Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Ok I need a good kick in the butt or something! I'm on round 2 of 17 day diet and on cycle 3...round 2 has not been good. Haven't really lost much weight this round. I know I can chalk it up to health issues throwing me off track but have to blame myself for not getting back on track after that. Although I am pretty good on the diet I have cheated...but still can't seem to get back into my routine of lemon water, water and exercise like i was doing.
I'm feeling very "blah"....that's the best way I can describe it. My work has been stressful, 19 yr old daughter has been having some issues which requires my suppport. I feel like all I do is work my 40 hr week, walk the dog, clean the house and run errands. I haven't really done much for me. I've been a single mom for a very long time, i was in another relationship until about 1 1/2 yrs ago and it was a very unhealthy relationship. Since then I have found out even more how unhealthy it was (full of lies etc). I've beat myself up about this lately. I'm feeling lonely but dont' get out and do alot. I knwo this is conritubing to my "blah" mood. Which in turn causes me to not push myself to do the best on the diet that I can. I've got to find my motivation again. I tend to always put everyone else first and know i need to do more for me. I'm feeling run down, not able to sleep very well, lower energy etc. When i first started the 17 day diet I couldnt' believe how well I felt..I slept better, had lots of energy, no headaches etc. I'm thinking of just starting everything over again and trying to get totally back on track cause I know this is the diet for me (good thing is I'm still down about 25 lbs). I never have gained and continue to lose but just very small amounts.
I'm on vacation next week, we aren't going very far, just a couple day trips so I'm hoping having some free time and being able to just relax will help.
Time for a good kick in the butt, cyc le 1 and reread the book....and of course continue to read posts and blogs on spark which are always a great inspiration.
here's hoping i can get my butt in gear again!!!