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Sunday Daughter update

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Yesterday I was back in Silver City for the day and slept in my own bed Friday night and last night which was so nice. I'm getting ready to head back to Las Cruces now. Talked to Steph on the phone several times yesterday. They took the 2nd chest tube out and were going to move her out of ICU to a regular room yesterday. So hopefully still on target for the estimated discharge by doctor a few days ago of tomorrow. She still has a lot of pain and was depressed a couple of times she called me but overall making progress. She'll be glad to have me back down there today I know.
Storm moving in again and our home area is supposed to get snow again tonight. I had heard predictions that this was going to be a dry winter but so far that hasn't happened. We've had a lot of rain and some snow the past couple of weeks. Rain is forecast today turning to snow tonight. Hopefully if she gets out tomorrow by the time she is ready to leave roads will be clear. She's so anxious to get back home and see her kids.
I did not get in the exercise I had hoped to yesterday. I just had a lot of things to do and got really tired because I'm still fighting off some of the effects of the cold I caught last Friday and have been battling all week. It's better but not completely gone. Felt good in the morning but by afternoon was dragging. Or maybe it's also cumulative effects of a very draining week emotionally and mentally. Anyway I can't wait to get back to some normalcy including getting regular exercise and doing much better with me eating than I've been doing the past 2 weeks with work trips out of town and then this.
Thanks again for all your support. Your support has really helped keep me strong!

  
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MOM4407 12/19/2011 6:26PM

    One day at a time. With the help of good hospital staff, you and God your daughter will be getting better.
Take care of yourself so you can be strong for her.

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LKWQUILTER 12/19/2011 5:57AM

    So glad that she is still improving. ((HUGS)) and take care of you too.

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DESERTDREAMERS 12/18/2011 10:10PM

    Linda, please take care of yourself. Glad to hear Steph is getting out of ICU emoticon

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-WISPY- 12/18/2011 8:34PM

    Way to go Linda, so hoping everything will go according to plan and you will both be home in a couple of days at the latest. So pleased she is getting on well and will be out of ICU.
No wonder you are tired, its been a very draining time physically and emotionally what with this and then having to get back home for a couple of days and now back again to the hospital. Steph is so blessed to have you for a Mom.

Love Wispy.

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TRILLIUM22 12/18/2011 6:22PM

    So glad to hear your daughter is getting better. Hope the discharge goes as planned. It will be nice for her to be out of the hospital for Christmas. emoticon

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LIVE2RUN4LIFE 12/18/2011 12:58PM

    I'm glad to hear that all is progressing well!
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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 12/18/2011 11:28AM

    I'm so glad you're getting back to Las Cruces, although I can totally understand how good it must have felt to sleep at home. I can't help but remember all the times my dad was in the hospital - it's emotionally wrenching, physically taxing and completely disrupts everything when a family member is so sick!

Good news that the tube is out and she's moving to a regular room - one step closer to going home! But I think it's important for her to stay as long as she needs to reach a point where it's safe to come home. I'd be surprised if she wasn't a little depressed after such major physical trauma, all the pain and being separated from her kids - I really hope she gets through this phase quickly but don't be surprised if she continues to be depressed for awhile. When I've gone thru major physical stuff, I tend to have depression until my body can get totally back to normal. That may take her awhile, even though she is pretty young - of course, I'm sure you know to make sure she gets acidophilus and other probiotics as soon as she can because all those antibiotics mess up our intestinal systems - anyway, so glad things are starting to get better and wish all of you the best. Be careful on the road, take care of yourself as much as possible and keep telling yourself "This too shall pass."
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STRINGI719 12/18/2011 11:00AM

    It'll be so nice for her to be in a regular room and be able to have more movement and freedom. Hope she's doing better today. Drive safely and keep on taking care of yourself.
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NEWRUNNINGSHOES 12/18/2011 10:15AM

    So sorry to hear about your daughter but glad she is getting better and will be home to her kids soon.

