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I Did It!!!

Saturday, July 28, 2012

37:24 for my first 5K race in many, many years. My strategy was to walk uphill, run downhill, and on the level stretches, run in the sunny parts to get to the shady parts! LOL. My plan worked far better than I ever dreamed. I figured I'd come in in the 45-50 minute range. The young lady with me is my fourteen-year-old daughter. It was a lovely morning as well. We were blessed.

The rest of today . . . I hope to be able to enjoy an AA picnic, but, I got a call from my sister last night that my dad had had a big seizure and was in the hospital. I guess he suffered a head injury that didn't get proper medical attention about a week ago. I will keep you all posted. But for now, I am going to enjoy my accomplishment, my sobriety, and trust the God is watching over my dad and play the waiting game on that one.

  
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DRAGONCHILDE 8/6/2012 3:24PM

    Congrats! That's really a wonderful accomplishment.

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MEDDYPEDDY 7/29/2012 2:24AM

    Wow! You are doing SO well! emoticon

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AJDOVER1 7/28/2012 6:45PM

    You are AWESOME! Thanks for sharing your success with us. I hope you can take some time to celebrate your success. You and your daughter look like a great team!

Your dad is in my prayers.

Hugs,
Aurlie

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LESLIESENIOR 7/28/2012 5:32PM

    You REALLY are a LIONESS! RRROOOAAAARRRR! Great time!!!!! That's hoofing it!!
Congratulations. emoticon

And congratulations are in order for having that gorgeous daughter. What a gem.
I'll keep your dad in my prayers.
Peace and love,
Leslie

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ILIKETOZUMBA 7/28/2012 11:21AM

    Congrats on a great race! Best wishes for your father's speedy recovery.

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LESSOFPMCD 7/28/2012 11:12AM

    congrats on your 5K - quite an accomplishment!

Hopefully you will hear good news re: your dad. AA picnic sounds like fun - spending time with people that understand what it is like to make the decision to be AF.

Your daughter is beautiful!

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PENNYPACKER3 7/28/2012 10:52AM

    i just started jogging. 4 days ago. i used to do it years ago. It is fun.
I am in the fellowship.

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Two weeks

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

The school secretary called this morning to tell me my room is ready if I want to come in and start setting up. Ha! Whaaaat? Are you kidding? Already? What day is it? And so it is true, my teaching contract starts in a few weeks. I have a half day how-to-be-a-second-year-mentor workshop August 7th and my first duty day is August 9th. And has Marci done all those school projects she planned to do this summer? Heck no! But then again, she was probs inebriated and being delusional when she made all those plans! Everything I brought home is still pretty much sittin' right where I dumped in either in the living room or in the garage. Well . . . you know, I taught summer school in June, then it got so hot and everything, and I was trying to get sober.

But, I'm not going to beat myself up. There's still time to do a few things, if I choose to, and I am in much better condition now than I was--physically, mentally, emotionally. That's important too. I'm kinda happy. Last summer, I was ready to go back to work to escape dealing with man problems, I was drinking a lot, I had broken a rib somehow, I was way too happy to be taking percocet. I didn't get much accomplished last summer, but I didn't come out feeling rested and healthy either.

Two weeks of summer left for me. But that's okay. I love teaching. I love my colleagues (mostly). I love my students. I love the structure and routine that having to "go to school" gives me. Maybe some cooler weather will follow the start of school. emoticon

  
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LESLIESENIOR 7/27/2012 4:50PM

    Marci~ You have accomplished exactly what you needed to this summer. You are AMAZING! You are so right about making different decisions now that your thinking is on a new level. You will be better able to decide day to day what to say "yes" to, and what to say "no" to. Enjoy your two weeks so you will feel fresh and ready for those kiddos.
Hug,
Leslie

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MEDDYPEDDY 7/26/2012 12:07AM

    I think you have done some grat work with yourself this summer!

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AJDOVER1 7/25/2012 10:13PM

    You teachers are AWESOME!

Marci, you've accomplished so much recently! Enjoy your two weeks!

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-WISPY- 7/25/2012 9:55PM

    Woo hoo Marcie, way to go on the new look you this summer. So much better than those "other" summers. Whatever happens in the next few weeks sobriety will make it all the sweeter.

