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Smiling & Giddy but at a Standstill

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Hi my SparkPeople! It's been way too long since I've touched bases with you. I'm still hanging in here, getting very close to my original Spark Anniversary date and my rededicated Spark Anniversary. Both are in July. That must be my month of change.

How's my exercising going? Not the best but not the worst either. I'm walking 2-3 miles at least twice a week. I make it to the gym once or twice a week. I know I could do better but I'm being honest. I still haven't given up. I'm just moving in slow motion on this last leg of my race towards my ideal weight. I hope it's true that slow and steady wins...we'll see about that!

My eating sucks! I'm eating many things that I need to avoid but the weight has not caught up with me yet. I know I've got to do better and I will. I must think I'm on vacation from my program just like I am from college. I better get it right and get it tight. LOL.

Right now my weight is kind of stuck. It may fluctuate a pound or so from day to day but it's basically on pause. I know what it takes to kickstart it again but I haven't been as disciplined as I need to be in order to accomplish my goals. I will be though. I can feel it in my bones!

I'm being courted by a nice man...yes, I said being courted and he has been taking me out to eat too much. I told him last night that we should make dates to go walking or jogging or maybe a gym date. He can get with it or I'll have to see him when I'm done working out. He likes what he sees and I'm trying to keep it like this or better. LOL. I'm a mess, right? I know. LOL.

I'm kind of giddy right about now. Just happy that I'm getting all this attention. That may sound vain but I'm keeping it real. It feels good to have some companionship. I'm not saying that he's "the one" but he's nice to me right now so I'm enjoying every second of it.

So, if I'm not updating as much as I have in the past, just know that I'm still out here living life and working towards my fitness goals. Did I mention that I'm smiling while I do it?

  
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SHAYGETSFIT 4/21/2011 10:12PM

    Miss you!

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STILLSLIM 8/2/2010 8:34PM

    Love it! You deserve it! Make him work girl!. Keep it up.

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GEERACE 7/12/2010 12:48AM

    Go' Head

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SHAYGETSFIT 6/28/2010 2:40PM

    GET IT GIRL!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!

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MRSRUBLE 6/26/2010 7:18AM

    That is awesome, you do you and enjoy it!

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LDY_ALI_79 6/23/2010 10:18PM

    emoticon companionship is good! You are looking fabulous! Keep up the good work & I'm happy you suggest to your new friend to get active with you instead of the dinner dates, I'm sure it will save him some money too! emoticon

Take care~

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 6/23/2010 9:51PM

    Keep Smiling!!! I like your honesty! Have fun

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MOCACHOC 6/23/2010 11:32AM

    Honesty is the best policy my granma always woould say. You are doing what you need to do and eventually it will be kicked into high gear.

Peace and Love

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MASONK 6/23/2010 10:51AM

    Congratulations, don't give up and by all means, KEEP SMILING!!!

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CAMANDMAYASMOM 6/23/2010 10:08AM

    Well good for you, that you have a nice gentleman "courting" you! And that's great that you're giddy!! Isn't that a GREAT feeling! Good luck!
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And you know what you're able to do as far as eating right and working out, because you've done all the right things to get where you are today! although your work outs don't seem to be too bad. Just maybe not as intense as you're used to doing, BUT you're still moving a few days a week!
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2008LYNN 6/22/2010 10:20PM

  There must be some kind of Spark virus going around because several of us are currently on this sorta kinda doing our program thing. I've even gained a few. Enjoy the guy, keep your focus and get back down to business. I'm talking to myself and you.

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CWYNN01 6/22/2010 8:05PM

    WOW glad you found a great guy b/c you are a beautiful woman!! You are worthy of having a great man & I know your daughters must be soooooo proud of you Diva!! Keep up the great job Diva!! Make those dates to go walking at a park together, or do what me my sweetie do- we go walking around the park about 4 times & talk after we eat dinner...LOL.. I am happy for you! emoticon

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KLS777 6/22/2010 7:47PM

    Great attitude! Sounds like you are very happy, enjoy the ride of life!

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LOSETONEED 6/22/2010 7:08PM

    Yea for you! Keep up the good work.
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LORENVER 6/22/2010 4:59PM

    That's great. I'm glad you found a companion. If you could make it a work out companion that would be even better!