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Saturday's update on daughter

Saturday, December 17, 2011

I came back to Silver City last night because there are a few things I have to take care of here. I'm going back to Las Cruces early tomorrow morning. Yesterday they took one of the chest tubes out of her and she still has one in. Hopefully it will come out today or tomorrow. She is making some progress and was moving around in the room in ICU a little better. Her breathing is not as shallow either which is a good thing. Pain is a little better controlled now. Her doctor told us yesterday morning that once the other tube comes out they will watch her for another day after that then hopefully she can come home. But yesterday afternoon the nurse said they got the culture results of the pus they took out of her lung area and it is a strain that is extremely resistant to even the strongest antibiotics. They said this should not affect her so much because they cleaned it all out but she could be a carrier of this. They have been giving her very strong antibiotics with an IV since the surgery (actually since before surgery since she first went into the hospital last Saturday). But I'm not sure if it's the same antibiotic. She has to continue for about a week on the iv so they are not sure if that will affect her discharge date. She had the surgery late Tuesday and so Monday should be 7 days so maybe it won't affect it much. They will also send her home with oral antibiotics but the first week or something has to be the IV antibiotics. We didn't get to talk to the doctor after that so we don't know for sure. But they now have her on precautions to prevent carrying the bacteria out of her room so anyone going into her room has to put on a gown.
Other than that things are looking better.

After I got home last night I saw the local paper and saw that one of my case management clients died on Thursday which made me very sad. This was a 44 year old woman with Down's Syndrome that had been in the hospital most of the past month. She was also in Las Cruces but in a different hospital. I talked to her sister a week ago, who was taking care of her since their parents died a few years ago and drs weren't sure then whether she would make it or not. She had severe mental disabilities due to the Down's Syndrome and was like a little child. Some Down's kids are higher functioning but she wasn't. She was so sweet though and I really liked her a lot. She had a seizure disorder also. She was very prone to pneumonia because of some lung issues, and in early November had to go into the hospital because of that and was in there almost 2 weeks. She went home a day or two before Thanksgiving but was back in the hospital a few days later here, then flown to Las Cruces. The problem was that the medication to control her seizures was playing havoc with her white blood cell and platelet counts. They tried changing the seizure medication but none were working and she started having severe seizures about every hour, which is what caused her second hospital admission. She went into a coma and was in a coma when I talked to her sister about a week ago. If she got the medication to control the seizures it caused other problems and if she didn't the seizures played havoc with her system. It was just so sad. I wasn't really surprised to see the death notice in the paper but had been hoping she'd pull through. One of the things about working with elderly and disabled is that I lose a lot of my patients. In the past 2 or 3 weeks I've lost 5 for one reason or another like effects of severe alzheimer's, heart disease, etc which is hard but this woman in her 40's is just extra sad to me. Her sister had told me though that even though Rita was in a coma the nurses say she could still here and her sister wanted her to stay but was giving her permission to go also and told her that if she saw their parents it was okay to go to them and be with them. So now she's with them and peaceful now I believe. Her sister has a strong faith in Jesus and although I didn't know the parents I understand they did too.
Okay, enough talking of sad things. Today I have a lot to do before I go back to Las Cruces but also want to get some real exercise in today. I've done a lot of walking this week, although in short increments but am hoping to get some real cardio in. I'd like to go for a run but am not sure yet because weather is very overcast and I still have some chest congestion from a cold I had so I'll see how I feel. And even though I may not get to the gym today I want to get my weights and exercise bands out here and do some strength training which has been missing the past 2 weeks. I've been on the go so much with a trip to Albuquerque for training 2 weeks ago on Thursday through Saturday, then again back to Albuquerque last Friday and Saturday, being sick, and then Steph's hospitalization since last Saturday. So my walks have been several of 10 to 15 minutes at a time this week.
Hope everyone has a great day today. Again, I so appreciate all the support this week I've had from my friends online. It has really made a huge difference to me when I'm away from home and watching my daughter go through all she's gone through. I could get online when feeling down and read comments, encouragements, notes with goodies, comments on friend feed and all the support. I could also read about others that have joys to share or their own personal problems and put things in perspective. The SP community has just been so important to me this week and still is. Continued prayers and thoughts appreciated on her road to recovery which will take a while even when she gets out of the hospital.