Wishing you all the best in the new school year - one day at a time.

Hugs Wispy

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JENNIFERH625 7/25/2012 4:44PM

    I go back 2 weeks from today! Time flies, but I do love my kiddos and career! Best wishes for the upcoming school year!

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KNEWMETODAY 7/25/2012 4:24PM

    I believe teaching is a calling. The public, in general, has no idea of the "free" time willingly donated by dedicated teachers. Those who are in it for other reasons respond only to the calendar and the bells and will never know the fulfillment that comes from giving--really giving--to students.

It's bad when the school comes to expect the extra time though. Good luck for the upcoming school year. I retired in 2005 and still sub occasionally. I've never doubted my decision to teach...it gave me great joy (sometimes frustration too) and I loved it!!

Kathy

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Adios to This Weekend

Sunday, July 22, 2012

I don't always like weekends. I think I set my expectations too high. Mostly, I've just been lonely. Not like I don't have things to do, but I've needed human companionship and it's not been there. The man I date, we decided to take a break from each other Wednesday night; one evening turned into four days with little or no communication. So weird. My daughters have been gone with their father and that side of their family since July 13th. They just rolled back into town about half an hour ago. I will see them tomorrow. That makes me happy. So I had a lot of time on my hands this weekend. Not so long ago, in a galaxy with lots of liquor stores, I would have relished all this alone time. You know why. I've gotten my exercising out of the way early each day--that's an hour about, watched a movie a day--that takes a few hours, done all the daily chores one must do to keep things alive--that doesn't take long, tried not to sit around eating. If it hadn't have been for two AA meeting a day and the driving back and forth time--I don't know if I would have made it. Just go and stay sober--that's what I keep saying. I am so grateful to the people in those rooms.

So bye-bye weekend, and take the damn scale with you. That thing will not budge! I did not eat the entire bag of Pop Chips last night--there are still some left--but even if I had, there's only 360 calories in the whole bag. How could that ruin weigh-in this morning? It doesn't use batteries, so that's not the problem.

  
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LESLIESENIOR 7/23/2012 12:06AM

    Well, all I can say is CONGRATULATIONS for 2 more weekend days sober. It is an accomplishment to just do that, let alone have relationship changes, kid changes, life changes............... You really did a miraculous thing by getting out, out, out, and going to meetings. It takes courage and determination to do that! Don't underestimate the power of what you have accomplished this weekend.

I didn't start to tackle my weight issues until I had been sober almost 2 years. Then it took me 3 years to lose the 60 pounds that were weighing me down.

I didn't start exercising regularly until 3 years after that. I didn't find Sparkpeople until 1 year ago.

You were speaking to me when you said "I think I set my expectations too high". That is something I must constantly keep in check. That is where faith comes in.

I have to believe that I am exactly where I'm supposed to be, things are exactly the way they are supposed to be, and everything will work out the way it is supposed to.

You are doing great, even if it is hard to see at the moment.

Your honest is so wonderful and important. You are already a winner!!!!!!!
Peace,
Leslie

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MSKITYOCAT 7/22/2012 11:05PM

  tomorrow is a new day. Blessings to you on your journey

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We Can All Fly!

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Well, I can't post the whole letter in because it is copyrighted, and I look on FlyLady's website and on her Facebook page and couldn't find a link to this letter I like so much.This testimonial came through my email yesterday, and I read it this morning. If you subscribe to FlyLady like I do, maybe you were lucky enough to see this. Here are some excerpts:

"I decided to start FLYing-with babysteps, of course!-as a way to teach myself new ways to add order, peace, tranquility, and self-caring to my life."

"I need this, as I grew up with alcoholism and so was not taught these simple ways to take care of myself, to add order, sanity, and predictability to my day.

So I view FLYing as an important adjunct to my spiritual growth program, which includes Al Anon, prayer, and journaling. God bless my mother, she truly did the best she could, but when I was a young teen the disease of alcoholism claimed her and my stepfather, and our family life was seriously harmed.

I am so grateful for your help in learning habits that promote spiritual, emotional, and physical health."

