Sunday, January 31, 2010
Yep, I did. And I am super proud of myself. I have been sort of off track since the wrist injury and it is still not perfectly healed. I did not do any weights or break any rules regarding the wrist, and I eased off on the stress I was putting on my hand when I felt the pressure seemed to great in spin. I even pulled back to back classes on Wednesday night for Spin and Spice It Up dance. (OMG, I was so tired by the end of that! I couldn't even manage to get on the floor for the last part of the dance routine the last time we did it.) But still this was much less effort put out than before the injury. Only 5 hours of exercise this week instead of the usual. This slacking (in my mind) in the exercise department meant I had to be extra diligent in the food area, which was complicated by the lack of funds for a variety of healthy foods. But I did it! And I have a loss of 2 pounds for the week to show for it. :)
I am not going to say it isn't tough. Between the random sub jobs that I may drive 45 minutes to at 6:30 in the morning, my boyfriend in treatment, doctors upon doctors visits, and the random stuff that happens when you own a house (oh how I sometimes miss having a landlord to call and tell them the problems to fix), it is not always easy making time for myself. But I am not that angry little dwarf named "Grumpy" as often when I do, and it is the time when I don't have to worry or think about anything but what I am doing in that moment. I think it is a glorious, even if I am a hot, sweaty mess!
That being said, I have started closing my eyes when I spin during certain routines. Instead of thinking of myself a hot, sweaty, chunky monkey, I imagine myself with a better body, seeing those parts that bug me reformed, trimmed and sculpted. I even imagine myself wearing clothing that last year at this time I would have never considered wearing. But things change don't they? I don't have to hide in clothes chosen to make me look thinner. Someday soon I will just be, wearing clothes I like, and not just because they make me look thinner and hide enough of the flaws. ;) I am even considering something new for Valentine's day, since I have so little that fits. R is taking me out...what to wear, what to wear LOL How nice to be excited to get dressed for a change!
But, I cannot wait for next week! I know it is going to be as good of a loss as this week, if not better. I just need to stay focused and think about that awesome dress I saw today in the boutique. It showed a lot of skin, and frankly I have too much skin that would be showing at the moment on the upper half of me. :) But by summer, I will be ready to wear that dress!
Until next time...
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I tried, really I did. I wanted more than anything to make this week my "power up" week, getting everything back on track. After my injury, I got cleared to do everything but weights. Last week I made it 3 days to the gym. This week the goal was all 5 days, 6 classes, and just have a blast doing what I love. When I couldn't work out, I got really bad headaches. I checked B.P. etc. and it was all fine. Apparently my body got so used to working out, it became physically painful by the third week to not do it. I really wanted this week.
I made it to the gym Monday and Tuesday with no problems. I had a blast at spin, pushing myself and sweating a small bucket. By yesterday the storm had hit hard. My intention was to hit my back to back classes of spin and Spice It Up, my dance class. But my roof leaked into my spare bedroom, my door knob broke (momentarily locking me in my house) and the bathroom door actually fell off it's hinges. Oh, the joys of home ownership! So long gym.
Interestingly and quite proudly I can say I did not turn to food. I turned to cleaning. Yea me! I even rearranged my big room (giant conjoined living room, dining, kitchen area). I have not lost any weight, but my 8s are loose on me. Not sure what is going on there, but I am not complaining...yet. ;) So last night the plan was to go early, since all the buckets are in place and diversions to funnel water correctly, etc.
I awoke to snow. Okay, go now, I thought, before it gets anyworse. I figured I could hit the grocery store, etc. before getting snowed in. Yeah, no such luck. The car was frozen. :( All dressed up and no where to go. But I'm still smiling. God is keeping me safe at home for a reason.
So what did I learn? Sometimes even when you make time and plan it all out, it just doesn't work out. You just have to do your best and continue your eating plan. It's not the end of the world; there is always tomorrow and always next week. Just because mother nature is stopping me this time, I am not going to give up on my goal or on myself. There's no throwing in the towel and tossing back the chocolate and soda for me! I am still in the race with myself to be the best me I can be. My status is just postponed due to weather. ;) But when the sun comes out, you can bet I'll be off and spinning... or dancing!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
So yes, I am a dork. That lovely little tension knob where you are supposed to turn it one way and then turn it back to your correct amount to start (generally newbs start at 1 1/2 and then move to 2 turns and so on), I have been doing the opposite. My b.f. informed me of that today. I was closing it all the way (tension full on) and then releasing it to the 2nd turn, instead of opening it to no tension and then turning it to add some. LOL (In other words, my tension is higher than average.) It does explain how I have consistently managed to drop jean size and have kick a$$ legs and a decent butt though. ;)It also explains why I can do the StairMaster like nobody's business. Well, everything else is easy now, so I am not going to change my tension to an easier one. I just thought I would admit my DORK status for all of my spark buds to see.
