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Getting back on track

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I'm slowly recovering from the holiday weekend. I ate too much on Thanksgiving and Friday. I ran on Thanksgiving and went to aerobics classes on Friday but then Saturday, Sunday, and Monday I couldn't get myself moving at all. I was so tired and yesterday I just didn't feel well at all. But today I went to the gym and spent an hour on the treadmill, including doing week 5 day 1 of the c25k program and some fast walking. Then I did about 20 minutes of stretches and physical therapy exercises. I've also stayed within my calorie range Sunday and yesterday and hoping to make it through today. It's 4 pm so hopefully I will do okay. Just gotta keep telling myself I can do this. My food has not been good for the past several weeks, with more days out of calories than in. Making it through today will be 3 days in a row and that's a great accomplishment for me. I would really really like to get below 160 before New Year's. I have 8 lbs to go. I can do this! I've been stuck bouncing up and down in the mid-160's for over 6 months now. I really want to get this scale going down again and the only way is if I really watch my food intake. I do a lot of exercise so the only thing I can blame is my eating. And only I can change that. I told my daughter (who lives with me) that if she sees me getting into something I should't be eating, like treats for the kids here, to tell me to get out of it. She said, she couldn't do that, it would be rude. I told her if I didn't ask her to do it, then it would be rude, but if I'm asking her to please help me with this then it's not rude it's helping me. She's still having a difficult time with that concept but I keep stressing to her that I need her to help me stay in line. Before they moved in, when it was just my son and me, there weren't many things in the house that I couldn't eat. But after they moved in late last spring there have been more temptations around. At first it didn't bother me but as time has gone on it's gotten easier to grab just a little of this or just a little of that. Gotta stop doing that. The kids are 3, 7 and 10 and although we keep a lot of fruits and healthy snacks, which they do eat, it's hard to eliminate all other stuff from the house. So it's up to me to get serious with myself. There will always be temptations, for the rest of my life. I have to ask myself why those temptations are so tempting to me and look at what's really going on inside. I will allow myself a treat or a splurge meal every once in a while, but I'm going to get the rest of the time back on track. Sometimes I wonder if the fact that I've gotten down into the 160's, which I've only been at once before in my adult life, going below that is totally uncharted territory and I wonder if there is something in me that has to get comfortable with the idea for me to really move on. Which is what I'm ready to do now. Examine what it is that's keeping me from achieving my goals and then going after them.
Tomorrrow starts the Santa Challenge at my gym and I still haven't decided if I'm going to go for it full force for 3 weeks of group classes but I am definitely planning on going after some of it and see how I do. That means 2 classes starting at 9 am tomorrow and then a night group water class. I'm ready for the two morning classes tomorrow anyway. I just hate going out in the cold in the evening! I will have to decide whether I really want to go for the 1st place prize of 4 months free gym membership or just attend some of the classes to shake up my routine which I found last week I needed to do when I was really sore after a couple days trying those classes out. I'll at least get the 6 classes total in 3 weeks to get the free t-shirt! Decisions, decisions. I'll have to get into it and see how my body handles it. Last year it was tough!
Hope everyone is having a great day today!

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STRINGI719 12/1/2010 5:58PM

    I think you can do it again this year! emoticon

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DEVORA4 12/1/2010 6:56AM

  I knew what would happen if I overate and so I didn't. Good luck emoticon

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XENA1956 11/30/2010 10:25PM

    Yeah I over indulged too. I have gotten back on track as of yesterday after being over my calories most of the last couple of weeks. My DH always wants stuff for him and my son that I don't want around. I just have to buck up and not have any. I end up buying Skinny Cow products or something like that so I don't feel left out when they have their hugh bowls of ice cream. I think you are doing great at the gym, I haven't been to my gym since Sept. or maybe the end of Aug. I have been doing my workouts at home or hiking. I am going to kick myself in the butt to get to the gym like you do.