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OMG, Not Even Perimenopause Can Stop Me!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Hi my SparkPeople! Good news, bad news, and OMG news!!! Let me tell the bad news before the good then finish off with the OMG news. BAD=May has NOT been my month. I haven't been exercising or eating like I know I should. GOOD=Thankfully, I haven't gained any weight. As a matter of a fact, I've continued to lose weight but inches lost have slowed. Luckily, I know why.

BAD=Also, my hot flashes are back. GRRRRRR!!! Oh how I hate them! I guess I could be perimenopausal. I'm 37 years old which, according to my limited research, is in the age range of the onset of perimenopause. I also read that exercise can offset the symptoms of perimenopause and that by exercising for 30 minutes or more on 3-4 days per week, I can reduce these symptoms. Guess what? When I was exercising regularly, the hot flashes went away. Yet, this month as my exercising has slowed almost to a halt, they are back with a vengeance. So, I know I need to get my butt back in gear and I will!!! My oldest daughter paid my gym membership for June as my Mother's Day gift. Kinda sweet, huh? She has her moments. LOL.

Okay, now on to the OMG news!!! On my lunchbreak today, I went to the mall to try on some summer dresses. I can fit into some size 10 dresses!!! Do you understand me??? Size 10s!!! That's my goal size!!! Now, the size 10 was snug...although I've seen some people strut in dresses that were as tight or tighter. The point is that I can actually fit into a size 10 dress, zip it up and everything!!! WoW!!! I am so close to where I want to be!!! My body won't stop even if my mind signed off for a short time period. My body is telling me that I've come to far to give up now!!! That's why I've continue to lose weight despite my laziness and nonchalance with making better food choices. The reasons for me to press on and continue my healthy lifestyle outweigh the reasons that I could think of to give up so I'm still hanging in here. Who knows??? Size 10s might eventually be too big for me. LOL.

  
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SPARKLE1908 6/2/2010 8:51AM

    That's wonderful...size 10...you better work it!!!!

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MRSBLAK27 5/29/2010 10:17PM

  So proud of you my SP sister....and thank you for continuing to have my back.

melissa

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SHAYGETSFIT 5/29/2010 7:47PM

    Can I get a What What!!!!!!! You go girl!!!

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LDY_ALI_79 5/28/2010 10:56PM

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That's fantastic news!

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MASONK 5/28/2010 12:19PM

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/27/2010 7:56PM

    WOWW WEEEEE!!!! Get it girl!!

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WORKINGITNANA 5/27/2010 7:46PM

    Way to go,a size to great job and keep up your work. We all get lazy at time and that's okay now go buy that dress and place it where you can see it and Monday you will have it on and right, sound like its just a few inch to me.
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REINVENT_ME 5/27/2010 6:42PM

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2008LYNN 5/27/2010 5:38PM

  I feel for you on the perimenopause, it can be rough and then comes the real menopause. The only good thing about it is when the periods finally stop.
You'll get back on your program, make adjustments when needed and 10s will be falling off of you.

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SEXYSIZE_12 5/27/2010 4:24PM

    You rock and you're right by the time you reach goal you will be smaller than those 10's so keep up the great work, you more than deserve this.Your persistence, determination and commitment has paid off regardless to the moments of laziness and nonchalance you've progressed, I get that way sometimes myself. The point is you push through it and success is yours :o) emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MGRIFFITH32 5/27/2010 3:28PM

    Girl...it zipped! That counts! LOL You might not be able to wear it Memorial Day, but by the 4th, you're going to be sporting 10s everywhere!

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CAMANDMAYASMOM 5/27/2010 3:28PM

    emoticon. That's awesome Linn about the size 10's!!! I know that had to be a GREAT feeling!

And we all have those moments of getting a little lax with the eating/exercising...but as long as we get back in the game, we're GOOD! And you are so good, especially since you still lost weight!!

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and that was very sweet of your daughter to pay your June membership...aaww!! :-)

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Learning As I Go

Monday, May 17, 2010

Hi my SparkPeople! I'm pleased to say that the scale seems to be my friend, at least for right now. I'm down to 184! I can hardly believe it! I'm so close to 50 pounds lost...just 4 more pounds to lose. I know that I can definitely do this! 46 pounds is HUGE!!! I feel so good about my weight loss so far. I'm really doing this this time, despite the days when I feel wiped out. I'm continuously learning as I take this weight loss journey that it's an ongoing process with ups and downs.