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Below is a picture of her incision . Warning you so you don't have to look if you don't want to. The procedure is called a thoracotomy for those of you who are nurses or others with medical knowledge. The nurses, doctor, and anesthesiologist were all surprised that she had to have this done at only 28 years old because most often it is something that has to be done in much older patients with a lifetime of heavy smoking or other major health issues to their lungs. Not sure what set all of this off in her case. Pneumonia with a bacterial infection in a strange location in lungs and some scar tissue from something, maybe the infection I don't know, that caused part of lung or outer lining to be sticking to another part. Not totally clear on that but it had something to do with scar tissue causing something to stick to something.

This is a picture of my baby girl right after the surgery when hooked up to the resperator and all kinds of things. She looks better than that now and has a few less things hooked up to her



This is the picture of her incision I took yesterday after they took the dressing off. Under the bandage below the incision is still where one drainage tube goes into her lung. The incision goes from a little below armpit on left side around towards spine.

  
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LKWQUILTER 12/17/2011 9:14PM

    That is good news Linda Kay. Will continue to pray for all of you and your client's family. I am like some others--children I met/knew when I was younger did not have long lives at all. I met a young boy when I was in high school and remember mama telling me they did not expect him to live past his teens. He died a few years ago and I think he was almost 50 and his long life was considered a miracle by his family.

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 12/17/2011 12:35PM

    PS - it almost 'hurts' to look at the picture of her 'zipper' - yikes!!

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 12/17/2011 12:35PM

    I'm so glad your daughter is getting better - when my dad had some antibiotic-resistant bacteria, they had him on an IV 'cocktail' with a mix of Vancomycin and some other powerful drugs - I'm surprised they will want to release her from ICU without at least a day or two in a regular ward but every hospital does things differently and the ideas change all the time. My mom stayed in the hospital for 2 weeks after giving birth - my sister had a 'drive-thru' visit and took her son home from the delivery room.

Sorry about your patient and don't mean to sound like I'm minimizing the loss but I think most people with Down Syndrome die before age 60 - my friend gave birth to a son with it and they told her 50-60 yrs is average. That's so different than it used to be - I had a friend who was what they called a "Mongoloid" when I was very young and she died when she was 9 yrs old from a heart defect. I think they used to consider those children 'lucky' if they made it to teenage - again, how times have changed! I'm so glad because for some reason, I've always been drawn to Down Syndrome children and young adults - never go tthe chance to know any who were older than mid-20s - and I suppose it's because of my friend when I was around 4-5 yrs old.

I wonder if there is any way to 'skype' between your grandkids and their mother while she's there - I do understand the need to keep children out of ICU - one doctor I know calls kids 'little germ factories,' not in a derogatory way but intended as precautionary for people who have especially weak immune systems.
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NOSTOPPINMENOW 12/17/2011 12:17PM

    I hope your daughter's condition improves everyday so that she can be home soon.

I'm sorry to hear that some of your clients have passed recently, but I guess that kind of comes with the territory and has to be expected. You are such a strong and sweet person doing the work you do. I'm sure your clients think of you as an angel.

It's also pretty amazing that with everything going on you're still thinking about and taking care of your heath. GOOD FOR YOU! Keep it up!

Have a Blessed weekend!
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STRINGI719 12/17/2011 11:42AM

    You are such an inspiration to stay so strong and focused throughout all of this, and to be so consistent about still getting your exercise in, too. I hope you are able to get out and get a great run in today, I know how much it helps you feel better!

Take care - all my love and prayers are with you both.
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LKEITHO 12/17/2011 11:10AM

    Glad to hear your daughter is doing better, but sorry to hear about the death of your case management client. I hope your daughter is home soon!