Of course, this person doesn't appear to be an alcoholic, but rather an adult child of alcoholics, but so many of us (Me! Me!) are both. I am not a good Becky-Home-Ecky, but a lot of what I know how to do and am able to do, I didn't get from Martha Stewart (though I tried), but from FlyLady. It's not AA, but Bill W. didn't address how to keep a household going (Or did he? I'd better get to reading the Big Book.).

  
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VTRICIA 7/18/2012 11:01AM

    I joined all three of the spark flylady communities. I guess I need to get my feet wet in them.

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MEDDYPEDDY 7/18/2012 1:31AM

    Fly Lady and Twelve steps go very well together, same kind of philosophy I think. I am not flying all the time, I can be very well for a while and then things start cluttering up again... but thanks to FLylady I do have great tools to start again whenever I can!

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-WISPY- 7/17/2012 11:43PM

    Great going, I am happy you have found something that helps so many it seems.

I used to think I was adopted - it was the only way I could kind of make sense of what was happening to me. I was not allowed to do things because I would make a mess. However in all honesty housework has never been thing. So when the kitchen and rest of the house are sparkling it always makes me feel good and as if I have achieved something.

Big hugs. Wispy.

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LESLIESENIOR 7/17/2012 5:30PM

    Thank you for posting this. Isn't it amazing how our spiritual, emotional, mental, physical, nutritional, organizational, and relationship health and well being are all so interconnected? What a blessing we have the opportunity to examine them all and make the changes necessary to stop the cycle of insanity.
We are truly the privileged ones.
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AJDOVER1 7/17/2012 5:19PM

    Thanks for the insight! I used to joke that I was "raised by wolves" to explain my lack of domestic ability. It really doesn't matter WHY, since I'm plenty old enough to learn how to do things differently.

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IACTA_ALEA_EST 7/17/2012 1:01PM

    Great find, this fly lady - i recently joined her and am finding my sink clean, if not shining a few days in a row!

All the best on your journey :)

Allie

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Okay!

Monday, July 16, 2012

I did it, I went to my first AA meeting ever. So, I got the first-step meeting. All women, and, yeah, these are people that understand me. I'll be darned! So, the comedy of it all is that of course, somehow, I dropped my keys into my purse and they ended up in my coin purse. I was digging and digging and probably the ladies with me figured I was still drinking. . . and then my car wouldn't start. . . wouldn't even click, no dome light, nothing, nada. My sweetheart left his laundry to come pick me up and we dropped my Vanna (she's a mini-van) off at the mechanic's. I can get my teenager's car and drive it, she's on vacation anyway. I'll need it too, if I'm going to make a run at this "90 meetings in 90 days" thing. I was thinking, "Whaaaat? Why did I not know this sooner?" Ninety days takes me into the school year. Dang!

  
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AWESOMECAROL55 7/17/2012 6:27PM

    Marci...how wonderful..i am so glad you had the courage to go to your first meeting! I have found AA to be a life changer. It's a great place to be with folks that truly understand you!! Do what they advise you to do..you'll be fine!!

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LESLIESENIOR 7/17/2012 1:33AM

    You are quite the amazing, brave, and open minded woman!!! I'm so glad you are willing to give it a try. At least you will know one way or another if it is the right thing for you. We are all sharing our own experiences and you will have your own. But, it is so awesome to be with women/people who nod before you finish your sentence, or who laugh at the seeming insanity we share. No one is shocked and every one understands.
It is a rare and wonderful gift.
I read your other blog that came before this one. Your sharing is helping us all remember our first days sober and our last days drunk.
Thank you!!!
Leslie

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MEDDYPEDDY 7/17/2012 12:30AM

    Wow! Sending a lot of energy and love across the ocean to you! After seven years of meetings I can tell you that it might not always feel good or necessary to go there, it happens that I get bored, it happens that I get very irritated with long and unfocused shares... but at the end of the day it keeps me sober! Thanks for the inspiration!

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AJDOVER1 7/16/2012 11:07PM

    How cool is that? Women who understand you -- that's what I found, too!

It's an amazing journey. There may be bumps ahead, but at least you don't have to weather them alone.

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IMAGINE_IT 7/16/2012 10:22PM

    The first step can be the most difficult....but you went ahead and 'took it'!! Be proud of yourself..... emoticon One day at a time.... emoticon emoticon

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