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OMG what the lump happened to me?

Tuesday, October 02, 2012

I'm so ready to try again. I just want to leave it at that. I know that anyone who might visit my SparkPage would find someone who is off track and starting over again. But I know that something happened inside of me this morning. That fabled "off/on switch" has clicked with me. This time, I'm going to find my way home.

  
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SLUNDQUIS 10/2/2012 2:42PM

    Glad to hear!

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Fighting my way back to the surface!

Friday, November 18, 2011

I have gotten so lost the past few months! My depression reached an all-time high as our finances took dip after dip. Everything we got was a denial...I was denied job after job, my husband was denied disability and compensation, our application for home loan modification was denied....I fell into a pit and I could not get out. I even stopped going outdoors for fun and I stopped painting. In short, I got really lost. I would sit on the couch and zone out. I think I would be looking at the TV but seeing nothing. The worst part is, I knew exactly what I was doing...and I knew the depression was pushing me down even further, but I felt powerless to stop it.

Things are starting to turn around now. Against all odds we were able to keep our home, we qualified for unemployment, my husband just starting receiving disability payments, and our worker's compensation is processing. Just today we went out looking for a new couch, that's how good things are!

I'm just so thankful to God for carrying us through.

So now it's time to GET OUT OF THAT PIT. No more feeling sorry for myself...no more zoning out. Time to buy a new bathroom scale. Time to take it step by step until I'm reaching upwards again.

I revised my goal so that I will reach my goal weight by March of 2013. This way I can eat up to 1900 calories a day, for now, until I get back into the swing of things, then I may consider dropping that down a bit.

For now I'm off to do the Wii Fit and get my jiggly butt moving. More exercise means less depression.

We can do this!

  
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FORBANDE 11/19/2011 9:59AM

    So glad things are better! It does seem that when it rains, it pours!

The important thing is that you recognize the behavior and are shaking it off. As long as we get back up each time we fall down, we are going strong.



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HDHAWK 11/18/2011 7:59PM

    I'm glad to hear things are turning around for you. Exercise will help!

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Times are tough but I AM tougher

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

I have experienced some tough times lately, tougher than I really ever thought possible (even though I'm sure they could be tougher). My husband is still injured and out of work and the BWC has denied our claim for benefits again. Our lawyer is appealing again but to be honest with you, I'm starting to lose heart. I'm afraid that we won't be able to provide for our children. I don't want to leave the kids with my husband while I go to work, but I'm getting desperate. I don't want to lose our home. So I thought that if there is one thing that would make me happier and make me feel more in control of my life... ONE THING- it would be to get to a healthy weight. So why don't I? Food deceives me. Woos me, tells me everything will be ok. Just one more bite will make it all go away. What lies food tells me. I go to bed loathing myself at night. How is that worth it? It isn't.
Yesterday was a good day. Today can be good too. It's starting out pretty well (food wise). I need to make this change or I will lose myself forever. I know I can do it. If you pray, please pray for my little family. Thanks for reading.

  
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CANDYXPERT 7/8/2011 9:56AM

    Sorry to hear that things are tough right now.

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MOONBIRD 7/7/2011 10:45PM

    I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. I hope that something will work out for you all. I know how hard it is to be stressing over money. Hang in there and take it one day at a time.

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INSHAPE2011 7/6/2011 5:52PM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you! And more than that, I know you can make it. Keep calm, chin up, make those tough decisions and keep going. Solutions will come, they always do to those who refuse to give up, those who believe! You are not alone!

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MARLARELLA 7/6/2011 1:54PM

    I'm sorry that you are going through a really difficult time. I hope things turn around for you- you deserve it!

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SMILEFRECKLES 7/6/2011 11:52AM

    You can definitely do it!

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TKTMTA 7/6/2011 11:18AM

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Times are tough but I AM tougher

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

I have experienced some tough times lately, tougher than I really ever thought possible (even though I'm sure they could be tougher). My husband is still injured and out of work and the BWC has denied our claim for benefits again. Our lawyer is appealing again but to be honest with you, I'm starting to lose heart. I'm afraid that we won't be able to provide for our children. I don't want to leave the kids with my husband while I go to work, but I'm getting desperate. I don't want to lose our home. So I thought that if there is one thing that would make me happier and make me feel more in control of my life... ONE THING- it would be to get to a healthy weight. So why don't I? Food deceives me. Woos me, tells me everything will be ok. Just one more bite will make it all go away. What lies food tells me. I go to bed loathing myself at night. How is that worth it? It isn't.
Yesterday was a good day. Today can be good too. It's starting out pretty well (food wise). I need to make this change or I will lose myself forever. I know I can do it. If you pray, please pray for my little family. Thanks for reading.

  


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