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Daughter's progress

Friday, December 16, 2011

I'm getting ready to go back up to the hospital in a few minutes this morning. Steph is making slow but steady improvement. The nurse was hopeful that maybe the dr would take out the chest drainage tubes today since there is not much coming out anymore. That would help a lot. Yesterday they changed the dressing while I was there and I saw the incision. She has a 23 cm (over 9.1 inches) long with 6 stitches and 23 staples in it. Plus the other 2 little holes where the drainage tubes go in below the actual incision. They had her on jello and broth day before yesterday and yesterday morning. She kept asking for real food. The nurse talked to the dr and at first he was hesitant because she wasn't eating the broth but the nurse pointed out that the broth is not appealing at all. She would eat the jello. He finally agreed and for lunch she was able to have a regular diet and she ate half a turkey sandwich and some pudding and a few french fries which she had been craving. Dinner she ate a lot. Hopefully getting real food in her will also help her regain her strength. They took the bladder catheter out early yesterday morning. Every tube that comes out makes it just a little more comfortable.
I'm doing okay but I really have to go back to Silver City this evening and I really don't want to go. But I need to go help a little with her kids, get more clean clothes, and a few other things. I'll probably come back here on Sunday unless something changes. I hate so bad to leave her and I know she's going to hate for me to go but I'll see how she's doing today. It's hard to be torn between her needs and needs at home. There was some drama going on between my other daughter and her husband this week too. Nothing new about that. But it adds to the stress because she has Steph's 2 older kids.
I just want so much for things to get back to normal. I haven't even done much Christmas shopping yet and it's coming so fast. It just doesn't feel like it. But I'll get it done. Right now I'm at the hospital all day, come back to the room about 6:30 or 7, and fall asleep watching tv in an hour or two because it's so exhausting to be at the hospital. I see progress but I also see so much pain and we all know how hard it is to see loved ones in pain, especially your kids even when they are 28 years old.
Thanks again so much for all your support, prayers, comments, etc. I appreciate it so very much!

  
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DESERTDREAMERS 12/17/2011 8:04AM

    emoticonGlad Steph is getting better - every tube or drain out is a step closer to home! Take care of yourself, too.

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LKWQUILTER 12/17/2011 6:40AM

    Will continue to pray Linda Kay. ((HUGS))

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KNITTOBETHIN 12/16/2011 11:18PM

    I'm so sorry, I got bogged down here abd had no idea all this was going on. Steph is certainly in my prayers as are you tonight. Wish I could something to lighten your load besides pray for your strength and a sucessful recovery for her. Take care of yourself... emoticon

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-WISPY- 12/16/2011 5:22PM

    Still right here with you my friend. What a worry with trouble going on at home as well. I know you will do whatever seems the best thing to you and it will all turn out alright. Your daughters are so blessed to have you Linda. I admire you greatly.

Love Wispy.

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TRILLIUM22 12/16/2011 12:11PM

    Hang in there. Think of you, your daughter and your family. emoticon emoticon

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STRINGI719 12/16/2011 10:58AM

    So happy to hear that she's getting a little better every day. Kids and I are mostly free Saturday if you need anything, and hubby is off on Sunday and Monday, so I can get away if you could use some help or some company.

Take care, and don't hesitate to ask if there's something I can do to help out!
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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 12/16/2011 10:09AM

    That's good news for a change, that Steph is making good progress - I had a medical crisis many years ago that had tubes going everywhere on me [although not into my lungs - yikes] - but I did have a catheter, drainage tubes, 3 IVs and a bunch of stitches and staples - my belly looked like a zipper, haha! But my point is that I know how uncomfortable it is to have stuff sticking in you all the time and how great it feels every time they pull something out, even though it's all relative. I should probably say 'feel less bad' rather than 'feels great,' unfortunately!

I know it's difficult for you to leave but you need a break and so does everyone else - are her kids old enough to visit their mom in the hospital? I suspect the very best "Christmas Present" for everyone will be getting Steph home - I wouldn't worry much about anything else. Wish I was close enough to help you out - in the meantime, sending you more prayers and virtual hugs!
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MARKSTIPANOVSKY 12/16/2011 9:07AM

    Thanks for sharing - good luck with staying focused and reaching your goals...

Will say a little prayer for you and your family...