Another lesson I've learned is to cut myself some slack. When it comes to losing weight I am guilty of setting myself up for failure. I've told myself that I wanted to lose "X" pounds in "X" amount of time and when I didn't meet that goal, I got frustrated, depressed, and ultimately fell back into the same bad habits that contributed to my weight gain. I'm trying to get better with that. I am trying to recognize that I can have goals but that nothing is absolute. One pound loss in 2 weeks is NOT the end of the world. A pound gained does NOT mean that I'm doomed.

I'm learning to appreciate my strengths and work around my weaknesses. I can do this! I am doing this! Thanks for all your support SP!

  
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LIMPY4LIFE 5/27/2010 12:38PM

    50lbs is meant to be celebrated....your making strides and that's key....continue to stay focused on your ultimate goal, a healthier happier you!!!
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CLEE2830 5/26/2010 6:38PM

    Great job!

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SEXYSIZE_12 5/24/2010 2:55AM

    Congrats your doing so great and yes you can do it, you'll be officially 50 pounds less of you before you know it. Keep at it you rock Linnlat :o) emoticon

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ITSAWRAP_DIMI 5/23/2010 10:38AM

    I am late reading this but it was exactly what I needed to read today. Keep up the good work and any work towards the goal is GOOD!!

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TIM.WILLIAMS89 5/22/2010 10:31PM

    Well spoken, Linn.

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SHAYGETSFIT 5/20/2010 11:04AM

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MASONK 5/20/2010 8:48AM

    50 pounds...Wow that's a big deal by anybody's standards.

I too would set myself up for failure by setting weight loss goals that I knew deep down I wouldn't reach. I've realized over the last few months that eating better and exercise is my LIFE and there's no need to hurry it along. Weight loss is the end results of living better.

You're doing awesome; you truly inspire me.

Kathy


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CAMANDMAYASMOM 5/18/2010 9:55AM

    emoticon for posting this blog. You are so on point! I've had to learn the same things, so that I don't fall back into the same self sabotaging traps that I've fallen into in the past! This blog just reiterated what I've been trying to tell myself!
Good for you for realizing this!
And Congrats on being only 4 lbs away from losing 50 lbs!! that is a HUGE accomplishment!
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QUANNA76 5/18/2010 1:41AM

    that is awesome keep up the good work

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2008LYNN 5/17/2010 10:28PM

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Now that's clear thinking!

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TAYLORLIV31 5/17/2010 8:49PM

    Your input on your experience is exactly what I needed to hear. Sometimes we get so caught up in what we don't see, we just quit the whole process. After seeing your success you have proved that it is doable with hard work. I'm going to continue to hang in there and try to be like you when I grow up.

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WEIGHTOSUCCESS 5/17/2010 6:57PM

    Thanks for posting this blog it really hit home for me . I was sitting here feeling sorry for myself; thinking how surgery has set me back and how i'm not going to meet my goal by August yada..yada..yada.... We have to learn to celebrate all victories. Congrats to you on your weight loss emoticon emoticon emoticon You are a phenomenal woman!!!

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SPARKROZ 5/17/2010 5:23PM

    Thanks for the reminder that if I don't meet a specific goal at a specific time, all is NOT lost. GREAT BLOG!!!!

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ALWAYSCHANGING 5/17/2010 3:56PM

    I had to hear this today, I have been one of those people that lament on the 'only a pound loss' and instead I should be thinking that's one more pound towards my goal. Thanks girl for putting thoughts like this in perspective and getting me on the right train of thought! Congrats to you on all of your success! That is indeed a huge accomplishment, you've worked hard and it shows!!!

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9 Months Clean Blew Up in My Mouth!!!

Friday, May 07, 2010

Hi my SparkPeople! I rededicated myself to my quest for a healthier lifestyle and a lower body weight at the end of July 2009. The 2 things that I had to give up completely were Pepsis and honeybuns b/c they were and still are my addictions. I was eating 2 or 3 honeybuns a day and drinking at least a 20 oz. Pepsi per day. I stopped going to gas stations b/c that's where I always fell weak and bought them. Well, this morning I stopped by the gas station and bought a honeybun and a grape soda. I ate the whole honeybun & I drank half of the soda.

