically, how to lose weight. I'm throwing myself 110% into this program with work since I'm PAYING for it, and it starts Tuesday. Might as well begin a day early. So Monday is a new beginning and the next few days I'm not going to go crazy but I'll probably eat a bit more than I will be starting Monday.
Anyway, I'm off to bed early! tomorrow is finally friday...been a long week. night night all!
Saturday, January 05, 2013
Been hanging out with my parents all day. We had a mediocre (in my opinion) lunch at a too-chic for a 2 and 4 year old restaurant. I had fish that was bland and came with it's head still attached. Gross. After lunch we had ice cream and even though it was a few hours ago I am feeling so full and sick. I get carsick occassionally and we did a lot of driving today. Joe let me nap for a bit but I'm still feeling gross. We're meeting my parents for dinner in 45 minutes at a Mexican restaurant in town that I love but I don't think I'm going to be eating. I just do not feel up to a meal. But I don't want to bail on them since 1) the kids need to eat and 2) my parents drove 7 hours to spend time with us, the least I can do is go out for a few meals with them.
If I order anything I'll get an appetizer... right now I just want to snooze some more but I don't think that's a good idea so instead I'll play a game online. Heh.
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