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Update on daughter

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Yesterday was hard but no real complications. Just watching her in pain. She was supposed to be kept sedated and intubated yesterday and possibly remove intubation today and get her to breathe on her own. But she has a high tolerance for pain meds and woke up from the sedation early yesterday morning, before I got there, and pulled the breathing tube out herself. The drs left it out but we have to keep working with her to breathe deeply enough to make sure she's getting enough oxygen into lungs. Of course she's on oxygen also. Drs warned this is a very painful surgery no matter what they do, and she was in a lot of pain yesterday even with pain meds. She is a sweet girl much of the time but when in pain another side definitely comes out, which I've seen before. But dealing with it at times yesterday was hard. Then she'd get more pain meds and be better for an hour or two and then they would start to wear off again and the cycle would repeat itself. She also was not happy that she can't have real food yet, because she wants some fries. Try to explain to her that anesthesiolog and effects of major surgery throw off the digestive system and they have to start with clear liquids and jello. Explaination did not help a lot. She reminds me a lot of dealing with my mom at the moment when my mom was sick or in severe pain. I do understand but it is still hard. But we got through yesterday and I came back to the motel room and got some sleep last night. Part of me hated to leave her and part of me just wanted to run out of there as fast as I can LOL. I am not the best at taking care of sick people for long even though I have done it a lot. But I do feel so bad for her and just want her to be better and life to get back to "normal" again. I'm getting ready to go up there today in just a little bit. It's almost 6:30 am and I'm drinking coffee and enjoying a little bit more rest time before I go back to sit with her and help. They did get her up into a chair for a couple of hours to help her lungs work. She has tubes out of her chest, a catheter, tubes that go to the things they have on her legs (I forget what the are called) but the inflate some and make sure the blood is being forced to circulate after surgery until she can start walking a little to prevent blood clots. She has a catheter in her bladder, oxygen tubing, and then of course monitors hooked up to her. Such a tangle of tubes and wires!
Yesterday I found out the surgeon who operated was actually off this week but agreed to take her because it was an emergency. He told me he was leaving about noon yesterday and who was covering for him. He has a partner who handles more of the medical side while he handles the surgery and I've met and spoke with his partner several times in the past few days and like him. He was the one who did all the work up before surgery. So I still feel she is in very capable hands but I do so appreciate Dr Khan for doing this even when he was scheduled to be on vacation.
Well time to finish getting ready. Again I so appreciate all the support from you guys. Keep her (and me) in your thoughts and prayers still.

  
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-WISPY- 12/15/2011 11:39PM

    Oh darling, I am so with you both in spirit. What a terrible time you are going through. It is so hard to see our children in pain, no matter the age. I bet she is being a handful as well :o) when the meds wear off. Keep your chin up, loving thoughts and prayers going out to you and your family.

Love wispy.

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LKWQUILTER 12/15/2011 8:07PM

    Praying for you and your daughter Linda Kay. I can't imagine anything like that. Our baby (34) had a tumor removed a couple of years ago and I do know the fear of surgery for one of your babies. Please remember to take care of you so you can deal with her. (((HUGS))) Linda Kay

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STRINGI719 12/15/2011 4:42PM

    Wow, I can't believe she woke up and pulled the tube herself! Which hospital is she at there? You are in our prayers. emoticon

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RUBYJAY 12/15/2011 2:44PM

  I pray for your daughter a speedy recovery,,God Bless You All xx

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DRB13_1 12/15/2011 2:17PM

    Bless you for being there for her...when you are in pain (not to mention being in a hospital away from home!) it is a true comfort to have someone who loves you around, a familiar face, a show of support, and you are that and more. It will be remembered!
Here's to her continued rapid recuperation!
Don't forget to do something good for yourself - you deserve it!

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GETFIT2LIVE 12/15/2011 1:22PM

    I am praying for you and your daughter both; I think it's 100 times harder to see someone we love in pain, especially our children. You are wise to take care of yourself during all this; it will help you AND her so much.

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GOOZLEBEAR 12/15/2011 11:12AM

    Still praying for you and your daughter. Thank you for the update. Stay strong! emoticon

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KARVY09 12/15/2011 10:53AM

    Praying for you and your daughter. Stay strong!