I knew that I was messing up and I still did it. Why did I do this? I hadn't eaten a honeybun since late July 2009, 9 months ago. I can't go back down this road. I've come too far. I must stop this now before one honeybun becomes 2 then 3 then back to a daily habit. I'm disappointed in myself. My whole mindset has been off for a couple of weeks now which lead me to this breaking point. I have got to get back on the wagon! I haven't been exercising as much as I should. I've been eating out much more than I should. It's like I'm sabotaging myself. Oddly enough, my weight is still coming down slowly. It's like I'm being given a break but I know that unless I do what I need to do, I'll start to gain the weight back and then I'll get depressed then I'll be right back at square 1. NO WAY!

There's a 5K next weekend and I'm signing up for it. Though I haven't been training like I had in the past, I'm going to do it. If my time is slower, that's okay, at least I will be back in the game. Also, now that I'm out of college for the summer, I have more free time. I will get a plan of action together for exercise right after work. I know what to do and I'll do it! Damn those blasted honeybuns! They won't beat me!

So here I am...I fell down but I'm getting right back up! Your support is really needed right now. Thanks SP friends.

  
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MRSSONGBIRD 5/16/2010 8:20PM

    Hang in there, I know what you are going through I've been there and I failed. just want to let you know that you encourage me. You have already lost 45lbs, so you can do it.
Maby you need to fit a sweet into your calories for the day once in a while. One way you can do that is to eat some protein first which will help you stay with the serving size(and that honey bun from the gas station is I'm sure about 2 servings) and then drink a glass of water after to get the sweet taste out of your mouth. This should take care of your sweet craving without destroying the rest of your day.
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NEECHEE144 5/15/2010 8:05PM

    Hi Girl

Careful with the word choices.."should" or "shouldn't" those are words that set up for judgements. When I am in judgement of myself all the negatives feeling coming flooding in which fuels the negative actions and choices I make.

Forgiveness and unconditional love are the tools we need to do this journey. Yes you ate the honeybun...and yes you are still on the journey of self discovery. Remember its all about progress not perfection.

Take Care

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SHAYGETSFIT 5/13/2010 12:29PM

    sometimes you need to give yourself a little wiggle room. Peanut butter cups are my weaknesses.

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RINAKING 5/11/2010 10:23PM

    Take it from me...you don't want to go down that road...been there and now I starting back at square one...it's not fun and I'm just coming back out of my "funk" I've been in for I don't know how long...get it back together...I was just looking at your pictures and saying how much of a great job you are doing...honeybuns are not worth it!!

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QUANNA76 5/8/2010 8:17AM

    We fall down but we get up. So know that you have my support. emoticon

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WEIGHTOSUCCESS 5/7/2010 9:27PM

    girl... your human. We all mess up, we all make mistakes and we all definately make bad choices. This is a learning process. No need to kick yourself for slipping just get up brush yourself off and keep on moving. Let the past be the past tomorrow is another day and another day to make better choices ;-) You're awesome and you will be just fine. emoticon Good luck with your 5k I so wish I could have done mine but no exercise for 8 weeks so i'll probably need your shoulder for support. Be strong my friend and be of good courage.

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CHARIZMA207 5/7/2010 7:58PM

    I've been having the same kind of issues, so I know what you're going through. I felt really down when I had that first burger and fries after avoiding it for weeks. I didn't even make it 3 months. It's a very disappointing feeling, like you won't ever be able to keep this weight off. But, here's the bright side, you only had one honeybun. The devil is in not making it a daily or even several times weekly habit. One slip won't derail your progress. We're here with you. Feel better. emoticon

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INSPIREDD11 5/7/2010 10:11AM

    I've found that giving myself the okay to have my favorite treat (in moderation) is key to sticking to my overall fitness goals. The hard part is believing in yourself that if you say you're going to allow yourself one treat a week, you stick to that goal.

I know it's hard to train yourself to stop after just one when you have a compulsive personality, but it's part of healing and teaching yourself that its perfectly okay to eat right 80% of the time and allow 20% in rewards and treats.

It may not work for everyone this way but I can say from experience that I used to have the same mentality... the all or nothing approach and in the long run, if we can't condition ourselves to allow for the little happinesses in life, what's the point ?