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CYNTHIAMINUS40 11/30/2010 9:16PM

    My husband buys giant boxes of really junky food to have in the house "for our granddaughter." But, alas, we usually eat most of it. It's hard. I understand what you're dealing with. And, like you, I exercise plenty - which feels great - but I eat more calories than my body uses so my weight barely creeps downward. I know there's really wonderful muscle tone under this layer of excess.

All it will take is for your daughter to remind you one time and you to have a "thank you" and a smile and she'll know that it truly is ok to help you keep your eating in check.

Best of luck!

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MIZCATHI 11/30/2010 8:14PM

    What a quandary you are in, but you know you can get there, that's why you're blogging about it. Sometimes I think we stay in a certain weight zone for awhile because it's important to learn how to live with it, even if it's not at goal yet. Compared to sooooo many people, you are really doing quite well, you know that?

Yes, I'm sure it's tougher to have those foods in the house. Sometimes when I want something sweet or creamy, I don't have it because it's not in the house! Maybe your daughter can keep some of this stuff in her room?

You do sound tired mentally, but maybe that challenge is just what you need right now to perk you up.

Just sayin'

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 11/30/2010 8:03PM

    emoticon You continue to amaze me DAILY! Love ya, Dawn emoticon

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PJSTIME 11/30/2010 7:38PM

    I think I could see myself in your blog tonight. I have also been stuck and overate over the Thanksgiving holiday. It seems temptations are much easier to give in to now than they were a year ago when I had started. I am in a weight that I haven't been down to in many many many years and then only for a short time before it went back up again.

Your daughter should not feel like she is being rude she would be helping you especially if you are reaching out to her for the help.

We can and will succeed at this and it will last a lifetime.

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Thanksgiving Turkey Trot

Saturday, November 27, 2010

I've been really busy and haven't had time or energy to post about my 5k on Thanksgiving. I had a good time and was really pleased with my results. I did the 3.1 miles in 38 min 35 seconds, which was a couple of minutes off my last 5k in Albuquerque last month.
This was held in Deming, about an hour from me. I left town about 20 after 6 after grabbing my coffee at the Snappy Mart for the Road. I got there a little before 7:30 and got my race packet. It was cold out there! I can't remember what the temperature was but I think it was around 35 degrees. I know some people run much colder than that but I'm not a cold weather person, nor a hot weather person either. I'm happiest about mid 50's to low 70's. However I don't live in a perfect world. I was just so grateful for my gloves. It was a small local event, with probably two or three hundred people there for the 1 mile kids race the 2 mile walk and the 5k run. It was held at the golf course in Deming and was on dirt paths. It was an out and back race, with turn around points for the kids race, the 2 mile, and the 5k. I walked this one last year in the 2 mile, and as I've said many times before it was my first ever timed event and got me started on the fun of doing timed events.
Also running this year was my friend STRINGI719 and her husband, and a friend of hers named Caroline. We didn't stay together but each went a t our own pace. When Colleen (STRINGI719) and I did the Whole Enchilada 5k in Las Cruces in September she beat me by a couple of minutes. This time I beat her by a couple of minutes. Who knows what will happen next time. We are both newbies at running.
The race raised money to help a local marine U.S. Marine Lance Cpl. Juan Dominguez who was injured in October in Afghanistan and lost both legs above the knees and his right arm at the elbow. Other events have been done to help him also. This event raised $3500 that was presented to his family just before the race started. He's still in the hospital and couldn't be there. They also had a Marine flag for anyone to sign who wanted to and wish him well and thank him for his service. This was very special to me because I have such deep respect and appreciation for our men and women in uniform. They also asked for donations of canned food for the local food bank.
When the race started I took off at a slow paced jog and didn't get caught up in trying to keep up with the pack like I have done at times before. I did have to take walk breaks a number of times, most of them probably 60 to 90 seconds although I didn't time them. Then I went back to my jog. I can see myself improving as I keep working on the c25k program, although I'm only halfway through it and have been taking it slow. I had to laugh after the 3-mile turn around on the way back because there was this young guy probably 18 to 20 years old. He was walking. I slow-jogged past him. I guess it bothered him that this old lady passed him by. He came running up hard and passed me, but a little bit ahead of me he slowed to a walk again. I ended up catching up and jogging past him again. Again he sped up real fast and then dropped to a walk before long. For a third time I passed him. I never saw him pass me after that. On the one hand, I was glad he was out there doing something, even if he had to walk, while on the other hand I think it's sad that at his young age he isn't in better shape, like so many of our young people. I had to laugh though because he kept making the mistake so many do of trying to run too hard and too fast and running out of steam instead of pacing himself. Passing such a young guy was a first for me! There was also this lady that was just ahead of me most of the first half that was going along at her own slow jog and keeping it up, which was good. But I was amazed at her because with each step she crossed one foot in front of the other and I was amazed she could do that without tripping as I would have. But everyone has their own running style and I did eventually get ahead of her but I don't think by much. Good for her for being out there.