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BECKYANNE1 12/15/2011 9:54AM

    Tell her not to rush foods. When I was told I could have real food, I went all out. Mashed potatoes, meatloaf, etc. and boy did I pay the price. I got really sick. After that I was afraid to eat anything. I went back to liquids for the most part. Alot of it sounds like what I went thru this summer. It's frustrating and it takes time. You hang in there. Things will get better. emoticon

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 12/15/2011 9:54AM

    It sounds like your daughter is recovering well, although the severe pain must be so difficult for you to see! She must be quite a sight with all the tubes - did you take a picture so you can show her later what she went through? She may partially remember it but seeing something like that puts things into a different perspective! I wish her a rapid and complete recovery and wish peace and rest for both of you!
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BUFFYSMOM2 12/15/2011 9:27AM

    God bless you, your daughter and all the people helping you. You must take good care of yourself in order to take care of her. Get your sleep, exercise and try to eat right.
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JOHNSONE4 12/15/2011 8:42AM

    I'll say a prayer for both of you

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My daughter's surgery today

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

I posted a blog a couple of days ago about my daughter's admission to the hospital in our town with pneumonia. She was on a heavy duty IV antiobotic but not getting better and the doctor had the lung specialist take a look at her yesterday. Late yesterday they talked to a thoracic surgeon in Las Cruces (bigger place 2 hours away) who thought she needed a lung surgery that couldn't be done at our hospital. So late yesterday they decided to transfer her down to Las Cruces early today. She left by ambulance at 7 this morning and I followed down just a little later after I helped my other daughter get all the kids off to school. They did another x ray, another CT scan, and an ultrasound and decided she definitely needed surgery. There was puss and fluid between the lining around the outside of the lung and the lung wall. There was a big pocket with several smaller pockets inside that made it impossible to just put a tube in to drain it. It required major surgery late this afternoon to go in and clean it all out. She got out of surgery about 5 this afternoon and it was about 5:30 when I got to see her. She is in the intensive care unit. The doctor told us before the surgery that they would need to have her on a ventilator for a day or two after the surgery because it is a major surgery of the lungs and also creates a lot of pain that might make it hard for her to breathe right afterward, even with pain meds. After the surgery the doctor said it would probably be Tuesday before they take her off the machine breathing for her and that she will probably be in the hospital here for 6 or 7 days. He said he hoped maybe next Monday she could go home (today is Tuesday). Until they are ready to take the tube out they are keeping her sedated to keep her from fighting it. Surgery went well but these are the usual things after this kind of surgery. She also has age going for her since she's only 28. The anesthesiologist said that they do a lot of these types of surgery but usually on people at least 50 or older who have been heavy smokers all their lives and have a lot of other health complications when they do the surgery. So a full recovery is expected. However it is still so scary to see your baby, no matter how old they are (she's actually my next to youngest but they are all still my babies when things happen) having a machine breathing for them and knowing that they expect it will be a week before she can be discharged. In this day when they rush you out of the hospital quickly that seems like such a long time when there aren't additional complications.
I'm at a motel room now because I know I need my rest to be there for her tomorrow when they will be doing more tests and doctors will be checking on her. It's almost 8 pm right now. I feel guilty leaving her but there's nothing I can do for her tonight (except of course pray) and during the years when my mom was alive and had several hospitalizations I learned that I need to take care of myself if I am going to take care of my loved ones. Tomorrow I will be up at the hospital early and camped out all day so I can be there when doctors check in so I can stay updated on what's going on. At least I know I am only about 3 miles away from the hospital if something happened, instead of 2 hours away at home. I could not just leave her here although that puts a lot of burden on my other daughter to take care of Steph's 9 and 11 year old along with her own 3 kids. The 4 year old is with her other grandma but that grandma is not the grandma of the older 2. Fathers of the kids are not in the picture. So anyway we've got it covered and my older daughter Kathy understands and her husband also. I can't stay here until next Monday though so I will have to go back and forth some but for the next couple of days for sure I will be here and see where we go from there.
It's been an exhausting day and very tired. While in the waiting room while she was in surgery I wished I had internet access so I could get online and have connection with my friends here. You all really do mean so much to me although most of you I've never met face to face. I got a lot of comments on my friend feed this morning about my daughter being transferred down here and goodies and thoughts and wishes for me and my daughter. It really means so much to me. Although I've talked on the phone or texted back and forth with my other kids (I have 5 grown kids altogether) I still felt very alone there. I don't remember feeling that way when going through surgeries or other things with my mom but this was different. I am used to be alone and doing things by myself and usually am fine with it. Today it just got to me more. Thank God for cell phones and internet and the modern marvels we have today to be in contact with others.
Well I'm going to get some rest and watch the season finale of the Biggest Loser, if I stay awake that long. Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments, goodies, thoughts, virtual hugs, and prayers.