This weight loss/fitness journey is supposed to be fun! It's okay to allow yourself a honey bun sometimes. And sometimes, it's just the motivation you need to push yourself on the days when you've decided eating one is not allowed. If you know your treat is just around the corner, you may push yourself harder in an effort to feel like you truly deserve it!

Good luck to you with whichever way you go. I will be rooting for you!!

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KITKA82 5/7/2010 10:04AM

    I think you are doing a great job at getting refocused. It's amazing to me that you were able to give up honeybuns and Pepsi for 9 months! And even when you had some, you only ate one honeybun instead of 2 or 3, and drank half a Pepsi! I think that's progress right there! That said, maybe you can find a healthier snack that tastes similar and leaves you satisfied. For instance, I LOVE ice cream and used to eat it every other day. Now, I can satisfy that craving with fat free fro-yo, greek yogurt with honey, or even a small glass of chocolate milk.

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CAMANDMAYASMOM 5/7/2010 9:39AM

    I've been where you were many times, with the self-sabotaging, so I know what you're feeling, and I hadn't had nearly the success that you've had up to this point. And that's actually what has always caused me to "fall off the wagon", as they say. But you have proven to yourself how strong of a woman you are...by coming so far on your journey to lose the weight. You're already a success story...just think back on all that you've accomplished, and don't let one honeybun and 1/2 soda take that away from you...you ARE human, just like the rest of us. Just as long as you do what you said ("I fell down but I'm getting right back up!"), you will be just FINE!! :-)
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EMREYNOLDS 5/7/2010 8:51AM

    I am going to give you the same advice that you would give any of us - don't beat yourself up over one small mistake, just get back on the wagon now. Celebrate the fact that you only had ONE honeybun, and only HALF of that grape soda - that is a testament to the progress you have made!

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KRESONNA_SUE 5/7/2010 8:36AM

    What happened a couple of weeks ago that has triggered this fall from your program. That is when it started. Look at it. To pull it back up, force yourself with all the strength you have to stay clean on your program. You have the stength to face the demons within which is where all problems lie.

It could simply have been too much success and you needed self-punishment? It could have been a combination.



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18 by 38!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Hi my SparkPeople! The weekend is over and so April will soon follow. I am not where I wanted to be with my weight loss results but I'm not that far off either. I won't weigh again until April 30th and I'm unsure of what the results will be. I believe that I will have lost some weight but I'm not certain how much...maybe a pound or maybe even two. We'll see!

I will be 38 years old on August 28th. I'd love to be at 170 pounds by then. That would require me to lose 18 pounds by my 38th birthday. I think that is a realistic goal. I wonder how I'll look at 170. I think my clothing size will probably be size 10 at that point...definitely some size 10s and maybe some size 12s. Setting goals is very important to me as I take this weight loss journey. I have to set the bar high and reach for it. This keeps me on my toes! Even if I'm not at 170 by then, I am sure that I will have lost some more weight because I'm not giving up! This weight won't win!

I'm going to be a sexy 38 year old mama...oops, I already am, sexy that is..how about saying I'll be "sexier"? The power of positive thinking is AWESOME! LOL. emoticon

  
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LIMPY4LIFE 5/4/2010 11:35AM

    You got this in the BAG!!!! emoticon

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MRSBLAK27 5/3/2010 8:02PM

  I think you'll probably exceed you goals because your soooo determined now and on a roll.

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SPARKROZ 5/3/2010 4:17PM

    You are toooooo cute!!! Get it gurl!!!! emoticon

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CAMANDMAYASMOM 4/28/2010 11:25AM

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QUANNA76 4/27/2010 10:02AM

    Keep up the good work I must get to that point.

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JOKNOWS 4/27/2010 12:36AM

    emoticonThat's just a little over 4 pounds a month and yes, you can do it!

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ANGELAT125 4/26/2010 8:15PM

    sexier is the way to say it! You can do it, you can do anything you put your mind to!!

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PRETTYBLKGYRL 4/26/2010 7:02PM

    GET IT GIRL - getting sexier is the best goal I've read on SP so far!!! emoticon

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SHAYGETSFIT 4/26/2010 6:44PM

    Yes you will hot mama!!

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