Here's a couple of pics of me, STRINGI719, and her friend Caroline.

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LLGALLAGHER 11/30/2010 4:30PM


I'm hoping to be reading for a New Year's 5K...

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ASPENHUGGER 11/30/2010 12:10PM

    You & I sure share temperature preference! I'm happiest in the late fall, winter & early spring -- anything above 70 is not my cuppa tea, and when it climbs past 80 .... ugh!

Congratulations on completing this run! 5K is hard for me to walk -- and it takes me so long to do it that I'm embarrassed to even mention my time. You are doing so amazingly well! My hat's off to you!
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SHELLEY147 11/28/2010 10:42AM

    emoticon Great job!! I'm so thrilled for you for beating your last time! Thanks for stopping by my page this was so nice to see a warm greeting from a great friend! ~hugs~

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STRINGI719 11/28/2010 9:56AM

    It was so nice to see you there! I am glad I improved my time since the Enchilada 5K, but I haven't been working on my running at all. Now that I don't have to train for the 3-Day anymore, I think I need to get out to the high school track and work on the C25K program. I'd love to shave a few minutes off my time before the Cupid's Chase in February. Thanks for sharing the pix!

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 11/28/2010 8:53AM

    Love the pix! Great job! I am so proud of YOU!!! Keep up the good work my friend. You're AWESOME! Love, Dawn emoticon

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DESERTDREAMERS 11/28/2010 4:34AM

    Yeah - go, grrl! I'm proud of you

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DEVORA4 11/28/2010 3:50AM

  You ran for a totally worthy cause. There is no one I admire more than our soldiers! emoticonon bettering your time too! emoticon

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 11/28/2010 2:24AM

    Good for you - I was in a Turkey Trot, too, but did much more walking than jogging - well, at least there's plenty of room for improvement, haha!

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STIPER23 11/27/2010 3:56PM

    There was a teenager at my first 5k that I passed as we could see the finish line and I could see her trying to catch up as we got close to the finish. LOL. Congrats on the great time!

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PLAYBLUES22 11/27/2010 3:27PM

    Sweetie, now you see why i admire you so very much, you are awesome emoticon

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PJSTIME 11/27/2010 2:20PM

    Some of us old ladies can run circles around some of the younger ones. You are doing a fantastic job in your running.

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MIZCATHI 11/27/2010 1:47PM

    You are awesome old lady! Haha, passing up that guy... teehee.

Your adventures are an inspiration.

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A tribute to all of my spark friends!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I just want to say thank you so much for being here for me to all of you who have touched my life so deeply over the past year. Here's a song that I love and think it is a good song to talk about what the support here does for me.

The song was first done by Josh Groban and I have loved it since I first heard it several years ago. I first think of it in relation to God, who lifts me up higher that I ever imagine. But it is also so true of what being a part of this amazing community has done for me.