  
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CHEPRBYTHEDOZN 12/18/2011 2:15PM

    Linda!!! I pray that she's doing well and continues to heal. I just read today's update and had to come back here to read what happened. OMG! Super scary!!! You're right, you gave birth to that baby and she will always be a baby when something out of your control happens.
Prayers for all of you to cope and heal...

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MISTYBLUE716 12/17/2011 7:58AM

    Best wishes for you and your daughter!

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MARIUCCA 12/15/2011 10:12AM

    I'm so sorry that your daughter became so ill that she needed such extensive interventions. It's really shocking and it must have knocked all of you off your feet. I hope that her recovery goes smoothly. You're wise to take care of yourself.

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DANCER71 12/15/2011 7:54AM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, praying for a quick speedy recovery

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DRB13_1 12/15/2011 1:01AM

    emoticon Praying she recuperates well and that no immune disorders underlie her condition. Sending well wishes to all.

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SHERR513 12/14/2011 9:22PM

    God bless you and your daughter emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 12/14/2011 5:13PM

    Life just turns on a dime sometimes. How scary for you and for her. I'm glad to hear that other daughter is taking up the slack with the kids so that you can focus on your baby. My hubby was on a ventilator for 8 days last year & I know how awful it feels to see someone you love, lying there so helpless. It sounds like she is in good hands & hopefully her recovery will be quick. Hugs to you.

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LILPAT3 12/14/2011 1:32PM

    I will be in Cruces on Saturday. Let me know if you need anything or if I can be of assistance to you. emoticon emoticon

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STRINGI719 12/14/2011 8:25AM

    Linda, please let me know if you need something - I'm only an hour away. Also, if you need someplace to crash here in Deming during the next week, let me know. I know you will want to go home to check in with your family, but if you are tired, need a place to stay, or just want to stop and grab some coffee and talk or walk around or something, I am completely available to you. I'll message you my phn# again in case you don't have it handy. You and Steph will be in my prayers.
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MIZCATHI 12/14/2011 6:40AM

    Oh my gosh, this is the first I'm hearing about this. I know how hard this was for you, the torture of waiting and being so helpless. I am sending hugs your way and my thoughts and prayers are with you and yours. How precious life is. Yes, you must take care of yourself and rest so that you can be there for your child. Hang tough.

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PJSTIME 12/14/2011 6:31AM

    I am so sorry to hear about your daughter, but glad the surgery went so well. You already said you know you have to take care of yourself so be sure and do that. We are all saying prayers for a speedy recovery and for you to have the strength you need in caring for your family and yourself.

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JULIA_RUN2SMILE 12/14/2011 1:03AM

    emoticon emoticon.. I will pray for your family. Make sure you get some rest too... Hope she recover very soon so she could be home for X-mas! Thinking of you.

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-WISPY- 12/13/2011 11:58PM

    Hey sweetheart. Loving thoughts and prayers going out to you all, especially your daughter.

Love Wispy.

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TAFODIL24 12/13/2011 11:40PM

    she is in my thoughts & prayers emoticon

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DESERTDREAMERS 12/13/2011 11:20PM

    OMG, Linda - I hope and pray your daughter does well. The year is just piling on more stressers, isn't it? emoticon

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 12/13/2011 11:09PM

    I am so so so very sorry to hear about all of this - and Holy Canoli, that's quite a major surgery! Whew! I know it's gotta be super-hard for you to watch all of this and know there's really nothing much you can do other than just being nearby and letting us know so we can join you in praying for her! I wish her a rapid and total recovery and wish you a good rest, even though I know you probably won't sleep well until she's completely recovered! Thanks for keeping us posted!!
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SHOSHANADP 12/13/2011 10:43PM

    I hope she has a complete and speedy recovery.

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GOOZLEBEAR 12/13/2011 10:26PM

    I'm just now getting on tonight and so I'm late in reading the latest on your DD. I know it is hard to see her going through this. I will be praying for you both. Sending many hugs also.

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