Thursday, May 03, 2012
So, I totally binged yesterday on Burger King, candy bars, and ice cream.... I'm not sure what compelled it. But I'm ready to do better today, get back into the gym on my lunch break, eat well, drink LOTS of water, and forget yesterday's mistakes.
I bought some more of my fat burner pills so I'm starting those up again today. Also need to take my steroids. Both require taking with food so I should probably get going and make some breakfast! Cereal, I think...quick and easy. The doctor told me that the steroids could increase my appetite and I'm wondering if that's starting to happen now that I'm halfway through the plan... but I honestly just think yesterday was caused by boredom, my husband whining about BK, and just the fact that I wanted to eat badly.
I really wish I could jump forward to a time where I won't crave the bad stuff...but I know it won't happen overnight and the more I stick with exercising, counting calories, and being healthy the less appealing the junk will be.
Off I go...full day at work today, and it's raining...yuck.
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
So last week our computer got some nasty malware (rootkits??) and was not connecting to the internet and our wireless devices weren't working either. For a few days we just let it go thinking the internet company was having some problems, but when I took the laptop to the library to access the internet there it still wasn't working. I called my brother in PA who is a software engineer and he said it could be a virus. So I took it to the computer shop on Thursday night. I had to withdraw from the class I was taking since I didn't know when I'd be getting the computer back and couldn't afford to get that backed up on work (homework is due Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday with a quiz on Sunday as well). I'll be billed $280 for dropping the class but will still get financial aid for next term (starts in June) and at least I won't fail the class.
Anyway, it's been so boring not having internet! I didn't realize how much time I spent online (especially on Facebook!) until I didn't have it. I'm going to try to stay away from Facebook as often, as it's so pointless! I really discovered that because I could get online at work from my Kindle so I would check email and stuff, and all the updates I received were just stupid. LOL. Sorry to my facebook friends...
So, last week my rash that I'd gotten the week before got really, really bad, and was basically all over my body and hot to the touch. Finally on Thursday I went back to the dermatologist and got steroids because I couldn't handle it anymore and he didn't know what was causing it. I also had some blood work done so they could test for Lyme disease. I don't think it's Lyme though because it's going away! The steroids are miraculous, haha. I'm on a 12 day plan so I still have about 6 days left and I'm still itchy but the rash is pretty much cleared up. I'm still allowed to take the pills he prescribed for the itch so that's what I've been doing. My skin is just soooo dry from scratching.
Anyway, I've been trying to do good with calories, the weekend wasn't great but I've been back on track since Monday, and I've worked out at the gym both days this week. Today I'm doing a half-day 'cause Joe is sick, but I'm bringing the kids with me... so I probably won't be working out today.
Also, I'm out of my fat burners, ran out a few days ago and have been on a tight budget with some bills needing to get paid, but I'm going to start up again this week. More later, gotta get ready for work!
Monday, April 23, 2012
Last week was basically just crappy! I didn't do great on calories once I got home from work, my rash (which still hasn't gone away or gone down at all) was driving me crazy, and I was honestly just miserable. So I'm sure I gained back a few pounds, which sucks, but I'm not giving up. Much too soon for that, lol.
This week I need to get back on track regardless of the condition of my rash. Yeah, I might not be able to work out too much, but I can certainly count my calories and stay within my goal every day which will help get me back in the right direction.
Honestly, I wish I could stay home and lay in a cool bath forever, because it's basically the only relief I've found for the itching, but I can't. Today I'm only working 6:45-9 am and then I'm going to a cancer screening appointment in Manchester (about an hour away). I hope my having a rash doesn't interfere with anything they'll be doing, lol. The dermatologist took a biopsy of a rashy spot on my arm on Friday... I probably won't learn the results until later this week. I almost hope it is something more than heat rash because there might be a different, more effective treatment plan. Right now it's the backs of my knees that are really awful... I've scratched them raw (my mistake) so they just constantly itch and bother me. I've been soaking in the tub with some baking soda or oatmeal in the water which helps but not for that long. The pills the dermatologist gave me... I don't know. If I take two it seems to help a bit, but doesn't get rid of the itchy feeling altogether.
Anyway, I'm not really packing a lunch today, just some snacks to have on the way to Manchester since I'll probably not be able to eat lunch until I get home which will be around 1, I'm guessing.
It's finally raining...which we desperately needed, although I still don't like it. Oh well, off I go. More tomorrow.
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Ok so...yesterday I ate far too much ice cream. and two donuts. what the f is wrong with me!?
Could it be that I'm still covered in this rash and it's SO UNBEARABLY ITCHY I DON'T WANT TO MOVE?!!?
Yeah, probably. I just haven't cared this week 'cause I'm miserable. Went to the dermatologist and got pills that are supposed to stop the itch...they don't.
and, it's raining today.
I'm in a bad mood! Hope some time with my baby will help. More later...
Friday, April 20, 2012
I'm still covered in this horrible rash, I've had it since Monday. On Wednesday I saw the doctor, she told me she wasn't sure what the cause was but prescribed me some cream and told me to start taking Zertec. The rash hasn't gone down at all. It's covering most of my body...upper arms, chest, tummy, behind my knees, ribs... I assumed it was a simple heat rash but now I'm not so sure. I'm really hoping it goes away soon because it's making me cranky!
I was told not to do anything that might agitate it such as sweating profusely, taking hot showers, scratching it (so hard to not do!), wearing tight clothes...etc. So I haven't been to the gym this week. We haven't been able to use our water all week anyway since the plumber added bleach to the well to sanitize it, just quick showers for the adults. The dr. thinks my shower on Tuesday probably caused the rash to flare up more. The bleach smell is nearly gone... I'll be happy when everything goes back to normal!
I have not done great this week, but I don't think I've really upset my weight. I'm going to try my hardest to really stick to my calorie budget today, tomorrow, and Sunday and start my next week strong! If the rash isn't gone by Monday I'm heading to the dermatologist. Last night it was so itchy and irritating that I got a bag of frozen green beans to use as an ice pack while I was sleeping. lol.
Anyway, must go make lunch! More tomorrow....
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