Have a great Thanksgiving everyone! I'm so thankful for each and every one of you!

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STRINGI719 11/26/2010 5:22PM

    So nice to see you at the Turkey Trot yesterday morning!

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 11/25/2010 10:25PM

    As others have said, I am very thankful for you and this song expresses exactly how I feel. Thanks for posting the link!! Hope your Thanksgiving was the best one ever!

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 11/25/2010 8:38PM

    Love the song... love YOU more! Bright blessings to you my friend. Love, Dawn emoticon

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CYNTHIAMINUS40 11/25/2010 2:02PM

    That song always brings tears to my eyes - happy tears. Thank you for sharing it! Happy Thanksgiving!

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PLAYBLUES22 11/25/2010 9:13AM

    Sweetie, only you would come up with such a beautiful song for a tribute to your friends, thank you for being in my life emoticon

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GOOZLEBEAR 11/25/2010 9:12AM

    I absolutely love that song, that you for sharing and for being a wonderful Spark Friend. Have a beautiful and blessed Thanksgiving!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DEVORA4 11/25/2010 7:44AM

  emoticon emoticonsong and you dear Linda are one of the reasons I am especially thankful. emoticon emoticon emoticonHappy Holiday! emoticondebby

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WHISPERING-PINE 11/25/2010 7:41AM

  I love that song too...and emoticonfor being such a wonderful friend and supporter. You have a wonderful Thanksgiving too my friend.

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Mixing up the training, a little more on Gratitude, Couple of pics

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Today is the day before Thanksgiving. I'm working today but it feels like it should be a holiday. Having a hard time getting my mind around work but got to get it done.
Last year there was a Santa Challenge at my gym and the prizes went to the people who attended the most group fitness classes between Dec 1 and 23rd. I jumped into it and won the first prize, which was a 4-month free membership. I attended every class I possibly could and had a couple of people who were hot on my tails. Altogether I did 50 classes in those 3 weeks! It was a killer believe me. I still go to some water aerobic classes, but hadn't been to the gym classes since the challenge ended. People have kept asking me if I'm going to do it again this year and I keep saying I don't know. It was a big big challenge and I was really tired by the time it ended after doing 3 classes or so a day and one on Saturdays. Luckily there were no classes on Sundays. This week I decided to do a couple of the gym classes to see if my hip could tolerate it. My hip did fine, but my legs are really sore!! I do a lot of other exercise including starting to run, walking, hiking, weight machines for upper body, water aerobics. But apparently there are muscles in my legs that are not getting worked! So whether I do the challenge or not, I really need to do these classes a couple of times a week.

Here's a couple of photos from my work picture ID. One was taken Dec 2008, about 8 months before I started working on getting healthy. The other a couple of weeks ago when I insisted I needed a new ID. The quality isn't great because I scanned them in from my badge but you can definitely see a difference.

Can you guess which is old and which is new?

Now for a few words on gratitude. We do need to think about the things we are grateful for in our own lives, and I posted some of mine earlier this week. But do you ever stop and be grateful for things in other people's lives that aren't so directly connected to you? For example, I was thinking the other day about how grateful I am that my sp friend Tempest272002's husband survived a life-threatening illness. I only know her from on here, and I do feel she is a friend. But my life isn't as directly connected to her as to my immediate family. What happens to her doesn't have the same effect as if she were here. I would be so sad for her if he hadn't survived, but even though my heart would break for her, it would'n't change my day to day life. I hope you understand what I mean. But I watched for her posts of updates on her husband and have been so grateful for each positive outcome. Or maybe you have a favorite charity that you don't receive direct benefits from, but you are so grateful when they receive funding to help them keep providing services. These are just a couple of examples. But do you really stop to think about how grateful you are for these miracles or whatever you want to call them in the lives of others. Not to stop and say so and so won the lottery and I'm jealous because it wasn't me, but to be truly grateful for whatever blessing came to someone else. Think about it and I'll bet you'll be surprised about what you come up with.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving!

