Saturday, September 08, 2012
I can't believe it's already September! The summer flew by. My new kids seem pretty good so far, so I'm excited to have a good and productive school year.
As for progress weight loss wise, I've been hovering in the mid-upper 150's for the past few weeks. I've stayed in my calorie ranges and worked out 4 times a week and still the scale hasn't moved consistently. I've added extra cardio into my workouts to see if that might help. I also started the Spartan workout with my trainer, that is intense! Apparently it's the same workout the actors from the movie 300 used to get in shape.
According to my BodyMedia armband, every day I'm burning roughly 2200-2400 calories, and I'm eating around 1300-1500 a day. Maybe I'm not eating enough? Honestly it scares me to add more calories. It's a slippery slope for me, and I worry that if I add in another 1-200 calories, it will quickly become another 5-600, which will then lead to me giving up and not worrying about it. I've come too far to let that happen!
Anyway, perhaps I can visually see a difference from the past month. This was me in the beginning of August at a Reds game:
And here I am out with a friend on Wednesday night. This is almost exactly a month later:
I can see a LITTLE bit of difference. My face looks somewhat thinner. I guess I need to start tweaking things a little bit more to find the balance that works for me. It's frustrating because I feel like I've been doing the right things. Maybe it'll just take time, who knows.
Alright, it's time for me to get ready for the football game. Looks like it's going to be a wet one!
Saturday, August 04, 2012
I've been up at 6 this morning because my cable box decided it was a good time to start buzzing really loud over and over again. What's going on with that? It wasn't even turned on! So I went to dinner with a friend of mine last night. We wound up at a bar and grill and I had waaaaay too much fried food. We started with the sampler appetizer and I had a few onion rings, a potato skin and 2 fried cheese sticks.
For dinner I, being of the mindset that I was having a "cheat meal", ordered the mini sliders and fries. After my chowing down on our appetizer, I got through one slider and a few fries and felt stuffed. Over the course of the night I wound up eating 2 of the 4 mini burgers and some fries. Oh, and a few drinks too.
But let me tell you. When I got home, I felt like CRAP. My stomach hurt, I was bloated, and I couldn't even fall asleep because I was so uncomfortable. Now this morning I'm up a couple pounds on the scale, I have an uncomfortable feeling in my tummy and an all around feeling of blech. I KNOW I didn't have 7,000 extra calories and that much of the weight is water from the salt and alcohol, but it's a bad feeling to know that one night can make that much of a difference. I could've gone out, ordered grilled chicken or a salad, or even just skipped the appetizer and had one drink instead of four and I would've had just as much fun as I did with all the extra crap I put into my body.
I wouldn't call what I did last night a binge. Poor decision making yes, but I surely paid for it and still am today. I'm writing this blog as a reminder of how eating like that made me feel, in the hopes that the next time I start thinking about doing it, I can read it and make a better choice. I will say I'm proud of myself for stopping at 2 burgers and maybe 1/4 of my fries. It just didn't taste good anymore.
I'm hoping that with getting back on track today and drinking lots of water, I'll get rid of those couple extra pounds by Sunday. That's my big weigh in at the gym. I'd LOVE to see the 150's by next week sometime. I was 160.8 pounds yesterday morning. So close and I'm kind of starting to see a difference! Went to a Reds game with my ex boyfriend. We dated all through college and broke up and now are really good friends.
Can't see much of a difference here. Working hard on my farmer's tan at the stadium! We had awesome seats.
But this picture...hello, collar bones! I don't think they were that prominent before.
Alright, I'm going to go drink a few gallons of water and hope I can pee out some of this salt. Lovely.
Saturday, July 28, 2012
I had some Best Buy reward certificates that were about to expire and I used them to buy one of these armbands. I am excited to see how many calories it says I burn in a typical day! It tracks sleep patterns too. No idea how a little armband can do so much, but hey we'll see. Having some issues getting it to sync with my phone though. It'll connect to the bluetooth but it won't recognize it in the app. Nooo idea how to get that to work.
Otherwise, it's been a good weekend so far. Got a haircut yesterday and had a mani/pedi today. I needed that! Tonight is a relaxing night in, I'm going to start watching Dexter. I'm borrowing it from the guy I'm kinda sorta (??) seeing right now. He highly recommended it.
Back to the gym tomorrow, my friend Emiley will be joining me for the first time, I love bringing new people to my workouts with my trainer! I hope she sticks with it.
Thursday, July 26, 2012
So my trainer and I have embarked on a little experiment. We're doing a 10-day cleanse. It's healthy...no fasting or anything, just a lot of fruits and veggies and lean protein. Then once a day you have a fiber drink (yuck) and take cleansing tablets at night. I'm usually pretty skeptical about things like this, but hey it's worth a shot! Even if the cleanse itself doesn't do much, I'm sure this eating plan will definitely show results on the scale.
The past few days I've really been on track. Had great workouts and have been eating fairly well. I even ran a mile this morning for the first time in months! I'm not a big runner, so even getting out of the house to run is a big step. I'm hoping this is going to become a habit for me, as for the past few months I've been pretty sedentary and not eating so well. That HAS to change!
Tonight I'm making dinner for a guy I've been kind of seeing for the past month-6 weeks. It should be interesting. He's a vet in his last year of residency to become a surgeon, so he's SUPER busy and in the time that I've known him we've only seen each other 4 or 5 times. And really outside of a drunken makeout at 5am after a party we haven't really even kissed each other. The other night we started talking about things and apparently he thinks I'm hard to read. That's not the first time I've heard that. Hopefully I've set him straight though. He did say he's used to the girl being the aggressive one relationship wise, and that's just not how I roll. I think we've come to an understanding and he did say that he could see himself in a relationship with me, which definitely made me smile. Hopefully tonight will be more telling since we've had a couple good discussions.
Of course this puts me right back in self-conscious mode. He's in AMAZING shape. Pretty sure he's got a 6-pack, which...yeah, I'm not even CLOSE to that kind of shape. I keep telling myself that I'm not pretty enough, not in shape enough, not skinny enough. That self-talk needs to stop. If he thought I was any of those things he wouldn't be talking to me still, right? :) Just have to keep reminding myself I am NOT the girl I was 3.5 years ago. That girl would hide from any and all male attention. That's my first instinct, to shut down and push him away because there's no way that a guy like him would like a girl like me, right?
Wrong. I have to start seeing myself in a different light. I am pretty. I am in somewhat decent shape and getting stronger every day. I may not be skinny, but let's face it, I'm never going to be skinny. I'd rather be lean and strong than skinny any day, and I'm well on my way to that as well. So my negative self-talk can shove it. It's time to give it up and start telling myself I am worth it.
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