Saturday, March 31, 2007
I am not making great strides to lose the weight i so desperately want to lose. I knew my weight was creeping up, stress over work and junk food helped do that. I want to be the fit, not out of breath after running, healthy looking woman, and not afraid people are always looking at me. I shouldn't be like that because after all, I look at people the same way they look at me-questioning, idealizing. Today I have eaten junk with little exercise. I indoor walked on the spot for about 30 minutes to an upbeat CD, but dont feel like it actually did anything, even though I know it was better then doing nothing at all. Breakfast started good with a scrambled egg and toast and of course milk (it is my caffeine). Lunch consisted of one of those Stouffers Bistros, and supper consisted of 4 tacos, and I couldve eaten more. I had milk then too. Then I popped popcorn, added butter and a diet pepsi. Oh ya, don't forget the chocolate I ate, two hershey miniatures, and three hershey peanut butter miniatures. Giving up chocolate would be hard. It is in the house right now because of Easter but I can't get rid of it. I just need to stop from buying it, or just do single bars once in a while as a treat, not as a stress reliever.