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ASPENHUGGER 11/25/2010 3:12PM

    You have come such a long way! It's just awesome! And it's wonderful to "see" you be so happy and healthy because of all the changes you've made!

My gym is having a contest like that too. Every time you go to a class, you get a sticker on your card. When the card is full (15 stickers) it goes in the drawing and you get a t-shirt. At the end of December, they draw for prizes:
First Prize: Flatscreen TV
Second Prize: iPad
Third Prize: iPod Touch
Fourth Prize: iPod Nano
Fifth Prize: Blue Ray
Sixth Prize: Digital Camera
Seventh Prize: iPod Shuffle

I'd take any of them! I'll complete my first card on Friday when I go to water aerobics, and then start working on the 2nd one. It's a win-win situation!

Happy Thanksgiving Linda -- may all your family be merry & bright, & healthy and employed!

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TEMPEST272002 11/24/2010 9:19PM

    No wonder you insisted they take a new ID badge! The change is dramatic. Typically ID pictures are unflattering - but you look so pretty that I think you should use this as your profile pic!

Wow, 50 workouts in 3 weeks. That's seriously impressive. But if you don't feel like putting in the effort to win this year, what about deciding to just participate? Decide what is managable for you this year as a personal goal & don't worry about winning.

I've been enjoying reading your grateful blogs. I am grateful for the support I received from my sparkfriends during hubby's illness. I was surprised at how much it meant to me to read those comments at the end of the day. So if you wondered if your comments made a difference, know that you did.


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DEVORA4 11/24/2010 8:36PM

  WOW I believe it is hard to see that the 2 pics are the same lady!! I am so proud of you gf. You have come a long way. I am thankful for lovely friends like you who are an inspiration to me! Have a great holiday! emoticon emoticon emoticondebby

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CHALLENGER15 11/24/2010 6:45PM

    I agree - you look great!

Happy Thanksgiving.

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STIPER23 11/24/2010 5:35PM

    Great pictures! What a change!

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STRINGI719 11/24/2010 5:10PM

    Linda, the biggest change I see in those pictures is how much HAPPIER you look now! Your smile just emanates from the inside out and you look positively radiant! emoticon

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 11/24/2010 1:14PM

    Thanks for another great blog - wow, your hard work REALLY shows in the old/new pictures - amazing!! You look 20 yrs younger in the 2nd picture.

I really do like the 'idea' of the Santa challenge but not sure how well I'd survive - it's amazing that you could squeeze 50 classes into those 3 weeks. I think they'd be sending me to the hospital on a stretcher! But I do want to start taking more classes at the gym. I really enjoyed the CardioMax class I took yesterday, although I didn't stay all the way to the end because I felt like I was so lost once the routines got more complex, I kept getting in the way of the other people in the class - it shouldn't take me too long to get used to the steps, though, so I think this may become a 'regular' in my class roster.

I know what you mean about having trouble getting 'into' work today - I don't have any classes to teach right now so I'm somewhat 'off work' [still some duties but not much] but I did notice there were almost zero cars on the road when I drove to the gym this morning - the local schools take a 'fall break' this week, supposedly because the absence rates were usually so high and those who were there physically were often too distracted. I'm sure 'everyone' will hit the roads later today, though - it's supposed to be the biggest travel day of the year!

Have a great Thanksgiving tomorrow!!

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ELLFIN3 11/24/2010 1:11PM

    Very inspirational blog! Thanks I love the before and after pics!!!!!That too is very inspiring!!! I hope you have wonderful Thanksgiving!!!! emoticon emoticon

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MIZCATHI 11/24/2010 12:51PM

    Way to go, very inspirational work badge pictures!