Monday, January 11, 2010
So, I met up with some friends this weekend. One of them (Amy) was back from her law school studies in Indiana and I agreed to join her to a trip to see UCLA law school, a possible transfer location for her. She is uber smart. I am also not opposed because that brings one of my best friends back to me. Currently she is my IM/phone/email buddy who returns to shop with me because when she comes back every couple of months it is apparent I need new clothes in a new size LOL. Amy is very patient. Then on Sunday I saw my girls from grad school, Shabnam and Kim, mixed with some Weight Watchers tortilla soup, The Proposal on DVD, some Wii action (296 on the hula hoop, TY) and of course girl talk since one of us prego. All in all a good weekend. Except...
Amy rents/shares her house since she is away so much to my sister and her family. (Big house, and it worked out well since the economy crapped out.) So when I see Amy, I also see my sister. It is all good. I like my sister. She is funny and talented, and as many sisters are, can get on my freakin nerves. She has been a big supporter of my "get healthy" motives. She herself did an excellent job of losing her baby weight that stayed on a little too long, but that really was the only time she had a weight issue. I think I have said before, she is about 5'8, so even as my little sister, she is my 4 inch taller sister. :) Tall, thin, long legs, nice olive toned complexion...you get the picture. In contrast, I have always been the short, chubby or fat, pale, fair-skinned big sister.
I appreciate her nice comments. None of them are backhanded or a slight against me. But this weekend, it became apparent that she thinks I should be done. Huh? I have only just reached the "overweight" mark on the bmi chart. I am a long way from being done on the weight aspect of my journey. I tried to explain that I have this (touching various parts of my body) that still needs to go away, etc. She proclaimed she has that too and that is just our build. But that is just it! We are not built alike! We contrast in almost every way with the exception of our big blue eyes and other minor things. The only thing we have every worn the same is our shoe size. (Yes, I have giant feet for a littler person LOL) I just do not understand it. I know that I cannot necessarily see every change in myself in the mirror. But how can she think I am already small enough? I aim for healthy, and this is not healthy yet. It is healthier than where I was; I will admit that. But don't try to stop me now.
I also had not realized it, but the next size down for me is one she is not wearing. She is a 7/8 at the moment. (She has gained about 10 pounds in the last 6 mos.) I am on my way to a 6, and plan on going even further. I will be physically smaller than her for the first time in my life in every way...with the exception of the bra cup size, which still ticks her off. (Sorry, I think that is funny.) Hmmm...She has held the title of the thin, pretty one for a long time. I know she will always be that. She is my sis. It is an absurd thought, but is it possible for her to be threatened or jealous of me? I know that all of the changes are an adjustment for me, but I had never thought that there would be an adjustment for her. Maybe it is my own naivety. I did not have to adjust when she lost weight; I was still the fat sister.
I suppose time is the only thing that allows for adjustments. And it is not as though she sabotages me or anything. She is still a big supporter of mine. It just makes me less comfortable to share certain things, you know. And that is unfortunate, since I don't have hardly any family as it is, and it is always nice to have a support crew.
Friday, January 08, 2010
Yep you read that right. My boyfriend has this unusual crush on Rachel Ray. It doesn't really match his other crush list. I think it has to do with the fact that she makes food and he envisions her serving it to him. LOL The boy does like food...and growing up in a rather traditional hispanic home where his mom served the boys, he thoroughly enjoys the whole women cater to men thing. Too bad, so sad, but he picked me. LMAO I can cook and bake, but I am not a fan of serving. I cooked so get off you butt and serve me! Or at the very least, serve yourself.
Anyhow, he was watching her and she was talking about Shirataki Noodles. (I was not home. I was at the library researching my little nonprofit business thing I am thinking about.) Has anyone tried them? Supposedly you can replace them with any noodle you use. They are tofu and have 20 cals. a serving. Hungry Girl uses them in recipes for Alfredo and such as recall. He was so excited when I got home about it that I did a search. I found this link that compares noodles: www.hungry-girl.com/chew/chewdetails
.php?isid=467 Then I wondered why so much better (other than calorie content). There is a whole site dedicated to them, and this page tells what specifically is in them that helps lose weight. www.shiratakinoodles.net/lose-weight
He is just super excited about this whole thing. And since I am not a buzz killer, I will give it a go. So this weekend, I will be purchasing some to try them out next week, replacing the noodles to use in regular pasta dishes and such. Let the great Shirataki experiment begin!
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