You are really getting me to start thinking what I should be grateful for, and this type of thinking is truly healthy! You know times are difficult for me now, but there are also some great bright spots in there, too, so it's good to think in this way.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving with your kids, and even though the SIL is in his thirties going on 16, at least he can cook! :-)

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PJSTIME 11/24/2010 12:45PM

    Great job over you look so much better and definitely different in a positive way

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    emoticon you look great!

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Gratitude part 2

Saturday, November 20, 2010

I said yesteray maybe I would add some more today. There have been some randome thoughts rattling around in my brain about other things in my life, besides the basics listed, that I have to be grateful for. This may end up being a little different as I ramble on here.

1. I read a blog by someone else that talked about life being too short and the times we've missed because we let time slip by. This blog particularly talked about people who died before the writer got to see them one last time. I had an experience like that when a friend who for a while was like a sister to me died suddenly from a brain aneurysm. We had drifted apart because we were busy with different interests in our lives. Reading the blog I thought about the fact that I wish I would have made more effort to stay in touch. But in this gratitude blog I want to say how thankful I am for the years I did have her as my "sister". We went through a lot of different things together, including leaving a religious group that really bordered on being a cult and supporting each other when all the people who had been our friends wouldn't speak to us. We went through divorces and child rearing and single-parenthood for a period. She was such a special person in my life, and got to see sometimes the depth of my pain in certain situations more than I've ever let any other person, and I saw hers as well. We laughed and had great times together. So I want to say I am so grateful for having her in my life for th time I did, althought it wasn't long enough.

2. My father passed away when I was 8 years old. My mother remarried a few months later to a family friend because I think she was scared to death to raise to kids by herself in the early 60's. My stepdad was a lot older than her and have never been married at age 51. He didn't know what to do with an 8 year old stepdaughter and a 5 year old stepson. And they had my little brother together, who he adored because he'd never had a child and I think for a long time he didn't think he ever would. But my stepfather loved us more than I ever realized until I was grown. He was proud of us when we accomplished things, although I didn't realize just how much until later when I would hear from others the things he had said about us. He didn't know how to tell us he was proud of us or that he loved us but he did. He worried when we were sick. He worked hard to support us at different jobs. He was married to my mom for 25 years before he passed away. He took care of her and was good to her. So I'm grateful for this man that came into our life, took on the challenge of stepparenting at a time when there was not the information there is now, and he took care of us.

3. I like to go out hiking a lot. I mentioned that I am grateful to live where I can do things in the outdoors even frequently during the winter. I hike alone with my dog. I hike local trails that have people on them but not a constant stream of people so I know that people will be along but I have a lot of solitude also. It might be 15, 20, or 30 minutes between people but usually not longer than that, so I know if I got hurt or something someone would be along soon. The areas I go have cell phone reception and I always have my phone. BUt I'm digressing here to assure everyone I hike alone safely so I won't go into all my other precautions. What I wanted to talk about in my gratitudes here is how much peace I find in the quiet and beauty of nature around me. When I was a teenager we lived the equivalent of a few blocks from some state land that was designated as a game preserve so no hunting was allowed. I had a horse then and spent hours and hours out there, both with friends and alone at times. I still go hike those same trails now, many years later. But that peace that I found in nature is something I started years ago. I'm so grateful for the green grass in the summer and the brownish grash in the winter months. For the evergreen pine trees we have a lot of. For the open air and the birds flying above and the squirrel or rabbit I see once in a while. For the feel of a cool breeze on me when the weather is warm. For the little streams that might run after the summer monsoon season or in the spring if there has been a lot of snow higher in the mountans. Those are the times that can make me feel sane again when insanity is running amok all around me in the rough times. And in the good times those are the places and feelings that make me just feel pure joy at being alive!

4. I am grateful that I have been given the gift of patience with people that others doj't really want to be around. I wrote not too long ago about Obnoxious People at the Gym and talked about this woman that gets on everyone's nerves, including me for a while. But then I learned to listen to her and be more patient with her and be a friend to her. Today she came to the pool and started talking to me and was very upset about different things that had happened recently, in the past week or two. Some family issues and financial issues, and topped off with getting a ticket while driving to the gym today. We all know how pressures can build up and then one little thing is the final thing that sends us over the edge. The ticket was it for her. I listened to her talk for about 45 minutes while I was doing some exercises. She had a friend she said that had invited her to have dinner with their family on Thanksgiving, then told her that plans had changed and they were going to go out of town for Thanksgiving. She doesn't have anyone else to go with. I can't solve all the problems, and because I'm going to my daughter's and don't even have any idea of what time it will be since she has to work, I don't feel comfortable inviting someone. Besides my son-in-law is an overgrown teenager and I don't even really like to be there. Although I couldn't solve everything for her, I was able to just be a listener as she poured out a number of things. She said again she would really like to just go out to lunch some times and I do intend to do it with her. Money has been really tight this past couple of weeks (months actually) but hopefully within the next week or two we can do it. I'm grateful that this person that I started out trying to avoid I have actually been able to reach out to in some ways and befriend.

5. I am just grateful for life! To be alive with all it's ups and downs and challenges and heartaches and joy and rewards, and everything it has to offer! I don't want to die! If it were my time, then it would be my time. But there was a time when I suffered from really deep depression and didn't want to live. Living was very painful emotionally and I wanted peace. That was a number of years ago. Then gradually I had some healing and took some control of my life and I didn't want to seek that escape anymore. But it still took longer, until just over the past year, when I've really been able to say that I want to live and live to the fullest! I don't know if that makes a lot of sense but it is a big turnaround over a number of years to come to this place where life is really truly to be treasured, even with the good times and bad and the ups and the downs. I am grateful that I have this gift of life for today, and for each day that I'm given it.

Okay, enough rambling on. I said this would be a little different than yesterdays list.
Hope you all are having a great day!

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STRINGI719 11/23/2010 3:16PM

    Again, Linda, this is just so beautiful and touching and it humbles me to see what an amazing person you are and to be able to call you my friend. You are such a beautiful human being and I feel so fortunate to have met such a person!

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-WISPY- 11/21/2010 7:48PM

    Hey Linda, loving your blogs. Thank you. Wispy.

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ASPENHUGGER 11/21/2010 6:15PM

    You are such a special person! Although I have the Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi behind my bathroom sink so I can read it every day, and on a bracelet on my arm ... still I forget, and get annoyed and impatient with people. Thanks for reminding me of how far I have to go, and showing me one path to get there.

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DAWNWATERWOMAN 11/21/2010 6:00PM

    I LOVE Part 2! These are the best "ramblings" I've read in a long time. You & your friend is right, Life is short... I'm glad that we're living it to the best of our abilities. Bright blessings to you my friend. Love ya, Dawn emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 11/21/2010 1:05PM

    I really enjoyed reading part 2. I read it slowly and let it sink in and thought about similar events and people and stories. We are all more alike than different. I understand about being profoundly grateful for just wanting to live. I've been in that dark place too & I understand what you mean. Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us.

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MIZCATHI 11/21/2010 8:47AM

    I'm grateful that you want to live, because what you have to say is a gift, it truly is. When you share your thoughts with me, I feel like I can do what I need to do, and to trust that time and strength will see me through. You are a thoughtful and sincere person who shares herself, and that is a wondrous thing.

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DEVORA4 11/20/2010 9:09PM

  You are an amazing lady and it is my pleasure and great honor to have you as a friend. You have an unique quality to step outside the box and look at a situation from another perspective which I admire. ie the obnoxious lady Have a great Sunday and A HAPPY HOLIDAY. emoticon emoticon emoticondebby

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 11/20/2010 7:30PM

    Nice blog - makes me glad I know you thru SparkPeople and hope someday to get to meet you in person!!

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